Gone forever!?

Tuesday, March 31, 2009 Y

Stupid giddiness, ruin my day completely.

Part of me really felt relieve,
the moment I saw your back view.
I was confused at first,
whether or not is it really you?
Somehow, you always have the charm,
to make me keep looking back,
keep wanting to look the best
when I sees you.
I thought fate had disappeared
along with you,
but you reappeared
kindling the light of fate
with your appearance.
Part of me wanted to hate you
for making my heart skip a beat,
yet part of me just want
to remain like this,
able to look at you
from where I am,
even if it's going to be,
a hundred miles away.

and I miss you already

5:22 PM

Sunday, March 29, 2009 Y

I don't know what I should do, it just feels so weird and wrong. I screwed up my GP and Chinese. I'm stupid, I'm idiotic. I don't even know how did I managed to land into a JC. I'm useless, I'm a pile of shit. I don't know what should my next step be. Happy, I'm definitely not. A level is this year already, yet I'm thinking of doing things slowly. I need to do my first draft this week, yet I don't have my first consultation yet. Yes, they may be fun, there may be laughter, but I'm not part of it. I'm too stressed up, I can't do things well. This sucks big time. I want to relax out, I want to shout out all my displeasures.

Sorry, but no happy post is going to appear anymore on this blog I think.

and I miss you already

3:38 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009 Y

Yes, I'm just like a pendulum, swinging from one point to another. I don't know where should I stand, and neither do I know where should I land. I only know that I want to be somebody, whose mind is free from worries with a place where I can rest peacefully. I'm feeling breathless now...

Gotta Be Somebody
by Nickelback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we're meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It's just like D'j'Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I'll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can't give up!
Lookin' for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you're holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

and I miss you already

9:01 AM

Sunday, March 15, 2009 Y

Great, just great. Feeling freaking confused now. It's really a mixed feeling, I want to give it a try, yet I'm afraid it won't work out right and I'll end up as a laughing stock for others. I really really want to learn a musical instrument, I mean it. I don't know what is going to work out, but i'll be the extra idiot tomorrow in school.

Next, I went back to school on Friday for the play! Seriously, I don't understand a single thing! =D But still, it was fun to be back in school, though I kind of avoided my teacher. =D Plus plus, I saw something that made me really really happy, don't bother asking for I'll never tell. I saw juniors for basketball but I kind of lost my memories and was like who is she? So sorry but I remembered in the end. =D Either way, didn't managed to take photos with 4D1 or friends. D= Had to rush home straight away cause I forgot my keys. D= Saw some of the peeps in my class while rushing home.

Thursday was camp. Received news of piles of homework during the camp. Was supposedly to be a house camp but the class sort of went missing? =D But we had our fun and we don't regret it. Our Civics Tutor is a really really nice guy. (: But Secondary School's classparents and co-classparents are also nice people.=D To conclude, teachers in charge of my classes have been nice people! =D Side track to much, back to my camp. We had campfire with lots of songs! =D I like 'Moments' still the most. But I could never find it on imeem so oh well, shall put "I'm yours" instead. It's a nice song too. (:

I missed the luxury of slacking during secondary school days. The homework in a JC are actually not really meant for a week holidays but at the very least two. Can't even relax much but I think I'll be rushing them through and go play! After all, it's march holidays! =D I'm still a noob with the Graphic Calculator.

&was my intention just to see you, so that I could fascinated by you again?

and I miss you already

8:20 PM

Friday, March 13, 2009 Y

I'm Yours
by Jason Mraz

Well you dawned on me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, and now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out, I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people, dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

D-d-do do you, but do you, d-d-do
But do you want to come on
Scooch on over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Come on and open up your mind and see like me
(I won't hesitate)
Open up your plans and damn you're free
(No more, no more)
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
(It cannot wait, I'm sure)

So please don't, there's no need
(There's no need to complicate)
There's no need to complicate
(Our time is short)
'Cause our time is short
(This is our fate)
This is, this is, this is our fate
I'm yours

Oh, I'm yours
Oh, I'm yours
Oh, whoa, baby you believe I'm yours
You best believe, best believe I'm yours

and I miss you already

4:10 PM

Sunday, March 08, 2009 Y

When I'm Gone
-Three Doors Down

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[Chorus]

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone

and I miss you already

4:54 PM

Saturday, March 07, 2009 Y

Let's just say, everything is changing, nothing is going to remain the same as it was the last time. Nothing. Maybe I'm just to weak, weak to accept what reality is like for me, weak to accept those facts lies ahead of me, weak to accept that everything was just a phoney. The path lies ahead is long, and it seems to be filled with nails where I'm being forced to walk on. I'm really really tired now...

Stupid course, say until so interesting but ends up so idiotic. Waste of my time when I can relax. Was like nothing much at all, my brain went dead after the experiment, and I still think that it suits Chemistry more than it suits into Physics. All are reactions and more reactions. But overall, had some fun while cracking jokes and everything. And my dear Xueer doesn't understand Cantonese too! While, I only understand a little. =DD The course had caused me to be afraid of the soap, imagine washing yourself with fats...-.- The experiment was super smelly, and I swear that it's super for I'm having serious blocked nose and I could smell it.

Denise has caused me to be addicted to another anime! ): I keep spending time on watching when I'm supposed to study! And and, I missed a lot for CLDDS thanks to the Bannister trials! Regreted signing up! ): I want to learn more about 灯谜!!!! ): Super depressed now! ):

Nothing seems close now, everyone has scattered. What happened to the bond last timefre?? ):

& with one step at a time, i'll grow out from my world of fantasy.
-friends are nothing, but betrayal. I've learnt the lesson thoroughly now, where friends are always temporary...

and I miss you already

5:13 PM

Sunday, March 01, 2009 Y

或許只是暫時，也可能是永久。但不管實事會是什麽，唯有走下去，才能找到真相。
Confused, really confused. I don't know what am I supposed to do, it's just that I don't feel like I'm being myself while I'm in school. It's as if I'm losing myself, my mentality. I don't like it, not a bit. Everything is changing like crazy, and I'm losing control not just only on things, but on my say. Is this good or bad? I could no longer differentiate...

and I miss you already

3:53 PM