Sunday, August 31, 2008 Y
A few things to say before I start updating:
1) Sorry to 4B1 for what I did during Teachers' Day to you guys(as in snatching teacher). I really didn't know that you guys only had one teacher.
2) My phone has went bonkers I believe. Not receiving or sending my SMS. ): Maybe it's the company problem? ):
3) Studying for Prelim exams are making me go crazy. Been playing to reduce my stress out which is bad! ):
4) I don't want to change teacher(Maths)!
Lots of things have been happening. Things are changing at a rapid speed. If I have to catch up, a lot of sacrifices have to be made. Standing at the crossroad now, I seriously don't know what I should do. Feel like running back to the start and start everything anew. Then maybe, things will be different.
Injured. ): My LEFT hand(palm) is swollen. ): Luckily it's not my right hand or else I can't write. ): Either way, prelim exams till now are not good. ): Think I did quite badly for it. ): Going to work doubly hard for the remaining exams. I want to score well! I think, future or you, I'm going to choose my future for it will exist with or without you. (:
and I miss you already
1:33 PM
Saturday, August 23, 2008 Y
Taking a little bit of time to update. Mainly this few weeks might not update, due to prelim. Going to work my ass off for this prelim. Hope I'll be able to see some results after working so damn hard. Learn something new today. Get my concepts right and the teacher won't be able to mess my concept again. (: I'm just getting more and more confused. ): Oh well. There's still time before Physics Paper and Geography. (: the 3 subjects I must work hard for: ENGLISH (100% must!), Combined Humanities (Must score well if I want to go JC!) and Physics (supposed to be 'easy' once I get my concepts and keywords right). (: And to my friends out there reading, GOOD LUCK and 加油. (:
Maybe its fate that's stopping me from forgetting you...
and I miss you already
3:33 PM
Friday, August 22, 2008 Y
我不想忘记你我在向前走 却像在退后
我在用想念 狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这矿阔的天空
虽然那里 空气很稀薄
我努力 想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己 深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你，
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力 想起你 苦也没关系
用祝福 和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
一个人不懂 什么是拥有
两个人不懂 怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里 空气很稀薄
我努力 想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己 深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力 想起你 苦也没关系
用祝福 和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
我努力 想起你笑着 哭泣
让自己 深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力 想起你 苦也没关系
用祝福 和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
The song is nice. Back to homework. I'll become a nerd, a silly nerd. (: Update when I'm free. Which is going to be like never.
I'm going to increase my pace for studies and decrease my pace in dreams. Nothing will come out of it from breaking down. Smile makes the world goes round. (: Not all problems have a solution, but nothing will be possible if we don't try it out at all. (:
and I miss you already
7:17 PM
Saturday, August 16, 2008 Y
Been long since I last updated. Busy studying, for the first time in my life. But, my time management isn't perfect yet. Still spending too much time on English homework, then have to rush other subject homework. Still not much time spent on self-revising, especially when the teachers aims to torture you with the homework which causes you to keep doing until midnight and mind you, I'm an early sleeper so sleeping at 10 plus is a GREAT improvement. (: Still not very accustomed to it but time will let be get used to it. (: However, my health seems to be telling me I ought to sleep earlier but deteriorating. Not very good especially I'm starting to lose my voice~! Oral is on Tuesday so I can't afford to lose my voice. I'm worried about my Oral since there is like Yilin, Nicholas Lim and Mervyn before me and Sinyee, Darrin and YuZhen after me. You won't want me to name the rest. The names will never end until I name everybody. (: Hope I can score since in my view, it is the only thing that I'm good at for English(temporary I hope). Then later on will be continuing with my Principles Of Accounts(POA). There's two papers(1&2) for me to rush, which is the best when I lost my answers for one of it. Having a messy room is bad. Your completed homework get lost easily. Not to forget your precious notes.
Been running away from the ugly truth these few days. I know it, distinctively. I don't wish to face it, I don't want to accept it. Did silly things today, run away from the bus and wait for the other. I don't really know why am I doing all these, I don't even know why can't I face all these facts. It doesn't really affects me, it shouldn't affects me, right? One thing now I can feel it, the solitude is eating me up.
&just stab the cold knife into my heart.
and I miss you already
7:36 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008 Y
I'm just a stupid and useless girl, who is starting to lose her small little confidence now. Tomorrow is going to be a good day, I pray. I'm starting to feel the nervousness now, yet I can still put up a strong front for others to see. Hope I won't breakdown, really hope so. And one good thing that might occur, I really woke up this time round. Studies, I'll start now.
-If you don't ever give yourself the chance to commit, how will you ever know whether you can do it or not? Don't say you can't do it, give it a try. You'll never know whether will you succeed or not if you never ever give yourself a chance to prove it. (Don't learn it the hard way like me.)
and I miss you already
6:37 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008 Y
Crap. What's the freaking use of continuing? Every time I tried to convince myself that time will change everything, but the conclusion? It changes, yes but to the worst. Nothing is going better, time just make it worse. You claim I play too much? Do you want to know the reason why? NO! You never bothered about why I choose to play this much, all you ever care was SCOLDING me to VENT out your anger. That was all you cared. Did you really listen carefully to what I ever said to you? Do you really understand what I'm thinking about? Do you really knows the feeling I have in my heart towards you now? I can tell you clearly one thing, I feeling tired, tired of living. What's the use of me struggling when the only thing you care about is him? You are way too biased, I don't like it. Sometimes you say that I don't care about this family, I got no feelings. Yes that is true, for thanks to you, my heart has died completely.
And it is you people who made me change. You people who forced me to walk along the cliff of death.
My feeling now is this:
and I miss you already
2:50 PM
Friday, August 08, 2008 Y
Today is National Day Celebration. It was fun. Tired and guess what, fever again. ): Oh well, don't feel like blogging about the events in details, but the celebration was fun. (: Especially the part of 'squashing' the teachers. xD
-&time will tell the truth.
and I miss you already
6:49 PM
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 Y
I'm LACK OF SLEEP! Although I may have seen as one who sleeps early in other people's eyes, but for me, I am seriously being deprived of sleep. This few days, have to toss around the bed for a FEW hours before starting to doze off, which means I slept like 11 or even 12 plus? Which is considered late FOR ME, not others all right. Then, schooling. Still all right, but when you can only reach home like 5 plus or even 6 plus? I'm totally exhausted, certainly not having the extra strength to do other stuff when I'm like having troubles to keep myself awake? Then the homework part starts to factor in. Tons of homework when I'm like struggling to keep myself awake? This ain't good.
Been informed that we'll receive our Chinese 'O' level results during 12 August. Hope I'll be able to score. =x I really really did studied for CHINESE for the first time in my life and even when my friends asked me to accompany them to school to find their teacher I did. Why? I want to study. I got serious headache the day before 'O' level, I still force myself to study. Why? I want to excel. For the very first time in my entire life, I feel like doing my best for the exam, really. PSLE, seriously, tell me who went to study? Read comics or play computer more likely. Now, no more joking matters. I really went to study for the exam, so I hope I can score. All that's left for me now is to pray hard.
-Stupid Mitchelle! It's time for you to wake up from your dreams and get into the reality of this world.
-&if you don't lose something, you won't gain something. <3
and I miss you already
5:49 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008 Y
Well, maybe its because of time. It really makes a big difference, whether is it today, yesterday or even a few years before. We always do things that'll make us regret, but we can no longer change the fact anymore. Sometimes when we just need to apologize and everything goes back to normal, but our pride stopped us from saying it.
Nothing much to say, lets just leave it here.
-I'll just remember it with my heart, never expressing it out.
and I miss you already
6:59 PM
Friday, August 01, 2008 Y
I just seems to have not enough sleep! Gosh, been sleeping at eight plus these few days and yet I'm like getting sleepy during lessons? This is irritating. =x Hope I won't have sore throat before the oral, which means I have to refrain from eating CHOCOLATES and too much fried food. Also, I must reduce the cups of soft drinks I drink a day, to prevent myself from getting a cough. xD I really need a break. (:
Then, I don't really know whether or not the teacher will call my mum. He say needs to discuss...which is like so irritating. Bet I'll get called since I failed the TWO (die die must count for L1R5) subjects, English AND Humanities. The funny thing is, I studied the most for this two subject, others were like 'I can catch up later during prelims'. Then in the end, I fail this two subjects. Feeling so demoralized now. Hope I can improve on it when its PRELIMS. 19 August, Oral. Got to work hard for it. It may help me reach my A1 hopefully. (: Going to do homework, even if I'm feeling sleepy. I got my potato chips to motivate me. (:
I don't know what perks me up, but I know what lets me have a good sleep! (: CHOCOLATES! xD Its fattening though. xD
and I miss you already
4:31 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset