weeee~~!

Woo...danceworks was yesterdae. Didnt get tru. but its ok. i dint expect anithing aniwae. My body is now aching everyone. urggh...im bruised even. 6 nice blue black on my knees. Eeekss.*horrified* i lyk de goodie bag though. =)

haiyoz. becoz of danceworks, didnt get 2 go 2 gpa~ wad a waste. nvm. i muz go de finals n watch!!

im happy beyond words todae! *sMiLeS*

i dun wan another pretty face,
i dun wan juz anione 2 hold,
i dun my luv 2 go 2 waste,
i wan u n ur beautiful soul.
u r de one i wanna chase,
u r de one i wanna hold,
i dun wan another min 2 go 2 waste,
i wan u n ur soul.

weee~ finally im at ease. hopefully, i stae dis wae. haiyoz. amal, ko nyer turn plak 2 get de confuse bite. harharhar.

oh gosh. reality check. 2moro's mondae...! o level result! whoa..so fast aite. looking 4ward 2 go back 2 skol n meet up wif my frenz. ahakz. im more keen on meeting dem rather den dpt my result. ahakz.

*sMiLeS*

cheerios.

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fencing

aloha~

wee. im in de mlep rm again. skarang ni bio lecture. i skipped...shhhh. hehe.

smalam was de bahas finals. some of de bp ppl came! wee~ adib, hizam, adeel, iza n huda. yeay! i luv u guyz! thanx 4 coming. really appreciate it. haha. i miss crapping wif adib! yes. i miss u, adib! hehe. =P..adeel hansem ar skarang.abg cool! hehe. *sMiLeS*..... My grp lost. =( tak mengapa. we still got a silver trophy. i lyk! it's nice. star-ry trophy. yeay. add on 2 my collection of trophies. hehehe. im tokking lyk i has so much trophies g2. mozly come from fencing. yar.

I MISS FENCING!
seriously. im not being sarcastic here..

can u believe dat. padahal aku lah yg dulu slalu tak dtg. but yar. i suddenly miss holding de blade, i miss putting on de suit n mask, i even miss standing on de engarde position. ive decided im going 2 join fencing club after my 2 yr education in jc. hahaha...yesh! n ouh. i have not returned de skol glove. hahaha. mampos ar...i wanna keep 4 kenangan. =P

hmm. ppl percieve me as happy-go-lucky n stress-free. haha. dat's so opposite of hu i am. khai senantiasa dibelenggu kegusaran.. yar. i miss fries. i miss tokking 2 him. y did he haf 2 delete me out of his life...haix. y cant we still be frenz..haix.

apa erti cinta?

seeing him daily is giving me mixed feelings~ i dunnoe how i feel...hmmm...i shud 4get abt it aite?~ i dunnoe. onli time can tell...........

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mmm..

hmmm...wad's luv?

cheer

Im feeling so sleepy. =/ bleargh. Still got bahas 2 do. Wargh!~

Nvm. Taking a break 4 a while. Okies.

Wee~ went 2 changi beach wif amal juz now 2 chill. Wah...very nice. I truly needed de time off away from skol n reality n calm myself down. Kinda refreshing ar coz nth was disturbing my mind. Naik de swing! Weee...did I mention I lurveee swings? Yesh! Very nice. Can feel de wind blowing. Ahhh....so nice. We osso sang loudly. Hehe. Sth which I wud never ever do but yes, I did it n it distracted me from my predicaments...hmm.

Den left 4 skol at 10.10 am..haha..sajer jer eh. Reality check. Back 2 de mystifying life of khai.pity me. im confused. Grrtz..y cant de happy spirit last? I felt lyk sinking n go in2 hiding once again. Bleargh~

If only de world cud c wad I feel
den, wud de world, noe hu I am
I've loved, lost n feared de world
4 it is sometimes too much to bare

Control, power, is wad I fear
4 I am weak inside n full of pain
I shout n cry, but noeing
dere is nobody dere to hear me
I swallow de shame n anger
dat lies beneath me

I am lost to reality n living in time
Though I am struggling through life
and all that it offers, I am only human
and that is what makes me . . . Me.

Arghh...k. dis whole wk ader cheer prac. Man~ its not tiring ar budden Im too lembut. So sad. I haf trouble wif de steps ar coz I cant make dem sharp n aggressive. Hish~ bleargh. Nvm. Im trying my bez ar.

Aite. Got 2 get back 2 my bahas speech..grrtz.

Cheerios~

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bleargh.

im feeling ultra bitter.

y shud i even care.y shud i brood over someone hu doesnt noe how to appreciate ppl.

fine.

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eekz

wow~ time passed so fast. its oredi more den mid-feb now. fast aite. 1st 3 mths ending soon. getting o level result in time 2 come 2...wow. my experience in tpjc has been truly enjoyable. made lots of gr8 frenz n i had a gr8 time dere. lolx. y am i suddenly feeling so melancholic at dis moment? err..ahakz.

hmmz..being in tp has changed me. i can feel n see myself changing. morphing. yar really. de weird thing is dat its still me but not me. ahakz~ camner eh? susah ar nak describe de feeling. im now more extrovert, i let things out now (wow. dat's really new. normally i wont tok abt anything dats troubling me until wks later.), i more manja-ish now. eekz...okies. mebbe de laz one isnt so gd..

gosh. life in tp has truly open up my eyes 2 de world. ya well. hmm..so sad. ive finally found someone hu im truly comfortable tokking wif. so nice!~ yeay.

undangan yg tidak ku sangka.

aite. cheerios~

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wee~

Wee~

My grp won bahas! wootz!! k. i need 2 get ready 2 go 2 skol 4 cheerleading prac. blog again later.

cheerios~

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wehehehe...~

arghh~~~

stress! stress! stress! havent finish writing my bahas speech!! die liaoz~ help me~

n u suggested my opening speech shud be, "amacam korg baik? nari aku nak bobal pasal tu ah..." wakakaka~ y r u so adorable?~ wee~ *heart meltz* janji tau next wk..*winks* n ouh no. im not gonna be murdered aite? =/

k. got 2 get back on my speech. urghh...tolong~ *crying out in exasperation* arhh...

ciaoz..

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mendak

Gosh~~

Urghh...doing research 4 de coming bahas in skol. Sal lah aku smangat sgt sign up? Kan skarang dah skarang dah tak enthu sgt..bleargh... otak tgh buntu. Mendak beb.

Seeing U makes me happi. U look sooo kiut. *Meltz* =) wee!~

Hmm...thanx amal 4 being dere. Really appreciate it. Hehe. Sowi 4 troubling u ar..Had a real bad flu juz now ~ wakaka..so disgusting.

Urgh...will blog again 2moro..got bahas 2 work on.man, dah kul 12~

Urghh~ focus khai. Focus. Grrtz..

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wkakaka

Aloha~

Smlm frenship dae cum vdae...haram celebrate vdae..tsk2. waddeheck. ahakz. Me n amal gavc out sweets. i made de hearts tau! so leceh!~ but nice rite..hehe. im currently in skol, in de mlep room. its a malay room ar. i luv dis place. everytime biler ader free period, me n mah frenz wud all crash dis place. ahaha. ader tv, ader radio, ader computer, ader air-con, ader mknan... unlike de emas room in bp. gosh..n i tot dat de emas room was nice.

argghh! o level result coming out. *bite fingernailz* grrtzz...seram ar. shud i worry abt it? err..wad's done is done kan.. tak gune nak menyesal skrang. tapi seram tetap seram. i muz stae in tpjc man! i luv it here. wootz!~

yesterdae was really nice. thanx 4 spending time wif me. *smiles* really had a gr8 time. hope u lyk de gift we gave u. u better man! i spend 2 hrs on it tau. woo~ sampaikan ader eye bag sak tak tido. u owe me a reward. *winks*

k lah. nak gi mkn. cheerios~

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yeay!

Whazzup! Hehe. Okies. Juz got back home from amal's hse. whoa..was dere from 3-8...lamer sak..wakaka. had fun doing a mini 'project' of ours ! Its alwiz fun 2 spend time wif ur gd frenz..*smiles* Wootz.. in de morning, had madrasah. Gosh. Can u believe I wore jubbah 2dae? hehe. I felt lyk I was some ustazah lyk dat..wakaka! wore long black skirt n tight black shirt laz wk. My dad was outraged by it. Damn~ heck ar..still wore it. Weheehee..my ustaz so kiut. Hehe. He's round ar den when he smile mata dier hilang..ahakz.

k. smalam gi dis ceramah kat Masjid Ghafoor wif amal, my dad n my siblings. It was on 'Bodily Modifications'. Interesting ar. De ustaz touched on issues such as dyeing of hair, tattoo, piercing, etc. quite enriching n informative ar. Met dis ex-bpian. Aper eh namer dier...hmm...tak tau ar. Faiz I think. Ntah lah...dulu muker dier cam play boi ar..now. wow. Still as hansem as b4 but matured n responsible looking..hmm..time can change ppl aite.

I feel so happi~ wee! U made me happy. I was at de pt of giving up on u coz I noe u wudnt want 2 lose anione in ur life at de moment..n well, I tot I didn't fit into de picture in ur heart. Glad u saved a space 4 me. =) Tgk pram jer dah tak sabar nak jadi bapa! Hahaha.. so kiut lah u.

I wrote ur name in de sky,
but de wind blew it away.
I wrote ur name in de sand,
but de waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
n i hope it will alwiz stae....

*winks* cheerios~

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hmmz

Yeay! De CNY concert is finally over. Over 1 mth of dat arduous,gruelling training...serious ar. It was kinda stressful at 1st. but ya. Glad de hard work paid off. Thanx 2 does hu haf been utmost patient while teaching me. I sincerely am thankful n really appreciate ur dedication. I enjoy dancing! Wee~ hopefully de mistakes I made during de tarian juz now wasnt so conspicuous. =X Also, thanx 2 those who applied make-up 4 me! I luv u guyz! Thanx U! I feel so pretty~ *winks* hehe. So nice =) Tarian make-up is alwiz de extra, extra think tapi grrtz..lawa tu lawa, but I alwiz end up wif a horrible pimple break out after dat. Hmmph..=(

k. change topic oredi. Hehe. Izzit so hard 2 believe dat I dun fancy or is head over heels over anione in TP? Grrtz..ppl keep asking me whether anione caught my eye.Oh well, truthfully, dere is someone though.juz one person..weehee~ im not gonna sae hu. =p. Well, actually im not scouting ard coz, generally de other gender has alwiz manage to crush my heart. How sad. Y does it alwiz end up dis wae? I guess its my fault 2. Im 2 brave. Ive alwiz let my guard down, letting myself succumb 2 such vulnerabilities, soar tru de skies but no one at de bottom 2 catch me wen I fall. Haix...ape lah nasib.

Im vying 4 ur attention but somehow I feel dat I dun mean much 2 u. Mebbe im 2 caught up wif how I feel till ive failed 2 realise dat I mite not even haf a place in ur heart. Hmm...enlighten me.

k lah. cheerios~

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[*] wee~

Wee~ im so happi! ahaha. y? call me a nerd i dun care. i manage 2 finish up all my hw n dis stinky chem hw which gives me de headache, all by myself! yeay!!im so proud of myself~ hurhurhur.*grinz* ouh ya. HapPie LuNaR NeW Yr!

yesh. 2dae ni interesting happened. stuck at home. as per normal. urghh~ yesterdae was fun though. skol ended at 10.20 am. dere was tarian prac 4 a while. juz 2 rounds. but it really got me perspiring. man~. de dance is challenging. kdg2, dpt. kdg2, i can juz mess it up. grrtz.. k.

after dat,went out 4 a while n had some fun! *smilez*.met up wif huda n aishah at Lot 1. damn, i miss dat place. yesh. didnt feel lyk gg home so early. but waddeheck. had 2 be home by 4.=( Leaving u all alone taking de bus home. sowi~

hmmm..yar. in a dilemma. at a crossroad. hopefully de journey ahead is a smooth ride. cheerios~

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[*] khai keliru

De word "keliru". bewildered. yes. i lyk dat word. it perfectly describes me. alwiz blur n confused. wakakaka. currently, i feeling kinda sick. stomach upset, cough, sore throat..urgh.i think im gonna get a fever soon. man~ not fun. ouh ya. i 4get 2 intro myself. i'll lyk 2 be known & called khai coz ive been called nisa since lyk 4va. so yes. a change is nice.

k. tpjc rox! i luv my skol!Baik 05S06! i luv my klazmates especially.10 ml gals in all! so fun..hehe.im still khai de slacker. tak buat hw, tak revise.hahaha... nth new dere.my klaz rep, man, he's so responsible n dilligent n all. wah. impressive.n not 4getting dat he's cute 2. wakaka! gatal khai! n ya, de j2 are all so nice 2..ahakz. lebih2 lagi dis particular jc2 guy. slenge n cute. *winks* its gr8 ar at tp. so homey oredi. ouh ya. im in tarian n i sux. ahakz. yes n next fridae, we are gonna perform 4 cny concert. so fast ar!

had roadrun at east coast. wah! gerek. me n my frenz didnt run. instead we walk2, take pix, enjoy de scenery. we ended up getting de 600+ position. wakaka! giler seh. de beach was gr8. i luv gg 2 de beach. so peaceful..ahhhh...hehe.

wee~ k lah. cheerios!

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[*] wootz

Wakaka..my 1st entry. org lain dah berzaman pakai bende ni, aku baru start. ketinggalan zaman sak. okies. nvm. shall write again another time. cheerios~

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