Tuesday, November 24, 2009 Y
Okay, maybe I don't or rather stopped updating my blog so frequently, but it's just the fact. First, no one's reading it, well maybe some souls use it to go to other's blog, which means it acts as a middleman. Otherwise, I seriously doubt that people actually bother about the existence of this very blog. Next, I don't actually knows what to update on. My life? Please, it's boring and stupid, so I won't talk about it. Last, school(or maybe not so much) sucks. Not the people, but just the whole feeling thing I presume. I have no issue with people there or what, and I realise that there are a lot of people whom I know are from JJ too. I don't even know what I want to be in the future now, I know that I keep saying that I want to be an accountant or work in the financial sector in the future, yet I hate economics to the core, kind of contradicting isn't it? Then, poly or JC? I mean, I've already spent a year in JC already, yet I still have the urge of transferring. This is so messed up.
&tears is just another outlook of expression for sadness...
and I miss you already
9:10 AM
Tuesday, September 08, 2009 Y
Great, blogger is still malfunctioning. Cant see things properly at all. Not that I give a damn on what is happening, but wanted to revive, yet i think i should just leave it be. Everything is so screwed around me, and i don't even know who should i trust or confine with, for everyone around me are all hypocrites, including me.
and I miss you already
7:45 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009 Y
This blog's dead, or rather I just didn't wanted to update. Too many things have occurred, yet I didn't seem to change at all. Lets just leave everything in this way, where nothing have ever happened. Maybe this way, it'll be easier for me to continue my own way of life. (:
and I miss you already
10:57 AM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 Y
Splitting headache is equivalent to a moody day. I can't concentrate, tears keep surging out and sometimes even feeling of giddiness. I'm really glad that exams have been postponed, otherwise it'll be exam and headache which can result to my death. Everything is back on track, and all I can say is relieved. I'm feeling much much better, especially a lot of thoughts have been running through my head nowadays. I'll pick up from here and learn from mistakes. Maybe it'll be slow, but I know that I've what it takes to carry on. No matter how tough JC life will be, I'll score well and let XYZ know that we are not weak.
*wink, jj people should know who is XYZ. (:Actually, there is multiple meaning is what one is typing, but it is up to the writer's decision whether to disclose it. You can actually write something which seem to others that it is praising the person, but only the writer knows what it's actual meaning is, maybe to mock or scold, or maybe it is really for praising or not.
&i won't linger anymore...
and I miss you already
2:47 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 Y
I need a break, from events, emotions, everything. It's crushing me down and I don't like it. Everything and all. I need to grow up, I need to be mature. I need to stop being so childish and wilful. Nothing goes right, and nothing will if I do not play my part well enough.
I'm tired, really really tired. I keep thinking, too much until it's overbored. Sometimes I just want a break, from everything, or to see your face again to calm myself down. I don't know what I should do now, I feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down but I couldn't. I need to stay strong so as to not add to their worries. I'm a failure, a real failure.
&it's time to wake up from the fantasy and learn to differentiate them.
and I miss you already
8:46 PM
Monday, June 01, 2009 Y
Their songs are nice! =D
THE ONLY WAY THAT I KNOW HOW TO FEEL
by "boys like girls"
Before you let me fall,
Kill me so I don't feel it at all
Push my body up against the wall
And pick your poison
Cuz everything feels wrong
And I don't know where I belong
Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cuz that's the only way that I know how to feel
Maybe it's a phase
Maybe I'll break out of it someday
Maybe this is just my twisted fate
I always feel like everything is wrong
And I don't know where I belong
Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cuz that's the only way that I know how….
To feel your arms around my neck
I'm suffocating with regret from all the wasted hours spent
Believing I was never meant
To touch the face of something real
These sewn up scars will never heal
But I put down a deal
Cuz that's only way that I know how to feel
Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave in pieces
Broken and bruised
Take me for granted
Make me…I promise that you'll
Never keep on fallin' to pieces
Misery is company
Cuz I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cuz that the only way that I know how to feel
I know how to feel...
You're the only way that I know how to feel
and I miss you already
8:53 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 Y
為由對自己撒謊，才有勇氣繼續前進。唯有不悲傷往肚子裏吞，才有能力繼續下去。別人的話我可以不信，即使是真相，我也寧願相信你的謊言。是我笨，是我傻，但若不這麽做，我總會不知所措。
I need to change, and I need to start everything again...
and I miss you already
7:35 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset