~WhOppiee!!~
nite of 28th noV



finAlly...i got somethin for myself not for others....trival stuff that makes mi feel good cuz hopefully i will look good too!!wahhaa thick skin rite??!!no la..i feel disgusted by myself actually...its like evry damn feature abt myself is like shit..my hair,eyes,face, n the list goes on n on...ok i'm wallowin in self hatred again...but i'll move on...

caught incredibles with bro n sis..not too bad actually n the stupid gal gave mi salted popcorn lorz!!hellO no brain ah i like sweet stuff lorz!!totally spoiled my pleasure of eatin popcorn sia!!~gggrrrr~

sometimes life is such that mayb when u thought u knew someone well enough....u tend to form certain expectations abt tis person..n when those r not met..the feelin of disappointment n hurt engulfs one because simply of the fact u placed that person in too high a position...above other elements essential in a human's life..

i'm an extremely stubborn person who emphasizes on pride...when i feel tt i hv been cast aside by any party..i loathe makin the first move because mayb of the fear of bein rejected again...but guess wat it meant so much to mi....tt i actually made the first move n msged u despite feelin sore abt the absences...but i didnt get a reply...so i decided...mayb tryin so hard is furtile...



~it takes two to clap....one sided effort is furtile!~

Florence

yest....


finally yest i got out of the house to meetsome of my beloved peeps...managed to drag myself out of the house n suppressed the feelin of worthlessness..things gotten so bad the past few days tt i didnt even wan to go out to eat lunch...haiz....BuT seriously glad tt i went out yest...it realli cheered mi up tons not to mention jac's tarts n sweets put a smile on my face!!

met ling n her fren grace for lunch at westmall cuz they still havin papers next few days so actually went there to accompany them n give them moral booster also la....*grins sheepishly*...in the end i ended up talkin quite a fair bit to ling...sorrie manz didnt mean to distract u la!! hope u score for ur last 2 papers n u'll b free ya!!lookin forward to receivin ur sms when u done with ur papers la heez...later in the evenin went for an early dinner at tis new place...seriously thumbs up for their ambience lorxz...its jus so so conducive for talkin n jus chillin...n we stayed for like 2 hrs havin the much appreciated catchin up n heart to heart talk....i missed those times la!!hang in there gal n u gotta make ur firm stand soon ya...n i always mean the phrase "bein there for any close pals should u need someone" k~!!we realli should do tis more often lorz...n i'll nvr forget abt the tealeaves n rosebuds lorz...damn funny cant believe u would do somethin as crazy as that wahaha....n yes i'm always perfectly SaNe....ask anyone lor...they'll agree with mi hahaha thanxz for listenin to mi ramble its been so so long since i bared my deepest fears n secrets n hope tt u didnt find it borin listenin la heez...hmmm...in fact hope tt i was as gd a listener as u last nite....

~its still cloudy..where's thy sun?~

PS: JAc hope u read my blog cuz wan to tell u mayb.. jus mayb fri goin to gym not possible for mi lei...cuz that day seems like the only free day where my mum,sis n bro is free....in fact things not realli confirmed yet..i will definitely tell u the ans tonight cuz noone home till at nite la!!!thanx for understandin...how abt pushin it to next wk??when u free??

Florence

HAtE


i hate bein told to shUt up...i hate fish....i hate boredom...i hate waitin for frens to sms cuz they never come....i hate waitin for others at station controls....i hate bein pretentious....i hate bein scolded for nothin....i hate ppl to touch my stuff esp when they noe it is not theirs...i hate assam fish...i hate ppl who always haolian jus because they want to hear other's comments..i hate ppl sittin at a particular spot watchin other ppl's move.....i hate goin to workouts alone....i hate it when ppl noe i am there but ignore mi....i hate it when ppl whom i would always place them as my priority suddenly cancel plans we made...i hate the upliftin to great heights n bein plummented below..i hate the feelin of immense disappointment when i learnt the fact frens doesnt seem to be that reliable or wat happened to the notion "i'll b there for u?"..i hate it when the mask of happiness n carefree comes up despite the fact i hurt so badly inside...i hate it when ppl claim they noe mi well when they dunno anythin...i hate bein lied to..i hate guessa other's thoughts..i hate bein brushed aside when " i asked do u wan to tell mi anythin"...when i noe there's more to meet the eye...i hate makin the first move askin whether u wan to meet up n havin the invite flung back to my face....

i hate evrythin abt myself...i look in the mirror n i go "hey wat a piece of shit" n guess wat the reflection smiled n agreed....so its official....i'm jus prone to bein hate...cuz i loathe myself..my life...

Florence

got this fr jac's blog pretty cool n apt ba....so here goes...dunno abt the unnatural hair colour part though wahaha

G:

Your Beauty lies
in Individuality. Different, amazing, and all your
own. You like be set apart
from all others and most love that you do. You are
solitary at times, but for
the most part, there is no greater compliment to
you than someone telling you
that you are different. You're most likely a bit of
a fighter and you hate it
when anyone attempts to change who you are. You
wear what you want, look how you
want and don't let anyone tell you what do to. You
can be a little immature at
times and have trouble dealing with authority and
asking others for help. You
like to do things yourself and are independent
almost to a fault. But, people
still find your individuality amazing and the fact
that no matter what happens
or what anyone else anyone thinks about it, you
will not change who you are.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Fire Animal: White Tiger Color:
Bold Colors, Odd
Colors Song: Just They Way I Am by Angel
Expression: Smirk

Gemstone:
Bloodstone Mythological Creature: Phoenix,
Dragon Sign:
Leo Planet: Pluto
Hair Color: Unnatural Colors Eye
Color:
Amber

Quote:
"You laugh because I'm different. I laugh
because you're all the same."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
brought to you by Quizilla

Florence

~Almak!~~
nite of 19th Nov....


How can the results b like tt!!!that stupid skinny vampirish sly should jus offer his position to Olinda lorz...cuz he cant sing....he growls he tink he rock star or in boy band ah??!! tryin to charm all those gals...aiyo wat happened to the taste of singaporean females??!! so absurb lorz! cant beieve they vote talent over i dunno commericial packagIN??!!haiz seriously hopes taufik wins if not realli a disgrace to singapore if he is crowned an idol!!....no offense to anyone in particular but heyz thats wat i feel lorz......

i dread the comin of tml.....it spells doom.....cuz she is comin back....i can feel it in my bones manz....i jus wanna run away fr all the chaos which will sure b bound to come...haiz haiz haiz...dun ruin my live n my relationship with my family lorz....u so free nothin to do rite ....go n find frens la...i mean if u can la..since u so damn bloody picky choosin only those u deem worth!!oh Prrrrrtttt!!*sticks out tongue!*....fine fine i shall stop if not i seriously will go on n on....

i forfeited a workout today cuz too lazy ...nah i overslept la only woke up like erhm...1120 ba...then cant b bothered to go liao!! haha anyone wans to make plans for outings next wk??!!i'm dyin to watch movies n meetin up with my gals!! hahah save mi fr boredom sia!!haha it was only on tue when my papers ended but it seemed so long ago!! i wan to do so many things durin this hols....seriously hope this hols wont b as screwed up as the other cuz of some misunderstandings.....haiz i'll jus leave it to fate lorz...i tink that person should noe who r u ba....

Florence

~such fun!~
nite of 15th noV!!!


hahahaa had a super tirin day on Sat lorz...meet with my not so little cousins who were in spore for the weekend..manz they realli have grown in height lorz...sakali next time i will b the shortest among them...*scary thought sia!*..we meet them for lunch in town went swensons there...somehow or rather didnt realli enjoy my banana split...mayb cuz too full la...haha after that went to taka n suntec there for dinner...gosh the roasted duck noodles at cystal to die for lorz...evrythin was great...realli helped to ease the aches in my legs n back..n mi n family actually went to the fountain of wealth n walked there...so funny rite..nvr expected myself to b such a person..but jus for the fun of it la..so jus gave it a shot lor..

didnt managed to go swimmin with jac n her bro...but i still went to uncle's place for dinner later in the day...it has become more of a custom to spend most of our public hols together...mayb...we r realli becomin sentimental old fools....haahaa...tml is my last paper yipppppppeeeeeee....cant wait for the wretched torture to b over so i can finally have fun without feelin so guilty..ooooooppppppsssss..wahaha

i gotta start workin out liao.....before my package expires...lala...hope i dun get too bad a muscle ache la!!oh ya saw MTV awards today!so cool man! i wanna b part of that scene n see those stars la!!woohohoooo!!

PS:jac how abt goin swimmin on a wkday instead??!!the waters will b cleaner u noe...hahaha!!

Florence

~oH YeaH!~
nite of 9th nov...



u noe wat one paper is already done so that only leaves one more...even though the paper today in my opinion was pretty tough la...as in have loads of blanks lorz..but jus realli glad that at least at least one freakin paper is over...so over n forgotten!!...so we decided to reward ourselves to a shoppin spree??!!..lalala...realli happie with my new clothes...erhm...jus realised tt recently i bought quite a handful of new tops...hmmm....wat can i say..??...a gal needs to slurge once a while la..n boy it felt good despite changing into countless outfits lorz..but it was realli fun la!!hahaha...motivated to trim down..inspired by pictures of other women actually....i dun wan to go back n face those knowin looks...sly winks..insiuatin comments like "wa...good life n food huh!!"..like diaoz..wat the hell....i want to prove them wrong..tt i dun lack self-determination...n i can do it....jus to spite u!!...*bleah*..always felt insecure abt myself...be it in terms of the smallest details....like one's hair,..face...body...lets disect...arms,..tummy...legs.. to b precise..it ceratainly did not help tt the incident happened yonders ago...seemed to b linked to my size....i hate it....i so dun like others to call mi giant...like wat the ****...somemore that person was not jokin..neither was she tt close to mi...wat a B***** sia...but i jus beared n grin lorz...but i nvr forgot....how could i...when evryone seemed to b obsessed abt this issue...last time u wont catch mi wearin anythin without sleeves n all...but mayb time has allowed mi to b more accept myself...n my body more graciously....but in spore...all the gals out there seem to b so thin...the comparison nvr seems to end....today i saw this gal called christine...she was slim...then she bloated to...like double her size..n when i saw her today....she was lookin a lot healthy..n yes more contented i suppose...i wish i could b truely comfortably with my skin...but i still find it hard.....


~contentment...with thyself...!~

Florence

~its comIn!!~
afternoon of 8th noV



do u noe wat today means???....it means that my first paper happens tml!!!aaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggghhhhhh.....hmmm...but at least by tml i will one paper down...n half of my life as well..jus let mi scrap thr la....n i promise i will attempt not n b so mean...wahaha...just let mi n addy pass together sia!!...n jac thanx gal for the new blogskin...that gal in the blog actually looks pretty sexy despite readin a bk!!...i wan to b that!!...haha imagine flo the sexy goddess??!!...hahah nah cant make it anyway...but i realli had fun yest...jus chillin... n of cuz havin fun...shoppin,eatin,munchin tidbits while watchin the dvd with nani,jac n wee...manz this wat i call a well-spent sun lorx!!...cant wait for exams to b over so i can hv a swingin good time...but yet scared cuz i'm jus not prepared enough...haiz wat a double edged sword...

~mixed emotions.....~

Florence

~oH yes!!~

evenin of 3rd nov

i feel good lala lala....so good lala so good lalaa....i'm done with the essay great manz i finally complete something slightly before the deadline....wahahaha.....i feel dajmn good abt my achievement ...n u noe wat.dinner's goin to b great..sambal prawns..family receipe of fried chicken n spinah..drool ppl..hahaha goota go liao...n start preparin for dinner...so till the next time...

CiaoZ!!

~hmmmmm.....the aroma is jus killin mi!!~manz...salivatin liao!~

Florence