Am rather upset with myself still, regardless of what others say..
This sounds very stupid but I'm aware that I can forgive others more easily that I can ever forgive myself sometimes. T_T
Give me some time to stay silent for just a while and then find that kayak to row over that spilt milk :)
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Twas a good holiday with the Acacians
(why did my hair dry so fast?)
We have managed the initially deemed impossible. Not without minor casualties, but not without smiles either.
As Xinyi says, "we really need to stop underestimating our holidays". When will we ever have a "proper luxurious holiday" in place of all the unplanned adventures we always land ourselves in? No more "荔枝" (leeches) please. Was. Very. Disgusted.
We were just 6km away from the Myanmar-Thailand border.. just the day before the earthquake of 6.8 magnitude erupted in Myanmar. At the time when the quake struck (8.55pm), we were having seafood along the beach. No cause for alarm as Hua Hin was 2.5hours to the south of Bangkok and nowhere near Chiang Rai, but was hoping that my mum would NOT have seen the news and gotten all worried.
I came back in 1 piece :)
Joys and wonders come in all shapes and colours. Like one of the classic Swee moments below:
XT: 我们要带 jacket, 因为晚上会有海风。
Swee: (immediately) 这里有海meh?
Note: we had just moved into a chalet that was mere metres away from the beach and the waves. -_- I fumbled over whether to laugh or cry, and instantly decided to note down this exchange in my phone.
Really enjoyed myself. Thank you to all for being part of my holidays :)
In the part of Thailand that we were in, we found ourselves very attracted to (or distracted by?) the many pairings of middle-aged ang-moh + random Thai girl (the dark-skinned, and non-plasticky types) that we met. Sometimes, the combination came along with a child that was undeniably from their heritage. To give them some credit, the "families" often looked happy enough.
Which brings me to the thought that. Perhaps when I become rich and mighty, I would buy a villa with a seafront view in this little coastal town, and get a 小老婆 to help 打理 the house so that I could invite friends over anytime. A cute big dog would be a bonus. (Why not a 小老公 you may ask? Well, I would think Thai guys have their pride. And I'm absolutely not interested in 包-ing a 小白.)
This kind of 社会现象 is very disturbing, and very saddening indeed. Likewise, we have our Singaporean and HK men getting mistresses up north too. (Guess Chinese men prefer the fair-skinned ladies as opposed to the SEA ones?). But then again, 你情我愿, I guess it's also hardly surprising that men tend to like to actualise their fantasies if they really feel so lonely inside.
From the looks of it, both SEA men and women need to buck up. Hahaha.
Will never feel lonely with these people around anyway. *Big smile*
(why did my hair dry so fast?)
We have managed the initially deemed impossible. Not without minor casualties, but not without smiles either.
As Xinyi says, "we really need to stop underestimating our holidays". When will we ever have a "proper luxurious holiday" in place of all the unplanned adventures we always land ourselves in? No more "荔枝" (leeches) please. Was. Very. Disgusted.
We were just 6km away from the Myanmar-Thailand border.. just the day before the earthquake of 6.8 magnitude erupted in Myanmar. At the time when the quake struck (8.55pm), we were having seafood along the beach. No cause for alarm as Hua Hin was 2.5hours to the south of Bangkok and nowhere near Chiang Rai, but was hoping that my mum would NOT have seen the news and gotten all worried.
I came back in 1 piece :)
Joys and wonders come in all shapes and colours. Like one of the classic Swee moments below:
XT: 我们要带 jacket, 因为晚上会有海风。
Swee: (immediately) 这里有海meh?
Note: we had just moved into a chalet that was mere metres away from the beach and the waves. -_- I fumbled over whether to laugh or cry, and instantly decided to note down this exchange in my phone.
Really enjoyed myself. Thank you to all for being part of my holidays :)
In the part of Thailand that we were in, we found ourselves very attracted to (or distracted by?) the many pairings of middle-aged ang-moh + random Thai girl (the dark-skinned, and non-plasticky types) that we met. Sometimes, the combination came along with a child that was undeniably from their heritage. To give them some credit, the "families" often looked happy enough.
Which brings me to the thought that. Perhaps when I become rich and mighty, I would buy a villa with a seafront view in this little coastal town, and get a 小老婆 to help 打理 the house so that I could invite friends over anytime. A cute big dog would be a bonus. (Why not a 小老公 you may ask? Well, I would think Thai guys have their pride. And I'm absolutely not interested in 包-ing a 小白.)
This kind of 社会现象 is very disturbing, and very saddening indeed. Likewise, we have our Singaporean and HK men getting mistresses up north too. (Guess Chinese men prefer the fair-skinned ladies as opposed to the SEA ones?). But then again, 你情我愿, I guess it's also hardly surprising that men tend to like to actualise their fantasies if they really feel so lonely inside.
From the looks of it, both SEA men and women need to buck up. Hahaha.
Will never feel lonely with these people around anyway. *Big smile*
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Left unspoken
I met you for lunch yesterday.
(Am running late for work doing this, but the thoughts are a whirlwind in my mind..)
Knowing that you would need to think of phrasing your words first before saying, I decided to err... cheekily ask you instead, to spare you from preparing to tell yet another person.
You asked, since you knew 2 weeks ago, why didn't you tell me?
I replied, I'd wait for you to tell me first. And then silently to myself, I said whenever you feel ready. And it's not like you will stay if I go around telling everyone. You have already made up your mind.
You smiled and said, that's a good habit. :)
I remembered the first time I saw you, you hardly looked up from your work. I thought, die. Why does she look like she doesn't care? What's going to happen to my next 9 months?
Now as I think back, I think... perhaps you weren't even awake then heh. First impressions, really don't count.
Thank you for listening to my silly ramblings.Thank you for always offering a different perspective to everything. Talking to you, is like taking a breath of fresh air.
Thank you also, for taking a special interest in my love life T_T.
We were never close, but yet I'd always felt very close to you at heart.
I am actually very sad to see you go, but I wish you all the best, and may you have as many kids as you want in the future soon to come :)
I met you for lunch yesterday.
(Am running late for work doing this, but the thoughts are a whirlwind in my mind..)
Knowing that you would need to think of phrasing your words first before saying, I decided to err... cheekily ask you instead, to spare you from preparing to tell yet another person.
You asked, since you knew 2 weeks ago, why didn't you tell me?
I replied, I'd wait for you to tell me first. And then silently to myself, I said whenever you feel ready. And it's not like you will stay if I go around telling everyone. You have already made up your mind.
You smiled and said, that's a good habit. :)
I remembered the first time I saw you, you hardly looked up from your work. I thought, die. Why does she look like she doesn't care? What's going to happen to my next 9 months?
Now as I think back, I think... perhaps you weren't even awake then heh. First impressions, really don't count.
Thank you for listening to my silly ramblings.Thank you for always offering a different perspective to everything. Talking to you, is like taking a breath of fresh air.
Thank you also, for taking a special interest in my love life T_T.
We were never close, but yet I'd always felt very close to you at heart.
I am actually very sad to see you go, but I wish you all the best, and may you have as many kids as you want in the future soon to come :)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
It was just last week that I said...
活着多好
Heart goes out to the victims of the quake and tsunami in Japan.
10000 lives gone just like that, and probably hundreds of thousands more left distressed.
人类原本就是那么渺小。
All other disputes and conflicts elsewhere seem valueless. So, why fight?
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Talk about something happy~
Happy birthday again to the twin cod-fish pisces :)
活着多好
Heart goes out to the victims of the quake and tsunami in Japan.
10000 lives gone just like that, and probably hundreds of thousands more left distressed.
人类原本就是那么渺小。
All other disputes and conflicts elsewhere seem valueless. So, why fight?
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Talk about something happy~
Happy birthday again to the twin cod-fish pisces :)
Sunday, March 06, 2011
突然好想
看《常在我心》.
其实一向来活着多好这首歌在我记忆中，是一首很 "sian" 的歌。
太过dramatic and emo = 我不喜欢。在 "Get a Life"里，我也很少听。
可是和《常在我心》拼在一起，就显然不同了。我改变了主意。
可能大家都不多喜欢谈“死”这个话题。
但我感到。。。活着多好。活着，就能拥有梦想。
看《常在我心》.
其实一向来活着多好这首歌在我记忆中，是一首很 "sian" 的歌。
太过dramatic and emo = 我不喜欢。在 "Get a Life"里，我也很少听。
可是和《常在我心》拼在一起，就显然不同了。我改变了主意。
可能大家都不多喜欢谈“死”这个话题。
但我感到。。。活着多好。活着，就能拥有梦想。
來好好給我活著 就似最初 仍然在呼吸都應該 要慶賀
(Get a Life 的版本更赞！)
Saturday, March 05, 2011
Rash-ness
Received a call from a fellow classmate from another institution a few days ago. Wasn't so much of a matter after clarification, but some unwarranted comments... left me rather shattered.
As much as I hate to admit it, I think work has the evil ability to brainwash a person. So much so that they don't behave like they did anymore. Not only did I felt like I was being ?interrogated the whole time, I also watched in dismay at the amazingly distorted image that we seem to portray to the external world.
How ignorant and self-absorbed work has shaped certain people to be. How work takes away innocence and kindness, and leaves people numbed and tired. How people like to undermine others' efforts, to bathe in their own superiority which they could not feel without hammering others down. I admire seriousness in work, but I appreciate generosity and humbleness more.
I quote a line off my purple "fabulous pharmacist" cup: "It's only a job."
Sincerely hope that people stay true to themselves, and not let circumstances erode their good traits away.
Mum cannot stop emphasizing that the fortune-teller's advice for me this year: be less rash and to be more tolerant of people that I cannot stand, for they may rise in importance regardless of how painfully rare the chance might be.
Perhaps I have grown to become a tad more short-tempered these days, but really, I'm no longer the meek girl in the past who never says no to anyone anymore.
If things are not right, I will speak my mind, and not allow sufferings for no reason. Nobody can poke their heads into our lives as they wish.
Heh sound so serious suddenly. But I also won't forget to see the lightness of things in trouble. Must always look for the silver lining.
After all, it's only a job. Luckily I never ever regretted my career choice :) I just hope that the others can feel the same too. Such a small circle, we should all realise that actually, we are all in this TOGETHER.
Received a call from a fellow classmate from another institution a few days ago. Wasn't so much of a matter after clarification, but some unwarranted comments... left me rather shattered.
As much as I hate to admit it, I think work has the evil ability to brainwash a person. So much so that they don't behave like they did anymore. Not only did I felt like I was being ?interrogated the whole time, I also watched in dismay at the amazingly distorted image that we seem to portray to the external world.
How ignorant and self-absorbed work has shaped certain people to be. How work takes away innocence and kindness, and leaves people numbed and tired. How people like to undermine others' efforts, to bathe in their own superiority which they could not feel without hammering others down. I admire seriousness in work, but I appreciate generosity and humbleness more.
I quote a line off my purple "fabulous pharmacist" cup: "It's only a job."
Sincerely hope that people stay true to themselves, and not let circumstances erode their good traits away.
Mum cannot stop emphasizing that the fortune-teller's advice for me this year: be less rash and to be more tolerant of people that I cannot stand, for they may rise in importance regardless of how painfully rare the chance might be.
Perhaps I have grown to become a tad more short-tempered these days, but really, I'm no longer the meek girl in the past who never says no to anyone anymore.
If things are not right, I will speak my mind, and not allow sufferings for no reason. Nobody can poke their heads into our lives as they wish.
Heh sound so serious suddenly. But I also won't forget to see the lightness of things in trouble. Must always look for the silver lining.
After all, it's only a job. Luckily I never ever regretted my career choice :) I just hope that the others can feel the same too. Such a small circle, we should all realise that actually, we are all in this TOGETHER.
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