another day

well a few days have gone since I blogged last.There is so much going on right now, I feel like i'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I am trying to keep busy right now, people say that helps but in all honestly for me it doesnt. I am always thinking about charlie no matter what is on my mind trying to preoccupy it. I just wish there was a way to turn back time and go back!!!!!

Didn't know if there were other blogs about missing loved ones,so I thought I would give it a try.

It will be three weeks tomrrow since my fiancee Charlie has passed away,three weeks. It still doesn't sound believable.I can't believe he is gone. It is a constant struggle every single day to get up and face what comes. I don't know if there is anyone else out there who needs to get their thoughts heard,but I know it may help. I have been writing a journal everyday or so about thoughts and feelings and thought this may help more if I can get others who are going through the same experience. Well til later.