weheheh~

Wee~

MaNiFeStaSi 2005 rox!! told ya it did! it was truly a gr8 moment 4 all of us. Kak Fifah gave us rose n a note each. awww. so sweet. im glad we had manifestasi. de tarian gerls really bonded n had fun 2gede. luv dem all 2 bits! *sMiLeS* cikgu azmi came. hoped we had made him proud. :)

i looked lyk a jepun ghost. wakaka~ kinda weird make up. but ok ar..scary rite? nyehehehe. :P. shall put up our pics on de next entry.

darling, thanx 4 coming. :) luv u loads! muaackz!! hope u n izzat enjoyed de show~

my family came 2. so many ppl at nite! wooo! k. i seem very enthusiatic at dis moment. haha. well. kater happy kan..haha :D

cant believe manifest is over. *sob.sob* gonna miss it all. got 2 start studying after dis. alah..not fun..BAH.

yummeh

*sMiLeS*

belanja him black pepper chicken chop at 7K yesterdae. weee~ it tasted wonderful!! yummeh..*drools* i wan more. haha.. k. shall eat again some other dae..nyehehe.

luv u lotz. =)

senyum

Wee..~

my bdae juz lepas. thanx 2 all those hu haf given me prezzies n wished me happy bdae...=) So sweet of u guyz! huggies 4 all. im so touched. thanx seri, rabia n elly 4 wishing me in advanced. thanx amal 2 be de 1st fren hu wished me on my bdae n de cute notebook. thanx syg 4 sending me 2 skol n de lovely prezzies. thanx dilah n 05S05 4 buying me a bdae cake. thanx di 4 de jewellery set. i lyk! thanx ain, firda, hazi, nadia n hu ever else shared dat pretty butterfly braclet. pwetty.=) thanx 2 ily, mabia, haikel, huda n aishah 4 wishing me happy bdae. wished we cud haf celebrated it 2gede. =) to those dat ive missed. sori aite..tak ingat..haha. k. luv u all.

AND..laz but not least..thanx 2 my wonderful family 4 alwiz being dere 4 me.. luv u all. mama, abah, halim n marini. my darlings..=)

sobs. sobs. touching moment. haha...

blah

Finally told my dad abt my results.

i want 2 drop chem. cant take it animore.so demoralising. not interested in it oredi.but my dad sae dont. HAIX.c how ar.. dis sux. i muz be promoted 2 JC2. muz. serious. grrr...

im gg 2 work hard. i promise i will...slap me if i start 2 slack again.

On a lighter note..Wee~ my bp juniors very sweet. Seri wished me advanced happi bdae yesterdae n rabia wished me 2dae..awww..i lurve dem.. *sMiLeS*

tata~*

humph..

Enuf is enuf.

Oh wow. I guess dere's juz so much i can take. hmm. i wonder. izzit juz me being too sensitive, too naive, too gullible? or mebbe i take things too seriously sometimes? all de times? hmm..

Hmmmm...

i gif up 2 easily? im easily fooled?

i took it too hard. yes. dat was it.

ouch.

now, i cant help questioning myself abt myself. wad's gg on up dere brain? wad were u thinking? y didnt u listen to heart when heart was telling u to come down? im so muddled up now. can i sink into de floor n not face de world animore?

hmm. sometimes i guess i try 2 hard 2 meet ppl's expectation. my family, frens, him dat i alwiz abide 2 wad dey wan 2 hear, see n feel.it doesnt help dat i usually gif in. dis is abt me. face it Khai. u haf flaws too n u cant keep on pleasing everyone. everyone's entitled 2 thier own feelings rite?

bah

*Ouch* headache.

had tarian tadi. wee!~ cikgu azmi rox my sox! i lyk de dance steps he choreographed 4 us. very cool.~ but yar. i feel very lethargic now. i was breathless after each round. total workout but bez~ n he's nice osso. farnie guy. nyahaha.

so yes. Manifestasi 2005 will rox! wee~ so exciting..

finally got 2 see maisarah juz now. pretty. =) n she doesnt look lyk me lah! aiyo. i think its juz de eyes. ahakz..

im gonna pretend common test never happen. so yar. WADEVA.bah.

pergas

Pergas reopened yesterdae. hmm..when i was smaller den, madrasah never really had an impact on me on becoming a better muslim. 2 me, it was anoder mundane activity I haf I go tru every sundae. Well, I did learn stuff but.. well, it never was a soul-enriching experience.

Until pergas came along. Ahakz..i wonder y. padahal, segalanyer yg dipelajari is wad I noe oredi. Basically tahun 1 for me is a regurgitation of my previous madrasah. But somehow, I feel enlightened. Mebbe becoz im surrounded by adults, serious ppl. Unlike laz time, semua org buat bising dlm klaz, make fun of ustaz n ustazah. Nyeh. We were still small fries 2 understand de purpose of life.Now, I feel dat now im truly on a quest 2 becoming a better muslimah n it made me do some soul searching. Hu khairunnisa really is. Hmm..my name carries a heavy meaning n truout my life, ive not done justice 2 my name. Well, its time khai dat u take upon de responsibilities assigned from above.

Oritez. Ahakz. Aii..y de sudden seriousness. Hehe. My inner tots. Hmmx. Ouh ya! Fatin's in my pergas klaz! wootz! Glad 2 see her! =) yeay~ n my gosh, wisma indah combine wif de irsyad ppl. my klaz..makdi..50 org. *gasps*

laz dae of "holidae" b4 skol start officially. de farnie thing, im actually looking 4ward 2 studying once again. nyeH~ due 2 de setback in CT, ive promised myself 2 work hard now onwards 2 do well in promos. yea man~ i do not wan 2 stae back. i'll be so appalled n ya..my parents wont let me off easily.~ grrtz.