wooo hoo! first week of my olevels examinations over! 4 days of slogging and 3 2 subjects down! okay, not exactly 2, more like one subject, half and half subjects done.
yeah.... amaths OVER! no more integration, differentiation, permuatations & combinations!
hahaha, that's my 2 years of studying amths down the drain. all those countless hours spent in amaths lesson. the many many homeworks and all those tests i failed... all OVER. in fact, i think i might even, just very slightly, miss amaths. you know, if i had known amaths is not as scary as i all along thought it was, i might have put in a little bit more effort into passing all my exams and tests..
oh well, no point saying that now. i won't be touching amaths probably forever. cos if i go JC, i don't think they can it amaths right? they call it Fmaths or something. and if i go poly, i'm sure it will not be known as amaths either..
so, i'm free from amaths!!
hahaha. chemistry paper was kind of sad. in michelle's words, the paper is "an insult to our intelligence". aiya.. the paper was really quite easy. but of course, i still have questions wrong and cannot do. the paper is really very basic, and i feel like i have studied for nothing. those questions that i got wrong for, some of them are on definitions, which i didn't memorise. how dumb of me. well.. there goes my A1 for chemistry.
ahh.
geography elect even worse. i wasted so much time at the front and i hastily scribbled for my 2 essay questions. for the two essay quesitons, half the time i had no idea what the question was asking for. for example, for the environment question that i attempted, one part asked for the difference between renewable resources and non-renewable resources. sounds easy, right? but it's EIGHT marks! out of a 25 marks question, that quite alot. and for that 8 marks, i probably can only get a pathetic 3 or 4 marks. woo hoo. not to mention the rest of the questions. i felt like i was reading the wrong paper. and the map reading was no better; i completely don't know how to describe the course of a river. come on, aren't i supposed to take HUMAN geog?
this is sad. i think i 'm gonna fail my geog elect. and since it's highly unlikely my SS's gonna save me, so it's goodbye to a B3 and above for humanitites.
aiyaaaaaa.................................
anyway, i thought this song is nice. it's from the 2000 Disney film, The Tigger Movie.
Kenny Loggins - Your Heart Will Lead You Home
sunny days and starry nights lazy afternoons you count the castles in the clouds and hum little tunes
but somehow right before your eyes the sun fades away everything is different and everything has change
if you feel lost and on your own and far from home you never alone, you know
just think of your friends the ones who care they all will be waiting there with love to share and your heart will lead you home
funny how a photograph can take you back in time to places and embraces that you thought you left behind
they're trying to remind you that you're not the only one that no one is an island when all has said and done
there'll come a day when you're losing your way and you won't know where you belong they say that home is where your heart is so follow your heart know that you can't go wrong
& all along, its only what I thought.
12:12 AM
{{ Saturday, October 20, 2007
fast friends;
as the name "fast friends" suggest, those people form friendships easily. with strangers, they can be friends instantly, warming up to them as soon as they are introduced.
but as the name suggests, these friends can be made fast, but those new friendships can also be lost as swiftly as they are forged. one moment they can be the best of friends with you, and the next moment, the initial warmth of friendship cools down to below freezing point.
like fast food, fast friends fill you up quickly, making you easily satiated. but there's not much nutritional value, and it does you no good to eat too much of them, although they make you really happy when you first sink your teeth into a juicy burger. of course, they're so much more convenient than conventional meals; you just grab them and go.
but please, come on, just admit it: can you survive on just fast food everyday? face it: you can't.
of course, not all fast friends turn out to be temporary friendship. fast friends too, can survive well past its expected sell-by date.
i would so much rather prefer a bowl of slow-cooked porridge than a macdonalds meal, even if i'm starving and cooking the porridge takes another hour.
if you don't agree with me, it's fine; i have never asked you, much less expected you to. different people are entitled to their own opinions, no 1 person has to agree completely with the opinion of another person.
maybe i'm just a skeptic
\\don't believe in anything that easily\\
& all along, its only what I thought.
10:34 PM
{{ Thursday, October 18, 2007
peanut just had to come out. well, i just messed up a couple of labellings, the question on why some parts cannot be seen and probable the last question that no one seemed to know how to do. seriously, classification of seeds and fruits? i haven't seen that coming out in many many years, and besides, it's not something i've done in biology practicals before, so i was quite at a loss what to do.
oh well, don't dwell on it. say hi to.. AMATHS! ah no no no no no. i don't like amaths. it's be a miracle if i manage to get A1. it'll be normal if i pass it.
nooooooo!!!!!!!. i don't want O levels to come so soon, yet i want it to pass quickly. tell me, am i making sense? i'm really really quite scared about amaths. haha, exam-phobic.
and i'm rather worried about chemistry too, because i haven't started studying. and there is just so MUCH organic chem to memorise, and i'm busy with amaths, i don't know whether i'll have enough time for chemistry. and then there's geography elect. being my only humanities, it'd better be good. and since the other half of my humanities is SS, i better not depend on that. and that means... i must aim for an A1 for geog elect in order to offset my possible failure for SS.
that is all just so mind boggling i simply don't feel like thinking about it.
why can't i have better time management?? then maybe now i won't be scrambling around just trying to finish ONE measly subject [amaths]. ahh. sometimes things just don't go the way you want them to.
that's okay, chaos make life more interesting.
i'm just trying to reassure myself that everything's gonna be okay, when in fact i really don't know.
i should stop using the computer soon and concentrate on studying.
ahh.
& all along, its only what I thought.
12:24 AM
{{ Monday, October 15, 2007
biology prac tml. not looking forward to it. i hope it's nothing weird. please, let it be some fruit we've done before. no peanut too, i don't know what's a cotyledon.
actually, no olevels is the best. but i don't have a choice, do i?
& all along, its only what I thought.
11:18 PM
{{ Saturday, October 13, 2007
okay, this is VOICELESS episode 3.
i'm, of course, still voiceless, even though my sore throat is much better.
have you ever realised just how important a role talking takes in communicating with others? see, just now i was having a quarrel with my mum. yup, a voiceless quarrel. she was trying to get me to drink this TCM concoction. it was bitter and blackish, but i would normally drink it down cos i don't really mind bitterness that much. but too bad, this one that she prepared contained BEES. BLACK, DEAD BEES. okay, obviously dead. but anyway, i'm not gonna take anything that has been boiled with dead bees for 1/2 hour, i'm sorry. so the fight between the two of us went on. seen i couldn't speak, it consisted of me mainly screaming [just without the sound], stomping my feet, and banging things around, since there isn't any other way for me to communicate my displeasure. oh yeah, and lots of me glaring at her with the "i'm so gonna complain after i get my voice back" look. then, my mother tried to manhandle me into drinking, which didn't work either, cos i simply refused to open my mouth and i acted like a rock [heavy and immobile] when she tried to pull me into the kitchen.
finally finally, after lots of coaxing and negotiating with my mum, and realising just how immature and irresponsible i'm acting, i drank it down, dead bee-water and all.
and yup, it tastes like crap.
i do hope i get my voice back soon; i'm starting to miss it. and perhaps that'll put an end to my nonsense signing in replacement for talking to other people.
i think my friends will really rejoice at that.
& all along, its only what I thought.
11:23 PM
{{
hello people.
yup it's official: i've lost my voice. whoohoo.
i think i've never spent a day in my life talking so little. okay, maybe when i was young? but in recent years, i don't think i've ever spoke that little. anyway, the sore throat's bad to the extent that i cannot even make any noise AT ALL. actually, all i can make is this sound you make that sounds like what i usually do after running in PE.. ya lah, anyway, i think i'm really terrible at sign language. never actually realised how much i rely on my voice for my everyday activities. for example, now i can't even go coffeeshop buy lunch cos i can't even tell the aunty what i want!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I WANT MY VOICE BACK!!
and it's really really frustrating that i can't communicate my thoughts to other people. and unfortunately my sign language is not that advanced. so most of the time, i just give up signing halfway, cos anyway, what i wanted to say wasn't that important in the first place.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
it's so irritating! i can't even talk to my mum, and that's so weird. like just now, after dinner, she asked me what fruit i wanted to eat. then she told me, 1 for coconut, 2 for pineapple. then i was like.. okaay.. then i tried to tell her, eat coconut at 9pm can? which took me about another 10 seconds.seriously, it's like a mute talking to a deaf. i'm the mute [obviously] and she's the deaf. then when i wrote down what i wanted to say, it took even longer, cos firstly i need to write in chinese, and secondly i can't write well in chinese. even simple words took me eons to recall. see? like blind reading a book.
okok, i shall not bore you any further.
note: DO NOT drink honey with lemon. supposedly lemon will worsen sore throats cos of it's acidic properties. well, my friend only just told me and i've been drinking it for the past 2, 3 days.
just wonderful.
& all along, its only what I thought.
12:28 AM
{{ Saturday, October 06, 2007
another week has passed. and olevels are so much nearer! next tuesday is physics practical already.
i really don't feel like studying le. i wonder what it will be like if i just stop studying now and go into the examination hall knowing nothing?.
that'll really be a waste of my 400 plus dollars paid to the examinations branch. seriously, you pay so much, you better get a few As back, if not i WANT A REFUND! haha, no lah, just kidding.
a few days ago i was listening to radio 100.3 on my way home. then the DJs were asking people to call in for their views on the topic of "pi tui" meaning two timers. then got his one guy call in, he said he had relationships with FIVE girls at the same time. yeap, not one, not two, three or four. it's FIVE. then believe me, i was rolling my eyes in disbelief. how can the five girls not know he was five timing them? please, unless they are really too innocent and naive, believing everything that the guy says, if not this guy is a really good liar. either way, it's just so WRONG. maybe love is really blind. but how can you love 5 persons at the some time? love is supposed to be exclusive, and you are supposed to love one person at a time lah! i pity those girls, get cheated for so long. but then, no one said life is a bed of roses, and not everybody is as nice as you think they are. please wake up to that fact. if a guy were to two time me, then that's it, i'm so going to delete his number, email and all his contact details. then i'm going to throw whatever he has given me down the rubbish chute, no questions asked.
okay, i'm bordering on sounding psychotic. anyway, i'm so irritated with my MP3! i can't even transfer songs in now. oh well, i guess this means another trip to creative.
bah.
& all along, its only what I thought.
11:11 AM
{{ Tuesday, October 02, 2007
i've had enough. i don't need to hear bad news over and over again. once is enough, thankyouverymuch.
whatever it is, one can always hope, right?
hope springs eternal.
tears don't fall unless you allow them to. they shall not fall.
