THE FAIRYTALE.

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{{ Monday, June 30, 2008

i feel.. so sad. depressed all of a sudden. was just blog-hopping cos i didn't feel like doing homework. then i came across, in 2 separate blogs, the death of two young men. i don't know who they are, i don't know whether they were good people. even if they were not, people change. i feel so sad that they would have died in the prime of their youth, without relishing the joy of youth. one of them died from illness/ accident. but the other was a suicide, of a sec 2 boy from st. john in anderson sec. he committed suicide supposedly due to constant bullying from his peers. i think.. this is really a case of bullying gone way too far.

i pity not the boy, but his family who have to live with the loss of their boy; the friends and people who knew him; the bullies who will forever live with the guilt of their actions causing a death, whether on purpose or not. that is if they still have some conscience left.

life is unpredictable.

When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man
cannot discover anything about his future.

Ecclesiastes 7:14, New International Version


& all along, its only what I thought.
10:03 PM


{{ Sunday, June 29, 2008

i know i was supposed to be doing my 4 reading tasks, but i can't be bothered. same with the pw research thing. haha.

watched chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe. LOVED IT. haha. although i was saying to zhiwei, the second movie peter more shuai, lucy more cute. but still, i love the plot and everything. feels really shiok!okay, so some parts of the movie is not really logical. but then, since when is fiction logical? that's precisely why i like fairytales. they're always happily ever after.

don't scoff at it. yes i know, happily ever after doesn't happen in real life.

who said anything about real life?


& all along, its only what I thought.
10:53 PM


{{ Saturday, June 28, 2008

went to work yesterday. hey people, please understand something: service staff are paid for their service but that does not mean you have the right to abuse the service.

shall not elaborate.

well. the bride was quite pretty, the groom was.. er. not bad looking. the best part is, he is a army guy! i know i know. every singaporean guy comes form NS. what i mean is, he got married in that white uniform thing! and he has his army buddies holding up the sword thing, which is really so cool! shuai can.

AHAHAHAHA. okay, got a few good looking sword wielding guys. siling didn't see them i think.

so siling and i decided. next time we're gonna marry an army guy! must be those sign on ones, have some rank then can get a white uniform wedding kind lah. not NS. haha. i admire people whose work is to protect our country. they have to sacrifice their personal freedom and all.

shall not elaborate on the less than happy drink serving/clearing up/kiaping food part.

it's okay! you win some, you lose some.

:)

oh yes, and happy birthday kenneth ng yu xuan! i love people born in june!but i don't know many of them sadly..

haha kenneth's world lame day.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.
-- Luke 6:28

dear Lord, please soften my heart and toughen my
resolve so that i can love as Jesus loved.

<3



& all along, its only what I thought.
5:15 PM


{{ Wednesday, June 25, 2008

"Break forth in song, rejoice, and sing praises."

_Psalm 98:4_


"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God."

_Philippians 4:6_


"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

_Ephesians:8-10_


& all along, its only what I thought.
11:11 PM


{{

people, may i have your attention please: MID YEARS are OVER!
whooohooooo.

ahahaha. went to play pool with meiyi, jinyi and charmaine today. so sorry had to pangseh lichun and her kinokuniya! whicj reminds me, i want to go borders soon!

and in the contest of the noob-est in pool, i think i can safely say that i top it. seriously noob. i play like so many times with different people and i still suck at it. it's okay! i shall IMPROVE. like in 20 000 years.

aww i miss 11A! so long haven't seen them..
missed the 11A class outing, the 29/08 class outing!
dunno i holidays do what, study study study/ actually also not really.

also didn't sleep anot. i wonder what i did during the hols, that's another holidays gone.


hmm. was supposed to watch movie with meiyi and the rest tomorrow. then realised i promised to go out with lisa they all tml. well xinru's not free, dunno about ling ling, so left zhiwei and lisa. wonder what we gonna do tml? so long never see lisa! oh i miss xinru too! haven't seen her for some time. since the gp common test!


i'm happily watching tv.

oh yes. thanks to michelle, meiyi, jinyi, lichun and charmaine for the birthday present! or got anymore people share i also dunno. yes i like it!

okay i'm gonna go watch more tv and rot my brain. hahaha.

oh, and i think i'm gonna get below C for all of my subjects. INCLUDINg gp. which totally sucks.

exams over!




& all along, its only what I thought.
10:55 PM


{{ Saturday, June 21, 2008

the older you get, the younger you want to be.
as a child, we yearn to grow up, to have freedom, to be "grown up".

as you grow older day by day, you'll realise that childhood is so much more innocent, so much more carefree.

irony.

was looker at older posts. life really does pass very fast. an old cliche, time flies. it truly does. for some of the older posts, i can still remember what exactly made me blog about something, some i can even know what words are gonna follow, even without looking at the end of the sentence.

...

i'm truly aging.

not neccesarily bad though.

new challenges, new experiences. that doesn't sound too bad, does it?


& all along, its only what I thought.
12:31 AM


{{ Friday, June 20, 2008

thanks for all the birthday messages. 11 nice people messaged me as of 12.33am. THANKS. i appreciate it very much. i wonder how can anyone remember their friends' birthdays. cos seriously to tell you the truth, i only vaguely know my friends' birthdays. even close friends. so sorry. i need a better memory! or even yet, a handphone calender.

haha.

i'm nuts.

love you guys!

kiawoon am grateful for friends :)


& all along, its only what I thought.
12:34 AM


{{ Thursday, June 19, 2008

why are people always chasing the wind?

it's obviously something that cannot be reached, impossible to be done, but yet many still ask of it.

it's just human nature i guess.

human nature, what an imperfect thing.

evil, tarnished.




i wonder where you are. whether you still remember, whether you still bother to remember.

gone, away with a new life. new hope, greater possibilities.

i guess not.

forgotten.


hi, stranger. what has once be will never be.

a pity.

it's better that way.

the truth is.. better left alone.

the truth is never something pretty.

tough.


& all along, its only what I thought.
11:57 PM


{{ Tuesday, June 17, 2008

let me tell you, my mum is ADORABLE can.

hahaha. she's back from malaysia. and my aunt too! tml's her birthday by the way. could finally talk to my mum, even though the past few days i've been so busy i doubt i would have talked much to her if she was home anyway.

always laugh so much at my mum and my aunt(s) funny happenings. one of my aunt, she's teaching in a sec school, she always make us laugh so much with her funny antics. keeps us very entertained and makes traveling with her so fun! a pity sis and i didn't get to go this time round cos we are so busy. hope we can go genting at the end of the year. sis has been planning it for some time.

i love my mum :)

everything feels right now that's she home.






well er.. yesterday evening went with siling and michelle to go waitressing at novotel. my first experience waiteressing can. i think i did pretty alright. i smiled, i managed to deliver all my glassware in one piece, and i didn't pour any tea into the guests' lap. well.. except for that fish sauce. hahaha nevermind. the guy was nice enough not to kick up a fuss. thank you, whoever you are.

the bride was pretty. weddings are interesting to watch. oh yes, was amazed by how quickly and hurried the banquet was set up. but well, i guess they are used to it.

i kiap-ed the noodles with the fork and spoon! haha i know it sounds really simple. but it's not easy can. you hold the fork and spoon oppositely then open and close the contraption with your fingers to kiap the noodles. and i only dropped one strand of noodle! not bad right. hahaha. granted, the noodles weren't very nicely dropped into the bowls but at least they all made it into the bowl. more or less.

and i scooped the yam paste too! not bad kay. i think i did it pretty well. *claps for self* hahaha.

okay, my arm's aching now. but it's okay, at least i was quick and efficent *pardon the self-praise* hahaha don't mind me. i'm michelle's twin. number THREE! i should buy that shirt that goes: "this is my evil twin". mwahahahaha.

okay i shall stop straining your eyes. haahahaha.

wait wait last thing! thank you siling for the present. my first birthday present of the year and it's really pretty. love it :)




a slow smile, the way i like it.


& all along, its only what I thought.
11:39 PM


{{ Saturday, June 14, 2008

oh no i'm so dead. it's almost the last week of the holidays and i HAVEN'T done anything except read the bio cell structure notes. which is the FIRST chapter. out of the 6 or 7 chapters tested. and i completely didn't touch chem AT ALL. and maths? i can't even do ONE lousy question from the midyears practice papers. i can't believe it!

and it's not even like i'm slackng for the past week. have been simply so busy! okay fine, so some days i went out to have fun, but i had band stuff on mon,wed and fri can. so left tues and thurs went out. hahaha.

i'm dead.

next week i'm not free on everyday to study too! i'm worried.

furthermore, mom and aunt in malaysia now, leave me and my sis to do all the housework. which is... time consuming. i don't mind it a lot but then, STUDIES HOW??

gahhhhh. someone, tell me how?

i got a feeling i won't be going for the 29/08 class gathering next week. cos my mom and aunt coming back on that day, and i predict the house to be ultra messy. SO, need to stay at home and make the house look presentable. since obviously my sis is always either at work/not at home.

gahh.


& all along, its only what I thought.
12:09 PM


{{ Friday, June 13, 2008

fight for the kingdom!

did i mention that when peter fought with caspian's uncle that scene he really shuai? not the good-looking shuai but it's the actions that really carry off the aura of shuai-ness.

okay i'm not making much sense.

er. sorry the only word i can think of is shuai. er.. cool?
that's not really it either. okay i'm so gonna watch the movie again.

i've read the books before but i almost totaly forgot what it was about. loved the books by CS lewis!

kiawoon go to sleep before i babble crap.




& all along, its only what I thought.
12:22 AM


{{ Thursday, June 12, 2008

An email from siling.

What does Love mean?
A
Group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds,
'What does love mean?'
The answers they got were broader and deeper than
Anyone could have imagined. See what you think:


'When my
Grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails
Anymore.

So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his
Hands got arthritis too. That's love.'

Rebecca- age 8


'When
Someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know
That your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4


'Love is
When a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out
And smell each other.'
Karl - age 5


'Love is
When you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without
Making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissy - age 6


'Love is
What makes you smile when you're tired.'
Terri - age 4


'Love is
When my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to
Him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7


'Love is
When you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want
To be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They
Look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8


'Love is
what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and
Listen.'
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)


'If you
Want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'

Nikka - age 6

(we need a few million
More Nikka's on this planet)


'Love is
When you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'

Noelle - age 7


'Love is
Like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after
They know each other so well.'
Tommy - age 6


'During
My piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people
Watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.

He was the only one
Doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8


'My mommy
Loves me more than anybody

You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep
At night.'
Clare - age 6


'Love is
When Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'
Elaine-age 5


'Love is
when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than
Robert Redford.'
Chris - age 7


'Love is
when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day'

Mary Ann - age 4


'I know
my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go
out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4


'When you
love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.'
(what an image)
Karen - age 7

'Love is
when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'

Mark - age 6


'You
really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you
should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8

And the
final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he
was asked to judge.

The purpose of the contest was to find the most
caring child.

The
winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly
gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the
little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just
sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the
little boy said,
'Nothing, I just helped
him cry'

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~




CAKES! why are you still sticky??


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


hope the cookies turn out alright.

watched chronicles of narnia today. it was really good. and sharon was in love with the HIGH king peter. hua chi sharon... seriously he's so much better looking than prince caspian. no offense to the actor, but maybe he'll look better with his hair cut. i guess it goes with the role?

i don't mind watching chronicles of narnia again. it's really nice! and the rat's so CUTE. [chivalrous? haha.]

but to really understand the movie, you need to know the real meaning behind the series of books and what aslan really represents.


sharon want watch third time? ahahahaha.


& all along, its only what I thought.
11:00 PM


{{

you don't really know me that well, do you? but then again, why should you?

that isn't the point at all.

is that what it is? always running after your shadow, chasing something you can never touch.

sometimes i'll just wonder.


laughter would feel good right now.


i want to play at the playground, run round and round with the kids.


& all along, its only what I thought.
1:28 AM


{{

so.. everything comes full circle, i guess.



just came back from vanessa's house, where we went to do something for a very special person. now i'm tired.

stuffed myself with chocolate chip cookies. and no, they weren't very nice.

oh well, should stop eating so much junk food.

went to lelia's house yesterday. thanks for having us over lelia! i think we made a mess of her house. but well.. watched 2 movies. in which one i fell asleep towards the end. which is totally kind of sad cos the ending matters a lot.

after going to her house, i'm inspired to spring clean my house. make it look less like some karung guni's house. found food that expired in 2005. disgusting. threw out some random stuff that i think has been in my house for more than 10 years.

ahh.

i'm so tired. i'm sick of studying, and i didn't even do much of it! midyears in 1 and a half wek's time, and i only started on bio. FIRST chapter. haven't finish yet. i can't believe it. mye counted in promos. i want to get promoted! ahhhhh. how how how?

shall read a little bio now?

hmm. or to sleep.


everything comes full circle. that isn't suprising, i guess.


& all along, its only what I thought.
1:18 AM


{{ Monday, June 09, 2008

on the mrt home today, the train was ultra packed. saw this 2 _JC students on the train squeezed next to me. both of them couldn't reach any poles to hold on to. and the guy was really sweet, he held on to the small of the girl's back so she wouldn't fall when the train jerked. they were talking to each other, which is quite a feat considering that the girl had to tilt her head back to talk to the guy's face instead of his chest. hahaha. then they were talking, and the guy bent down to kiss her cheek.

that's when i decided to stop being some kaypoh kia and mind my own business.

hahaha. PDA. sometimes quite digusting to watch but mostly entertaining on long bus/train rides.

i think the above paragraphs don't make much sense. ahahaha. who cares.


& all along, its only what I thought.
11:14 PM


{{ Saturday, June 07, 2008

just came back from church. had this one day camp-like retreat thing.

HAPPY :)

my cell group at church always makes me laugh. laughing is good. we laugh over the most retarded of things and we love to PLAY. we do a whole lot of cuckoo stuff too.

HAH! emo CFC sister.

thank you god for my day of happiness, and knowing how blessed i am.

`love, friends!


& all along, its only what I thought.
9:29 PM


{{

went to band chalet/bbq yesterday. it was good :)

feel so old seeing all the juniors. they all seem so small!

was doing the bbq-ing for the whole night but i didn't mind. somehow our batch ended up all standing round the pit talking and laughing about goodness know what. we're crappy people. and we were singing school song. anderson sec and aj. tsk. the rj ppl were feeling so suffocated. people like daryl. tsk. and sharon. serious identity crisis.


let's not mention the food, shall we? michelle's the chicken wing lady! she can feed chicken wings breakfast lunch and dinner to somebody. *ahem**winkwink*
i'm the fishball WOMAN. dunno what happened to the other bag of fishballs, they turned sour. tsk. poor yinshuen, she was the one who opened the bag and got hit by the pungent fishy smell of fishballs gone bad. reminds
me of that meow meow we saw yesterday. it stared at us for very long waiting for scraps. hey we're not heartless people kay. we wanted to feed it but we're scared it'll get diarrhea. sorry dunno how to spell.

yinshuen's the butteress. we put butter on EVERYTHING. hey, so that the juniors can get fatter and we'll have people to carry the timpani what.. if not they so small sized, who's gonna carry the timpani next time?


the main band was celebrating the june babies' birthday. hahahaha. they made a jelly themselves. okay, so it was really wobbly and half of it collapsed.. but then. dun blame them, we play music, we dun learn cooking can. go find girl guides people if you want good food. HAHAHA the fried rice. we were wondering whether the main band was cooking the rice, the egg and the sausages separately, then they mixed it all together afterwards.

anyway back to the jelly. Florence's birthday is in june too! quite few ppl had birthdays in june so i see. out of the 40 plus or more ppl there, only got 2. so not equal. but it's true. lots of people have their birthdays in april, july, septembe
r and november. for some weird reason. oh yes, and march too.

decided not to stay over, so michelle, siling, tecksoon and i went to take 29. was joined by zakri. oops name dunno how to spell. missed a bus, so was crapping loads on the way. zakri asked us what we wanted to be when we gr
ew up, and we came up with the answer that this question gets harder as you grow up, and eventually you just want to be a kid when you grow up. was is kind of ironic, but oh well..

reached tampines interchange, zakri took another bus, while the 4 of us took 72. we planned to take until hougang, then siling, tecksoon and i would change bus at this bus stop where there is 55 (gones to amk, ends at bishan). crapped more on the way, was talking about so-and-sos in the band going out with so-and-sos from where else. oh, and those so-and-sos in the band who were going out with each other. some clarinetist and some saxophonist.. heh heh. HOR. *ahem ahem* tsk. juniors grow up fast. HAHAHAHA this is really ultra funny. but very cute lah..

so we were eating chocolate on the double decker bus, waiting for the bus stop where only michelle and tecksoon can recognise. THEN, michelle went, "it's this stop, hurry up get down!" and tecksoon went "ya ya, this stop!" so we said a hu
rried bye to michelle and got off the bus. AND you know what? there isn't a 55 there okay. and we were quite amazed to see that the road sign was for hougang. amazing right, we go on the highway and next thing you know, we're not in tampines anymore.

so i called michelle.
me: eh chelle ah..
mx: YES I KNOW I KNOW.

me: you know what?
mx: MY STUFF WITH YOU ALL!
me: huh your stuff with us?
-at this point, siling starts freaking out EH MICHELLE'S KEYS WITH ME!-
me: OH YA! YOUR STUFF WITH US! CHELLE, GET OFF
AT NEXT STOP CAN?
mx: CANNOT, THE NEXT STOP VERY FAR!
me: HUH CANNOT LAH, MUST GET OFF AT NEXT STOP!

mx: THE NEXT STOP VERY FAR!
me: GET OFF AT NEXT STOP LAH, WE MEET YOU THERE.
mx: okok, bye.

see, we were screaming throughout the convo can.

so we walked. and tecksoon told us the next stop's in front. (we were at a 4-way junction) made a wonderful discovery that 53 goes to the bus stop we alighted at (53 ends at bishan interchange too). made wonderful discovery (2) that 25 goes through that area too, so siling and tecksoon can go home. so we walked... reached the bus stop. looked. NO MICHELLE.


oops.

checked the sign.

no 72.
no 55.
no 53.
no 25.

oops.
TECKSOON!!

finally met up with michelle. passed her the stuff and she went off to take her bus. waked SLOWLY to the 55 bus stop. and of course, we missed the bus. self entertained for a very long time. finally boarded the bus at 1140++.

talked..

crapped..

siling and tecksoon got off. reached bishan interchange, which was ultra dark cos
the interchange lights were off.

scared myself silly while walking home. like people are gonna jump out from behind the pillars.

bathed! stopped smelling like bbq charcoal and fishba
lls. ahhh. so much better.

SLEEP!

had a really shiok time talking to everyone. i miss band people! we can yak nonstop like nobody's business. and we talk about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING and we can come out with the lamest of jokes and laugh at absolutely NOTHING. what's not to like about amb?


michelle and i on the bus. taken proudly by siling, who insists that she doesn't shake the camera, it's the BUS.


nice tree in changi v. look closely and you'll realise there are actually *gasp* 2 people at the bottom. i wanted to only take the tree but michelle and siling sadi the tree will look nicely with them inside the pic.

amb people who went to ajc.
first row (L-R): me, yinshuen [amb batch of 2007], suh ting [amb batch of 2005]. huiming [amb batch of 2006]
second row(L-R): tecksoon, siling, my beloved pinru, michelle [amb batch of 2007], gary [amb batch of... eh i dunno. very old. batch of 2002?]

not in picture: cheehao [amb batch of 2003]

actually i think there are more alumnus who were in ajc, but they didn't some for the chalet.
alot of aj ppl right. who just proves: a whole lot of anderson sec people go to ajc.
i think we all suffer from identity crisis.


& all along, its only what I thought.
1:48 AM


{{ Monday, June 02, 2008

it's supposed to be the holidays.
holidays? what holidays?

had actually types a long long long long post. but then, lazy to finish typing. should go do my genomics tutorial.

yeah, holidays is just school without morning assembly.


reality is a smack in the face when you least expect it. ouch.


& all along, its only what I thought.
11:29 PM