~work takin its toll~

nite of 29th sep...

jus when i was abt to type an entry i suddenly rem that i hv to take a freakin annoyin quiz...which i of cuz havent read the notes n all...n the deadline is tml...jus great....my pathetic life revolves ard assignments,tut,dealines,presentations,now quizzes???!!wat the heck is the world doin to mi??...turnin mi to a geeko sia!!k k 's will blog someother time....while i attempt the quiz...wish mi luck guys...


~ewwwww.....another quiz?!~

Florence

~normalcy?~
nite of 28th sep...


things started off damn awkward after the confrontation..but after makin clear the issues n jus talkin...i sincerely hope that u get my pt la..so that another thing like that can b avoided in the future lorz...it not exactly fun to keep playin the role of the bad guy who has to tell ppl wat the heck is wrong..its tirin to b that one person who has to b so blunt to get the pt across...haiz...hope that things r truely settled cuz i dun tink i hv any strenght for any show down..n might jus admit defeat n bo chap liao..today ..had breakfast with mariam...its been such a long time....that actually took time to adjust to... addy finally came so we managed to finished evrythin on time n trooped down for no theory lec...then went to workout...muscles gettin slack as in feel lethagic cant even do the freakin lunges properly..somethin which i nvr could do well hahaha...now legs in particular achin??.....big time...

after that went to catch a movie...after yonders sia!!"dodgeball"super funny was laughin like an ass...n my oh my..addy laughin even harder than mi..that is wat i call...rare sight lorz...dun deny addy u were slappin ur hand on ur slightly raised leg while howlin away ..though i admit i contributed a bit to the laughter la haha...great stress-reliever..haha finally got jilly's prezzie..hope she likes it....

n to a ceratin someone...i'm glad that we cleared the air yest..i noe that i havent been exactly updatin u on my life too..n i do noe now my importance in ur life...hahah gettin swell headed liao...thanzx for jus talkin...yest was in a super lousy mood...when i wrote that entry i didnt hv any ill meanin..jus a reflection n observation la...hahaha n yes i realli hope to c u soon too!!ya...i tink its amazin that despite us noein each other like for the first 3 months..we still r like closer frens than others ba...i reealli appreciate ur concern n will promise i'll wont b so stubborn la....keyword..try.....hahaha...


~missin ya!~

Florence

~confrontation!~
midnight

i tink that title encapsulates all...i hate confrontations...but yet they hv to occur in order for things to b cleared..why do i always feel like some freakin bad guy..who has to say all these type of stuff..i dun get it...i thought we were the victims n yet she is cryin like huh??!!....i hate them i hate the "i'm so ke lian"/ "i didnt mean it expressions"...u tink they mean anythin to mi??.....but i'm jus so so ...fedup...with mayb evrythin....myself in particular...here i am tinkin i would b doin good ...lettin u noe wat u obviously didnt noe....that now i feel like so fuckin shitty...cuz i'm always the meanie sayin those hurtful stuff..excuse i didnt..i jus say the unvanished truths..it hurts rite?!no glossy paint to glorify one realli does make a diff.....i didnt mean any harm ...cuz i still tink that it would b better that u noe it now n reflect on wat u exactly hv done n stop blamin others..rather than u live thr life without anyone tellin u wat the hell u did wtong...ya...thats y i say frankness is BleAh!!it makes one blurt out stuff u dun wan it to b said..but once it is out its like a dam pourin n cant b controlled...sometimes i realli do wish i'm not like that...then mayb i wont cause any more hurt to others...aiya...i also dunno how la...i guess sometimes when somethin is said or broken it cant b mended. i feel kinda physically sick...the type that u wan to cry to release evrythin.....but i cant....i dunno wat i'm feelin ...n i dun feel like talkin...i tink confrontations r jus plain nasty n drainin....i realli dunno wat else to say also..mayb its all myt fault...if only i kept my mouth shut....n pretend evrythin was fine ...then nothin of tis sort would have happened...so i guess it boils down to bein my fault....

~its all my fault~

Florence

~fickleness~
nite of 27th sep....


ya...isnt it weird that one day u r visible the next day u r not??!! hmm...am i feelin tis way or ppl in general hv cuz this feelin...well i agree with addy said it's not wat that happened that matters...though it bothers mi a LoT...but how to pick my fragments n move on...cuz its more fruitful tis way...no pt spendin time n energy wonderin y it happened or wat has gone wrong...i need to learn to focus n mayb the art of bein forgivin..hahaha i nvr mastered that trait cuz yes i do bear certain grudges...i caNt forget certain things that happened...n despite the ebbin of bitterness.. the stench is still there...no matter how much soap i use to get rid of the smells of horrors will forev remain in a corner of my heart...mayb its time i learnt to let go ...for the sake of others...for the sake of bein kinder to myself...for the sake of sanity...but lettin go is always hard...i noe that for sure..but for the peace of my mind ...i hv to..i jus need to learn how...


~someone teach mi n guide mi...~

Florence

~keepin mum!~
nite of 26th sep....


such a nice weather..cool winds blowin onto the skin..feelin so refreshed n energized..i jus luv such a nite...a nite of quietr reflection... today had a great time as usual with lin n jac!!hahah "swimmin our way" more like talkin lorz...

n i jus found out somethin...wat's the pt of even sayin somethin i truely feel??!!when all the time i get stopped in mid sentence/thought cuz i'm so mean/i'm so bad to hv such comments sprewin fr this vicious mouth of mine...i'm pretty much fedup of being told to wat i CAN say.....like wat the hell..either u take it or leave it lorz...so fine!!next time i wont say anything at all... so there!then noone canaccuse mi of bein somethin tt i dun tink i am...ya frankness is a trait i appreciate in all cuz that would mean no more tirin games of guessin wats on another's mind ...but if that is categorized as mean..then i realli got nothin else to say...so...next time dun u ask mi y i so quiet lorz...cuz if i dun say wats on my mind...wat else is there to say...cuz u're indirectly askin mi to b a dummy who says who others long to heard...which i'm not capable of butterin other ppl's asses...and thats so shllow!!which i refuse to be....

one more cem presentation to go....supposed to b researchin ...but i decided to blog abt this before i start...cuz i dun wan tis to b a chokin my channel passage...to b stuck within min...since i decided i wont b talkin that much i tink i better start bloggin more...
~accept mi as i am....~

Florence

You have Pink Wings! And, the name says it all.
Pink is a color which represents girly, young,
stubborn images, and you are a reflection of
it. Though many see you as spoiled and bratty,
you know its only because you know what you
want and how to get it. With adding on being
very stubborn, you are also very determined,
and you ALWAYS get what you want. People are
fooled by your girly exterior-you can prove
them wrong. Even though you seem young at
heart, you realize the world may not always
fair, and keep your distance with some.


What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
brought to you by Quizilla




chillin at home without anybody to disrupt these couple of hrs without anyone to disturb mi.....was bitchin earlier to my sis abt someone who made mi feel extremely pissed...i mean like who the hell u tink u r lorz..to tink i was nice n pretend nothin happen n even gave u a chance...n yet u did that ...wat a bitch...i dun care wat was the reason but that was not only plain rude but downright demeaning...u tink u only one capable of such actz...i'm jus afraid if i play the game with u u will noe for sure i'll win...cuz i will WiN lorz...so dun eva play games or mess ard with mi!!cuz some hv regreted it lorz...jus better dun make mi flare cuz when i do...i feel sorry for u cuz u will bear the brunt of the truths that noone probably said it straight at ur face lorz..but try mi.. I WiLL!...


~yakkin a plastic doll n slammin on the floor~
thats wat u'll b!...so dun u try to act pitiful to garner sympathy votes! schemer....

Florence

~a sense of achievement!~
morning of 24th sep


for the first time in a long while there was no hestiation or even tink of my headin for a blog entry...yippee!!i survived tis entire wk intact completed the essay FinallY...wanted to complete last nite...but couldnt take it ...so crawled to bed at 3...woke up n continued so now i'm lookin at my finished product feelin a sense of pride that i did it!!...lalaala jus feelin so happy that tis wk is done with the wkend comin n of cuz lookin forward to my swimmin date with jac n lin!!heez c sint life lookin up?!its amazin how one's mood vacillates when one is swarped by loomin n overwhelmin deadlines...

actually its kinda sad....that frens that u once thought they were the centre of ur earth r no longer...its like u didnt even have such a pal...the existence merely forgotten...name erased..mayb even face misplaced...the lack of meetin up...the updatinn of life is takin its tollin..i dun seem to matter n it hurts when u c no mention at all..not that i'm cryin for attention..but haiz its kinda difficult to put it down in words...i feel obliterated...fr ur existence...hahahaha n guess wat i'm not even on talkin terms to that guy that i once liked for so much n long.....maYB thats y they say they come n go...these ppl were once in our hearts till another comes to fill its cracks n space... i dunno where i'm goin with the entry n by rite i should hate typin because i hv been typin for my essay prior to bloggin but its weird that these fingers does not wan to stop...as if the mere movement of flying fingers across the keyboard can erase all the pain one feels... ya n mayb i'm wallowin in self-pity... feelin so sorry for myself...i hate this feelin of feelin weak n depressive....i long to realli b happy n laughter comin fr the heart...but can i??


~the heart feels burdened~

Florence

~Not for Ur eyes!~
nite of 20th Sep

feelin satisfied with my super gd dinner!!had my fav beef curry with salted egg,fried pork fillet...n today i had kaya toast!!Yumz..though it would hv been better if the bread was hotter n more butter lei!!haahaa here i am waitin for my course mates to come online to discuss project...tonite rite??...n cuz i havent had the time to actually type an entry....tis wk is serious helll.....jus wan to survive this wk intact n breathin lorz n today one down....had no theory test....n cantr forgive myself for the carelessness...haaahaa tink my outburst cry of anguish when i found out i made a major careless mistake...pretty scary sound comin fr throat though...8 marks lei...but yupz i Kao bei enough n whined abt it liao..hopin to pass with better grade to pull up my average lorz...cuz of my last quiz lost marks due to carelessness agaIN!!i hate tis sickenin fault of mine lorzz...

still hv alge test,presentation n cem assignment due...all within these comin two days!1so sucky rite??! but i dun hold much hope left for alge..cuz perpetually lost n jus learnt so many things which i had no idea..so not bankin on a pass la..hahaahavent even started the readin needed for the assignment.....i'm so screwed n havent been sleep enough n well.comin down with flu.like wtf all at the same time..it nvr rains but pours lorz...now i noe wat it meants sia...not bad spent quite a fair share of time with addy these two days n gettin to noe her habits better....hahaa..jus a thought...dun u guys hate it when other nosy ppl try so hard to look over things that u purposely dun wan them to lorz...likehello "pRiVacy"pls..its so freakin annoyin lorxz...to c this head inchin closer us to get a fleetin glimpse at wat??nothin...cuz i shifted it away..i dun like ppl to pry...esp some...eww...sometimes there r jus ppl who tend to b closer n talk abt anythin willingly lorz...not to the extent of tryin too hard..n still fallin flat on the ground...

haha tink i'm ramblin la...will blog more like soon....

~survival~@!

Florence

~pensiveness prevailin~
nite of 17th sep


firstly jus wanna say again "happy birthday addy!"u're the one that realli keeps mi sane in sch my partner in crime in sayin meanie stuff,my gigglin n laughin companion,my blur coursemate haha the blind leadin the blind cuz mi like equally or blurer..(is there such a word?)haha n of cuz my confidate too!!i wont b unrealistic n wish that we will b bestest pal foreva n foreva till we die or wat la!!but hope that our frenship will b able to sustain for some time la n we will so keep the frenship alive ba!!cuz its a two-way rem so anythin u wan to say jus say no need to peiseh!!since wo men du shi zhe meng shu de ren le!!.....manz the hanyu pin took mi a while to type lorz haha cant rem so many words liao heez!!

n haiz time realli flies today is already a fri which means my wonderful break is endin n the approachin horror of the term is comin...yikes..n yes throughout tis hols i've done the only thin that i'm gd at!! which is DuH SlAckiN big time hahaha meetin up with pals n heez tink i'll b nice n bring my silly bro out tml since he's complainin abt the lack of outings durin his sch hols la haha*aint i nice or wat?* haha..but find that lately mi ina generous mood to all..yupz stop sniggerin la there r no strings attached lorz...today went to hit the gym n saw 2 familiar guys haha so weird one fr sec sch one fr jc n both *bleah* haha!

was supposed to meet jac for lunch in her sch but in the end didnt go la cuz quite ma fan la *sorrie jac!*will make it up to u on sun k!!i promise.in the end went to causeway with lin n ate my fav yoshi n wat else the to die for ya kun toast ....i jus luv it though i tink they should put bigger slabes of butter n more kaya la!!haha so greedy horz

life is so fragile n fleetin u'll nvr noe when one's flame will b extinguish...its scaryin ...i dun wan to leave tis world doin none of the tings i hv in mind

1)havin a family portrait done by the artist whose works r at suntec one depictin happiness hopefully by the sea

2)bring my family for a super decent n nice meal...

3)tell that jerk straight in his face that i used to like him!

4)seein my ox for one last time...

5)beltin out my fav songs in all languages w/o anyone tellin mi to shutup!!haha

6)watchin a sunrise with my closest frens(u noe who u r)

7)learn how to play tennis so that i can mayb attempt to look chic??!!a furtile attempt i muz add hahaha

8)bein able to run w/o stoppin (an impossible task which i kinda hate runnin haha)
and the list goes on...

tryin my best to push himself aside...but how can i forget him when he keeps appearin.. after the day i resolve to stop all the shit...he came n automatically chatted with mi...a first time!for one!...ya gettin confused with all the blowin hot n cold n guess wat he's online now noattempt to talk again....haiz but i will succeed jus like i did in the past...i always do..mayb thats y nani once said she admires my ability to put the ppl n significant events behind mi...but heyz i'm human too how much more can i take?!

tink mayb i should start lookin at my lec notes n attemptin my tuts since i hv no idea wat's goin on...channel all the restlessness to somethin else more fruitful...keepin my imaginative mind at bay..so that i'll b too exhausted to tink...

~i yearn to b free fr u....where is my release?!~

Florence

that gal in the pic so cute!!hahah jus like moi...ya la like bhb sia..heez

Florence

~reminicin~

afternoon of 14th SeP

jus found out last nite wat bsea meant abt happen to chance upon jac's blog...cuz i sorta acciendently went to other ppl whom i hv no idea who r they la...i noe its like an intrusion to their privacy but i jus couldnt help scollin down to read more...some realli immature enteries,some absolutely fascinatin,tis guy whose entire blog was abt booze,sex n parties of cuz in the US la tis woman blog was so heartfelt that i felt sadness for her though i tink its kinda of her fault to!!ya in a nutshell jus amazin...

i guess after lastnite i finally realised somethin so fundamental..i dunno y i didnt c it before mayb it was because i was blinded..n that clouded my jugdement..to those close to mi i tink u all should noe whom i'm referin to...i hv always liked him since i laid eyes on him(dun ask mi y la)...mayb too much for my own gd..n still liked him despite knowin the treacherous fact he was attached to "his angel" but i noe for sure i meant nothin to him at all...ya absolutely nothing...nil,emptiness,zilich...*anguish in heart*..ya....made mi tink a lot last nite...startin to doubt myself..am i normal..??n to my surprise i found myself askin "jiemei"a particular qns...which his ans shocked mi...very shocked!!! oh my god addy i tink u're physic...n i can jus say thank god "jiemei" is attached liao ~phew~breathes out in relief!!.....
actually dunno y i will ask such a qns...tink it will b a long time in the future before i even tink abt gettin attached...cheers to singlehood! hahaha

was so lookin forward to wild2wet so that i'll b too busy havin fun ..so i wont b tinkin abt the past...ya but guess wat the freakin place is closed today DAmN to tink i was so hyped up despite the weird com...so in the end no outin jus slacked abt at hm...hmmm....tinkin abt it i tink wat my sister said made sense... i tink i'm like that today because of wat happened...though i brush it aside like it didnt realli affect mi...but the truth was i can vividly rem evrythin...the hurt,shock,tautin.....in clear detail..mayb thats y the scars in my heart wont b healed with time...
i hate the fact i was a victim...y the hell i didnt stand up for myself??y did i put up with all the shit??haiz but its too late to change the past..but at least it made mi realise my intense loathin for BOYS yes immature ones...those that hurt others intentionally for the fun of it,because others were doin the same ....did they even pause to tink???..... u tink a "sorrY"can erase the dark shadows?i dun tink so...

~psychological scars will never b healed...~

Florence

~exercisin~
afternoon of 12th Sep

Yippeee...payday finally wahaha hmmm...lets c tis wk i hv been doin more physically active fun like workin out,cyclin at ecp yest and today went gym-in with jac....hahha yest was competin with bro on who cycled faster n yes my long legs were my disadvantage lorz...cuz they kept gettin in the way...so yupz i lost n at the end of the day i'm sufferin fr a super sore ass hahha so dun u all dare to smack my rear hor!esp jac!!lay off*grinz*thank goodness didnt go swimmin lorz if not will bump into jac's elder bro n manz it will b embarrassin...to tink i asked jac to check him out!!*blush*ooopppsss i so didnt realise lorz n yupz today in gym so many guys..hmmm...wonder y??lucky our luck gd dun hv to wait too long to do a particular station n nope didnt touch the treadmill at all...cz i HatE it!!*shivers in horror*did the others pretty fun la n saw some weird ppl (as usual) "the nutty professor"who actually has very long strides but bouncy wavy hair *bursts out in laughter* n thats tis one guy who is not exactly my kind cuz he has beautiful large eyes?!ya...but i tink he's cute la...hahaha some ppl whom i tink might b guys...etc etc...c there r so many interesting characters in the gym on a sun morn...shhheeshh dun let my mum noe abt the gym...cuz she will murder mi...ya...she doesnt like mi to go there cuz she's paranoid that i'll hv a guy's bod?!ya...like so easy to get a 6 pack...(i wish!)hahaacant wait for next wk finally can get some rest before madness resumes...

hahaha had a super satisfyin lunch at Aijisen(is it spelt like that?!) haha my first time there quite unlike wat i thought of...hahha since i got my pay today it was my treat la...n my did we eat!!heez as usual we jus pig out so frequently together haha oink oink rite jac??*spastic face*

PS:i luv the last pic u took of mi so flattering!though its damn weird to smile at a camera phone by oneself...absolutely weird....hahaha

~savoryin my break~

Florence

~cheekiness~
afternoon of 9th sep


stuck in a com lab listenin to the lecturer dronin on while here i am typin a secret entry haha i felt so sneaky heez actually today not supposed to hv lesson for tis module lorz but its a makeup so....well..anywayz hols iss comin but haiz so much work that needs to b done n i swear that all the teachers r in cohoots to torture us to the max la....so many things due so many tests Sickenin lorz.anyway will blog more later...tink she eyein mi susiciously despite my expert hidin skills lorz hahaha n guess wat i dun care still goin to enjoy my hols n get more sleep!!finally...*grinz*

Florence

~UPdaTin SystEm of HuMans~
early morn of 8th sep

hmmm....an update

sittin at com munchin choco coated digestive biscuits to drive away my hunger pangs haha they taste pretty gd though or mayb i'm tt hungry?!finally finished with my history presentation though i screwed up bigtime....bein so nervous,forgettin my trail of thought(thanx to the noisy ppl in the next class!),facts inaccurate,hand holdin paper was vibratin...ya haiz but big relief that its all over...after presentin i went back to my seat with face flammin n all cuz the teacher sorta of stop the presentation to correct my errors...so embarrassin manz....hahaa tue was great hangin ard with dear addy at lido n eatin at pasta talkin crap as usual n then i trooped down to the salon!!sis finally made the brave move to chop her locks off hahaha jus like wat i did after my A's...can rem wat i told the hairdreeser lor "jus get rid of it" hahaha n never realli regretted chooppin my hair la...cuz i like it short la hahaha...n yupz i did minor changes to hair n colour...though i tink the hairstyle a tad too...dolllike?!so not mi as it i dun look like cutie pies or angels la...get my pt??
i never knew tt tryin to attempt hmwk was so frustratin....spent like close to 2.5hrs on the stooopid tut in the end all wrong except the first part like wat the fuck manz such a waste of my time...pissed off even more by alge notes cuz i wrote in pencil which i absolutely detest!(but no choice la,Mr PP went too fast)tried to erase n colour code my highlighter,pen inks n markers.. erasin is so tirin for the arm hv to exert so much strenght lorz....

today went for workout with mariam tis guy who is a personal instructor took over a class n it was pretty funny la as in the ppl there....there was tis gaL who has serious body coordination prob haha u should c her jerkin like she kena electrocuted....another whose knee was before her feet when durin squats *like hello not pain meh?*tis young gal like p6/sec 1?in a fitness class liao!!wow...the stomach exercises he made us do were like so POWErcan realli feel the muscles workin....n since i had longer legs i tend to play cheat when it came to leg raisin ex...but dang he came over n like straighten it all the way up bendin my feet so Ouch!haha but class was pretty fun today la later when for cold treats !!hahha went for icecream n fries so yummy!!so much for all the exercise lorz...n that was when at swenson's it happened la....

actually cant realli rem wat exactly happened lorz one min was talkin n jus rubbin the eye the next the vision was like blurred...then i thought it dropped lorz..felt pain in the eye so was tearin(natural mechanism) i didnt cry ok!!then after much findin it was in my eye but way lower n side.....guess wat it tore into HALF?!can u believe that??mayb my fault la cuz tis morn actually a bit tore at the side but i gay-kiang still wore it n never brin any backups..so ya...thanks to mariam expert skills in navigatin i got the 2 halfs out of my eye....yupz so vision was only clear in the right eye..pretty funny though.... so excitin cuz nvr happened b4 but realli thank god nothin else happen so yes ppl i'm ok no worries ya!!hahaha tink i like screw up so many contacts liao haiz there goes more $$ down the drain manz...cant wait for payday dyin to get my bday gift to myself....lalala

~hummin in nothiness....~

Florence

jus found this n tried the bloddy long quiz but heyz i tink its seriously accurate to the T la pretty amazin lei...cuz yapz i'm damn fussy abt findin the rite person who can click with mi n all...i seek perfection n ideals..and its pretty true that i hv my female peeps!!cuz its always them who will stand by mi when i need someone to hold on to!! Luv u guys*muackz*


Romantic, hopeful, and composed.
You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.


Your exact opposite:
Genghis Khunt

Random Brutal Sex Master

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.


ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

Florence

~I will sUrvivE!~
nite of 3rd Sep

Feelin a burden lifted off my shoulders as i type in tis entry!!some of u mayb puzzled y i hv been feelin down erhm....stressed in particular haha cuz of the stooopppid history presentation..finally made some finally corrections to the ppt slides just need to come out with notes for those ppl and at least noe wat the heck i'm goin to say in front of like 20 gawkin ppl?!ya the thought of presentin in front of a class or audience still terrifies mi but it helps that the darken room will hide my fear....i cant let it show...gotta b confident*rolls eyes*actin only la...hope they wont ask a bunch of qns!!haha goin to sleep early tonite tink after bloggin n sendin the stuff over to classmate ba....finally i can sleep manz!!*sighs blissfully*how i miss that hahaa hv to plan my time well tis weekend cuz still hv tons of stuff not done n so many stuff comin up haha went to Perlin's today massive crowd cuz of the 40%discount thingy!!how could i pass up an opportunity like that!!erhm....ya n contribute for singapore's financal economic growth rite?!hahaa wahhaa*gleeful look*i managed to get tis pair of earrings that i so drooled for lorz...hmm....i tink others may not understand y i like those type of silver with a 'diamond' like thingy but i jus adore them la...n yes jac stop laughin la...i didnt mean it to come out tis way lorz and a all so cool band?!lalalalala happy over my purchases!!can u believe if i got them at the normal price it would cost mi a freakin 66 buckeroos ok@!!but now i got them for a steal of like 40?!see manz i so do like great buys la!!

hahaha i tink the ppl at swenson's would probably hv given mi a nick "the gal who keeps puttin her hand up"haha i didnt mean to make ur job difficult lei....actually if not cuz of CPF i dun mind tryin work at there....cuz i dun tink i will b a waitress like permanantly la but i wan to try how it feels like lorz...then at least i tried it before ma...hmmm...


~i luv my bling blings!~

Florence

~SiGhs!~
~i'm drownin....will u save mi?!~

late nite/early morn...of 1st sep


jus celebrated pauline's bday n now sittin hunched at the com tryin frantically to get the freakin CeD dOne! i dun even noe how that woman can b a teacher,cant understand wat she mutters in circles?!like HUH??even Mr PP is betta...usin this interestin wooden device tt dad got to knock the tense muscles of the back n shoulder blades...relief is temp...cuz i feel like such a failure...i dun get any bloody thin done within a timeframe...dunno wat the heck is goin on..evrythin is pilin...tests comin...fear creepin steadily at an alarmin speed...dont noe where my day/time goes to...nothin much accomplished...n havent read or done finished my reseach for damnit churchill(asshole) feelin high strung for comin history presentation...Aaaarrrrrrggggghhhh feelin like singin n cursin out loud...dunno wat is the thing goin abt in sch ....feelin the bloody urge to punch someone/thing...reachin the limits soon...frustration mountin n ya tears formin...feelin so vexed abt evrythin...wat the hell!!

havent been able to sleep earlier tis entire wk n last...past one n sch starts usually at 9.30 or earlier...which means the lack of sleep makes mi light-headed n circles deeping but yet litttle achieved!!n ya today mariam commented tt my eyes look super tired n i look a tad pale?!huh realli meh die la i jus hv a phobia of that p word manz!!reminds mi of chi-na ppl yucks!!but guess i wont b able to catch up with my Zzzzzzz till next mon la....haiz

~goin crazy abt evrythin~

Florence