Wednesday, January 24, 2007 @ 21:26
number two hundred and sixty-five
DEATHNOTE 13: HOW TO READ IS OUT!!!!
okay i know i'm lag and that it's been out for some time already, but hey, i don't have so much time (like before) to go prancing around in comics connection or big bookshop to check the arrival of comic books.
and the special edition set costs a whooping s$79.90. almost $80. and i thought it was like $30+? gee, an underestimation of $50. not really worth it though. plus my books are still in such a good condition, so the box is probably redundant.
today's miss-wu-KI day. so it means sitting and talking about stuff that usually you wouldnt think about like "if the external world exists while you're asleep". so somehow or another, we talked until a point where we discussed about each person's reality is specific and unique. as in what you perceive as reality might not be somebody else's reality.
so the overlapping of realities between two people is called - fate.
Sors Immanis, et Inanis - Fate, monstrous. and Empty.
come to think of it, quite true. and rather cruel too. cruel enough to pull the lives/realities of two people so close together, but not close enough. but the idea of fate alone is quite a turn-off to some. like Neo in the Matrix trilogy, he doesn't believe in fate becuase he don't like the idea that he is not in control of his life.
are we in control of our lives? or are we predestined to do things? like a huge reel of film, our entire life is drawn out and fixed in frames, waiting to be played on the big screen of the world.
but sometimes, i just want to bend fate, bend destiny. or perhaps it is fate that has already drawn us so close, but it is destiny that disallow us to be together. but ohwell, i'll need the cheat code for the game then.
imagine the world is like a gigantic Sims game. and i'm Guo Jinghui.exe. school is Victoria Junior College.exe. Singapore.exe. Water.exe. Fate.exe. All Life On Earth.exe. just a ctrl-alt-delete, end task could end your problems.
the frialty of life. it's only through knowing this fact, that we can truly appreciate and savour every moment we spend. every sight smell taste sound touch is bliss.
fyi. i'm not suicidal.
and i have yet to beat Fate.
and i want to know more about insulin."justice? what justice?"
so come on, tell me.
Saturday, January 20, 2007 @ 20:25
number two hundred and sixty-four
*brushes dust of blog*
it feels good to get into the water. not just any crummy olympic sized swimming pool with clean, chlorinated crystal clear water. im thinking more towards not-so-clean salt-water with a bit of oil from boats/restaurants/god-knows-what, where your feet cannot even touch the water, water.
kayaking!! a water sport, so it's a favourite. quite rusty, afterall it's been almost a year since we did our one-star course. but it's nice to kayak again.
actually, now that i'm in a totally new environment, it's nice to do many things again. like swimming (training-style), going back to ahs and seeing the ncc guys do their stuff and knocking people down, looking at schoolmates (though some pretend they don't see you at all, sadly), seeing how screwed up boon has turned ahs into. kinda bittersweet.
bitter>sweet. it has to be one of the most difficult emotion to cope with. you're not sure wheter to feel happy or sad or angry. it's just a jumble of feelings all mixed together in those kind of salad bag thingy and flung around.
bittersweet-ness comes about everytime you have to let go of something you hold dear to yourself. but sometimes when you think of it, it's what you've been holing on to that drives you to go that extra distance. to become a better person. so when that time does come, it's not sad, bittersweet rather, because you're thankful.
i've come to learn that it's quite a difficult thing to do. as time passes, it get pushed beneath piles of other tasks to do, but the fact that that something or somebody still is in your mind. and it just takes a trigger to send them bobbing back from the murky depths to occupy your mind.
the heart and the mind are so different. too different.
"what is love?"
so come on, tell me.
Friday, January 05, 2007 @ 22:29
number two hundred and sixty-three
it's been blast for the past three days. three damn fun days of swashbuckling and avast-me-hearties at vjc. orientation ain't so bad afterall, not like what others thought it would be.
for starters, the people at vj are real nice and cool people. perhaps it's just the orientation picture they have to paint to us freshmen, but based on their attitude and stuff, i have to say it's very good. it's good to have seniors like them. and talking about good, their SC is excellent as well. not too sure about their internal organisation, but they can really conduct activities well. it's really a huge huge difference from AHSSC (no offence).
class is not too bad either. can get along with the people there. so far. cca not too sure about it yet, because it's still not confirmed. but ODAC does seem real fun because firstly, there's MANY ahs people in it, and secondly, it's those outdoor kind of cca. not too slack, not too competitive. just right i hope.
in short, vjc's fun. don't regret my choice at all. but just hope that when school starts proper, i'll still see vj the same way as during orientation.
start with the stress. i wanna see how it tastes like.
"PIRATES AND PATRIOTS"
so come on, tell me.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 @ 16:16
number two hundred and sixty-two
happy 2007.
it's back to school tomorrow. but not in the back to AHS sense, rather, back to schooling in another totally new school. sounds quite fun. quite looking forward to it actually.
talking about schooling, i wonder what do other people do in the world besides schooling. people of around our age, such as those singers or celebrities etc. do they school? or just go around touring and seeing new things.
it'll be nice it one could take a break from studying and just travel around the world and see things.
"who are you kidding?"
it's been quite a boring past few days actually. no deathnote (website down), no bleach anime, news of no bleach manga for the next two weeks (o.O) and many other things. just lazing around at home, or out doing some window shopping and contemplating the purchase of a S$245 Fossil sling bag.
"who are you kidding? again."
i want to attend one of those big countdown parties, those held in other countries at least. singapore's countdown parties are too drab. countdown parties where there are concerts by bands and live music would be nice, rather than dancing to club beats and sprayed by foam (and touched?).
to sum it all up, i want to get out of singapore for a while, and enjoy a relaxed few-days-or-so in some other country with some other environment and culture.
but i have to go to school tomorrow.
ohwell.
"as i i get onto the Last Train..."
so come on, tell me.