haven't posted for so long. at least i post every month i still do. haha. now is supposed to be holiday. but what sort of holiday is this? never mind. i should be used to it.
now i listening to digital prism. wah.. the dynamics nery good sia. when the band is playing. i don't exactly feel any dynamics. it's a nice song. when i first played the song. back when i was in alto, idin't really like this song. but now i really like it. i guess it's like this, when something is new, you push it away. but as time wears on, you warm up to it. no matter what it is: a new somg,a person, a place etc.. i would count this digital prisms as my connection back there.
you don't have to like what's best for you. my232620. i miss it. and what comes with it.
what's the third song. something japanese. i like it! someone, please tell me what it is. ohh... winter sonata! what's the front ar? Jap Graffiti? hmm. which one is it? IV?
anyway. last sunday, i was told by a doctor friend of my mum that i might have thyroid problems cos she said my sis's eyes are protruding, which is one of the symptoms. then she saw mi and i was drinking tea,and she noticed that when i swallow, there is this lump in my throat like an bobbing adam's apple. then she asked me to hold out my hand straight. yup, it tremors (also another symptom). she asked both me and my sister to see doctor.
not a very good start to anyone's holiday, but that is really (sort of) good news to me. because that explains why i always sweat so much and tremor. like that time when i was the flag bearer for national day, my hands were shaking so badly when we were saluting.
i have this fear of blood tests. when i was 10, my cousin and his uncle, my uncle was diagnosed with thalassmia , wihich is a type of anemia. cos it can be passed through genes. i remember my sister and i took it at the KK hospital. and i cried so badly my sister was cpmpletely freaked out. but afterwards she said it was okie.
yup, so i took it on wed. it wasn't as painful as i thought it was. there are still many more to come, i do not doubt. but my sis had a worst experience than me unexpectedly. when she had dengue fever, she took plenty of bloodtests. so she's quite used to it. then when this nurse was drawing blood, she couldn't find the vein and had to take both hands. and obviously she was quite pissed when the person had to take the other hand. then she said the nurse was tapping the needle while she was drawing blood. ouch. that has got to hurt. just imagine. have to have a needle poking insiide your skin is bad enough. imagine that the needle is tapped. not gently, of course. ewwwwwww. when my sister exclaimed to my mum that the nurse took wrongly, the nurse exclaimed back that he didn't. okie, first things first, the purpose of poking a needle into your flesh is to get blood. so if you don't get blood, it's a failure right? so by not drawing blood out on the first try, thats causing unnecssary pain.
anyway, my sis den went to complain. being a student of customers service, it's no wonder. and she chided me and said i should never be a nurse and said she hates nurses.
oh well. as my mum says: "sha ren you sha fu". meaning dumb people have dumb happrness. actually it just means that sometimes if you take things easy you will have easy happiness. something liddat.
have to wait for monday to get blood test result. i;m not crossing my fingers. there's no need to. what i think is maybe only 20% chance of it not being thyroid problems.
``ciao
~kiAed
& all along, its only what I thought.
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