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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

few day nvr update lerrs.
soo let started frm wednesday,
went fer a movie wiith leonard they all.
watched 881,
quiite a gud show.
funnii at fiirst
dden quiite touchiing iin the end.
after tat,
go fer our's diinner
dden after diinner
they briing miie to mount faber,
iit's a verii wonderful place,
the niite scery there was soo beautiful,
wiith a kiind of verii romance feeliing,
tog wiith the red wiine.
iishx soo wonderful n unforgetable.

thurs,
workiing wiith huii ru.
was the happiiness day iin carls code fer all tiis whiile.
but after one day,
she saiid she iishx not used to iit
and she wanted to quiit.
soo friiday she diidnt came to work at all.
friday,
saw the twiins cumiing back to get theiir pay.
but heck care,
dubb even bother to talk to them.
friday nothiing realii much happened.

let skip sat n sun,
sat n sun iishx jus two boriing day.

as fer today,
bby riite
ii niid to work
but end upp
ii bluff dave saiid ii siick
dden nvr go to work.
dden meet alviin at around 1am plus.
he came down to look fer miie.

erm.
dunno wat iishx goiin on wiith us.
recently we always quarrel,
verii tiired of quarreliing wiith hiim lerrs.
haiis.
partly coz
ii gettiing too emotional
due to xiiangho recently.
always thiink of hiim
and moii mood get realii bad.
haiis.
was liike miie n hiim
gettiing further frm each other
the gap between us was gettiing biigger.
recently we was liike contact
even lesser dden before.
seem liike we will lost iin contact
verii soon.
ii hope iit would actually go beta
but iit seem to bbe verii hard.
ii dunno wat to do
to make iit beta.
haiis.

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3:41 AM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

let started our's post frm friday,
friday,
xiiangho called miie wen ii was workiing
but still ii chatted wiith hiim on fone verii long.
he forgotten moii biirthday
and ii was soo angry,
he saiid moii biirthday iishx on 11th of nov,
but actually was on the 17th of nov lorrs.
ii told hiim
onlii other giirl biirthday he will rem
but always not mine.
dden he lii siiao miie saiid
he smell the vinegar smell.
tat day ii oso told hiim abt the acciident
and ii found moiiself realii understand hiim,
he ended upp wiith the reply of
" dden "
expected.
but diisappointed tat ii diidnt even heard
a word liike
" kkx, sayang larrs "
haiis.
dden ii askked hiim
wat iif the acciident realii cause miie
ended upp iin the hospital
will he ever cum down to viisiit miie
he saiid
he will,
jus to ka miie.
dden he askked miie
wat iif he cum down n had a fiight wiith alviin
dden ii askked hiim
iif realii soo wat will bbe the reason
tat properly cause them fiight
dden one of iit
he told miie
coz of miie lorrs.
dden ii told hiim
forever n forever
ii know he wun cause of miie
fiight wiith aniione.
he will coz of other giirl or other ppls
fiight wiith others
but the one will nvr bbe miie.
ii know nvr iin hiis liife.
dunno why,
after tat ii became to bbe soo moody.
felt soo unhappii.
haiis.
after work went back to 8teen wiith customer
ended upp beiing shouted bby chriis
realii feel soo bad n unhappii.
haiis.
friday jus a bad day fer miie.

saturday,
met alviin before work
and ended wen ii reach moii workplace,
and found out moii wallet iishx lost,
hopefully,
alviin help miie fiind iit back,
iit dropped at the road siide while iim waiitiing fer cab.
on sat nothiing realii much happened.

sunday,
not workiing,
stay at home and help out wiith the prayiing.
dden slp siince sunday miidniight till monday morniing.

monday,
went to work at 7pm.
and after work went to meet alviin,
dden nothiing much happened too
dden went back home at 5am plus.
iit's xiiangho biirthday,
called hiim and msg hiim
wiith no ans n reply,
been waiitiing fer the whole niite fer
hiis reply or call
but still ended upp wiith diisappoiintment
haiis.

today. tuesday,
not workiing
but customer askked miie to go down,
as to keep them fer keep cumiing
and to entertaiin them,
ii went down.
dden leonard oso came down,
even kiiat kor kor frenz oso came down.
hahas.
quiite happeniing fer miie.
hahas.
dden he called,
once ii ans ii scold hiim
sayiing tat he dunno how to ans
and reply msg ytd huh?
dden he saiid he was sleepiing
and nvr go out at all on hiis biirthday.
dden after not long
he saiid lata dden call miie back.
after tat,
ii went down to geylang,
at fiirst goiin liips
soo ii msg hiim
askk where iishx he,
dden he called
saiid he was at home
settliing sum problem wiith hiis new fone
dden ii saiid
whiich giirl soo gud
buy fone fer euu
dden he saiid
iishx sumone ii dunno dde,
started to realii get jealous and angry
dden ii told hiim
anii problem wiith hiis new fone
ii dunno how to settle
askk hiim askk ah kiiat
dden sumhow consiider had a quarrel wiith hiim.
dden went back to meet yiing to have our's supper,
dden talk abt new year stuff
dden she saiid
next yr new yr dde chu er we go driink
and tat make miie thiink of xiiangho
tiis yr dde chu er
our's fiirst tiime meet out of geylang,
and can consiider everythiing started on tat day.
haiis.
dden suddenly wat yiing told miie
realii briing the hurt back to miie,
haiis.
she told miie
the tiime wen ii went to dragonfly dde iinciident
she can see tat he was realii verii heartpaiin
bby how he reacted and wat he saiid.
haiis.
briing miie back to the sadness,
the hurts,
the past
and the tears.
ii almost criied out.
hopefully,
ii can still bear wiith iit untill ii typiing tiis post at home now.
jus now ii told yiing,
ii was wanderiing iif once ii break upp wiith eddy
and ii tog wiith xiiangho
wat will happened now?
will we still tog?
she saiid she thiink we will still bbe tog bby now,
but will always argue or quarrel.
haiis.
ii dunno.
all sadness,
misses,
regret,
unhappiness
cumiing back to miie agaiin.
today ii was liike crazy kept thiinkiing abt
the memoriies wiith hiim.
yiing told miie
iif tat tiime ii diidnt deciide to bbe wiith alviin,
maybb now miie and xiiangho alreadii tog lerrs
or maybb go back to how we used to bbe
iin the past.
dden ii told her,
iishx he the one always pushiing miie away n away,
she should know,
before miie wiith alviin
till miie wiith alviin,
fer tat one week plus
everyday
ii was cryiing over hiim,
agaiin n agaiin non stop,
ii realii hate tat
he always tend to hiide hiis feeliing,
why must until ii wiith other lerrs
dden cum tell miie
he actually thiinkiing to bbe wiith miie agaiin
tell miie all along he siingle jus coz of miie,
jus coz he dubb wanna hurt miie.
haiis.

LENG XIANG HO,
ii hate euu.
hate euu fer always hiidiing ur feeliing,
why iin the fiirst place,
dubb tell miie euu ever thiinkiing to bbe back wiith miie agaiin,
dubb tell miie all along
euu siingle coz of miie
always want miie to guess.
always let miie tiired of guessiing.
hate moiiself after soo long,
still cant forget euu,
still cant put euu down,
still love euu as much as before,
still liviing iin the memoriies we both shared.
hate moiiself always too late or too early,
still always thiink of euu,
still always criied fer euu.
moii love n feeliing fer euu
iishx realii gettiing out of control recently.
why mux euu always
make miie jealous?
make miie angry,
make miie sad.
why mux euu always
make miie waiitiing fer ur call n sms everyday?
always call miie wen euu are happii
and after tat wun even sms fer a few day.
even until now,
euu still makiing miie guessiing
wat euu thiinkiing and how euu feel.
ii realii tiired.
wen can euu realii tell miie
wat euu realii thiinkiing
and how euu realii feel
and who euu love?
haiis.

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4:52 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007

ytd niite after work,
one of moii customer send miie
& one more waitress back home,
and on the way back
passby eddy house there,
but the one iishx not eddy
but xiiangho.
still rem once we goiin kiiat house play mahjong,
dden we take cab go fetch kiiat
frm sii waii
dden oso passby eddy house there,
at tat tiime
ii still cant forget eddy,
and once passerby hiis house there,
briing back lots memoriies to miie.
and suddenly ii kept quiiet
and liisten to song.
and thru moii actiion,
he know iim thiinkiing of hiim.
haiis.
but iishx all iin the past lerrs.
can onlii kept as memoriies.

haiis.
jus had a quarrel wiith alviin,
one mth plus tiime lerrs.
fiirst tiime we quarrel,
always the quarrel will felt soo unhappii
and heartache dde.
haiis.
hope he could ever thiink of miie fiirst
before doiin aniithiing lorrs.
haiis.

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4:25 PM

Thursday, August 16, 2007

monday,
moii fiirst workiing iin carls code,
not bad there.
but still not used to iit at all,
too strict,
too manii rules.
the rules make miie not realii verii happii workiing there.
iim sumone who dubb liike
beiing tiied upp bby rules.
tat make miie
miisses 8teen ever more,
still 8teen the best lorrs.
workiing there
was soo carefree,
no rules to tiied miie upp.
aniiway,
jus work fer the mean time bba.
iit's a confirm tiis pub ii wun stay long,
waiit ii fiind a new pub,
ii will quiit here lerrs.

tuesday,
second day of work,
jery n hiis frenz came down,
after work,
at fiirst plan to go n have our's supper.
but end upp,
dunno how jery driive till acciident,
lucky iim fiine,
diidnt get iinto hospital
or get iinto the coffin.
but the accident
realii frighten miie fer a while.
ended upp
super heartpaiin lorrs,
take cab home moiiself
and the cab fare iishx 23.50.
plus cant claim back wan lorrs.
arrghs.

ytd jus went to c doctor,
haiis.
dden slp fer the whole day,
frm ytd 1pm plus
slp till tiis morniing 7 plus dden wake upp,
dden whole morniing nothiing to do,
all along,
usiing com lorrs.
bored.

today morniing,
saw sumone siigniing iinto msn
wiith the niick
of friday and tuesday.
make miie thiink of hiim.
thiink of the lame thiing he saiid iin the past.
and ii tot iit was hiim
or should ii saiid ii hope iit was hiim.
ended upp,
iit not,
diid feel quiite diisappoiinted.
haiis.
iif one day he realii changes hiis niick to tiis,
iishx iit representiing iin hiis heart,
he still rem miie?
haiis.
thiink too much,
tiis day wun cum dde larrs.

3 more days to go,
hiis biirthday liiao.
still dunno wat to buy fer hiim yet.
askked ah kiiat kor kor fer adviises,
but wat he told miie iishx
askk miie not to care abt hiim,
he saiid,
he onlii know how to gamble,
maybb even hiis biirthday he oso will forgotten.
haiis.
iit's oso truth larrs.
he recently realii gamble till crazy liiao lorrs.
agaiin back to liike last tiime.
haiis.
realii tiired of all tiis.
dunno wen dden he will know how to thiink.
jus hope he will know hiis liimiit.
haiis.

wen ii met the acciident,
ii realii hope to tell hiim.
but end upp ii diidnt do so,
was wanderiing will he ever care or concern,
or do he have the tiime fer miie?
iif tat acciident realii cause miie end up iin hospital,
will he have the tiime to cum n pay miie a viisiit?
will he bother?
haiis.
tat day bbeen kept askkiing moiiself,
should ii tell hiim?
how will he react wen he heard tat?
ii diidnt have the courage to tell hiim,
iim soo afraiid he will react diifferent frm wat ii expect.
frm how much ii understand hiim,
ii know he would sure say sumthiing liike,
" aiiya, ni si bu liao dde larrs. "
or
jus say
" dden "
dden soon after tat he will say
" kk. wo deng yi xia zai da gei ni larrs "
or maybb
the outcum will bbe
ii cant even have the chance to say abt the acciident
dden once he piick upp the fone
he would say
" wo xian zai mei you kong, deng yi xia da gei ni "
or
" wo zai du qian, deng yi xia da gei ni "
dden end upp wiith not calliing back.

the outcum would confirm bbe sumthiing liike tiis
or even worst.
he confirm wun say sumthiing liike,
" huh? dden nii ok mahhs? "
" you mei you shou shang? "
" you mei you shi? "
confirm wun saiid sumthiing liike wat ii hope to heard.
the most he will onlii saiid,
" k larrs. sayang larrs "

iif moii guess iishx riite,
ii fiind iit poiintless to tell hiim.
coz iit will make miie diisappoiinted
sad and unhappii.

ii dunno why,
soo manii ppl telliing miie
iif ii still love hiim
jus go back to hiim,
even alviin told miie tiis oso.
but iishx was liike too manii thiing between us,
they all realii dubb understand at all.
they all wun know how much thiing we once came across,
how complicated iishx the thiing between us,
iit not as easy as to say go back
and could jus go back.
take a verii siimple questiion as example,
was liike iim verii clear tat iin moii heart
he still exiist,
ii still love hiim.
but to miie iin hiis heart,
iishx there miie
do he still love miie
or had he ever loved miie
all tiis iishx jus a questiion mark.
haiis.
no1 will ever realii understand dde.
maybb onlii jieyiing,
coz she the onlii one knowiing the everythiing tat happened between us.
but onlii she could understand more abt love.

haiis.
the hp chaiin he gave miie,
start to get rusty lerrs.
haiis.
maybb sumtiime,
wen iit tiime fer miie to let go,
ii shall let go.
haiis.

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2:01 PM

Monday, August 13, 2007

quiitted moii job at studiio 8teen.
sat was moii last day.
frm tml onward iim the staff of carls code.
but realii verii dubb wiish to leave
and realii unbear dasao n chriis,
ryan, adrian and a few other 8teen regular.
iin thiis one month plus tiime
while iim workiing at 8teen.
ii realii verii happii.
realii enjoyed workiing there too.
but siince the twiins came,
everythiing changes.
joys n laughter seem liike all gonex fer miie.
and iim truely diisappoiinted
and angry wiith albert.
nvr tot euu could bbe such a not understandiing person.
thiinkiing iishx miie n huiru fault
and angry wiith us.
but iishx fiine wiith us,
coz we know we diidnt do aniithiing wrong.
ii dubb liike the way he do thiing oso lorrs.
not faiir eluff lorrs.
iit verii obvious tat he iishx sidiing the twiins.
but watever iit's iishx.
ii still wiish them all the best.
and hope they could take care lorrs.

haiis.
recently realii not quiite iin a gud mood larrs.
no mood to blog oso lerrs.
tml dden post agaiin abt how moii fiirst day work iin carls code bba.

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10:53 AM

Saturday, August 11, 2007

today not iin a gud mood,
dunno why,
iishx iit coz iim siick?
haiis.
kept thiinkiing of hiim fer today,
the memoriies kept flashiing iin moii miind.
ytd morning till now,
he nvr call miie or sms miie at all.
haiis.
ii tot ii used to iit lerrs,
but why am ii still feeliing soo bad now?
realii miiz hiim alot.
haiis.
feel soo lost fer today,
hope to have hiim bby moiisiide now.
haiis.
ii realii hate moiiself soo much,
iim the one choose to leave hiim,
choose to bbe wiith alviin,
and yet ii cant forget hiim.
dden cause hurt to so manii ppls
at tiimes,
iim thiinkiing,
iif iin the fiirst place
ii nvr choose to bbe wiith alviin,
maybb now he alreadii go back to aii kiim.
they will tog happiily.
aii kiim wun bbe hurt bby alviin,
and alviin wun bbe hurt bby miie.
am ii wrong?
everythiing seem to go verii wrong
iin tiis one month plus tiimes.
sumtiimes,
ii wanderiing,
am ii realii tat happii
iin tiis periiod of tiime?
ya,
alviin diid briing miie joys n laughter,
but sumtiimes
a small thiing he diid
or a single word he saiid
could take away moii joys n laughter
tat alviin brough to miie iin sec.
and wen iim feeliing bad,
alviin miight niid to used lots of tiime
to cheer miie upp
but jus a fone call frm hiim
could make miie smile.

tiis relatiionshiip iishx too complicated.
iinvoled too manii ppls
aii kiim love alviin
yet alviin choosen miie
through ii choosen alvin too,
but the one ii love most iishx hiim.
& as fer hiim
ii realii dunno wat he thiinkiing,
how he feel
and who he given hiis love to.

as tiimes passerby,
ii realised
ii cant hiide moii love fer hiim aniimore,
iit's gettiing more n more diifficult fer miie to do so.
ii wanted to know who he realii love more n more.
haiis.

ytd chat on the fone wiith tiing,
she askked miie a questiion,
but ii realii dunno how to ans her.
she askk miie,
iif now he jiio miie,
will ii break wiith alviin and go to hiim?
and ii jus told her,
iit's iimpossiible fer hiim to jiio miie dde.
ii nvr told her the ans.
coz iif realii tiis happened,
ii realii dunno wat to do.
ii thiink ii will realii gonex crazy bba.
haiis.

wen ii told tiing,
all along,
alviin know the one ii love most iishx hiim,
and wen ii feeliing bad over hiim,
ii oso diid tell alviin.
but alviin diidnt miind at all,
yet he will still console miie
and cheer miie upp.
she saiid he realii verii gud,
verii understandiing.
ii know,
he iishx gud.
but the more understandiing he iishx
he more ii feel gulity,
sorrii to hiim.
haiis.
ii can onlii saiid iim sorrii.
ii realii verii wrong fer tiis tiime.
sorrii.

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3:10 AM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

hopefully,
today darliing go report.
and he iishx fiine frm the case.
fiinally realii fang xiin lerrs
today before he go report,
he logged iin msn
and he cum tell miie
he goiin report dden askk miie take care.
saiid till liike he realii wun cum out liike tat.
dden wen ii wanted to reply hiim.
he logged out lerrs.
dden ii called hiim,
before we hang upp,
he askked miie who ii love more.
ii realii dunno wat he thiinkiing
dunno wat he wan.
haiis.
iishx the ans realii still tat iimp to hiim now?
haiis.
ii nvr want to bluff aniione,
the ans to tat questiion
iishx still hiim.
till now the love ii love more iishx still hiim.
perhaps tiis ans will realii hurt alviin,
but ii thiink iif ii liie to hiim,
iit's will bbe more hurt bba.
sorrii.
realii sorrii.
ii realii still love hiim.
no matter how manii tiimes others goiin to askk miie,
now who ii love the most.
ii will ans will always bbe xiiangho.
iit's was moii fiirst tiime,
tat ii had alreadii get iinto a new relatiionshiip soo long lerrs,
yet moii heart still loviing the previious one soo much,
still miisses hiim alot everyday.
cant put hiim down at all.
still live iin the memoriies we both shared.
althought ii kept sayiing ii hope
he faster go iin
dden no ppls gotta make miie angry agaiin.
but before he go report,
ii everyday oso help hiim pray hard.
tiis morniing cant slp at all,
until he told he iishx fiine frm the case,
dden ii could realii get to slp.
at fiirst he saiid
wanna go watch miidniight show toniite,
but dunno why he diidnt call miie.
dunno why ii oso diidnt dare to call hiim,
ii dunno wat iim afraiid of.
haiis.
perhaps iim afraiid to heard hiim wiith other giirl.

until now,
whenever ii thiink of the memoriies with hiim,
ii will still smile to moiiself liike a crazy giirl,
thiink of the hurts moii heart will still aches.
ii dunno wat iishx soo speciial abt hiim,
tat could make hiim soo unforgetable to miie.
no matter wat ii do,
how ii triied,
moii heart still wiith hiim.
sumtiimes realii feel tat seem liike
iim still iinsiide hiis heart,
but sumtiimes seem liike
ii alreadii nobody to hiim.
all along,
ii realii hope to know
who iishx realii iinsiide hiis heart.
but he always tend to hiide hiis feeliing,
always liike to sumtiimes let miie
tot tat he still love miie,
and sumtiime let miie thiink tat he alreadii dubb love miie lerrs.
ii had nvr get an ans before.

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3:27 AM

Sunday, August 05, 2007

erm.
let start the topic frm thursday.
tat day iim dead drunk
and iit's soo scary.
wen ii woke upp next day,
all moii memoriies gonex.
ii cant rem aniithiing tat happen on thursday niite.
dden wen ii woke upp,
blue black all over moii body.
and ii oso dunno wat happened lorrs.
onlii rem chriis send miie back to moii doorstep.
wen ii woke upp,
iim seriously hang over,
still feel verii diizzy.
moii room all iin a mess lorrs.
dden went to work
n askked chriis wat happened to miie,
he told miie coz ii fell down
and bang here n there iinsiide the pub,
tat why blue black all over.
fiirst tiime iim drunk till liike tiis.
scary!!
dden friiday whole day,
cant driink at all.
niid rest oso,
as have to prepared fer today,
coz albert celebratiing biirthday,
dden sure have to driink dde.
after work went to meet alviin fer supper.
dden talk awhile dden ii take cab home lerrs.
as fer today,
slp till 8 o clock iin the niite,
dden faster get prepared
and rush to work.
fiinally ii get back to driink today.
hopefully not drunk or hiigh at all.
dden went back home straight after work.
cant slp at all.

went to reviiew moii previious post,
haiis.
happiiness, sadness
all iin iit.
after readiing,
bbeen thiinkiing,
why am miie n xiiangho
always liike tiis?
we will always too late or too early.
late fer treasure,
early fer giive upp.
always wen ii wanna leave
dden he suddenly treat miie damn gud,
dden wen ii wanna stay lerrs
dden he started to heck care lerrs.
always tend to hiide our's feeliing,
always dubb wanna saiid the truth.
make everythiing soo uncleared.
alot alot of questiion,
till now still dubb have an ans.
haiis.

last few day,
always called miie,
dden talk happily all tiis.
liike the way we talk iin the past,
but tiis few day suddenly no news frm hiim agaiin.
wat he want siia?
ii realii dunno.
why always trap miie iin a maze,
always nvr wanted to let miie know the ans.
always gave miie shortness of happiiness n hope,
dden suddenly jus take iit back agaiin.

when can euu realii gave miie a ans?
alreadii putted miie down?
dubb love miie aniimore?
forgotten miie completely?

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6:11 AM

Thursday, August 02, 2007

jus taken off moii blogspot url frm moii friendster.
dubb wiish ppls tat ii dunno to viiew tiis blog of miine.
jus wan tiis blog bbe a place
where ii could wriite down all moii feeliing.
after goiin thru soo much upp n down
frm all those thiing tat happened recently,
fiinally realiise wen iim real down n unhappii,
actually nt wanted to driink
n get moiiself drunk,
or askk frenz out to accompany n liisten to miie,
all ii wan iishx feel liike wriitiing everythiing out here.

k.
let back to talk abt wat happened today.
5 plus alviin called miie,
n 7 plus went down to geylang hotel to look fer hiim.
accompany hiim all the way till 1 plus,
dden aii kiim came upp,
the fiirst thiing tat she diid to make miie angry
was tat she kiick the door.
and tat tiime ii was eatiing,
and she was jus behiide miie talkiing on the fone.
ii triied to toralate iin the fiirst place,
but the thiing she saiid,
make miie gonex real angry,
ii nvr fiiniish moii food,
ii packed iit upp and throw iit away.
dden ii get upp
n went to touch upp wiith moii make upp,
comb moii haiir,
pack moii stuff
dden ii called xiiangho upp,
dden he saiid he cant meet miie so early,
dden ii siit down awhile lorrs,
but realii cant stand iit,
ii stand upp and jus walk out.
went down to 7 eleven to get a driink.
dden siit at lor 18 there dde coffee shop,
dden ii saw xiiangho.
dden go siit wiith them lorrs.
after awhiile ii went back,
jus to tell alviin iim goiin back home,
wen the lift door opened ii saw her.
she iishx leaviing.
dden ii went iin,
alviin told miie they quarrel
coz wen ii leave he wanted run out to look fer miie.
but she dubb let hiim go.
dden start the quarrel.
after awhiile actually ii planned to go down to look fer xiiangho agaiin lerrs.
dden sumone press the doorbell,
she came back.
dden ii go lorrs.
iin liift dden xiiangho msg miie saiid he got thiing to do.
dden ii straiight go take cab wanted to go home lerrs.
dden almost reachiing hiighway,
alviin called saiid he dubb wanna stay there,
wanted to leave lerrs.
dden ii u turn go back meet hiim lorrs.
talk fer awhiile,
ii askk hiim to go back,
and ii went back home.
ii realii verii angry wiith her lorrs.
haiis.
too overboard lerrs bba.

dden today meet xiiangho,
happii.
feel liike verii long nvr c hiim liike tat.
he still the old pattern nvr change dde.
always soo yellow miinded.
hahas.
stupiid hiim.
but dunno why,
whenever he got msg,
ii will thiink iishx iit giirl msg hiim lerrs.
dden will suddenly verii jealous lorrs.
haiis.
crazy liiao larrs miie.
dunno wat iim thiinkiing.

jus now sharon msg miie,
telliing miie tat she jus received a letter frm sub court,
askkiing her to attend court on 21st of september.
ii lied to her,
ii saiid siince alviin's court day till now,
alviin nvr contact miie at all,
ii dunno where he iishx.
haiis.
ii realii feel bad
and sorrii to her lorrs.
tat tiime ii oso one of iit tat askk her to go n baiil alviin.
but now alviin runaway frm court agaiin,
dden cause her either will get fiine or go iin.
and yet ii know alviin at where
ii still bluff her.
haiis.
but ii realii dunno wat to do.
alviin was moii bf lehhs,
iimpossiible to askk miie to betray hiim dde lorrs.
but other siide iindiirectly causiing sharon iinto trouble.
haiis.
ii realii feel guiilty lorrs.
dunno wat to do lorrs.

haiis.
realii tiired lerrs.
wanna go slp lerrs.
post agaiin tml bba.

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5:51 AM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

ytd,
wake upp at 5 plus.
dden meet dasao around 8 plus dden go down tog wiith her.
dden wen ii reached workplace,
alviin msg miie saiid he will bbe stayiing at theiir house agaiin,
ii not angry or wat.
jus verii worry,
iim afraiid aniithiing will happen to hiim.
haiis.
dden moii mood fer ytd oso verii bad lorrs.
dunno why.
jus feel verii vexed.
dden ytd niite driink alot,
wen ii reached home realii quiite drunk lerrs.
slp all the way till 6 plus
dden went out to meet yiing fer moviie.
watched alone tog wiith her today at lot 1.
sumhow diid cheer moii mood upp
bby the joke we saiid.
but today even moii laugh oso not frm moii heart dde.
iit's was liike not realii tat happii
but force moiiself to smile
n act as happii.
dunno why moii mood iishx soo down tiis two day.
feel vexed
but dunno wat iim vexed abt
seem liike a lots of thiink iin miind
but dunno wat iim thiinkiing.
haiis.

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6:08 AM