So tired!
I wonder why i'm so busy during summer break. It's holidays!
I should be nua-ing at home, watching tv, reading books, going out with friends, watching movies, going shopping, baking, swimming, watching drama, going kite flying bbq-ing, picnic-king, going cycling, jogging, watching the sun go down, reading, cross stitch-ing, cleaning up my room,clearing up last sem's notes and stuff, gardening, doing housework, staring into space, sleeping ALOT, meeting up with friends, celebrating birthdays we've been too busy to celebrate, buying presents we've had no time to buy, going to the zoo, checking out new malls, going to sentosa, pulau ubin, having chalets, bumming ard at a friend's house, watching planes fly off at changi airport, playing with dogs, thinking about life, thinking abt what mods to take next sem, catching up with old friends, making new friends, going clubbing.. Aiya simply ANYTHING LAH.
That doesn't include going back into the 1km radius of school, having endless meetings, writing the nth proposal, sending out a dozen emails, waking up before 8am, getting less than 8 hours of sleep, and squeezing during peak hour commute.
Which is like now.
So tired! Okay at least I had a break ytd, went with mum sis and C to jb. Which was fun :D
But back to chiong-ing to school now, argh so sian. The sianess and exhaustion comes not from the hectic lifestyle, cos come on, it's a typical uni student's lifestyle, but from expectation of a break that didn't come.
So you pia through this sem thinking you can have a three months break and bum around doing nothing, but end up there's so much to do. The mindset makes doing work doubly sian.
And tiring. Argh I need my sleep! If not i'm just gna find any empty space and sleep, I don't care! Okay maybe that's what i'll do for p camp next week, I don't intend to not sleep like everyone else! Lack of sleep= grouchy. :( like now. Yawn.
But on the bright side, at least i'm doing something with my holidays! And not getting bored out of my mind. Even though the busyness is a lot more than I expected.
Yaaaawn.
& all along, its only what I thought.
11:24 PM
i want my holidays back! >:(
what is this!!!!!
zzzzzzzzz hot weather makes everyone irritable and makes the most pleasant of tasks feel like a chore.
& all along, its only what I thought.
1:11 AM
first day tmr. i'm scared!
and i'll probably have 4 hours of sleep which doesn't help.
dearest fan girl, it was fantastic to be playing with you today! :) don't worry about the sound, we'll have sectionals, and try to work the leaking thing out k. although i don't know how to fix >.< haha we'll sound better in a month's time!
and.. je voudrais visiter la france aussi! nous pouvon visiter la france dans nos vacance été! okay i totally cnt rmb how to write in french. HAHA okay this is bad!
& all along, its only what I thought.
2:17 AM
have been so busy this week. guess it's the start of busy period! have to wait till july to properly nua around for a week again haha.
this week is full of meetings and going back to school, next 2 weeks will be the same too. oh welllll. nua-ing too much isn't good either.
zzzzzz. i wonder why is it so hot recently? it's really uncomfortable! RAHHHHH must sleep on floor!!
& all along, its only what I thought.
12:54 AM
SARAH: hahaha thanks alot! maybe it's the effects of listening to alot of rallies. hahaha vote for meeeeeee! haha kidding, but the candidates are really getting younger and younger!
PINRU: how can you say that!! hahaha busy with finals and lazy to update mah. well i didn't know there's still people reading it, if i know i'll blog more right? :D and my phone recently slow like a snail, i can't even blog when i'm bored.
anyway i'm thinking of switching my blog to private, what do you think?
YINSHUEN: hehe thanks! :) study hard for finals k! don't spend so much time on the internet!
SHAWN: hahaha it's just a spur of the moment post actually. thank you! :D
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okay lah i've haven't been blogging too cos been super lazy recently since finals ended.
going to rant about finals now!!!!! ARGH.
maybe cos this sem's exams are all crammed together into the first 3 days of exams (actually the first 2 weekdays of the 2 examination week). and due to ill preparation, practically didn't study for finals.
被psychology害惨了！
the psych tb was like a dictionary. next time i'll take photo let yall see, it was totally my 致命伤this finals. i was trying to finish all 13 chapters for finals, and i take a full 8-10 hours to finish ONE LOUSY CHAPTER. needless to say, i only covered about 4 chapters properly in the reading week before finals. the rest, don't talk about it! and since psych was my first exam, reading week i was only studying psych.
and it was so sian cos i know if i had finished everything, i would have definitely aced it. cos psych 1101 module is such that it tests based on recall, and it's mcq. so just simple eat and vomit, and you basically don't have to think, just regurgitate. ARGH I MISSED MY CHANCE TO FINALLY ACE A MOD!!……. okay nevermind, over is over, just complain then get it over and done with >.<
then because i was so busy cramming for psych, my other 3 mods 泡汤了！
oh and did i mention i was late for one of the exams? it's funny cos i woke up at 4am that day and i still ended up being late for the 9am exam. zzzzz.well you see, it takes about 1hr 15 minutes to reach school by train (and bus) if i don't get into any jams on the way and the trains arrive soon when i connect at raffles place.
then on that fateful monday morning, the forever nua-ing me left home at 7.30 plus. yup on hindsight, i should have left earlier since we need to be early at the examinations venue. but nevermind, so anyway, at bishan station, i couldn't squeeze onto the south bound train and had to wait for the next one. then when i reached raffles place, the trains were packed too but i heck already, just squeezed in at the door, much to the annoyance of the people already packed at the door. i had a big backpack with me and everything, so i'm sure they weren't too pleased haha. hey people, i have an exam to go for okay! then after a packed and unpleasant mrt ride, i finally reached clementi interchange.. to see this:
can you see?? queue out of clementi interchange already okay! don't play play. and the people inside the interchange, they queue back and forth in zig zag lines (there are lines drawn on the floor) then after the queue ran out of the interchange, it went back in through the wheelchair ramp to the buzz stall. AHAHA. so funny when i think about it now, but when i reached there at 8.25, i was panicking like mad. although the bus ride to NUS is short, around 7-10 minutes, in the mornings there are typically jams that can take up to 30 minutes to reach school. plus, i am obviously not gonna get on the first bus right? eventually i got onto the fourth or fifth bus, a feat considering that there were more than 200 people in front of me. okay la actually i got on the bus only because all the people in front of me got on, and i was techinically the first person of the next bus, so i just die die thick skin hop on, and spent the ride standing on the steps. HAHAHA quite funny actually!
okay many many complains about the transport i know! this is why circle line needs to open before the travelling and squeeziness becomes a big enough push factor to make me decide not to attend lessons. i mean.. in uni, there are already enough factors, like:
- no attendance takng, no accountability
- ineffective lecturers who don't care whether you turn up or not
- lecture content that doesn't cover enough content to make you learn anything. 2 hrs of lecture + 3 hrs travelling (to and fro) better spent on 5 hours of readings at home
and not to mention, webcasts, which means you can pon anytime you want.
oh wellllll. i don't know why i still go for lecture sometimes. i only skipped one lect last year as far as i can remember (hey, there was webcast!) and this sem, i didn't skip ANY. not even the 6-8pm psych lecture where you learn only 5 pages worth of info from the 60 pages one chapter textbook.
hahaha okay it's boring complaining about things that only affect me. back to finals!
then my other 3 mods for finals die already. zzz social work was also one i could have scored, cos it wasn't that difficult. 60% was MCQ >.<
SIAN, SIAN, SIAN!
it's at times like this, when i know i have the potential to do well but didn't, that makes it all the more frustrating. rather than factors like a really tough module that i just couldn't understand by exams time. it's like missing up on an easy opportunity!
bad planning this sem, got to plan better next sem!
aiya so much complains about finals :( results at end of may. it's really disappointing having to make personal attributions for the way things turn out, rather than situational attributions! haha something i learnt from social psych.
gna sleep, but next time, i'll post on end of freshman year, have been wanting to do that for last sem, a end of sem one kind of thing but never really got round to doing it.
my friend posted this on fb--> PROCRASTINATORS: THE LEADERS OF TOMORROW
so true. you and me both, buddy!
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& all along, its only what I thought.
12:43 AM
have been missing for awhile!
mmm got to sleep soon, polling day tmr! volunteering as polling agent at bishan tpy's polling centre tmr.
some of my friends ask me, why am i so interested in this elections? why go for rallies? especially since i can't even vote?
well the thing is, i think it's important to know what's happening with your country, with the direction your country is going. it's good to find out what other people: the opposition, the man on the street, the neighbour next door, is thinking and feeling. (i'm sure you get even of PAP's line of thought from years of sg education and countless speeches by ministers etc) at the end of the day, this is the country YOU are staying in, this is the country YOU are going to live in for the next XX years, and the policies that are enacted today, the people who are in parliament today, are the ones who will make decisions who will affect YOUR life, YOUR children's lives, and many other singaporean's lives!
So why shouldn't you be interested?
it's quite saddening to see the politically apathetic young person.
as much as we are educated young singaporeans, growing up under a world class education system and in a highly competitive society, it pains me to have fellow young singaporeans who CAN'T THINK. CRITICALLY. some people are simply going "rah-rah opposition all the way!". they complain about this and that, about the foreigners, cost of living, overcrowded public transport, high ministers' pay, lack of aid to elderly and needy, state of healthcare etc etc etc. it's singaporeans' favourite hobby, no doubt. but as educated young singaporeans who are supposedly the ones who are able to think critically and evaluate, some young people are so caught up in the heat of flaming PAP that they fail to consider both sides of the coin.
have you forgotten, or ignored the many good things the government has implemented with PAP as the ruling party? (note that the government does not equals to PAP!) of course, that is not to say that just because they have the steering singapore well for the past 50 years, they can steer well for the next 50, or even 5 years.
it's is true that we need alternative voices in parliament, but at the end of the day, do you think that all the abovementioned issues will magically disappear over the next 5 years with more opposition in parliament? they are not a magic portion can? yes, there might be more opposition in parliament, but will they be able to accomplish much in parliament? how capable are they? and are you willing to give them a chance to try it out at the expense of your country's future?
I don't agree with everything that PAP does too, and studying social work, you do realise the many problems and limitations of current policies for the needy in singapore. there are many shortcomings of the incumbent party, definitely.
i don't think ministers should get 15k (ard there?) a month, because they are public servants, and when you say you will serve us and understand the ordinary singaporean's needs, you shouldn't be drawing an extravegant pay. it is important for you to be paid well, in recognition of your good and hard work. but then, there's a difference between fair compensation and extreme compensation. as a public servant, do you expect your pay to be pegged to that of a private sector top earner? who doesn't know that the private sector's main motivation is money and the free market? is that how a country should be run as well?
okay getting a bit carried away about this, but you get my drift.
and things like increasing singapore's population to 6 million? and the government says we're under populated? ARE YOU SERIOUS. where are you going to squeeze 1 000 000 more people in singapore? the current population is reaching 5 million and are you sure the island can even take 1 million more? are you going to start building HDBs in lim chu kang or are we going to start reclaiming land all the way to pulau ubin? or maybe build upwards and downwards (our favourite tactic so far) so that we have not just B1, B2, but all the way to B50?.. it'll be almost a journey to the centre of the earth.
and have you ever taken the public transport during peak hour? it's totally. OH. MY. GOSH. WHAATTTT?? i feel like a sardine is a can, and the weirdest thing is, when i'm returning from school at the 6-7pm+ timing, i am hearing much more distinct foreign voices than i used to a couple of years back (granted, i didn't take as much long distance MRT rides in the past). without doubt, i sometimes feel like the minority in my own country.
all these are issues the government has to deal with, and i certainly hope that whoever who is a MP can listen to what the people are concerned about and have action. this applies not just to opposition but PAP as well.
and on the other hand, there are those who go "aiya, sure PAP win one, of course i vote for PAP lah!" eh hello, have some backbone can anot? don't vote for a party just cos you are darn sure they will win, and your want to be able to tell people proudly that you voted for the WINNING party. i mean, if the opposition in your constituency is good, and you think they are capable, it's alright to vote for them. please, do some homework and find out about the candidates in your counstituency! both PAP and opposition. you don't have to follow the crowd, just beacuse everyone is doing so.
then there are those who vote for PAP because well, "my life is good now, i don't need any changes". that's not to say you should just have changes for the sake of changes. but, think about your fellow singaporeans too, not just yourself. we progress as a society, not alone.
in short, i just want to say: THINK CAREFULLY!
i just hope that for the next 5 years, you stick with your vote. if you voted for PAP, accept that PAP is probably gna rule your life. well.. we already know how it feels like.
and if you voted for alternative parties, accept that they probably can't change much, nor have the capabilities, or face limitations, to carry out changes or formulate policies to back up the many promises they have made. it's easy to suggest changes, but policies aren't simple to implement, with numerous factors to consider.
your vote is your responsibility, your right AND privilege as a singaporean.
therefore, vote wisely :)
& all along, its only what I thought.
1:16 AM
