Day 109 - Revive after a long break

How long since I last visited here... So many thing that I have been through... So many things I wish that I can get over, forget, bury, definitely eliminate...

It's quite impossible to find another, a special someone who could keep my fire burning, everlasting flame that overcome everything! Someone that I know will always be there for me, making me not afraid to do even the most crazy things out there! Someone who can brighten my life with just any simple little things that she shows, be it a smile, a call, even a simple message could get me to the top of the world!

"Motivation is what I Need, but it's long Gone! Have to look for Something to replace which is Utterly impossible... Not that easily replaced..."

Day 108 - I am sure, it's you...

The person who made me changed, who made me grow, who make me different, who make me feel, who is only able to keep me in my place... Is you...

People might say that I am an idiot, still loving you, not giving up... But... WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?! I CAN'T JUST STOP MYSELF FROM LOVING YOU! IT DON'T JUST HAPPEN OVERNIGHT YOU KNOW!

I know, showing emotions out is not myself... I really just cannot contain it inside anymore! I am not ready to share it out, not yet... I know the time will come, one day before I graduate... Yes, you are not free... I know that, I am just asking for 1 day, JUST 1 DAY... Where we can both sit somewhere, especially the clubroom, where no one will disturb us... I am going to pour everything out, whether you like it or not... I just hope that, you won't have a negative view of me after that... But I am ready to lose someone after this meeting already... I am ready to move on... After this moment of truth... This is where I will drop all my loads and move on freely, happily and definitely... Not regretting what I have done.

Before I forget... This afternoon, I am not angry JUST because of her SMS... It's merely a part of the reason... I doubt it's worth any attention to it... I am just... feeling FUCKED UP during the whole day... I don't think I can take it anymore seeing both of you... Forget it... I know I am suppose to be happy for you... But yet, I won't be able to cheat myself anymore... I AM ANGRY BECAUSE I CAN'T EXPRESS WHAT I FEEL! I CAN'T TELL THE GIRL THAT I LOVE "I LOVE YOU" I CAN'T GET MY FEELING ACROSS TO YOU! THIS IS WHAT I AM ANGRY OF... YES BECAUSE OF YOU...

Day 107 - First Step

Today marks a new Wimbledon champion and the WORLD NUMBER 1 TENNIS PLAYER! NOVAK NOLE DJOKOVIC! It's about time, since 2008, he had fought hard, growing into a wonderful player especially in 2010! He is what I want to become, never give up, ever improving, rising from a fall after being ended his streak of 41 wins! NOW BACK WITH MORE POWER AND SKILLS!

Time for me to take my first step too! Starting from today, I had planned for my journey, wanting to let loose the champion hidden in me! My first step, will be rising from a great fall! I will be like him, back with much more than I used to be!

Day 106 - What a Day...

Firstly... I messed up my driving lesson timing... Suppose to start at 10... I reach around 1050... Paid half price for nothing... Screw it...

Secondly... Forgotten to bring my notes for my senior... Screw this shit...

Then, something good happened! (That's what I thought at first...) This girl, Jing Ru, I just know her for 1 day, never seen her before, all I know that she is year 1, in Mechatronics, EEE, small size, friendly girl. She wanted to join SPTC, so yeah... I introduce about my CCA, and I did flirt a little...

But she kept the message coming... From 11:40 till 10:49... Now she kept asking about my personal life... Half way, I thought... "Wow, she is really that friendly!" But now I freaked out... She is too friendly... Is there anyone in the world who will ask about all this... You just known me for 2 days... You haven't seen me... You don't know me... Please don't act like this... I am not as extrovert as you expect I would be... I don't open myself to strangers... Don't even try to force me open... You will just freak me out... =(

Anyway... I will be meeting you on Wednesday... Hope you would just be as friendly as you are now... Otherwise I will seriously freak out... Seriously... I hate fake people... To the max... Please give me a chance to accept you into my life as a friend... Not as someone who I will shunt... You are not yet a friend... Don't act as if you are family with me! There is really a line between us and yes don't cross it just yet... Only people special to me are able to be accepted into my life as a family, they are just that important to me... Please... Don't rush it... I barely know you...

Day 105 - Ideal Lover~

I totally got no idea why... But I was thinking of this song, just the tune, especially the starting! Without knowing the name of the song... I actually found it! On the first try! This is really a special song~ Although it's too late... It still... Sing out my feelings...

I feel as if I am destroying myself every time I am at home... No one to talk to... Just look through, the torture and pain came... But really... What can I do? It's all too late...

I am lost... Totally unable to react... Unable to speak... Unable to be that "Jason" you always knew... You just... seems so far away... Only hiding behind my keyboard where I can truly express myself... I can't even look you in the eyes... Can't even say a simple "Hi"... I know I am really acting strangely whenever you are around... But... Please... Don't ask me what's happening... I won't tell you... Ever... I just feels that everything else will change for the worst if I speak...

I hope I can really get over with this... This suffering... Which had been clinging me ever since February... It has always been there... Just a degree of pain I am being inflicted... Distraction works... Only temporary... Unable to get a solution... This is what I hate...

Day 104 - Meet you there~

"I will meet you there... No matter where life takes me to... I will meet you there... And even if I meet you here... I will meet you there..."

I don't really understand this, but I can really feel the power in these words.

Driving was really fun today! Able to hit rev 4 today! Only gear 2 though... But still! Able to hit the roads! FUN MAX! Still have problems with the biting point... Is there a way to start the car without slowly releasing the clutch? I want to rev it fast =P

Hope tomorrow will be better! TIME TO REV IT UP!

Haiz... Must you really ask me "What happen to you?"... Don't you already realise you are the my one and only problem?

Day 103 - Dreams... will remain unreal~

Ever thought of living what you dreamt in the reality? Chaos will occur... I hope dreams are just by luck... Not a projection of what is really deep down in you... Otherwise... I am really... Hopeless...

Great to see myself aching today, I thought I had already reached the peak! It seems that I can continue to grow! Great! It's the 3rd day, keep going! Tennis today, hope to throw in a simple gym sessions (which most likely won't happen) today!

Hope that I can cover most of what I really want to say during meeting today!

I see a great leader in everyone today! Keep it up! I am putting my bet in you guys to bring this club to where I wanted, I won't be able to achieve it at my time... I am entrusting the duty to all of you!

Went to NEX with my Sis and MinMin! For you info... MinMin is my neighbour, cute 7 year old girl! Hyper active LOL! Very very cute~ We went walking around NEX and the night market. Short but super fun! How I wish I had a little sister like her!

Day 102 - One day~

Busy distracting myself, one day I will just find myself there, where I always wanted to be. One day, I will be able to tell myself, the past is the past. One day, I will prove to everyone that I am different, better person than before. One day, I will do it! Where nothing could ever bring me down, nothing could stand in my way telling me I can't do it!

Have you ever feel the way I had felt? Have you ever been treated the way you treat others? Have you ever found out that you are hurting someone else and did not even change that? These are the questions that I kept telling myself, I just can't bring myself to hurt anyone... Even if I don't like you... You are someone who came into my life... I just hope that you would change for the better as I am giving you one more chance, even though all my predecessor are asking me for my decision to vote you down.

One day, I hope everyone could see what is my goal set for you guys and for us to achieve... And maybe... One day, WE WILL ALL REACH THAT GOAL TOGETHER!

Day 101 - Everytime~

Trying not to be an idiot at this point in time, so difficult... I can't believe this is really happening... Seriously... Is there a real definition for happiness? I said that, loving someone is to ensure your loved one to be happy, even at the expense of you own happiness? Why must we suffer so much? Just to see someone else happy? Is this really Love? It's really tough love one-sided, most probably, you will get hurt...

"Everytime I see your face... Everytime you look my way... Everytime I hear your name... Everytime I feel the same... It's like it all falls into place... Everything feels right... You walked away... You left my life in disarray... All I want is one more day... It's all I need: one more day with you..."

I really wish that this could really happen, I am really dreaming, but everytime... I just hope that you will give me 1 more day, just 1 more day with you... For me to show you... My feelings...

I am not good with words... I really can't possibly speak face to face with you... I doubt that I will ever have the chance to really tell you how I feel... You don't need to feel the same, I really just want you to know, to acknowledged, that I truly love you... That's all I would want you to do, you don't have to return anything, just knowing it... Will be enough...

Ah~ Enough of this emo feeling, time to distract myself... Yet again... Just hope that I don't go overboard... Now... I can't really feel the pain, my mind and heart is not really functioning well... It's like separated from me... Please... I don't want to injure myself... All the best to me...

I am irritated... Always thinking about this will make me tear... I hope it's just the sadness which is causing this... not jealousy or hatred... I don't want to lose a friend due to my anger... I might vent my anger at someone... Please forgive me, bear with me for awhile... I just need someone to be there... I hope by the end of this 3 weeks... I am a different person...

Day 100 - RAIN GO AWAY! I MEAN IT!

WTH! Every time I stepped into the courts... IT WILL FREAKING RAIN, DAMN IRRITATING CAN? ON SUNDAYS, ON WEDNESDAY, ON SATURDAY WTF!

NOTHING YOU DO CAN BRING US DOWN! WE WILL JUST PLAY IN THE FREAKING RAIN DAMN YOU!

Haiz, I really want to know, but I just can't ask directly... This sucks~

No much had happen today, just the same old normal full of laughter day! =)

...How can I only write like this for my 100th DAY! Haiz just really got nothing say... All I want to say is that... I am an idiot... Period.

Day 99 - Jet Lag~ Why didn't I think of this!

I had thought of treating her as my Sistaz-2 LOL! After a full day workout, I became so clear till it's really scary... Now everything is so back to December where nothing even changed, I guess... This is my restart button in life~

The club... My mistakes... I am sure I will be able to correct it by peaceful means... I don't have much experiences, I know I might look childish to you in politics... But who knows? No method is right or wrong, it's how I approach! I am sure WE CAN DO IT AS A CLUB!

More tips from my mentor on running a perfect club, am thankful of all the tips and guidance you gave me.

Just posted 4 posts on SPTC blog... Brain dead now... No ideas left for here... I am sorry...

Day 98 - Not that bad after all~

I got the feeling that my body got used to it already, it's only mentally which I can't get over with it. It's about time for me to move on, I am going to bury it deep inside of me, sealing it within, hoping no more wrong ideas would get me to unlock it anymore...

Now, I will need to get back into tracks and be my normal self! RECHARGE! I would like to thank my resolve to make me run today, I am much clearer of myself after that, I am able to see what I am not able to see.

Focus on keeping my fitness, licence and club. I want to make it the most amazing POLY life that anyone could have lived! I won't be regretting any second from now on =) There had been ups and downs here and there, I know that, and I am certain that I have grown up! =)

Great! At least we still can manage to chat normally =) This is the first step which shows that I am okay I guess? LOL, still as sweet as ever... Hais... I guess this is really the end of the relationship path for me... "We can still be friends (:" I should have listen and believe this... I am really okay now haha! Able to smile just like before, I don't really need someone to listen to me anymore! I had whine enough! Moving on! Now I am the same Jason~ No! A better and stronger Jason is here! =)

Will be meeting friends to go swimming, first time ever, I actually asked to swim with someone else... I think I will aim 36< Laps today! No matter how long I take, I will complete at least 36 TODAY! That's my goal for today! Enough carbo and salt in me, time to turn them into energy and let get it on~

Day 97 - From now on... EVERYDAY IS THE WORST DAY EVER!

"I feel like I am living the worst day over and over again... I feel like the summer is leaving again... I feel like I'm living the worst day... I feel like you're gone... And everyday is the worst day every..."

Now I am so damn afraid to log on to facebook... Everytime I see you picture, it's like a wall which I couldn't overcome! It's really few time worse when it's a shot of both of you guys... I feel like screaming, letting it all out... But I can't... Can't bring myself to do it...

It's so hard to go to bed yesterday... Though of you just came, flashing in immediately whenever I closed my eyes...

"Yesterday was the worst day ever... And tomorrow won't be better...It's history repeating..."

"Staring out into the world across the street... You hate the way your life turned out to be... He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound..."

"You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile... If these walls could talk they would have so much to say..."

"You're falling, you're screaming... You're stuck in the same old nightmare..."

This is what I am totally feeling right now... I this won't last long... All I need is someone to talk to... Just hope that someone will come over to talk... Be a great listener to listen to such troubles that I have... Just like that Nic did in January...

Let me whine a little...

"I heard you're doin' okay... But I want you to know... I'm addic-... I'm addicted to you... I can't pretend I don't care... When you don't think about me... Do you think I deserve this? I try to make you happy... But you left anyway... I'm tryin' to forget... But I'm addicted to you... But I wanted... And I needed I'm addicted to you... Now it's over... Can't forget what you said... And I never... Want to do this again... Heartbreaker... Since the day I met you... And after all we've been through... Still addic-.... I'm addicted to you... I think you know that it's true... I'd run a thousand miles to get to you... Do you think I deserve this... I tried to make you happy... I did all that I could... Just to treat you good in every way... How long will I be waiting... Until the end of time... I don't know why I'm still waiting... I can't make you mine... I'm addicted to you... Heartbreaker "

This is the full song without the repeating the chorus. Totally described my current state... However, calling you a heartbreaker doesn't seems right... I just can't bring myself to do that... The nightmare on facebook is still killing me... Thought of you are killing me all day... Just like before... It might just haunt me for weeks, months... I should have just get the hint that time... Now all I can do is to play it cool, stay as friends, enjoy the time we spent together, whatever... Just to make myself happy... Even though I know it's really near impossible that I will feel the same about us anymore...

Keeping a strong front will drain me... But for my own good, I will have to keep going, just like how other strong person did it... Overcome it and become a better me! I won't be able to do it alone... Please, bear with me for a while... Listen to my whining, it will sure bother you... But please... I need someone to be there...

...Simple Plan... This group... Had become the ones that sing my feeling out for me... Thanks guys...

"You look so beautiful today... When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away... So i try to find the words that i could say... I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away...c And I can't lie... Every time I leave my heart turns gray... And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight... Cause I just can't take it... Another day without you with me... Is like a blade that cuts right through me... But I can wait... I can wait forever... When you call my heart stops beating... When you're gone it won't stop bleeding... But I can wait... I can wait forever...

Day 96 - Marks the 100 post, which looks like it's back to Day 1...

Life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes, you are really on cloud nine, when everything you want, anything you do, just comes into place. Perfect scenario, you felt that you life is full of joy and as if it's already paradise on earth. This is what I had felt, through the days of my year three, which in this case... Did not really last that long...

Yet sometimes, you just can't get what you want... No matter how hard you tried... How you grab the opportunity... There is no way out for you... All you can do is give up... However... I still believe that... "Guess I rather hurt than feel nothing at all"...

"And... I wonder if I ever cross your mind?"

I did promised that I will not show my weaker side anymore... But this is really hard, especially for someone with strong deep emotion. I am a liar, I always said that I am okay and laugh about it... But SERIOUSLY... THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE!

As you partner, all I can wish is for your happiness, nothing more... nothing less... That's whats love is all about right? For you loved ones to be happy, not doing anything to hurt them... I can't get myself to hate you or anything... Just because... I love you.

I will take this as a stepping stone for growing up. Thanks to you, I really learnt and felt what and how to love, love unconditionally. It of course made me stronger, both mentally and physically. I know that I had become a better person, a better me...

I still believe that... I will be able to keep my promise, it's either you or single till the end of poly, it's really hard to feel this way anymore, with you around, it feels like fairytale, something that I always wanted. However, reality is cruel, I mean... I am stubborn to think that way, the only way to finish this game of life, is to grow, into a better and stronger person.

As such, if you hurt her for some reason, I will not just stand by to see her get hurt, you will sure get it from me... She is someone special to me, I will protect her, as a friend, as someone meaningful to me in my life.

Tearing uncontrollably, that's just how much I am hurt, my feelings for you are true, bottom of my heart, I really could say that... It's difficult for me to handle such emotion... "And I don't know how I can do without..." But I am sure... I will be able to overcome this and come back as a much stronger individual than before! Just like how I did it during December!

That's all for now... I don't really feel emotionally stable to continue... It's looks like... I have to divert myself off this again... Driving will be my goal next...

Day 95 - When the world is against you, FIGHT THE WORLD!

Please stop this shit right now... Doing it in front of everyone, especially when everyone knows... I don't know what are you guys really thinking, but this shit got to stop. It's really getting on my nerves when there is no conclusion and you guys keep going on...

Even if I will have the whole world against me, I will still keep going. You are my goal and I swear that it will not be over till it's over. My determination will not waver and it is burning even brighter than before! I am sure that this passionate guy over here will be able to melt you one day...

Just you wait~

Day 94 - Life~ Is not always what you want it to be~

Went over to "THE HALL" to donate blood... They REJECTED ME!!! Saying I can't donate as I just donated within 10weeks from today... OMG I feel damn healthy also cannot... Waste my trip, unable to save lives... NO 2 CS POINTS!

Met her today~ As usual! Hangout place near printing room, I guess she really love that place alot LOL! Blur kitty... I am sure didn't see me LOL! That's why you sent the SMS saying "Hi, Hahaha" RIGHT! LOL! TELL YOU TO SLEEP EARLY ALWAYS NEVER LISTEN!!! You are like only physically in school... Sure you can cope with your studies?

FINALLY THE DRIVING INSTRUCTOR CALLED! HOPING FOR A PERFECT SITUATION WHERE I NEED NOT EXTEND MY PDL! 20 X 2Hr Lesson with only 7 weeks and able to book test date before 17 July! LOL GOOD LUCK JASON!

Day 93 - Proud and Happy! All for you~

I don't know if it's true, I am going to trust you, as you partner, I will believe in you!

I am TOTALLY GLAD that you are able to join the development squad! Hope they are able to bring your tennis to a new level, which you could not achieve under our care! We are not professional coach, but we will just ensure that your learning journey will be enjoyable~

Hope to have a good rally with you, sometime soon. Maybe, NO DEFINITELY! We will be THE GOLDEN PAIR FOR MIXED DOUBLES THIS YEAR!

I will be holding my head up high, it's an honor to be your partner. Together, we had been through so much, growing from time to time, I believe that our efforts will pay off this year! I will be expecting more from you from now on! I hope that, and I believe that you will be able to prove to me your determination to commit to the common goal we share!

Day 92 - Jealousy~ This is evil~

I am already expecting it, but... I can't help but feel jealous... WTH! This feeling is really... OMG! I WANT TO KILL SOMEONE ALREADY! Is this like the first time I am feeling this?! This is really... burning in my chest... Just a simple picture can get me worked up... Damn... It's not normal... I am almost see myself killing someone already...

Day 91 - Self Actualisation

I finally found the reason why I am not updating this page! It's the same reason why I started writing this! Now that we have been closer than ever, I don't see any point in continuing this page...

BUT WAIT!

Of course, I will still update here, this place have too much memories to stop... I realised that I am sooo in debt to this place... I just can't kill you off, not in this life~

From now on... Please, I hope that only happiness will fill this place to balance out all the mood~

Day 90 - System restore - 50%

Trying to do what I used to do today, somehow I got the feeling back! It did not really last that long, however, the feeling was damn good~

I hope this would continue for the rest of my life, changing myself into a better person. I don't know if you are me key to success, but every time I see you, even if its for one second, my day will just change for the better.

I will be going to bed early, as I always did last time, time to revive the REAL me!

Day 89 - I am back... But not the usual me...

Back after a long break... Camp has drained me totally... I think it also sucked out the crazily motivated me... Now I am back to my old self... This is what I don't want! I am like wasting my life away now... But I really can't help it... I just can't be as motivated as I was last time...

I know something is missing... Causing my motivation to wonder... stay hidden... gone... I need the weekends to get myself alive again! 3 days is all I have... Otherwise... There goes another week wasted... I need to get to it fast! NO TIME TO WASTE!

I really need someone... Someone to understand... Someone to listen... Someone to empathise... I need my space... I need to stop drifting off course... FOCUS!

I can't seem to close my eyes... without thoughts messing my mind... There is just too much going on up there... Its like a maze... Which even I can't even figure it out...

I JUST WANT TO LET IT ALL OUT! NOW!

Day 88 - Hearts all over the world tonight!

Stressed out night for all Tennis Club people... Totally afraid that something wrong will happen tomorrow!

Packing my stuff... Found out that I really need a bigger bag... Which I don't... Lots of stuff to carry tomorrow! Totally needed help tomorrow...

Printing and studying and preparing... Multitasking is soooo not a guy thing... I am seriously not focusing... All I can think of is... Drop everything now, FACE IT LIKE A MAN TOMORROW!

Hey girl, don't worry that much... I know how you are feeling right now, everyone is the same... Just let it go for today... make sure you prepared all the stuff, go wild during the camp!

Camp, HERE WE COME!

Day 87 - Satisfied~

Finally, we are on the tennis court again, this time, with a purpose... For you to improve the way you always wanted.

I am glad that everyone is so helpful today! Thanks for helping to teach/guide/train her! She did very well during the rally and during the match! Although there is much more to improve, I hope she will be enjoying tennis~ Tennis is fun! =)

That's enough for the day, you have done well! Keep it up girl! =)

Feeling a little down now... You went to some meeting with friends at Commonwealth... And you are not back yet... It seems that... I will not be able to hear your voice today... I am turning in early due to the tennis session. Hope to see you at MLT 10 tomorrow! Please... Don't exit from the other door...

Day 86 - Please don't go...

I am feeling a little upset when... You said... You need sometime by yourself... I know that I won't be able to say anything through Skype... I know that you are feeling stress about upcoming events... I know that I can't be of much help... But you know... I just want you to know, I will always be there for you...

Even though we are not speaking, I did really try my best to cheer you up =) I hope you did really felt better that night! Just to let you know, you are really more that what you think you are, to me... you are simply amazing.

Looking forward to see that amazing girl tomorrow =) Don't disappoint me!

Day 85 - Enchanted~

There is a humble beginning to anything, I am thankful that I got to meet someone like you in my life. It was enchanting to meet you... All I can say it was enchanted to meet you...

Yes, the moments till now... None of them are unreal... I am glad that... I am able to experience all this...

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go... It's the first night that we are having such a long conversation over Skype... I am sorry to be so random... Calling you just to nag! LOL! =X

I just don't know how to start... I was just enchanted to speak with you...

Please don't be in love with someone else... Please don't have somebody waiting on you...

These are the words that I had been holding all these years, wonder when will I able to tell that to you...

I guess... I won't be able to sleep till I hear you voice daily... I am really praying that... We would have such a conversation daily... Where neither of us, want to press the button... To end the conversation... This unknown feeling... of happiness... I long for such moments to happen...

Day 84 - Mean~

Forget about my life today, this post is totally dedicated to this Fuc.....Bastard.

You don't even know what is everyone is going through, yet you can still make such comments... Who do you even think you are? You think you are like high and mighty, everyone need to give way to everything you say? I don't even give a damn to what you said!

Tell you the truth, you are just a fuc... failure which failed at everything you had done so far~ I haven't seen anything that you done that you can really be proud of, that's sad =)

I am not like you, I DON'T ONLY THINK ABOUT MYSELF. Unlike you, a self-centered loser. Your opinion worth crap, why bother wasting your breath where no one even care? It seems that all you can do is bring others down, too bad, I am not someone you are able to mess with.

At this point... I only can think of those little bullshits you gave me, you don't even have the abilities to make me trust you. You are plain pathetic... =)

That felt good! I always wanted to let this out~

No point listing down the details, it only make me look petty =P

Day 83 - With you~

Started off with some DotA to get the day started, went to get a simple haircut today~

Finally managed to have our lunch at RamenPlay! First time I am paying $1.75 for 2pax! Damn cool~ Imagine... A bowl of Shoyu ramen + Oyako Don for just $1.75... This is epic LOL!

Went over to the arcade to play Bishi Bashi (3 Colour game), FOR THE FIRST TIME! BOTH OF US SURVIVE 22 STAGES (Successfully end the game) With just 1 Credit! Sense of achievement!

We got nothing to do... Called my sis over to find us just to walk home with us LOL!

Finally! Able to play mahjong today~ Scam Nic money nia~ LOL! Played super small... Won $6!

Went over to "Prime Cut" to celebrate Mother's Day! 50Bucks per pax, a little unfair... They got their $600 from government... And they still pay 50 bucks only... WTH! But who cares! It's for my MOTHER! Willing to spend the money~ Love you Mom! =)

Did ALL my MA tutorial for tomorrow! 2 weeks of tutorial DONE! I am soooo happy now~ =) Time to take a shower and go to bed!

Day 82 - When I'm with you~

I am soooo on the mood today~ Today I am leading the gym! As if I am on steroids! LOL! It seems that I am still on Ecstasy~ Added many new workouts today, feel so buff today! =)

Went home took a quick bath, then went over to Plaza Sing to meet them for night walk shopping. Kitty actually reached early for the first time~ Asked me to go meet her early, so that she won't be so bored, of cus, I rushed down LOL!

Chat a little about how we get to know each other~ Bobby arrived shortly and we start our journey! Mainly Daiso, bought most of our stuff, shop around for some random stuff, then move over to Carefour... But didn't buy anything there as I suggested that I just get them from NEX!

She suggested that we just end our day as she needs to buy her white pants for an event tomorrow~ Thinking that she might be bored shopping alone, I asked to tag along =)

Manage to learn a a little more about her~ She don't really like to shop with guys, she don't like to meet friends along the streets...(No sense of privacy?! LOL what reason is this?!)... She is still a normal shopper =) LOL! Always asked me not to follow her, need to give her space... I guess, you just haven't shopped with a guy which is trained to shop with girls! =)

Enjoyed our mini date! Hmm, if I am not your so called good friend yet... How do you actually define a good friend? It just seems that you haven't open up to me yet~ I will still try my best!

Yet again, I still wish that I will be able to make you feel that way you made me feel when I'm with you~

Day 81 - Lips of an ANGEL~

Honey, why are you calling me... So late... Yeah! WHY DID YOU CALL ME SO LATE!!! LOL!!! Did you realised its 12am?! OMG~ It's funny that you calling me~ tonight... Now you made me totally... Wide awake... I set my phone as normal mode because I hope to at least get the call from Nic tomorrow for the gym session if I overslept... You really... Never fail to amaze me...

My mind is not really working right now... Blur to the max!

Day 80 - Sparks fly~

Feeling bored this morning... Just randomly picked up the phone and message Kitty~ I don't know why I did it anyway... Just... I want to disturb her~ LOL

Surprised to see that, we actually manage to continue this form of conversation! I didn't last 5 SMSes last time... Now we are like chatting throughout the day! She never fail to.... amaze me... She actually expect me to reply her "Hahaha!" Wow... Seriously, how you want me to do it LOL! Hahaha back? =) Act angry with, "Wah you never reply me!" LOL! You really... Super Cute~

Thanks for making my day interesting today~ Despite having to survive long hours in school... I am just wondering, why did you exit through the other door and not wanting to say Hi?

Day 79 - Zombie-fication!

Today, we are planning to have a game trial!

Ended school so early... Project... Don't really know what to do... Ended early as well...

Hit the gym! I went through the flow... Only manage to last 1hr+ as most...

Went over to FC5 to slack... LUCKY! Kitty ended early! Came over to find me~ What I didn't expect is to see a zombie walking towards me... LOL! Sleep early girl! Trying to cheat me! I know that your file is already torn! HAHA!

Games trial was okay-ly High~ Manage to try everything I want to~

Tennis time~ Some training from Zhong Yuan before I go over to the other court to train Kitty... OMG! You very very blur! Blur and very CUTE! LOL! Slow reaction like "Sha Gua" playing tennis! LOL! Ended with a totally unfair match... 6:2... Still manage to win 2 games! OMG WE ARE GOOD! LOL!

Reached home... Thinking of tutorials and blog... Suddenly the stupid internet connection goes off... Went to restart my comp... While I slept on the sofa... I actually fell asleep for 1hr... Too tired... Off the comp and head to bed... Skip 2 days of blogging... FM tutorials... Time to do it NOW!

Day 78 - Hardworking~

I actually did my tutorials! All thanks to Sze Rae! LOL! Was about to sleep... When she asked me how to do question 1... Damn... I am the type who will try my best to answer all the questions! LOL! Actually finished the tutorial since I have the mood!

Thanks guys! For spamming me in MSN! Kept me awake and going!

Day 77 - Hey!

Tennis for the morning, Boom boom pow for 2hr, then start to go down hill.. It's always like that... It's raining on top of that... Sucky weather today...

Damn smelly, soak in sweat + rain + dirt... Sorry people in the MRT! =X

Quickly went home to bathe! Ahh~ Body Shop Soap... My favourite!

Yet another DotA afternoon... When am I suppose to do my tutorials... DAMN IT! Shortly after that... It's dinner...

Back from dinner, Kitty "Hey!" me... Over camp stuff... Haiz... When will she talk to me normally... A little impossible! Haha...

Nothing much happen today... Wow, I 'Love' long weekends...

Day 76 - Looking for someone special~

Gym as usual... Damn... The finger is semi-healed only... Still can't do the back exercises... Damn pain when contact with something hard...

Went back home, KILL~ DotA till 4, enjoy the fun session of the game, need more of it... Can't believe we actually gave it up for... Haiz...

Went out with Sistaz and Bro, Bugis is the place~ First, we went to eat some place which said to have VERY NICE fish soup~ Turn out to be okay only... Almost same standard with the one at Queenstown... Next, we hit the streets and bought 2 berms to replace those I threw away! I think I made the right choices! Nice looking ones =) Went back to Bugis Junction to kill the cone craving! Choco & Butterscotch vs Mango & Salted Caramel! Lick lick! Super nice~ Too bad... No one to share with =(

Went back across the streets to Ritz, STRUDELS! Bought the one on display! LOL! Cus I find it super attractive! =P

Tuesday dinner is on! Time to enjoy the beautiful night~

Day 75 - Surely, that day will come~

Today... Nothing much happen... Stoning at home, turn up the appetite monster~ I ate lots today! Need to work on it tomorrow!

Called the instructor today~ (Like Finally...) But he just didn't bring his schedule book out, so... Need to call him again tomorrow...

Hope tomorrow will be more happening than today...

Day 74 - It might just be the end of the road~

Well done... Why must you be there to spoil my day... Today suppose to be our day... Not our day with you! Damn... At least... We manage to take a little walk around the open house~ Seeing you walking around aimlessly looking for more CCA... CUTE! "sha sha" de~ Haha! =)

I am not a romantic person... I am sorry... I just can't entertain you as much... I fear that... I might really over do it... And you would just... Leave me again...

Sending you to the MRT was short, but seriously enjoyable~ However, some jealousy when I saw Freddy there... Hearing you having lunch with him... Haiz... I know there is nothing going on (I hope...) But just can't stand it... I just want to spend more time with you...

Now, all I could do is be there for you, all the way, helping you to grow. At times, I felt like I am treating you as if you are my daughter LOL~ You have the potential to shine, I will be here, for one last year to help you, hope you will be able to give me this chance, a chance to at least make you feel the way you make me feel when I am with you~

Day 73 - Time to save~

Long day at school today... However, it doesn't matter at all~ As long as I get to see you~ =) I admit that I was waiting outside =X Till I can't wait anymore and rush in! Glad to see you at the door on your way out =) Chatted for few seconds made my day~

Went for my annual battle @ Adidas Factory Outlet - Velocity! The clothing department... Really need to be better! I gave up looking for tresures there... Thus more money spent on shoes~ 3 Pair of new shoes! Many many many socks to replace my current, full of HOLES socks!

Finally a NEX member! Spent 1.5k within 90days... Wow... We actually spent sooooo much! Need to start saving NOW!

Day 72 - What's a fairytale?

I can really say that today was a fairytale for me =)

Started off my day with a 1hr lecture, went to SPTC booth as no one is able to make it for duty, not really that willing to go as I need to skip my tutorials... You know how much I hate to do that... Seriously! If I am not the chairman, I doubt I will sacrifice like that!

Setting up the booth was easy as nothing else need to be done~ Everything was in place, I am so happy about that! Stay slacking till 12pm, where I am suppose to join my friends at the gym... At this point of time... My Sistaz asked if I would like to join them for lunch! You guessed it... I rather join my family LOL! Had a subway lunch with my family and we went to walk around visiting the booths at CCA Open House! Fun fun fun~ They still can't decided which CCA to join haha~ Good luck to you guys~ Ended our short but super enjoyable meeting with a simple chess match with mind sports and... Farewell~

Went over to my booth~ Feel so achieved after doing "Sales" tactics on freshies! LOL~ Actually I am doing them a favor as I am introducing to them the best CCA around LOL~ Kitty is so cute trying to get people to join~ Haha~

After that we went over for the photo shoot around the school for our camp! I am so high during the shoot! However... I just can't seem to pass some of this juice to them... Sadded... However, everything was really really enjoyable! Hey Kitty, is there any meaning to the last shoot... Where you place your hands over mine? I really want to know the answer to that... How should I ask...

Walking pass SPCC, we went in to take a look at the "Gambateh" concert~ After a long "argument"... Kitty, Daryl, and I decided to sign up for it for the free food~ LOL! However... The FOOD WAS TOTALLY EMPTY!!! WE WENT IN TOO LATE!!! So... Moved over to FC4 to have a quick meal before going into the concert... Now we are back to deciding if we should go... I just try to drag everyone in since I really want to spend the time with her =X

The concert was light-hearted, good music, singers and all out to support JET relief! During the presentation, Kitty actually cried... Wow, I can't believe there is still such a person around... Actually, that's might be why... I am so interested in her... =)

I am sure we really enjoyed the concert and left for home after that~ On the way home, I probe about her trip to NZ, which I am seriously interested in! WOW! She actually tried bungee jumping from 43m! Seriously I would want to try it too! Just listening to the 2 of them chatting about their experience overseas... Making me jealous...

*Background info*

I am not from a rich family... I don't travel much, or should I say... I haven't even travel out of Malaysia before... That's the furthest I went to... Not sad or anything, I know that my parents are trying their best already~ I am thankful that I am living my life happily and peacefully now~ Maybe next time, I will be able to get my chances =)

Day 71 - Mini Advanture...

School as per normal, light hearted learning today~

Went over to JB after school. This planner, WAYNE MA, planned a trip over to Danga Bay, which suppose to be a street shopping area!

Step on to Malaysia grounds~ Finally~ Took a cab over to Danga Bay~ Just to find out....

GHOST TOWN! All stores all closed... I mean the whole place seems as if it's going to be demolished or something... Any later, We will be walking in a place where "Zombies" can attack us anytime like in the movie "Resident Evil" or "I am Legend".... I am totally serious! You can go try to see if you don't believe!

Next... Got bored after a long walk to find the nearest shopping mall! But just no mall near this area... We took a random bus to a random Jusco which is freaking small, 2 levels with no nice food/place to shop... Ok whatever... Just have our dinner at "Serdap Corner" Which is okay food... Than went back to our home... 'City Square'! I just love this place LOL!

Bought 2 shirts, as usual... Went over to the tit bit store... Over spent there... Bought some presents for my KITTY! =) Then went home~

The way home was beautiful~ Not in the sense of scenery, but the chat I had on the bus and MRT! Never once I felt a ride this enjoyable~ Thanks for being there for me! =)

Day 70 - Usui's method~

Woke up early today, yet again, this time I WENT FOR A MORNING JOG! =) Making full use of my time now~ After 1 week without jogging... I lost my touch... Now went back to 12mins... Time to train up again! I can already see the weight lost programme coming about! No backing down now!

You are going to hate me now~ I am just a stalker, alien, idiot~ But I will always be there for you =) Because I like you~ You will find me irritating now, but sorry, I am following his method and see if it works =)

Forgotten to do so much things today... Okay... Whatever... I need to focus! Clear all task on hand!

To whoever it may concern... I know you already know what I am doing, but seriously, doing it in front of me?! You got to be kidding... There is a limit to everything... Even the cool-headed me could go into berserk if you push the wrong buttons. Just to let you know, I am back in the game and you better be careful!

Well, that's about it, just watch what you say and you will be fine~ I guess =)

Day 69 - Feeling Nice~

Started my day with "Good morning Baby~" Was dreaming... Ok whatever... Went gym with Bro and Jeremy, they are freaking fit... Everyone actually have a weaker side... Me (Biceps), Idiot (legs), Jeremy (Traps)... Cool to find out that no one is imbalanced! LOL

Went back to Serangoon to donate BLOOD~ Haha... I don't dare to look at the needle =S The painkiller... is inflicting the most pain (as always) I can't feel the big needle, but blood are flowing freaking fast LOL! Got the blur out feeling, maybe it's flowing out too much too fast...

They actually have lucky draw this time, too bad didn't win anything =X Goodie bag looks good! A mug + Chicken Essences! I doubt I am going to drink/use it... LOL

Went home... Slept on the floor till 3pm since I have nothing to do... I just don't have what it takes to do my tutorials! He is back at 3... Played DotA! Epic fun! Long since I screamed and shout so loud at home! LOL~

I guess... I will have to do at least the MA tutorial for tomorrow~

G'nite Baby~ =) .......(Stop dreaming....)

Day 68 - A Day Without You is Not a Day

Started my day with a BAM! Trashed my sister in Kinect Beach Volleyball

(7-5 / 7-4 / 8-6 / 7-0) Feel bad but... I cannot lose! Heh heh =)

Went over to tennis shop to string Jian Ming's racquet, not that I am nice, but I am earning money, so who cares LOL! Went over to learn more about stringing. Have my lunch at Bishan, went to change 500RM for Tuesday~

Reached home around 2pm... No one online... Went to sleep...

Woke up aroud 7pm... Still no one around... Went for dinner...

Now still no one around... I guess... My day is wasted...

Tomorrow will be hitting the gym with my bro, most likely donating blood at Serangoon because I feel like saving lifes =) Haha, tomorrow should be better I hope!

Day 67 - Good Friday are meant to be good not great~

Started off bad... Real bad... My day screwed up... It's a big shock to me... Thought the whole plan was in place, went to Clarke Quay @ 3pm to find out no one was there to receive me...

Slack till 7pm... This is where it got better!

Have dinner with my Sistaz and idiot! Okay, my treat guys! Now you owe me a 1000 bhat DINNER ROFL!

Walked from Parco Marina Bay to Clarke Quay! 3 Sha Zi Rushing around the area HAHA! went over there to slack at Gong Cha, then went home!

Short day, 3hr worth, Good Friday well spent!

*Extras*
Special Thanks to JingYun! Thanks for being such a good listener! Now I will be able to sleep in peace LOL! (I hope =x) Hope to talk to you soon~

Day 66 - Speak now...Choose

Great... Now both of you appear in my dream... Sweetest dream or Nightmare? I can't choose... Listening to speak now... So... When they say speak now... What am I suppose to say?

Wow I have a lecture at MLT10 which I will get the chance to meet her twice every THURSDAY!! =)

Tomorrow I will meet the JJN for lunch! Meet @ Parco Marina Bay!

I hate this now... I am going to slap myself hard...

Ok... Great... Cancelled tomorrow, we are just not meant to go out together I guess. Not blaming anyone, because I could have ask her out just two of us, but nah, don't want to make anyone feel weird... That idiot is not helping. No point having tomorrow, I guess... I will just go out and chill on my own then. You two go ahead and enjoy your day.

I will just plan for myself tomorrow! Time to chill and reflect on what I really what to get it done!

Day 65 - Can't fight it...

Every morning without fail... I will be awake few hours than earlier... Today, yet again 4:40am... Thinking about you...

This time... I really don't know... It's burning inside me again... Lying on my bed, thinking about the past... I have really came far, further than I can even imagine... But still, unable to forget you... Everyday, since the start of this month, we have been chatting even more than we used to. It really makes me happy, so happy that I really wanted time to freeze...

However, there is a fear inside me... Rejection... I don't want to... suffer from it again... Last time, I could tell that you were trying to avoid me... Those were the days that I felt like... I don't know... Just felt like that I am nothing...

Now that we are happy chatting again... I just don't want to end it all again because of me... Straight down... I am really afraid that it happens all over again...

Yesterday... You asked me to share this blog with you... It's really impossible to do it... This blog is revive because of YOU! How I wish... Everything would seriously be easier than expected... Is there even a way where I could be really happy?

"沉默是我最后溫柔 是因为我太爱你"

Thanks for making my day so enjoyable! I am smiling the whole meeting~ =) Hope to be able to spend more time with you~ Maybe today, I will take a break... I don't think I can get enough of you... But lets try to distance ourselves a little, I don't want to scare you over again...

Day 64 - Super good student today~

Wow... For the first time in my 3 years... I actually listen the whole lecture! Copy EVERYTHING the teacher says as notes... FOR 2HR STRAIGHT WITHOUT MISSING ANY DETAILS! LOL! Great start to the year!

Went out with DAC cliques... Haiz... Don't know what to say... Waste money, not fun... DAC people are boring people by nature I guess... Nothing much to say here... Just did enjoy as much as when I am with Sistaz and Bro...

Skipped my run due to visitors at my house... Playing Xbox and PS3... Sweat enough while playing dance central and sports! Haha!

Now I am managing 2 blogs! But I am not going to share this one =P The other side is... sptennis.cca.sg... Visitors please visit there too HAHA! Help me gain visit count!

"You can never make the same mistake twice. The second time you make it, it’s no longer a mistake, it’s a choice." I got a feeling... I am going to make this choice again... Wish me all the best...

Tomorrow will be fun!

Day 63 - First Day~ DI YI TIAN~

It all started with a epic cui gym session with Nic today... I had been doing sooo well in school gym... When gyming with him... It's like level down... DAMN CUI!

Went to school, lunch with Sistaz, Nic and Jean! We sooo fun fun fun, Jean aiyo... Why emo sit there play iTouch... Too bad, Joanne and friend didn't join us... Otherwise we should have more fun and laughter!

Went to print notes for the class! I feel nice Mr. Nice guy now =)

Tennis was bad... Sweat Much in just 30mins... Singlet full... Damn sian... Good thing bad thing...

Why I love first day? EVERYONE WILL BE ONLINE ON THE FIRST DAY! TOTALLY HAVE 5-6 WINDOWS OF PEOPLE CHATTING!!! LOL~ NICE NICE NICE!!!

Good First Day! Hope tomorrow will be better!

Day 62 - Won't go home without you~

Spend my whole day watching videos... What a boring day to start with... Tomorrow is going to be the same... Practicing some dance moves, especially the toughest song "Just Dance"! You can call me Mr.GaGa soon LOL!

Spend my free time daydreaming, lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, mind blank, listening to songs, this is my life... Forget the mind blank... I think I am clouded with thoughts...

For once, I think I am going to go against the plan, for better or for worse...

It seems that I did it right! No regrets! Spent my time with Sistaz @ J8! Can't explain the fun we had! We are literally laughing the whole walk! Haha~ We sooooo Baddies! Bully that idiot like that =P

Thanks for making my day Sistaz~

Left them alone to enjoy their final day before the school starts! Enjoy Sistaz and idiot!

Went back to look for my 2nd Sis to get my Big Sis her B'day cake! Bought it at the Swiss bakery, crunchy macadamia or something like that Haha! Best seller over there! Hopes its nice nice YUMMY!

Went over to my favourite store... BODY SHOP LOL! Now my shower room is totally fully equipped with the BEST OF BODY SHOP SHOWER GEL! I AM IN LOVE WITH THE SHOWER ROOM NOW!

Rest well for tomorrow, no school, full workout day for me! =)

Day 61 - Welcome to my life~

Went for a short gym session in school, did all the basics and went over to tennis! Damn... Everyone squeeze in 1 court... 4 people each side... 4 people still need to sit and wait... Nice...

Finally get to play! However... Nightmare... SLOW BALLS! DROP SHOT! OUT OF THE COURT SHOTS! PLEASE MAN! YOU GUYS PLAY EVERYWEEK AND STILL LIKE THAT?! CAN IMPROVE MORE?! I NEED YOU PEOPLE TO GET BETTER TO TRAIN THE NEWBIES! IMPROVE FAST PLEASE?!

Went to restring and modify my Ncode N5 Force!

Weight - 279g --> 346g

Grip - 4 3/8 --> 4 1/2

Strings - Hybrid (Wilson NXT 17 + *What I think is Luxilon ALU power 16L) --> Luxilon Alu power 16L

Now its the new and improved BLX N5 FORCE JASON EDITION! ONLY 1 IN THE WORLD LOL! =) Welcome my new racquet to the road of a pro tennis player haha!

Can't wait for tomorrow! It's is so going to be fun fun fun!

Day 60 - Goodbye is never easy...NEVER!

Started out quite excited... Last day of work, of suffering, of hell... In my eyes its like the worst week of my life... Walking into the office... Everything was so normal...

Slack my time off till lunch, nothing much left to do...

Company had a mini celebration for us, KFC + Pizza Hut + Koi! Although we just sat there and eat, nothing much was said... Felt weird... Just eating slowly and waiting for Koi to arrive...

After that we distribute the mini treats we bought for everyone~ That's was like soooooo.... I don't feel like leaving anymore... So I help Shirley to finish her cash flow as my FINAL job for the company!

We ended up completing it around 530... Achievement and everything else... I don't want to go... Went up to give my final "Thank You" card to my manager, walked out... waved my final goodbye to everyone... Gave a loud sigh in the lift... Walk slowly... Thinking about the good and bad times, time spent in the office... The music really suit the moment, "The Reason" ...

"And so I have to say before I go... That I just want you to know... I have really enjoy every second spent in the company! THANKS EVERYONE!"

Day 59 - Crazy~

Woohoo, last 2nd day of work, finally got the attention I need! You don't give me the attention I want, you don't expect to get the work done you want =) Simple! All you care is about your work, and never even give me 10mins to teach me what to do? Wth is this? I didn't learn as much as I should, who cares? I learnt enough for now!

Went to NEX to shop, alone. Need the alone time as I am buying crap =P Don't need anyone to complain the things that I bought! Yeah!

First, went to Popular to buy plasticine and "Thank You" card... Next move over to Body Shop, to buy tea tree oil for face and fruit shower gel! My FAVOURITE LOL! I walk in to the shop... A lot people are looking at me sia... Very scary! LOL! I know it's a bit gay-ish... BUT I DON'T GIVE A DAMN LOL! Final stop, Cold Storage. Went to buy my deodorant spray and some mini chocolates for everyone!

Can't wait for tomorrow, time to sleep through today and WAKE UP TO THE BIG DAY TOMORROW! =)

Day 58 - Great escape!

MC for the day, self declare off day today! Getting ready to go off for a epic gym + tennis session in the afternoon!

I really need my day off... No more thinking of work today, just sweat my heart out today!

Damn proud of myself today! I actually do quite a lot in gym today! Not as heavy but make up for it with higher reps!

Super feel on the tennis court! Whacking anything forward coming in my way! Super nice shot I must say LOL!

Went out to eat with the guys! Fish and Co... Not really up to standard ... Manhattan so much better...

Super tired... Time to sleep!

Day 57 - Poker face

Put on my poker face for the week just to get through with work... I don't want to get a new job, just want to chill out, though the whole of this week...

MC tomorrow, that leave it with 2 more days, Great 17hr of slacking time, what should I do...

Day 56 - A-Team back in action!

Went out for movie after work. "The Lincoln Lawyer". Plot was okay, just a simple 3 star movie I guess? Nothing much from it.

Guess we are just spending our last day of holiday together as he is going off to Thailand tomorrow. Simple Dinner, movie, walking around chilling and stuff. Done everything we need to do to end our holidays.

Won't be able to send him off, won't do it anyway LOL! Just come back safely idiot! Make sure you get me my souvenirs! No gym partner this week, cutting hair myself... Sian to the max...

Day 55 - So yesterday~

Damn... I forget to update cus too tired... Keep it short since I missed it...

Woke up by my Nagy mother... I know that I need to go "Shao Mu"... BUT DON'T NEED TO KEEP CALLING ME LA! OMG! I AM LIKE GOING TO WAKE UP ONCE DAD GET OUT OF THE TOILET! LET ME SLEEP 5MINS WILL DIE MEH?!

Feel like dying at the Shao Mu area... Smokes everywhere... Choking and Teary eyes... I hate it... Ashes flying making me feel so dirty... Weather so hot, sweaty and smelly eww...

Went home to bathe... Then over to my cousin house to celebrate his son 1month! Name: Keiz! So how do you pronounce it? LOL! Sooooo tired till I slept on the couch... Woke up by the scorching sunlight as I was sleeping by the window... Burning hot!

Went back to sleep more! Tired...

Day 54 - Time Machine~

What a day~ Starting off with crappy tennis mode... I am totally off today... Not tired... my mind is just not there... I can't hit nice shots in... Went to gym... Can't do much too! Just no mood to do high intensity workout today... Maybe I never eat my breakfast! LOL! I will screw up without a routine start...

Met up with my Secondary school CCA mates~ I JUST UNWINDED IN MY TIME MACHINE!

Learn so much about everyone, a shocking news too! Hmm, let me start from the beginning...

We met up at Plaza Sing, started off with 5 people, they just finish eating when I arrived, so we just chill in this udon place. First we just chat about hows life, what have we been doing, normal stuff... What to do later and stuff like that...

Then I asked about "Brandon Pua" (This topic is sooooo epic! I can't believe I totally missed it because I did not go for the first outing.) Oh My God... He is a PURE blooded GAY! And it's so scary the way they describe him, I don't have anything against gay but it seems that they just don't even try to accept him but anyway... Things that he did was like, asking people through SMS, "Hey, I think you are cute" "You have anything against gay? No? Hey, I am gay, I like you, can I be your friend?" I thought they are just joking, apparently it's true.

Went to Cathay Cineleisure to look for some movie to watch. We totally just wasted our time there as everyone cannot confirm that they are coming... After queuing for like 10mins? We went to the empty area to slack, calling people to come... Then decided we won't catch a movie...

Went over to Lucky Plaza to play pool, I am feeling a little hungry so I took the chance to eat the SUPER NICE chicken rice! =) Eating by myself seems emo... But I am enjoying to the max! LOL! Join them after I finish eating, thought that everyone could play well, so I just wanted to watch since I didn't play like since year 1... Everyone is just anyhow hitting LOL! Since I did pick up some skills from year 1, I am like winning every game LOLOLOL! Got to stay on the table for hours paying only $2.60!

Everyone flooded in, so went over to ION to eat! Totally not hungry the chicken rice, so I just ordered 2 eggs, milk tea coffee! Epic moments at the Hong Kong cafe~ SO DAMN FUNNY! Just because 1 guy came late, we spam his wall! (A little childish but when you pass down for everyone to make a comment, IT'S SUPER JOKE!)

Unable to find a place to slack after dinner... We walk around the whole town, so I suggested Orchard Central. Still remember the steps we sat there, water flowing area which is a super relax place to chill, but our group was too big so... we walk around some more... just behind that area, THERE IS AN ABANDON STORE WITH SEATS AND TABLE!!! Why didn't we go there last time...

We talked about our past! WOW! So much has happen, realising how retarded we were LOL! Things we did are like soooo stupid! Can't stop laughing when we keep talking about it whole night! Remembering all the good old time~ Time Machine~

Day 53 - Down, down, down, down, down~

I am like counting down to the end of work... I feel a little bad but... I DON'T WANT TO WORK ANYMORE! Had my fair share of fun!

Tennis after work was okay... Not extreme... not even average... Over crowding on the court... No space for me to play... Good players on 1 side weaker one on the other side... I joined the weaker one first... No mood... After court shuffle, still okay... Pace increase a bit... But all half dead liao... Don't want run... So I am like playing with ball machine... SUCKS!

Tomorrow, better hope that you don't turn me off... Otherwise ball picker for you! Go fetch all my out balls! =(

Just when I warmed up... 9:30pm... EVERYONE IS GOING HOME WTF! I don't even feel the kick yet and all of you are leaving?!

Seriously WTH...

Day 52 - No one!

Super bored @ work... Powerful worker... I did a 30min-1hr job in 8.5hrs! =) I am the master of slacking! Muahahaha!

Met up with Russell and Freddy to continue planning for camp... Screw sports club... Now we are deciding to cancel our night walk because of your retarded-ness...

Luckily! Ideas flashes and we decided to make a short but EPIC scary haunted workshop @ W10! No one, no one, NO ONE~!~! Can get in the way of what I'm feeling~

Will be scanning the area tomorrow! Please await for my good news PEOPLE!

So going to be a stuntman on Monday... Take MC just to play tennis =x LOL! Please confirm with me people... I need to know if you are visiting... If not... I CAN FEEL THAT I WILL BE SICK ON MONDAY =( LOL!

Day 51 - 安静了~

Finally, the end of my "Out of company" audit... Enjoyed the start work late, early lunch, end work even earlier job... But I reach home FREAKING LATE! I still prefer the office now~ haha

Seriously screw those joke BIG SP clubs... Because of you, I will either have to break the rules or break my camp! Imposed so many new LAME rules... Like WTH! So... You expect me to run a boring camp? Hell no! I will break the rules and screw you! Take my position all you want! I don't need to be a president anymore, I still have my club!

Will be finishing our first draft for camp proposal, I can see myself writing a proposal full of lies already~

After accomplishing something, I will always reward myself... Today, I rewarded myself by not running... WTH! LOL!

Took at peek at the TV, 9pm Channel 8... What is it like to be a good guy? I always wanted to make my life an interesting one, but he is doing it extremely well... How I wish I could do the same too!

Day 50 - Defining enough...

Life at work is so heavenly now~ Work late, early lunch, leave early... What more can you ask for?

Gym today was crap... I don't feel the kick anymore... I just don't have the strenght to continue with it today... Need to draw out the inner power/desire to push myself to a greater height... Still looking for a way...

However, the talk was good, can't believe we actually talked to almost 2 hours... I finally realised how different we are... I am someone who have a goal, upon reaching it, I will have another one or content with life. You are someone who want to do you best in achieve something unrealistic, but you will do it eventually. Our course really suit us best! Just hope we could all be successful next time! Thus whats enough to me... Won't be enough to you... You are always looking for more... Please be content with life man...

It's super late and I will not update any longer, stay tune for the next one!

Day 49 - 寂寞寂寞就好~

SSS! Soooooo Superrrrr Sleepyyyyy! I nearly fell asleep when the manager is telling us about the company, omg... Any longer and I am so going to lie on the floor and sleep! Squeeze into a small room with only 1 table with 2 other senior! Wa seh... No space!

Lunch @ some canteen so crowded... Ulu place with only 1 canteen... Die liao la... So much for my beautiful SCIENCE PARK! It's like zombie town to me...

When to school for meeting, cover many stuff today, glad I am able to make it to the meeting to solve my administrative stuff!

I will sleep early today, cannot take it anymore~ I will die sooner or later if this keeps up!

Day 48 - When you're gone~

Woke up at 6:30... Even earlier than expected... Camp at my comp... Table shifted so no sofa near the area... Must sleep on the floor... Yet again...

Decided to leave home late, because the girls will be late anyway, just meeting them for a quick lunch. Who knows... EVERYONE HAVE THE SAME THINKING LOL! I am counted as the earliest...

After everyone is here, we went to play bowling, super funny LOL! The girls start off very very pro! 1 Spare 1 Strike! Scary! 2 Guys sucks to the max =x 38 and 50 after 10 frames!!! LOL!! I did badly... 78 or something... But still 2nd LOLOLOLOLOL =)

Went into the ice-skating ring, Chill~ Cold~ OMG~ Smelly skates... Eww... The ice is super uneven... So tough to control... Got used to it after awhile =) Everyone did pretty well I must say! The hand effect is gone... Seriously... I don't feel anything now offering my hand to anyone...

Sudden craving for Daytona from Daryl and MingHsun... So lets start our engine! And of cus... The arcade king got first for both routes LOL =P

Went home with HuiXuan as we are having our dinner at home, so not much has happen after that. Tomorrow back to school for a short games logistic / night walk meeting! Hope I am not that after my audit work!

Day 47 - Full force workout day!

Great... I am so adjusted to waking up soooo DAMN early everyday.... Keep waking up around 6:30-6:45am.... HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE THROUGH THE DAY?!

I kept feeling sleepy when I am using my comp... I think the reason is... I kept playing "寂寞寂寞就好"... When the mood is there... The slow music kicks in, I will drop dead anywhere comfortable! Even on the super hard floor LOL

Met my bro around 11am to visit the gym, when to collect my stuff from post office, thought that my earpiece has arrived... It's the surprise! I totally forgotten about it LOL!

Because that idiot have stomachache half way.... He asked me to rush through all the exercises so he can go home fast! While doing my last station... He said he is okay... I really want to smack him!

Went directly to school to play tennis from 2-7pm. Weather was not that hot, perfect for tennis! I am sorry to say but starting I am playing with noobs so my standard was bad... Hope you all will improve fast... Around 4pm, that's when the fun starts! My senior arrived, played 2 matches with him! 6-4 6-4 WON TWO GAMES! OH YEAH! Never win at all last year... He trash me in both competition and friendly matches... Around 6pm, the pro came over and played with me, 6-1 got trashed badly, but learnt so much!

Family called at 7pm asking me to meet them for dinner! Pig organ soup Best!

Went home, sis and mom playing Kinect LOL! My mom so cute~ Was at the comp, listening to that ONE song... Fell asleep on the floor...

Day 46 - Time of my life~

Turn of events happen today~ I can't believe that I actually met Joanne while walking toward the coffee shop, was walking quite fast so I only could catch a glimpse of her, I didn't say hi as I can't totally confirm it's her, embarrassing if I say Hi to the wrong person...

So, texted her to ask if that's her! Waited for her reply, and yes, that's her! Since I don't really have the mood to work... I tried to continue the conversation =X (Slacker... Yes, I know) Can't believe I actually able to text someone for nearly 2hr straight! This is really the first time! LOL!

Ok, maybe that's enough of it... Anymore and news will spread... I had been drinking too much water lately... I have super low stamina today... Can't run as well as any other day today... Might be due to fatigue... Sleeping quite late these few days... Oh well~ Time to exercise more over the weekends!

For some reason, I feel that I have open up now, I am talking to more random people that I don't usually talk to! Suddenly feel that I can now approach more people easily, not just the few which I usually communicate with! Total changed in personally? Since I am not really that of people oriented, I guess I kind of like this new me~ =)

*Extra*

Anyway... I was also wondering if I had said Hi... I don't think I would have texted her further... Maybe it's a good thing in disguise? I don't know... I felt that I did the right thing, even that idiot says that her mother is there, she will take a broom and chase you away ROFL! Whatever la! =)