{ Underneath the Stars.

Thursday, January 02, 2014

11:42 PM

I always tot if I marry u.. I will be not see any sadness anymore.. its the 2nd day of the new yr.. and tears were washing my eyes and cheeks..

I feel so unimportant to you.. to your life. . Even my home.. I can't even suggest.. or make any decision.. Every1 advise is far more impt than mine.. even yr choice yr decision which affect our future I can't play a part.. I dun feel treasure anymore.. I dun feel impt. . I dun feel your love..

I longed to feel that I am your priority.. your everything.. I dun feel like your wife... I screw up my life.. I feel terrible.. I feel like running away alone..
Who really seriously freaking care about my opinion..

If I leave.. will you even care and find me back??

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

8:02 PM

It feels like my friend have no time for me.. I miss u.. miss the time we met up often..

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

5:43 PM

表面看起来很爱你的人。。不一定爱你。。

付出的不需要回报。。也不需要你的冷冷讥讽。。

原来你没有想象中爱我。。

Thursday, September 19, 2013

12:28 PM

What do I do to deserve all this.. so u mean I sldnt cry at all in front of u.. when I do sth.. im always wrong.. anyway.. I don't have to do or say anything.. im just wrong. cry wrong.. say feelings wrong. yea.. u been telling me we have communication problem.. and it's hard for us to be tgt.. does it mean we will stop here..

Friday, July 05, 2013

stress

6:15 PM

Im really very unhappy.. u know? or do u jus care about u and yrself and yr family... I feel nothing to you.. so what if yr family got very little gathering.. lesser gathering denote more impt? im so depressed.. Everything is forcing against me.. I cld not make any choice at all.. mayb u sld see a doctor for depression? the thought of being dead is back.. Stop forcing me.. Stop..

stress

11:23 AM

i have been secretly tearing in walks and rides.. im too depress.. im breaking up soon..

Stress

11:22 AM

seriously feel you no longer feel the need to treasure me.. No matter what I do.. u take it for granted.. u give me attitude.. u ignore and not msg me.. I feel I had enough.. should I give up as it no longer matters to you anymore..........

Stress

11:03 AM

I had a dream last night (he was out.. so I took cab with his family... only remb seeing the mum n bro.. So we were toking and half way.. started on toking about our flat and renovation.. the mum stop me and scolded me.. saying that I say so much just that I wan to tell her we have not enough money for reno and wants to loan from her.. but I remb it was she who ask first.. and later when I meet the bf.. he scolded me for asking for money from his mum..yet again.. I wake up crying.. this wedding like never meant for me.. do anyone understands? I feel very pressurised... I need some comfort.. which he can not give anymore.. :'(

Stress

10:26 AM

I have been feeling very unhappy.. mainly my health and future.. I had many many bad dreams... which some I woke up crying... I did not really have time to blog about it sometimes.. I wanna pen it down now so I could read it in future.. I had bad dream almost close to daily.. the night before I dreamt of (Him keep telling me I cant have wedding dinner.. in the end we fight.. then he agree to have it.. for 8 tables.. so we book a restaurant.. then suddenly the scene shift to when we were in cab... then as usual I drop him off first then I head home.. then on my way home.. I realise the wedding dinner is that night I panick.. I called him.. and realised that we did not book any bridal.. so there is no make up.. hairdo and gown.. I cried and ask him if we can change date but he insists that he cant.. I keep telling him.. this is once in a lifetime.. why do he have to do that to me.. I cry till I awake..) I'm so unhappy.. but who really care? who really know.. depressed...

Friday, June 28, 2013

:'(

11:17 AM

Nobody really understand me.. I couldn't find someone to tok to when i want to.. everyday told me that the toughest period to go thru in every relationship is the wedding planning stage... i got the feel of it now.. its so tough that i feel like giving up.. i tot i can have a wedding that i will not forget.. but its not the case.. everything boils down to cost.. does it mean that when i cant afford anything.. i cldnt have a say.. why.. i tot i can be the happiest bride.. im stress and very unhappy.. i don't noe what to do.. im tired.. why others ladies can have their dream wedding and i cant.. i don't have sky high requirements.. i jus wan something which i like and which im happy.. why it all becomes a dream.. a dream that will never come true...

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Off to the army

1:52 PM

My little brother seems to have suddenly grow up...
Sending him to army send mix feelings...
1.. we want him to grow..
2.. we dont want him to suffer in NS..

Till then.. he called everynight..
Little bro.. we wait for your return.. count down 12 days...

Friday, June 07, 2013

Mistakes

12:07 PM

Can mistakes be forgiven with all little gesture?

Thursday, May 02, 2013

Dinner @ kim gary tamp mall

3:26 PM

Dinner @ Kim Gary restaurant... Thou its not the first time... just wanna recommend some of the nicer food.. Well~ If you like cheese...

Tomato soup~

Mushroom Soup~

Seaweed fries

Baked mushroom with cheese

pork baked rice

Tomato soup

Chickenpot @ NEX

2:40 PM

1 of the day we had our dinner at NEX Chicken Pot... Ordered the couple set with 1 chicken pot and 1 prawn pot.. Side dishes include tau pau (His Fav) & 1 veggie.. it was our first time thr.. the food is very nice.. I dun mind recommending people over.. but if there is only 2 person, I believe 1 pot with some sides is more than enough..

Lime Juice!

Si Suan vege

Tau Pau

Vege

Bai Cai

ChiX POt

Prawn Pot

Genting trip 4th to 7th apr

2:24 PM

Genting trip was alright... no big major problem accept being fustrated sometimes due to tiredness...

Got a bad news when I was thr... godma had a minor stroke.. was kinda worried... she was considered alright now.. hope everyone will stay healthy...

Thursday, April 18, 2013

6:21 PM

Do you know i did nth wrong for wanting to work hard? Do you know every single 'white blinking light' on my hp.. i hope it was you.. but.. it was nv you...

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

5:35 PM

It's been quite a while since i blogged.. i hope i can be able to blog often so as to be able to relate back to my life event in the future.. nothing much happen recently except for the same fights and quarrels which leave me struggling to hold on.. tomorrow.. its my last paper in my uni.. (Hopefully - praying very hard) And tml im heading to genting with his family.. everything shall wait till im back to decide...

Monday, March 11, 2013

IT Fair

12:27 PM

Skullcandy participate in their own 1st ever IT fair! :D 7 March to 10 March went over to help on the 3rd day.. distributed flyers.. look around..