逃避你 Joey Yung
世界最遥远的一种相距中 明明迷恋 然而又不知怎向你形容
呆想 只会越盼越冻 我怎么可得到你认同 我不清楚 不太懂
世界最遥远的一种相距中 明明情深 然而亦不敢亲切地抱拥
呆等 感觉被我断送 纵使看不清所爱面容 仍未敢伸出我手触碰
逃避你 却又期待我可跟你做情人 而用情的心可天昏地暗
逃避你 爱是遥又远得很 而我始终不敢靠近
还是不相信能和你合衬
世界最遥远的一种相距中 明明留恋 然而让辗转的挂念扑空
回忆 心里越载越重 却不珍惜这一次重逢 我的思想像完全失控
如共你从没开始 不会有终结 谁人在意 情在我心的深处不可以停止
quite an old song... who says old things aren't valuable anymore? *wistful look
Sunday, February 22, 2004
after huang cheng's dress rehearsal last nite, I suddenly had e urge to be involve in storytelling as well... after all, stories do serve great purposes... so do poems, but poems, to me, are unattainable. cant write them, cant read them.
some things are meant to be read, not to be spoken
some things are meant to be spoken aloud, not to be read
and some things are meant to be felt in the heart....
The little girl gazed at the frozen pond, admiring the layer of ice on the surface. It was so clear that she could see her own reflection on it. So tempting. Subconsciously, she stepped onto the ice on her skates, and glided smoothly to the centre of the pond. The big sign saying "Danger No skating" glared at her, but she did not see it. Skating and humming happily to herself, she was lost in a world of her own.
But she was not happy for long.
The ice below her suddenly cracked, and she found herself plunging into a pool of freezing cold water. She tried to heave herself out of the hole but she jus kept falling back. Everytime she tried, more ice broke and fell into the hole. The hole got larger. She was trapped, she knew it. Clinging on to dear life, she yelled for help. But nobody was there. She felt that she was all alone in her world.
But she was not completely alone. There was another little girl, skating happily by her side. The ice did not crack below that little girl. It was as if the ice was protecting her from danger. For some reason, little girl no.2 did not hear our main character's pleads for help. So little girl no.2 continued skating, and skating....
The little girl thought to herself, "At least I can float. Perhaps I can remain here forever. I won't die from the cold. I'll just get used to it."
But then again, an end of a thick rope appear in front of her eyes. She cannot believe her eyes. Help was here. Or it seemed that way. Far away, where the rope stretched to, something bright was gleaming.
The little girl grabbed the rope, but hesitated. Fear, by itself, was a very fearful thing. She was afraid that history wld repeat itself, that she might fall into another hole if she tried to make her way across the pond. She was afraid that she would get hurt again. Afraid that the rope and the light were not the rays of hope she saw. She could not withstand yet another shock.
But yet, the rope tugged at her, willing her to go forward. The light shone even more brightly and she could hear distant cries from it. Sounding suspiciously like words of encouragement. So she hesitated no more, held on tightly to the rope and began her journey across. At least she was out of the cold freezing water. Perhaps she was saved after all.
But who was help? She still couldn't be sure.... the more she tried to lean forward, the more blurred her vision got... It was like plunging into darkness even when the light in front was almost blinding her...
~TO be continued.... if there is one...
some things are meant to be read, not to be spoken
some things are meant to be spoken aloud, not to be read
and some things are meant to be felt in the heart....
The little girl gazed at the frozen pond, admiring the layer of ice on the surface. It was so clear that she could see her own reflection on it. So tempting. Subconsciously, she stepped onto the ice on her skates, and glided smoothly to the centre of the pond. The big sign saying "Danger No skating" glared at her, but she did not see it. Skating and humming happily to herself, she was lost in a world of her own.
But she was not happy for long.
The ice below her suddenly cracked, and she found herself plunging into a pool of freezing cold water. She tried to heave herself out of the hole but she jus kept falling back. Everytime she tried, more ice broke and fell into the hole. The hole got larger. She was trapped, she knew it. Clinging on to dear life, she yelled for help. But nobody was there. She felt that she was all alone in her world.
But she was not completely alone. There was another little girl, skating happily by her side. The ice did not crack below that little girl. It was as if the ice was protecting her from danger. For some reason, little girl no.2 did not hear our main character's pleads for help. So little girl no.2 continued skating, and skating....
The little girl thought to herself, "At least I can float. Perhaps I can remain here forever. I won't die from the cold. I'll just get used to it."
But then again, an end of a thick rope appear in front of her eyes. She cannot believe her eyes. Help was here. Or it seemed that way. Far away, where the rope stretched to, something bright was gleaming.
The little girl grabbed the rope, but hesitated. Fear, by itself, was a very fearful thing. She was afraid that history wld repeat itself, that she might fall into another hole if she tried to make her way across the pond. She was afraid that she would get hurt again. Afraid that the rope and the light were not the rays of hope she saw. She could not withstand yet another shock.
But yet, the rope tugged at her, willing her to go forward. The light shone even more brightly and she could hear distant cries from it. Sounding suspiciously like words of encouragement. So she hesitated no more, held on tightly to the rope and began her journey across. At least she was out of the cold freezing water. Perhaps she was saved after all.
But who was help? She still couldn't be sure.... the more she tried to lean forward, the more blurred her vision got... It was like plunging into darkness even when the light in front was almost blinding her...
~TO be continued.... if there is one...
{ Below's a detailed account of the V-day last wk.... :) koped from sharon's blog (glad that sharon doesn't mind)... as u can see, I cldn't haf wrote it better... well good memories r meant to be preserved... so y not here? =) }
I had a very lovely Valentine's Day yesterday.
I went out with Shuwen, Mayi, Ee Fung and ZZ. First we ventured forth to Kbox, where we sang our hearts out. We even did a (what I would call) fantastic rendition of "She Bangs", even better than William Hung if you can believe it. Unfortunately after which the BILL came... we had to pay $22 per person which amounts to a grand total of $110. Freak. $22 for 3 hours of singing... but I have no regrets! It was money well-spent, at least all of us got a chance to sing. We had to drag ZZ away from the room, lol. We're going back again next Friday! Sheesh I'm totally addicted. The joys of Kbox... it's therapeutic.
{Me interrupting: haha I love ktv, so addicted to it... that I suspect that e sore throat i had this wk originated frm it... oh well... paying a price for it... but i'm not regretting! We, really, sang our hearts out, every single one of us...}
We continued on our long and arduous quest and proceeded to Long John's for dinner, since fast food was the only place which could not exploit lovers and other assorted lovey dovey pairs. The five of us shared four sets, with ZZ having one whole set to himself because he's a guy. In case you're wondering why maybe this equation would help.
Guys=Lots of food
Lots of food=Eating a lot
Guys=Eat a lot
All of us had a chance to talk and laugh and joke and really interact with one another, I haven't laughed that much in ages. Maybe because I haven't had much to laugh about. And we met Ili! I made sure I gave her a huge vday hug when I saw her.
{Me interrupting: laughing heartily's such a wonderful feeling... n I'm so glad that we made e right choice: squeeze 5 pple onto 4 chairs n a table so that we can all join in e conversation, instead of sitting 3 to one table n 2 to another table... and Ili!! wad a nice surprise =)}
We then moved onto the Esplanade. The atmosphere was indescribable. When I looked up into the sky filled with stars (which Shuwen and ZZ claim were moving), when I felt the breeze blowing gently on my face, at that point in time, I really wished that someone special was by my side. And the five of us just sat there and talked, and told lame jokes (courtesy of ZZ, Shuwen, Mayi and Eefung because I had nothing to contribute). And we started talking about truly serious stuff... death, our hopes and dreams and aspirations... what do we want for our future, what we wanna be in future. It felt wonderful. To be able to share your hopes and fears which you have kept inside for so long. We talked for quite a while and we left at 10.30pm. I was reluctant to leave. Cos if we left, I'd have to go back to my life. But all good things come to an end.
{me interrupting we were just enjoying the scenery there... just commenting on the heart shape that a red spotlight hidden somewhere had projected on the ground... so nice... but couples jus keep walking right into the heart... hmmm stealing the limelight? only tt it's red. lame. so ya, at first, i was thinking are we disturbing other pple, with all our loud laughter n voices... but somehow when we retreated to the side to talk... we were alone by ourselves again thankfully... n e rest, I cldn't haf agreed with sharon more... yesh, I was most reluctant to leave too.... so then, I understood wad love btw friends is...}
All in all, a very nice Valentine's Day. My thanks goes out to all four of you, for making Valentine's Day 2004 extra special.
I had a very lovely Valentine's Day yesterday.
I went out with Shuwen, Mayi, Ee Fung and ZZ. First we ventured forth to Kbox, where we sang our hearts out. We even did a (what I would call) fantastic rendition of "She Bangs", even better than William Hung if you can believe it. Unfortunately after which the BILL came... we had to pay $22 per person which amounts to a grand total of $110. Freak. $22 for 3 hours of singing... but I have no regrets! It was money well-spent, at least all of us got a chance to sing. We had to drag ZZ away from the room, lol. We're going back again next Friday! Sheesh I'm totally addicted. The joys of Kbox... it's therapeutic.
{Me interrupting: haha I love ktv, so addicted to it... that I suspect that e sore throat i had this wk originated frm it... oh well... paying a price for it... but i'm not regretting! We, really, sang our hearts out, every single one of us...}
We continued on our long and arduous quest and proceeded to Long John's for dinner, since fast food was the only place which could not exploit lovers and other assorted lovey dovey pairs. The five of us shared four sets, with ZZ having one whole set to himself because he's a guy. In case you're wondering why maybe this equation would help.
Guys=Lots of food
Lots of food=Eating a lot
Guys=Eat a lot
All of us had a chance to talk and laugh and joke and really interact with one another, I haven't laughed that much in ages. Maybe because I haven't had much to laugh about. And we met Ili! I made sure I gave her a huge vday hug when I saw her.
{Me interrupting: laughing heartily's such a wonderful feeling... n I'm so glad that we made e right choice: squeeze 5 pple onto 4 chairs n a table so that we can all join in e conversation, instead of sitting 3 to one table n 2 to another table... and Ili!! wad a nice surprise =)}
We then moved onto the Esplanade. The atmosphere was indescribable. When I looked up into the sky filled with stars (which Shuwen and ZZ claim were moving), when I felt the breeze blowing gently on my face, at that point in time, I really wished that someone special was by my side. And the five of us just sat there and talked, and told lame jokes (courtesy of ZZ, Shuwen, Mayi and Eefung because I had nothing to contribute). And we started talking about truly serious stuff... death, our hopes and dreams and aspirations... what do we want for our future, what we wanna be in future. It felt wonderful. To be able to share your hopes and fears which you have kept inside for so long. We talked for quite a while and we left at 10.30pm. I was reluctant to leave. Cos if we left, I'd have to go back to my life. But all good things come to an end.
{me interrupting we were just enjoying the scenery there... just commenting on the heart shape that a red spotlight hidden somewhere had projected on the ground... so nice... but couples jus keep walking right into the heart... hmmm stealing the limelight? only tt it's red. lame. so ya, at first, i was thinking are we disturbing other pple, with all our loud laughter n voices... but somehow when we retreated to the side to talk... we were alone by ourselves again thankfully... n e rest, I cldn't haf agreed with sharon more... yesh, I was most reluctant to leave too.... so then, I understood wad love btw friends is...}
All in all, a very nice Valentine's Day. My thanks goes out to all four of you, for making Valentine's Day 2004 extra special.
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Friday, February 13, 2004
life goes forward but it can only be understood backwards..
2 dogs meet and greet each other by sniffing and nuzzling each other...
It's Friendship Day today.
Have u ever had urself caught in such a situation. You saw somebody familiar and close to you approaching. You said hi. You couldn't say a single word other than that, even though inside you were bursting with questions, new discoveries and most of all, care and concern. Instead u gave a simple hug or jus a little smile and u said bye. As you walked away, u were suddenly overwhelmed with emotion. There was something suspiciously sour in ur nose and you felt ur eyes welling up. Not exactly tears, but that was about enough to affect you the whole day.
Why are humans so complicated? Why are feelings so complex?
There are many a times, when i feel sian diao esp when the sch day's drawing to a close. Perhaps sian by the idea that nothing special has happened on that day. That's when I dun feel like responding to anything, to anyone. Knowing fully well that it's so dumb to make urself feel down (on purpose sometimes). But after a few hours, I'll tink back... why am I so foolish, so petty? Why get myself bothered over little matters.... What's impt in life is to be happy after all! Yet, I cant, or I refuse, to try change my mood b4 I get too sian. The cycle just repeats over, and over again. You ask me, what's the point?
There are often many stages in things in life.... the initial stage will be one of surprise or excitement. But you get too "high", u may suddenly sian diao and plunge into a state of depression. Then when u least expect it, something good comes out of the blue, and you r happie again.
Sounds suspiciously like econs. Maybe coz i'm tired...
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
2 dogs meet and greet each other by sniffing and nuzzling each other...
It's Friendship Day today.
Have u ever had urself caught in such a situation. You saw somebody familiar and close to you approaching. You said hi. You couldn't say a single word other than that, even though inside you were bursting with questions, new discoveries and most of all, care and concern. Instead u gave a simple hug or jus a little smile and u said bye. As you walked away, u were suddenly overwhelmed with emotion. There was something suspiciously sour in ur nose and you felt ur eyes welling up. Not exactly tears, but that was about enough to affect you the whole day.
Why are humans so complicated? Why are feelings so complex?
There are many a times, when i feel sian diao esp when the sch day's drawing to a close. Perhaps sian by the idea that nothing special has happened on that day. That's when I dun feel like responding to anything, to anyone. Knowing fully well that it's so dumb to make urself feel down (on purpose sometimes). But after a few hours, I'll tink back... why am I so foolish, so petty? Why get myself bothered over little matters.... What's impt in life is to be happy after all! Yet, I cant, or I refuse, to try change my mood b4 I get too sian. The cycle just repeats over, and over again. You ask me, what's the point?
There are often many stages in things in life.... the initial stage will be one of surprise or excitement. But you get too "high", u may suddenly sian diao and plunge into a state of depression. Then when u least expect it, something good comes out of the blue, and you r happie again.
Sounds suspiciously like econs. Maybe coz i'm tired...
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
Thursday, February 05, 2004
it's e 3rd day of sch... already feel my energy draining away frm me... there's not a single lect tt i dun feel sleepy in... feel thankful for e sweets offered around =)
was thinking... I've never been close to any one of my teachers. not one. as if really close, extra close, especially close. the closest i haf been to was my kindergarden teacher... i rem i was naughtier den maybe tt was e reason y she was fond of me? it's not like as if i want to be a teacher's pet, i guess it'll be horrible coz u'll be so fake n acting guai...but really. i wonder y. maybe i've never made an effort to. somehow teachers always seem so distant from me. they will always be my 'superior' n i'll be listening to their instructions (well, if they make sense). I've never given myself a chance to really have a good chat with them... to find out how haf i been doing... anything besides e topics of studies. or maybe become good friends with them. somehow i find that very sad...
~ ~ ~
yesterday was lian pai... which stands for dress rehearsal for huang cheng... hmm there were lotsa stage problems, but overall guess it was quite all right for e 1st rehearsal... really i'm already a j2 liao but still i'm guilty of talking abit too loudly backstage... whoops... got shushed quite a few times... n xinyi...that gal!! came in sneakily to videocam us.... eee i hope we wun end up in e huang cheng video!!... some of actors seem quite good leh.... loud.... n ya dramatic... i was laughing behind e curtains... cldn't stop myself in time
~ ~ ~
sometimes i feel tt i'm quite a lifeless person... whenever i'm not talking to anybody.....wish tt I wun keep finding myself caught in tricky situations. I'm not sure what i want sometimes... n i'm scared i'll do wrong things... which r not exactly wrong... but not exactly right too...
bleahz... boring post ya...
* 因为我坚强到利用自己的痛心 转换成爱心
抵 我对她操心 已记不起我也有权利爱人 *
# 谁人曾照顾过我的感受 (未问过她 有没有理我的感受)
待我温柔 吻过我伤口
能得到的安慰是失恋者得救后很感激忠诚的狗
谁人曾介意我也不好受 为我出头
碰过我的手 重生者走得的都走
谁人又为天使忧愁
甜言蜜语没有 但却有我这个好友 #
白雪公主不多
认命扮矮人的有太多个 早有六个
多我这个不多 我太好心还是太傻
was thinking... I've never been close to any one of my teachers. not one. as if really close, extra close, especially close. the closest i haf been to was my kindergarden teacher... i rem i was naughtier den maybe tt was e reason y she was fond of me? it's not like as if i want to be a teacher's pet, i guess it'll be horrible coz u'll be so fake n acting guai...but really. i wonder y. maybe i've never made an effort to. somehow teachers always seem so distant from me. they will always be my 'superior' n i'll be listening to their instructions (well, if they make sense). I've never given myself a chance to really have a good chat with them... to find out how haf i been doing... anything besides e topics of studies. or maybe become good friends with them. somehow i find that very sad...
~ ~ ~
yesterday was lian pai... which stands for dress rehearsal for huang cheng... hmm there were lotsa stage problems, but overall guess it was quite all right for e 1st rehearsal... really i'm already a j2 liao but still i'm guilty of talking abit too loudly backstage... whoops... got shushed quite a few times... n xinyi...that gal!! came in sneakily to videocam us.... eee i hope we wun end up in e huang cheng video!!... some of actors seem quite good leh.... loud.... n ya dramatic... i was laughing behind e curtains... cldn't stop myself in time
~ ~ ~
sometimes i feel tt i'm quite a lifeless person... whenever i'm not talking to anybody.....wish tt I wun keep finding myself caught in tricky situations. I'm not sure what i want sometimes... n i'm scared i'll do wrong things... which r not exactly wrong... but not exactly right too...
bleahz... boring post ya...
* 因为我坚强到利用自己的痛心 转换成爱心
抵 我对她操心 已记不起我也有权利爱人 *
# 谁人曾照顾过我的感受 (未问过她 有没有理我的感受)
待我温柔 吻过我伤口
能得到的安慰是失恋者得救后很感激忠诚的狗
谁人曾介意我也不好受 为我出头
碰过我的手 重生者走得的都走
谁人又为天使忧愁
甜言蜜语没有 但却有我这个好友 #
白雪公主不多
认命扮矮人的有太多个 早有六个
多我这个不多 我太好心还是太傻
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