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Mitch
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I wonder what i did wrong...
everything i do i have to consider pros n cons
in a way i 'hesitate' for every decison
wrong ma?
Been told not to think so much...
but when i dun think....
so much problems arise...
i become insensitive,uncaring, and whatever nots.....
perhaps i shld just be a couch potato
stay at home and do nth but watch tv
at least i offend 'all' nt just 'one'
since when did friendship maintanance become so complicated?
trying to be fair only ends up..... nth
~1:31 PM
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i realised something
n im going to change.
amt of control is only limited by how much i allow the person to control me.
aka i will have to stand up for myself.
i just wish pple will stop pushing me.
especially him. its tiring n upsetting.
i dun need pple to tell me what they think its right.
for 20 yrs ive been trying to please everyone
trying to get the approval tat i nv get n never will get.
everything i do or express an opinion will just be met with a frown or snide remarks.
its time to just do things that please myself.
yupz. geez......... i type an ultra long article. but i deleted it... and reduce to this short. haha....
Things will get better.
~12:23 AM
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she offered to help me look out for vaccancy @ MIS Raeburn
i guess end of the day it doesn't really matter what degree you take...
~11:59 PM
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~11:07 PM
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~8:31 PM
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~8:11 PM
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Lolx.... while everyone is busy celebrating i'll be bz working whee
At least i'll have income in my pocket this time round.
Anyways received a bouquet of tissue paper flowers from YJ ystd haha....
well its super nice. once again thanks girl =D
Slumdog Millionaire is nice, i recommend it to watch too... kinda show the life of the people living in the slums. And how this guy play "who wants to be a millionaire" and won 20 million rupees.... Bollywood dancing at the end too... lolx quite cool haha.
Actually im very tired now...... wish i said i wasnt free for today..... =x.....
just wondering if i should quit this job... i feel a little meaningless..... for some odd reason.
~8:42 AM
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hope she likes it. Anyways i accidently spilt lemon tea on her jeans when someone bumped into me. So guilty. Guess i was distracted .
Anyways i met Jess, Karen's ex-colleague... nice lady. Which just got me wondering what i want to do immediately aft poly?
Anyways just chit chat with Edwin! haha what a shock ... so long nv contact liao .... but yea great times.....
Evon just sent me all the past photos and i can't stop cringing.... its. damn. bad. haha... but those days were really really great.....
~10:24 PM
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3 days to end my last proj
amongst the countless number of projects and assignments done... what can i realli take away from all these? no idea... in fact i dun even know what my character is like? somehow the impression i form of myself seems to be realli ugly... no idea why also...
i guess habits are easy to form but hard to kill. i've been trying so hard to quit panicking, throwing my temper and stop being so careless, but look where it ends up all the time?
i nv regreted taking poly education, i came here for the certificate, but i just wonder if there are other aspects of this piece of paper i've lacked to take care of...
haha i seem to be thinking alot (which explains the 3 white hair jo-an found on my head)
perhaps its my dad's genes? perhaps its just me. But.... thinking abt it... sch's nt over yet.... i can always make the best use outta e little time that is left.
at least i hope i can
~5:48 PM
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~10:59 PM
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i bet everyone is shagged right now.... (i was... lolx i zzz for 5 hrs straight)
anyways i dunno guess during these few days i've been realli cranky... my brain was realli malfunctioning to the pt where a majority of the time things i've said usually end up with blank looks n "huh?" from others.... lolx its crazy...
anyways that being said, we still have to complete this practice (i finally rmb its not practical) of entre report, plus ib; our last report for the semester, for our polylife...
Time REALLY flies... i can still rmb the dread during freshman orientation, the first $50(earned through blisters and muscle aches) i got from a holiday job at suntec banquet, got to know a bunch of great friends during my 3 years in Tp, slogged in the seemingly endless projects, zzz in finance lectures. Now im actually doing my last project.... realli reluctant to complete...dunno why also... somehow once its done.... i think i'm really going to miss lotsa stuff....
Anyways .. just got a reply from RMIT, they accept mid year entries ... so yupz maybe i'll consider applying there =x oh well there's going to be lotsa unknowns after the exam on the 23rd Feb...... i realli hate tat....... =x
oh well the FBI show is realli callin me... i'll sign off for now.
~10:57 PM
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I wonder what i did wrong...
everything i do i have to consider pros n cons
in a way i 'hesitate' for every decison
wrong ma?
Been told not to think so much...
but when i dun think....
so much problems arise...
i become insensitive,uncaring, and whatever nots.....
perhaps i shld just be a couch potato
stay at home and do nth but watch tv
at least i offend 'all' nt just 'one'
since when did friendship maintanance become so complicated?
trying to be fair only ends up..... nth
* * *
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
i realised something
n im going to change.
amt of control is only limited by how much i allow the person to control me.
aka i will have to stand up for myself.
i just wish pple will stop pushing me.
especially him. its tiring n upsetting.
i dun need pple to tell me what they think its right.
for 20 yrs ive been trying to please everyone
trying to get the approval tat i nv get n never will get.
everything i do or express an opinion will just be met with a frown or snide remarks.
its time to just do things that please myself.
yupz. geez......... i type an ultra long article. but i deleted it... and reduce to this short. haha....
Things will get better.
* * *
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
she offered to help me look out for vaccancy @ MIS Raeburn
i guess end of the day it doesn't really matter what degree you take...
* * *
Dad bought a new coffee machine....
just had 2 cups of cappachino at 11.05pm....
starbucks anyone?
just had 2 cups of cappachino at 11.05pm....
starbucks anyone?
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sleepy.... hungry rolled into one...
once again im left thinking what's gonna happen when the exams are over...
more twiddling of thumbs perhaps =x
gah! hate this feeling of uncertainty...
maybe thats the reason why im dragging my heels to study =x
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Monday, February 16, 2009
LOL saw this while i was surfing facebook =x
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Saturday, February 14, 2009
Lolx.... while everyone is busy celebrating i'll be bz working whee
At least i'll have income in my pocket this time round.
Anyways received a bouquet of tissue paper flowers from YJ ystd haha....
well its super nice. once again thanks girl =D
Slumdog Millionaire is nice, i recommend it to watch too... kinda show the life of the people living in the slums. And how this guy play "who wants to be a millionaire" and won 20 million rupees.... Bollywood dancing at the end too... lolx quite cool haha.
Actually im very tired now...... wish i said i wasnt free for today..... =x.....
just wondering if i should quit this job... i feel a little meaningless..... for some odd reason.
* * *
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
hope she likes it. Anyways i accidently spilt lemon tea on her jeans when someone bumped into me. So guilty. Guess i was distracted .
Anyways i met Jess, Karen's ex-colleague... nice lady. Which just got me wondering what i want to do immediately aft poly?
Anyways just chit chat with Edwin! haha what a shock ... so long nv contact liao .... but yea great times.....
Evon just sent me all the past photos and i can't stop cringing.... its. damn. bad. haha... but those days were really really great.....
* * *
Thursday, February 5, 2009
3 days to end my last proj
amongst the countless number of projects and assignments done... what can i realli take away from all these? no idea... in fact i dun even know what my character is like? somehow the impression i form of myself seems to be realli ugly... no idea why also...
i guess habits are easy to form but hard to kill. i've been trying so hard to quit panicking, throwing my temper and stop being so careless, but look where it ends up all the time?
i nv regreted taking poly education, i came here for the certificate, but i just wonder if there are other aspects of this piece of paper i've lacked to take care of...
haha i seem to be thinking alot (which explains the 3 white hair jo-an found on my head)
perhaps its my dad's genes? perhaps its just me. But.... thinking abt it... sch's nt over yet.... i can always make the best use outta e little time that is left.
at least i hope i can
* * *
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Haha... the horoscopes i've signed up said i'll be lacking of energy and will be quiet today... seem true enough..... just feeling damn restless not sure why either... sry everyone if i snapped or offended anyone in the process.... not sure why i acted so moronic either.....
Got a C in for my International Biz...n just managed a B for MA... crapz.... real crapz just when i tot i'll be able to pull up my GPA.... the goal seems bloody distant now. i know i know... some pple will say its gd enough or something along that line.... but.... i just can't take it... it sticks out like a sore thumb (what a coincidence, i scrapped my thumb a few days too n my thumb is realli sore..haha)
i just hate it when i underperform...... i just hate it that im feeling distant from everyone. I just hate it that i dun feel like talking. i dunno why either...
why must i always f*** up at the last moment of everything? when i see my sis so relax even though her exams are so nearby, i just cant help but admire.... its just an automatic reaction for me to screw up. its only a matter of big or small..... just like during presentations, submissions, exams, and whatever shit that comes along. That is perhaps the reason why im always anal about details .... but as expected i always miss a few impt deatils hidden along the way....
i'm just a damn klutz.....
anyways i got so frustrated that i went to call fanny to cut my hair.... well maybe trim ... since i havent got much hair for her to change a new style. i joked with jac that everytime im stress i'll cut my hair.... well she told me to shave my hair off.... of course the idea is tempting... that way i dun have to look like sadako with the fringe that fanny advised me to keep..... but... that would mean that i wont have back up hair left if i am stress later on.
i just hate it when i underperform...... i just hate it that im feeling distant from everyone. I just hate it that i dun feel like talking. i dunno why either...
why must i always f*** up at the last moment of everything? when i see my sis so relax even though her exams are so nearby, i just cant help but admire.... its just an automatic reaction for me to screw up. its only a matter of big or small..... just like during presentations, submissions, exams, and whatever shit that comes along. That is perhaps the reason why im always anal about details .... but as expected i always miss a few impt deatils hidden along the way....
i'm just a damn klutz.....
anyways i got so frustrated that i went to call fanny to cut my hair.... well maybe trim ... since i havent got much hair for her to change a new style. i joked with jac that everytime im stress i'll cut my hair.... well she told me to shave my hair off.... of course the idea is tempting... that way i dun have to look like sadako with the fringe that fanny advised me to keep..... but... that would mean that i wont have back up hair left if i am stress later on.
Well... i'll probably look something like that i did shave my hair off
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laugh everyone.... its a joke....
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Tuesday, February 3, 2009
i bet everyone is shagged right now.... (i was... lolx i zzz for 5 hrs straight)
anyways i dunno guess during these few days i've been realli cranky... my brain was realli malfunctioning to the pt where a majority of the time things i've said usually end up with blank looks n "huh?" from others.... lolx its crazy...
anyways that being said, we still have to complete this practice (i finally rmb its not practical) of entre report, plus ib; our last report for the semester, for our polylife...
Time REALLY flies... i can still rmb the dread during freshman orientation, the first $50(earned through blisters and muscle aches) i got from a holiday job at suntec banquet, got to know a bunch of great friends during my 3 years in Tp, slogged in the seemingly endless projects, zzz in finance lectures. Now im actually doing my last project.... realli reluctant to complete...dunno why also... somehow once its done.... i think i'm really going to miss lotsa stuff....
Anyways .. just got a reply from RMIT, they accept mid year entries ... so yupz maybe i'll consider applying there =x oh well there's going to be lotsa unknowns after the exam on the 23rd Feb...... i realli hate tat....... =x
oh well the FBI show is realli callin me... i'll sign off for now.
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About me:
Just a simple person struggling against the currents of life....
Simple Facts:
-> Female
-> Arts Student @ Uni of Melbourne
-> Crappy
-> ?????
Love:
LOVES to Eat!
LOVES to Sleep
LOVES Her Friends
LOVES her love
&
Trying to Love her life
Hate:
Hate is just an emotion requiring some mental tweaking
Wish List:
WISHES that everyone is happy
Wishes for a smooth transition
Wishes for a blissful life
Wishes for good grades & motivation
Wishes for a good career
Memory Lane:
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- Got a P for my assignment....my heart literally hu...
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- I wished you have more confidence in yourself. Tha...
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