haiz...
i m so dead...
failed my 2nd eng test...
results worse than my 1st test...
haiz...
this thing really affects me a lot a lot...
haven do ss hw yet...
chiniz and maths 2day gt hw...
haiz...
y m i still so ill fated??
i am really really tired...
2day's match lost again...
but gals...
u guys did really really well...
much much better den the previous match...
btw...
i repeat...
i do not fear tt i will b caned or not...
but take note...
my phone might b confiscated coz of my poor eng results...
haiz...
i m rally really really depressed nowadays...
so if i haf bad attitude 2wards u guys/gals...
i apologise 4 tt...
seriously...
i really really really feel lyk crying this few days...
juz by typing this i omost cry alr...
T-T...
may b this will make me feel better...
haiz...
if oni i can end my life soon...
if oni...

我累了...
我希望我真的能夠讓你對我的學業而感到驕傲。
但是，事實證明了一切。
我辦不到，我真的辦不到。
我累了...
我真的希望我的生命能夠就這樣結束...

ok...
missed out 1 point yesterday...
i nv complete my chiniz test paper...
tts spells D-O-O-M 4 me...
haiz...
i really really cant take it le lor...
if i really haf 2 gif up i am willing 2 do so...
gif up on friendships...
gif up on games...
gif up on leisure...
gif up on everything...
i m willing 2 do so...
but...
theres 1 questions tt bothers me...
is it worthwhile 4 me 2 do all those??
is it??
i seriously dunno...
all i noe now is the results of my tests shall decide my fate...
my future...
my whole life...

haiz....
my death news has juz been announce...
eng test has more den half the class failed again...
haiz...
if i really failed this test again,
i dun think i will haf the courage 2 go home...
if really is lyk tt hor,i think i will juz deliver my bag and will home ba...
haiz...
if i failed 2 eng test hor,
i will really go and commit suicide ba...
i fun even haf the courage 2 face 2day's chiniz uncompleted test paper...
T-T...
i really wan 2 pass me eng test...
ar!!!!!!!!
ps...
dun disturb me this few days 4 unnecessary stuff...
i really haf no mood 2 bother myself wif those...
eg of this stuff are lyk fights/quarrel between friends and a lot more...
haiz........

boo!!!!!!!!
feel lyk posting again ^^
2day gt eng and maths test??
nah...
oni gt eng test...
the maths test is juz the continuing of the previous test 4 another 15 min...
the eng test was a freako lar...
so damn hard...
juz found out 2day tt phy test is on fri and not 2ml...
yay!!!!!
haha.........
2day gt a lot a lot of hw...
but chem dun nid do so ealy...
coz mon den nid 2 hand up...
hehe...
2 tell u the truth,
the testSSSSSSSSSSSSS next week is a lot a lot...
and yet next week i will be poning lesson a lot a lot oso lar...
lol....
not really poning...
but is due 2 the bball matches held next week...
3 in 1 week leh...
so funny lar...
dun noe how 2 haf the tests lar...
mon match...
tues workshop...
wed match...
thurs CIP...
fri match...
lol...
so busy lor...
den not mani days staying back...
so how 2 haf tests??
i dunno...
hehe...
btr do my hw le...
till next time...
^^

yoohoo....
so happ 2day....
coz yesterday counted my ang bao le ^^...
lol...
not much $$$ coz haf 2 put in bank 1...
so dun think tt i gt mony 2 treat u guys =p
lol...
playing 'bleach training' now...
veri childish game lar...
but hu cares??
i always play childish games one ^^
hehe...
sian sian sian sian SIAN!!!
gt 2 or 3 tests 2ml....
1 day leh...
so unfair...
haiz....
den thurs gt 1 fri gt 1 and mon gt 1...
ar!!!!!!!!
y so mani tests at 1 go???
harm me leh...
cant play or enjoy at all...
lyk this where gt HAPPY new year???
more lyk a SAD new year...
i dun care if the tchers are reading this post a not...
i say wad i think...
or rather type out wad i think...
wads more,wed gt training...
sain sian!!!!!!!
T-T

woohooo!!!!!!!
its lunar new year 2day...
and ye i lose $$ le...
so sad lor...
lost abt $2 to $3 leh...
a lot??
hehe...
but nvm lar...
play 4 fun oni...
i still rmb the 5 cents game wif my cousins...
lol...
so fun...
so happy leh...
mokmok say might gif me ang bao on wed...
hehe...
so happy when i heard this news...
lol...
mus rmb brg oranges 4 mokmok...
hehe...
so fun...
but sad sad...
2ml mus study le...
wed gt eng and maths test....
haiz...haf 2 study 4 it...
and wads more mus score well 4 the eng....
failed the previous test...
T-T....
and jie jie dun believe tt when i told her...
coz i was stil smiling tt day...
but does she noes tt i m juz putting up a strong face??
i was really sad 1...
and yet mrs chua say cant add marks...
T-T....
so mus...a MUS 2 score well 4 this coming test...
2ml going out 2 eat wif my dad's friends...
sad lor...
i go there is lyk a stranger 2 everi1 else...
haiz...
rather stay at home 2 study...
maths gt retest is so happy but...
y so early???
and den wed still haf 2 crap wif the chiniz tcher...
if theres her lesson 1st...
den if gt poa den can die le...
coz mrs wang say might haf a test next lesson...
wah....
so scary lor...
this new year sure happy 1....
coz 2day alr laugh until stomach pain....
cant think of the remaining days...
and more thing...
wed mus brg oranges...
4 wad u may ask....
2 claim ang bao from the coach xp...
lol....
rmb gals....
den can bully the coach ^^
lol....
tts all ppl...
wish me luck 4 wed's testS ^^

freako...
being force to migrate le...
sad leh...
but..
heck care lar...
i dun wanna b bothered by tt...
i still wan my happy mood 4 new year...
juz realize tt i m childish...
coz my jie jie sae so...
but actually...
i was even more childish b4 lor...
but the fact has made me more strong and matured...
but now went back 2 those days where ... was wif me...
kinda childish sia...
seems 2 me tt i really nid 2 b left alone soon...
may tt will allow me to go back 2 normal??
mayb...
been having the feeling of committing suicide lately...
duno y leh...
feel as if tt life has no more meaning...
mum treats me lyk a maid...
sch treats meas if i was a machine...
bro and others treat me lyk a rubbish...
and no 1 treats me lyk a human...
sian sia...
mayb 1 day u guys dun c me in sch...
i might haf go to my afterlife...
stressed up sia lately...
hardly a rest...
hu has a gun??
a real one mind u...
can lend me so as to shoot my head wif it??
plz??
i m so tired from living...

stupid man...
forcing ppl 2 migrate...
i m not going 2 migrate yet...
until really no choice den i will...
coz still dun understand the new thingy yet...
o0o ya...
new years coming...
HAPPY NEW YEAR everybody...
i wish everyone a good year this year =)
kinda bored this new year...
the celebration not as nice as last year...
coz jiejie nv sing...
lol...
ok...
i m being lame now...
1 veri veri veri bad news 4 the bball team...
i haf injured my right hand xD...
oni left wif 1 finger unharmed 4 now...
how 2 play???
i oso dun noe...
sad rite...
lol...
being really lame le lor...
wed haf 2 crap during chiniz lesson...
coz gt wad...
oral practise...
super lame lor...
lyk we nv had oral b4...
still haf 2 write wad...
script or points abt the topic???
and its a grp work???
super lame sia...
o0o well...
guess its a time 4 me 2 crap somemore ba...
crap wif hwee chin ^^
and 2day b4 sch starts oso veri funny....
van started 2 go a bit crazy...
i think coz of me ba...
i went and di siao her wad xp...
after which went helped dan square...
carry oranges...
den followed the vp around the sch...
and i was running here and there lar....
then sat not even 1/2 an hour haf 2 go cook food...
sian leh...
after the whole thing gt meeting...
den gt into grps...
in which i was sabo 2 b 1 of the grp leader!!!!!
WTH lar...
so frustrated man....
haf 2 hunt 4 jie's kor 2 come...
and his friend lor...
if not i die!!!
the tcher will haunt 4 me...AR!!!!
the design leh...
i dunno leh...
dun even noe the place how 2 design...
if not wad??
design an imaginary place ar??
cant lor...
hack lar....
so frustrated lor...
sch reopens and guess wad...
gt tests and the remaining 3 days(at least 1 per day)
and gt training immediately on wed!!!!!
nvm...
tt day ask coach 4 ang bao xp...
i so evil sia...
haha....
mok dun wan gif me...
she ah ma dun gif me...
T-T....
but i dun mind coz she not really my ah ma....
i wan my sara mummy and beatrice jiejie gif me ang bao....
coz they both married le wad ^^
guess after reading this u guys are scolding me/shouting out le....
haha....
haf 2 do hw ltr...
cant leave it till new year...
2ml stay at home...
dun wish 2 go out...
scared ltr meet enemy...
den die!!!!!
haha...
dun think will meet much of dem lor...
mayb they all fly/went other places ^^
den dun nid c dem...
yay!!!!
haf 2 study during new year!!!!
boo!!!!
lol...
i veri veri veri veri....and i mean VERI bored now...
how???
dun wan play games....
dun wan start doing hw so early...
plan 2 do hw at 3.00pm of 2day...
lol...
i super sian now...
how?????????
o0o ya....
i 4gt!!!!!!!!!!!
i 4gt 2 eat the chocolates tt i haf in the fridge 2day!!!!
haha....
ltr go eat xp...
any1 wans 2 go out wif me 2ml???
i veri free wor...
wan go out....
if not stay at home will b lyk 90% kana scolding...
hu wans????
quick quick....
oni 17/1/07...
not others...
i veri free so wan go out...
mayb u guys are reading this post ltr den 17/1/07...
lol....
o0o well...
those hu are reading this post b4 the 17/1/07,
plz call me/sms me abt ur ans ok...
and 1 big big gd news i juz saw...
there is a MATHS RETEST ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so so so so so so so so so damn happy leh!!!!!
can tell i guess...
haha...
dotz...................................................................................................................
ok...
i m lame ^^
going 2 tag others....
but wad shu i say???
cya ppl....
hmmm.....wad shu i tag on other ppl??

i m tired man...
so tired...
sick of it le...
cant blieve tt i will actually gif up so fast...
the stress u all gave was too much 4 me to control...
i wan a rest man...
ppl wanted 8 subjs...
so do i...
but i cant take the stress its gifing anymore...
i wan a rest...
there r 2 ways 4 me to do this...
1 is gif up phy...
and the 2nd is gif up bball...
my mum thinks tt i shu gif up bball...
but i cant!!!
i nid it 2 graduate!!!
if not,i will haf 2 wad...
stay 4 sec 5 and take another time of 'O' lvl??
no thxs dude...
den i oni haf 1 choice??
nono...
yup yup??
i dunno...
seriously...
i wan a rest...
i wanna leave...
i wanna die...
i think i will really breakdown 2ml...
tests and tests and tests and MORE TESTS!!!
cant take it man...
mayb if i die,
everithing will b solved??
ya...mayb....
i noe i was once dead but tts in the heart...
but now,
not juz my heart...
but oso my mind and body...
i wish i can juz die...
對不起，我办不到你的要求了。
我的無能讓你們大家失望。
在我心裏的千言萬語，是在寫不下來。
只知道我的錯誤，讓你們對我感到絕望。
心裏的話，也只能用‘對不起’來説。
我希望能得到你們的諒解。
原諒我。
我不能夠實現我的願望。
我不能夠讓你們真正了解我，
因爲我自己也不了解自己，
有要如何讓你們了解我？
對不起．．．

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
tts it lor...
leave me alone lar u heartless creature!!!!!!
bluff ppl 1.......
or shu i say oni noe how 2 scare ppl....
or even worse...
threaten ppl!!!!
i dun nid u do all those things and say tt i MUS haf one...
which is false totally!!!!!!
i admit...
i may not b the best but cant u c tt i m trying my best le???
i haf 2 juggle my hw and 2 cca....not 2 forget abt the lessons,tests and stress!!!!!!!
i alr veri sian le lor...
u btr dun force me anymore...
if not i request 4 a change of class den u noe...
i go 3a1 den u noe...
at least dun haf 2 c ur face is gd enuf le...
its juz tt i haf 2 gif up on POA tts all...
i will nv gif up on PHY coz i wanted 2 study it e veri moment my bro started his sec 3 life...
which is abt say...e time i was p6??
ya...
but POA was even eariler...
the time when i was p5??
ya...
so e subj i will gif up is Phy if u guys really force me too much...
den i go 2 A1!!!!!
and NOT B1!!!!!!!!!!!
if not i rather stay in D class and c ur face coz igt a greater enemy at B class lor......
haiz........
i seriously was hurt by wad u said man....
i lyk trusted u and yet u u u...
i gif up...
no tears man...
no tears...
4 i blieve tt it will b a waste of tears if i cry becuz of such things...
i seriously regreted...
i shouldnt haf agreed...
den u hurt me....
juz bcuz i m in D class??
juz becuz D class take 8 subj???
if tts the case,
i rather u leave me alone...
i mean it...
i hate myself...
i haf enuf le.......
i haf 2 say tt i can nv lyk 3D1 coz its way too stress!!!!
and not 2 4gt the scar tt i will always haf in my hart now...
no wonder i find this few chiniz song so nice...
esp the lyrics...
so nice...
not 2 4gt tt 2ml is valentine...
but so wad...
i m a loner...
hu would care abt me???
no 1...
i bet no 1 will...

背叛（曹格）：
緊緊相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放開不問一句
say goodbye
當做最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快

兩只戀人（曹格）：
春天散步夏天看海秋天數落葉
（我們）一直沒有煩惱
一直沒有爭吵
讓每天像糖一樣甜
冬天飄雪我是棉被溫暖你的夜
一直在你身邊
一直愛到永遠
你就負責靠着我的肩

這些歌詞很美吧？
我很喜歡呢 ^^

boo!!!
kept on boo-ing ppl nowadays...
dunno y leh...
juz feel lyk doing tt ^^
btw...
this skin is a bit dull...
not many pics and a bit plain...
but i lyk it ^^
hehe...
tell u guys 1 bad news...
we lost again!!!
but 1 small bit of hope 4 me...
coz after new year i may b able 2 play!!!
all rite man...
no more bench sitting 4 me ^^
i really wanna play lor...
but coach say cant T-T
ltr going 2 buy my ankle guard...
den can slowy start 2 recover ^^
i mean recover 2 play in the match ^^
btw...
i kind of lyk getting the feeling of wanting 2 go back 2 pri 3-5 days...
those days were the most peaceful days 4 me...
dunno y but tts wad i felt...
o0o well...
maths and chiniz didnt score full marks at all...
maths was 29.5 due to my stupid mind...
change 'income' to 'amount'...
den lose my 0.5 marks...
T-T...
损失分得很冤枉
den my chiniz was lyk 48 marks...
but its lyk...
i not enuf time 2 change ans...
which is actually not coz mr chuagave more time when ms woong say mus stop after 40 mins!!!
den in the end others hu were slower den me hu juz nice complete on time oso started 2 complete!!
so unfair man...
den ss and chem both gt failures...sad lor...
oni can hope tt i not 1 of dem can le...
btw...
i miss van in my chiniz class!!!
no more living dictionary T-T
den nobody 2 agure wif during chiniz lesson...
not saying u hwee chin...
u and i is crap while vanezz and i is agrue...
but 1 thing 4 sure...
i miss mr chua yong meng as my classparent and maths tcher!!!!
not saying tt ms tan is not good...
but she gives us too much hw!!!
i prefer my chua yong meng lor...
he is more patint and can understand my qns btr...
dunno y...but i start 2 miss last year tchers...
mrs wong,mr chua,mr yap,mrs chan,mrs tey and miss sim lar...
i dun miss mr wong,mdm ang,and mrs abdul...
coz i dun really lyk dem..
dunno y...
some tchers 4 this year is nice...
4 eg. ms tan wen yi(mus state coz gt 3 ms tan teaching me),fan lao shi(the chiniz tcher) and ms li ^^
woah...
if oni all those tchers i lyk can teach me...
tt will be a dream come true ^^
but the dream is too good 2 b true...T-T
haiz...
post until here...
till next time ^^
*mayb i will change skin soon...when i use the com and not laptop ^^

wow....i guess i manage 2 use the com 2day sia...
quite nice...
but bro's laptop or rather the sch laptop dun haf messenger and now,i m going 2 download ^^
lol...
kinda bored and is now a bit bored since i dunno wad 2 do...
but the sped of the com here 4 the modem is kinda slow...
and i mean it lor...
use the com(not laptop) is way much faster den the laptop...
sian lar...
this com is gd coz able 2 play games wif btr graphics oni ba i think...
can find anything else 2 blog 2day...
but juz wanna say....wish all luck 4 their tests coz 2ml gt poa test!!!
argh!!!!
buai ^^

back 2 post...
long long time nv post le...
this few days haf been dreadful...
tues lost to HYSS...
watch the metch can cry out blood lor...
sad i cant play lar...
even AFTER NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!
its lyk...WTF??
i wanted 2 play in the match den at least i did my part 4 the team...
but now,i haf 2 do my part by sitting at the bench??
sad lar...
after new year is mayb can play but mummy wun even allow me 2 do tt lar...
T-T so sad lor...
wed had training and on tt day,i omost had a nervous breakdown...
coz on thurs haf 2 test...which is continuous 1...
wah...cant concentrate on the hw/topics/revision lar...
cant absorb in2 my small brain(which is now low on RAM =])
den thurs came and the maths test was ok but oni the chiniz can go die...
the tcher came and said oni 40mins is given...
den i was lyk in a shock and immediately started scribbling down the 'ans'tt i think it is on2 the 4pages of paper...
den jus nice u noe...finish excatly within 40 mins...
coz not fan laoshi give the test but is ms woong...
den change tcher to mr chua...
he GAVE MORE TIME!!!
and there i was lyk an idiot...
scribbling on the paper 2 rush on time!!!
i was lyk...WTH??
waste of my strength scribbling so fast lar...
bet lots of mistakes when i get back...
this time sure lose 2 sara le (i dun think i ever won her...did i??)
o0o well...
den fri...
scribbling on the foolscap coz ss test...
abt not housing but employment...
freak lar!!
housing lyk much more easier den employment...
den didnt finish the conclusion...juz 1 more sentece u noe...
T-T
sad lar...
den went 4 meeting at centre3...
which was held at tinkerbox and not the dirty ants crawling room... xp
the centre3 meeting was attended by most of the females and not e males...
and all of us...including the tchers started gossiping...
haha...
so fun lar...
kinda relax down at tt time...
ms sharmini...
u were WRONG!!!
i do not envy the tchers...
but i haf hatred 4 some of dem =]
dun worri..not u =]
den 2dae...
stuck at hw doing hw coz nearly breakdown yesterday...
dunno the reason though x]
kinda sad coz not being able 2 go out =[
o0o well...
guess type a lot 4 this post...
juz a message in chiniz...wan in english version plz tag and tell ^^
若真的有一天你離我而去，我不會哭泣，
我只會對你說最後一句：“我願接受你的決定。”

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