I want to complain about school. I got a hell lot of homework to rush and my deadline for Project Work(PW) is coming, actually is just 6 days away. My second draft need to amend a lot again, every time is like that and I don't know why. The good thing about PW is that my group is very good. Those mugger are in my group, well majority of the mugger in the class. Next, General Paper(GP)'s Term Continual Assessment(TCA) is coming up next week and one hour is completely impossible to complete the test but somehow, I need to finish it on time. Not to forget I got this 32 boxes grid due this Friday which is included as a TCA as well. So, I think my GP is screwed up completely now. Chemistry just cannot make it any more. I need help desperately, my lectures cannot make teach me at all. You know why? Lecture Theatre(LT) 5 is so cold that I feel like sleeping and I don't like blah. Physics is getting more are more tough, with all those new laws to learn and new energies to find, this is sad. ): At least I can understand better. (: Mathematics is gone case. I need to listen to lectures already and start reading through the notes. I don't know what's going on any more. ): Chinese is dead. My Chinese has dropped to the pits already. Economics, forget it. I'll never get exempted from it ever. I can't crap well, neither can I write nor elaborate well.
I need to buy a lot of things. Seriously.
I'm feeling that I'm a complete outsider, I don't belong here at all. It's as if I should just turn into a loner, where I'll be able to just do nothing but sleep, study and play. I need to calm down and think through, let my emotions and thoughts overrun me. I hate it.
and I miss you already
4:44 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009 Y
I need to be left alone, to let my thoughts overcome me, let me figure out what am I actually. I don't even know my existence is for what exactly, let people mock, laugh or be just a person who will be a listening ear. Never contribute, always think too much, everything drifting away, literally. When you treat a person nice they'll treat you back equally? That's really bullshit crap. There is nothing called nice in this world, only those who knows how to makes use of others win. Those who knows how to harm others will survive. That's how it turns out, well at least for now. Maybe the future might change, but will I even see it? Who knows? Maybe it's just better to end everything now. Don't bother so much, just be a freaking loner and life might just turn out better. Changed my thinking, don't bother. The most is to get hurt again and get tricked again. How many times I tried? 10 years. 10 freaking years already. Conclusion, humans are just a mammal that makes use of others when they possess the value that they themselves want.
I need to change, change for the better, change for the future. Nothing will ever come true, if I were to continue living in my fantasy.
Yesterday was fun, I'm serious. Even though I'm kind of bullied by OWY, it was fun gathering in 4D1 again. I think half the class turned up, which is better than nothing. =D Thanks to LSY, I'm starting to miss my Secondary School days again. Seriously, I'm really wondering whether or not should I transfer to poly, since in my personal view, I seriously doubt I can go into ___ in ___. And I found out that OWY was a JJcian as well! I want his teachers, but most has left already. This is sad. ): I need help in my work, you'll know why since the school didn't teach AlCl3 is covalent bonding? As in they only teach it as dimersation, not in full detail. Other school is full details, and mine isn't. Thats why I'm desperate for help. OWY say he'll teach me JAP! =D So, after being bullied I'm still kind of happy?
Ohaiyo, mitchelle-san desu. =D [ps. I don't know how to type the japanese. ): ]
and I miss you already
4:58 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009 Y
Argh, horrendous flu. Now I'm sneezing like nobody's business. This sucks. School hasn't been better but it seems to be getting worse. Napfa is reaching and I don't think I can score well anymore. It's as if I can jump well after not playing basketball for a year? This is horrible.
Everything seems to be drifting further and further, it start to seem as if we don't know each other in the first place. Maybe it was my fault for going to a JC, or it's our fault for not meeting up. I tried, at least I know. Now, I guess I should just give up. Nothing is working and everything is fading. I'll let it go, and hopefully, I can get accustomed to it.
and I miss you already
9:52 AM
Monday, April 06, 2009 Y
I feel like a big idiot. I shouldn't have bank on so much hope to keep seeing you. Everything was just a coincidence, everything including your kindness. What was I? A fool? Maybe I am, and I will be for the rest of my life. I can't change from here, even though I have to. I am really the worst idiot of all. I hate myself.
Number one thing I want to complain, school. It gives me too much stress! The homework never seems to end, along with the various exams that are included as my overall promo scores. Next, I don't understand how come there is so many people in JJ not getting an A for napfa when they are in secondary school. Last, they think that we students are so free that we got to do two project work at a go, with one 'A' level PW and a JJingdo(something like that) and BBQ(ha, don't tell me barbeque. It's Best Business Quest which is a business idea and you got to plan and bla bla bla.).
Next on the list, people. ________ is irritating me off, although it is really funny at times but I can't concentrate with such noises! I'm not as clever as you all so give me my lessons back! ): There is ____________ that is irritating me off with his long winded speech which has obviously no freaking use. ______, keeps nagging and accusing me with all sorts of crap that I didn't commit.
Great, I can hardly breathe. This feels so screwed. I hate Mondays, it's seriously Monday BLACK! ):
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Born in 18 Sept, she was once a clementeen and now a JJcian. Once ♥2B12006 and 4D12008! in CTSS and now `09S14 in JJ.
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