Wednesday, June 24, 2009 Y
Splitting headache is equivalent to a moody day. I can't concentrate, tears keep surging out and sometimes even feeling of giddiness. I'm really glad that exams have been postponed, otherwise it'll be exam and headache which can result to my death. Everything is back on track, and all I can say is relieved. I'm feeling much much better, especially a lot of thoughts have been running through my head nowadays. I'll pick up from here and learn from mistakes. Maybe it'll be slow, but I know that I've what it takes to carry on. No matter how tough JC life will be, I'll score well and let XYZ know that we are not weak.
*wink, jj people should know who is XYZ. (:Actually, there is multiple meaning is what one is typing, but it is up to the writer's decision whether to disclose it. You can actually write something which seem to others that it is praising the person, but only the writer knows what it's actual meaning is, maybe to mock or scold, or maybe it is really for praising or not.
&i won't linger anymore...
and I miss you already
2:47 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 Y
I need a break, from events, emotions, everything. It's crushing me down and I don't like it. Everything and all. I need to grow up, I need to be mature. I need to stop being so childish and wilful. Nothing goes right, and nothing will if I do not play my part well enough.
I'm tired, really really tired. I keep thinking, too much until it's overbored. Sometimes I just want a break, from everything, or to see your face again to calm myself down. I don't know what I should do now, I feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down but I couldn't. I need to stay strong so as to not add to their worries. I'm a failure, a real failure.
&it's time to wake up from the fantasy and learn to differentiate them.
and I miss you already
8:46 PM
Monday, June 01, 2009 Y
Their songs are nice! =D
THE ONLY WAY THAT I KNOW HOW TO FEEL
by "boys like girls"
Before you let me fall,
Kill me so I don't feel it at all
Push my body up against the wall
And pick your poison
Cuz everything feels wrong
And I don't know where I belong
Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cuz that's the only way that I know how to feel
Maybe it's a phase
Maybe I'll break out of it someday
Maybe this is just my twisted fate
I always feel like everything is wrong
And I don't know where I belong
Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cuz that's the only way that I know how….
To feel your arms around my neck
I'm suffocating with regret from all the wasted hours spent
Believing I was never meant
To touch the face of something real
These sewn up scars will never heal
But I put down a deal
Cuz that's only way that I know how to feel
Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave in pieces
Broken and bruised
Take me for granted
Make me…I promise that you'll
Never keep on fallin' to pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cuz that the only way that I know how to feel
I know how to feel...
You're the only way that I know how to feel
and I miss you already
8:53 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset