Perverted thinking

We take much joy in doing what we often rant about. We rant so much about what we find joy in.

The dilemma gets entangled in itself with every twist of events. Life before you is a blur. An adrenaline rush continues pumping and getting you all psyched up in spite of the stabs that the stomach protests against, every single day. Not a moment of rest. Not a moment of kindness. Not a moment of recognition.

But do I care? Probably not very much ultimately.

At the end of the day, what comes to mind is what I have tried. What I may have prevented. What others may have benefited unknowingly from.

And I know I can smile despite everything that threatens to obscure my vision, to block my path, to turn my heart cold.

Why, you ask? Because that's me, you see. Don't ever take me away from me.

If I was the patient who received this prescription..

(Got this from GC)






...I'd ask for item #5. STAT! :p

Exile in the Far Away Land

Solitude and no play makes me a very bored and hungry girl whole day. :/

Passed by Mini Toons and saw it.. My heart sank because seeing it made my gift seem alot less special now. 

My IROM/RC patient told me that my cantonese is very 靓. Totally made my day :D

I enjoy my sessions, I really do. The slightly slower pace of the clinic setting allows more personal interaction, and they tend to start revealing more after some warm-up. When they appear more eager to know what I want to say within the 20min time-frame, I start the race with them. Keeping to time has, and always been the challenge, but I'm happy to say that pharmacists are not the bottleneck so far. :) There are some people who lament not taking care of their DM in the past. Some who blame the polyclinic docs (shall not comment further) for not recommending the renal referal earlier until it's too late. Some who give silly excuses (probably still in denial) to refuse every suggestion. Some who nod at everything I say, but who secretly in their hearts,  are not going to comply.

All in all, it proves to be very interesting trying to observe what the person in front of you is trying to convey, or trying to hide. MTM seems to comprise more than what its superficial purpose promises, and is probably the essence of what we do from day-to-day. *makes mental note to read up 

I think of these patients as the start to the end, and wonder if I was able to catch them right at the very beginning, would I be able to help more.

Someday. I hope to achieve that. That day will come.

Waking up early 


Many things weighing on the mind.

If I had developed a habit of acting strong, it's time to start kicking it. The fortress that I had gotten used to retreating to, had unknowingly become that large.

自己听了歌竟然有点心酸的感觉。是共鸣吗？

Perhaps that wall is beginning to disintegrate... Well is that a good thing?

上学了。

Simply adore this picture... It really looks like a shot taken right from the tabloids. 小童星 accompanied by "星爷星嫲" to the kindergarden on the first day of school. LOL.

我好喜欢你们哦

Will never get sick of looking at these photos... ever. Awww.

1/11/2011

900th Post in the 8th year. Cheers!

2010 has been... different. More tears than the last 10 years combined. More duties than the last 5 years combined. More relationships to cherish. More unsettling feelings to deal with. More weight loss. More joys for friends. More interesting relevations. More reflections. More realisations.

Let's hope that 2011 bring about more new beginnings and more breakthroughs. :)

May I not 苍老下去，"每况愈下".  -.-lll