i'm so sick of this. i'm sick of people being fake. it's scary how much people act so nice in front of you. but in fact, it's just a facade. and behind, you get backstabbed so much you won't even realise who/what killed you.
you know how scary people are?
~kiaa
& all along, its only what I thought.
2:33 PM
hahahahahahahaha. siling did the moving from the old b;pgger tp the new blogger. so love that gal, i was getting so confused and frustrated already. thanks SILING!! oh yes, she's coming back to school on mon!! ~happy
but today wasn't a really happy day. anyway, thanks to the top 5 for letting all my steam out. so i can sleep happy and un-unhappy tonight. hmm, joanne not around though. come back soon joanne!
first of all, i woke up at 4 plus due to my leg cramping. so tired of leg cramps, they only happen when i'm sleeping. and it''s like, i already have so little sleep, stop disturbing it!!
really, it's getting more and more often. and so, i was sitting on my bed and squirming for dunno how long and trying not to disturb my sis. cos it was hurting so badly i really wanted to.. dunno, so something drastic? so after my painful episode was over, i found the kitchen light on, and my aunt was working there. so i brush teeth and went to study my maths. it was.. about 5?
see, not a good start to a good day right?
today, read some things that really got me thinking. but now, all my hot air is dispelled. so don't feel that pissed anymore.
still, it wasn't nice to read those words. seriously. it's sad to know that not everyone appreciates what you have done for them. i found this out the hard way, so from now i will strive to make people feel appreciated. always remember; thank a person for what he/she had done, no matter how small. so that person can pass that little nugget of praise to another.
to-- make this world a better place.
okie, unhappy things, get away from me.
sometimes it's hard to figure out my own feeling. i guess i'm nothing more than an ostrich, i just want to bury my head in the sand. but then again, i can't shrink from my responsibility. also, the more i try to hide from it and the longer it drags on, the worse it will get. still, that hasn't stopped me from running away from things.
``i'm just an indecisive gal.. or am i not?
~kiaa
Labels: bad day
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3:15 PM
tml have to go back to school again. :( today my aunt's friends came over. oh, and another aunt with her daughter, who is of course, my cousin. my cousin's an ex andersonian, and she di really well for her olevels. so she was psyco-ing me that i should have a goal. like which JC i want to go to. i dunno! i really dunno! so stop asking me!! seriously. once people find out that i'm sec 4 this year, they start bombarding me with all this unnecessary questions. even if i do have a goal, why should i tell you people, you that i only see once or twice a year??huh.well. over the past few days heard some really nice songs. shall discuss them another time bah.but back to today. my aunt's friends are all teachers. and so's my aunt with the daughter. so they were talking teacher stuff. and never knew teachers can have so much to complain about. and it's really quite funny. including both my aunts, there were 5 teachers: 2 secondary school (one is formally JC teacher), 2 JC teachers and 1 more is an ex-JC teacher, now on course. so you can imagine how much they say about their teaching career, their students, their principals, the other teachers and MOE. seriously. it makes you think twice about your teachers. i certainly hope they don't criticise me in front of their relatives and friends.but surely, they must have brought out a few funny stories here and there. okie, tired. should really sleep early.guys, enjoy life when you are still young and remember: life is always full of colours and joy, so don't give up halfway! constanly strive to be a person you would want to be, not somebody others want you to be!yes, and last of all, good night to all. sweet dreams!p.s i had a weird dream last night- but i can't remember anything about it now. i still could in the morning thoug. maybe i'll recall tomorrow morning..``"love is a wonderful thing"~kiaa
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3:11 PM
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7:41 PM
my dear
siling's sick! that poor girl, during chinese new year somemore.. know she already prepared her clothes and everything long ago.. nevermind, have a well earned rest now! yours truly is also feeling the stress of late nights. extremely tired nowadays. cannot even focus properly. and now my relatives are still here, so i can't just lock myself into a air conditioned room and catch my beauty sleep.
oh yes! obviously i have already bought my new year clothes. oh, and my little niece is here! she's so so so so cute, just at that toddling age and she can play with people. my sis has especially earned her trust, so they running around together now. she's half russian, so she has a shiny head of curls which bounce around when she runs. so so cute and adorable and pretty girl!! she's about one and a half years old btw. shall post pictures of her when i get my sis to upload them into the com. just now she was playing on the organ she bobbing her head to the rhythm (cos there's pre-recorded rhythm)-- i think we have a music genius in our midst! it's funny how everyone melts into goo-goo ga-gas around babies. everyone speaks in that kinda language.
and another piece of news: my cousin sally's getting married. she about.. erm..30 odd. her fiancee smokes and drinks though.
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you get my point. can't stand those who smoke and drink. especially smokers. i have one avid smoker just on the unit underneath. AHHHHHHH!! she's really so SO cute! just love her man, but i don't get to see her that often, in 10 years or so, i'll so much older than her. like my older cousins are to me. so it's weird. i'm sure they played with me when i was young too. but well don't have much topics to talk about nowadays. i guess this just happens. even another cousin of mine, she's only one year older than me, but i also don't have much to talk about with her. i think it's just that i'm antisocial. she's in RJC now. the pretty lass was from RGS. her older bro was from SJI. he's out of army now though, so you get how old he is.
so tired. but no choice, have to entertain the guests. and clean and clean and wash. for yestrday, there was preparation for today. cos my relatives all come to my house to gather in the morning(my mum calls our house the headquarters). so had to prepare for breakfast and lunch. it's no mean feat, having to cook for 20 plus people. and so.. 6 cabbages and about 12 carrots for the veggies in in the morning. i shreded the carrots, plus more veggies for the yu shang in the afternoon. i'm on pretty good terms with the shredder by now.
oh, i like my outfit today. found the skirt, dawn. our aim? elongate my legs. so i don't look so short. seriously. i'm the youngest in the whole of my generation, so i am really short in the first place. and another thing, they all naturally tall. like the girls are about 1.7? and the guys... 1.8 or so. shortie me.
tired tired. and just now, washed and dried the dishes, also not easy for so many people. want to drop on the ground already.
hmm. maybe i should go and play sims. okie, more update another time.
oh yes, a final word... i really CANNOT stand those CNY msgs with pig pictures and those that try to fit the chinese pig word in.
finally,.... *drumroll please*
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR FRIENDS!!
~kiaa
okie. continued. this *^$@ blog, how to published? i must have tried for at least 5 times le. oh yes, my cousin asked all of us out to go shopping for the new year stuff. so nice. so who's gonna pay? hahaz. i'm the youngest on thw whole of my mum's side, so rest of them mostly working le. hahaz. let me try to publish again.
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6:26 PM
okie, was reading xinru's blog just now (cos she asked me to) and i so utterly love my green rose! it's so nice lah. and the blue ones too. oh, actually it's hers, but anyway, thanks to all these people for their valentine's day gift. sorry lah, memory bad, some i simply can't remember from who. so here goes:
TO
secret angel for the piggie. it's so so cute! i love the ears. but anyway my angel is still secret, so thanks very very much!
oh man.. i staring at the box of chocolates and sweets i got. i REALLY really cannot recall :(
lingling- curly wurly chocolate, never try before, but the name sounds funny.. haha
zhiwei- her colourful card, sour power and tat coke chewy sweet
xinru- the bundle with the lolipop at the top (correct). so nice, actually wrap it
evelyn- heart shaped chocs
huiming- kitkat.. i think so.
chiewyee- yupi gummi bears!
jiangjing and nithiya- dove amicelli choc
florence- giant stick.. that's what it says lah. but it's actually the giant version of polke. er is that how u spell??
sweekee- cadbury dairy milk
yin shuen- kinder bueno!!! this is really funny lor..
lisa- belgian mini bars
zeni(a.k.a miss wang)- time out``
joanne low- her orchid and mars bar. thanks girl, love the orchid. the poor flower's dying in my kitchen at the moment. i left it in the band rm and it got squashed, broke it's top. but it was reeeally pretty.
siling- her GIANT heart. that diabetic causing one.. haha..
jamie- mallow blast
sarah's kisses [sounds so misleading.. heh heh.]
mrs lim- cloud 9
amb welfares- more yupi gummi--------so much!
and of course, my dear beloved SL- smarties: "wish u'll get smarter."
dawn- sunflower!
also, to other ppl whom i either can't remember, i found on my table. or i just gave it away (sorry!). oh yes, thanks for the ferrero rocher, the ribbon's a nice touch.. just that i dunno it's sender, so i shall not eat it.
so funny. type a whole lot of crap. happy
fattening day to one and all~~~ seriously so much chocs and sweets. and chinese new year's coming soon! just now was just at NTUC wif my mum doing grocery shopping for new year and the queue's ghastly. so many people i feel tired just looking at them..
oh yes, today dawn, chiew yee, siling and i were eating lunch together and chatting. waste so much time but whatever lah. poor michelle's sick. and so's sharon. poor things, being sick over chinese new year holidays. my sis and i so look forward to it every year, but this year just feel perpentually tired.
so much spring cleaning to do too!! my mym's barking at me to clean everyting up. i'm frankly a very messy, untidy and disorganised person. so my thing are all over the place.
back to today, thanks to chiew yee and siling for helping me look for clothes! bought a top, quite nice. love the colour- it's brown.
tml going shopping with my sis again for new year clothes. have to buy, if not
chu yi got no clothes to wear.
rea l l y. t o o. t i r ed. t o.c on ti nue..
ZZZZzzzz
~kiaa
& all along, its only what I thought.
8:20 PM
Song: TRUE COLORS LYRICS
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| You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small
But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow
Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there
And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow
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okie, long long time never update. just so busy. and i'm only updating now cos i'm sick. still undecided whether to go back to school tml. so many tests and stuff, how to not go right? but really, don't feel that well. sian diao.
oh. i found the lyrics to the dove campaign. the song is quite meaningful. everytime morning at the train station will hear.
yes, and thanks to michelle, siling, sweekee, pinru, sharon and dawn today. seriously felt like crap. and don't even get started on the maths test. i was feeling so sick my brain feels barely there. doesn;t matter anyway. i think even if i've been on fullest alert i also dunno how to do. obviously won't pass lah. is like, about 20 marks i nvr do. unless all that i've done is correct, den i would pass. but that is- impossible.
to go or not to go- that is the question.
update again another time?
~kiaa
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2:25 PM
