Monday, October 31, 2005 @ 19:06
number one hundred and forty-three
YES. it's over, it's over. it's FINALLY over. no more studying for the near-rest of this year. the feeling of relaxation/slackness/freedom is overwhelming. no more worries. well, most at least.
went to seoul garden today. crazy trip.
haha. night falls soon. maybe i'm nocturnal or something, always look forward to nights. haha.
pursue the truth, yes.
so come on, tell me.
Saturday, October 29, 2005 @ 17:12
number one hundred and forty-two
direct opposite of yesterday.
i'm in a rather f***ed-up mood now. and i can't find the reason why. well maybe i can but i don't know why i'm feeling this way.
i've not felt this way since a long time ago. so this is a refresher, a push, the much needed energy to move on and acheive greater things.
but at the same time disappointed. but how can you be disappotinted at something you don't even know for sure? but, i hope my gut feeling is wrong, but i seldom err in gut feeling. so it might be good it might be bad. i'll try and see tomorrow.
hope is the fundamentals on which almost everything lies on, yes. but it is also an ingredient in the destruction bubbling in it. for hope brings about distractions. and distractions kills. it is, crudely, the greatest strengh as well as the greatest weakness of mankind.
i don't think it is time to give up yet. not just yet. because i'm betting on hope to be a strength, not a weakness.
and neither should
you give up.
i think i feel the same way too.
so come on, tell me.
Friday, October 28, 2005 @ 19:40
number one hundred and forty-one
in a really good mood now. although i'm still having the REALLY bad case of not-getting-gold but ohwells, we'll work damn hard for the shooting competition. FIGHT FOR THE BLOODY GOLD!
went to school to get my
awards. if that's what you call them, i ain't really proud of them. robo-racer, distinction in some science competition. -.- but anyway, i ended up not going up to take the prizes because we had to go for the DNA workshop which i thought was after school. but it apparently was not so we left the hall when in plain view of everyone and walked out. quite insulting but heck.
the DNA thing was cool. we played with the code of life for like around 4 hours. and we had a 2hrs break in which i GORGED a mcspicy double, upsized coke, upsized fries, mcchicken (i had the coupon) and a small coke because gui cheng had to go back to school. pigged out. i was damn hungry at that time. then later walked around the science center and got lost and at the same time maybe spoilt some exhibits. lol. and those kids with the wrong letter out of 3billion in their genetic code are well, i pity them really. it's not exactly their fault or their parents. ohwells, life.
then went back to school and got RESULTS! l1r5 10. can, i'm ok with it. i think that lily koh was sad that we were leaving but she acted tough. well, she was trying to act tought i think. because it wasn't how she usually was. LOL. good teacher, can't really say that she's bad.
i walked home today. again. and i was faster than 291. w00ts. maybe it was because of the conjested roads or rather the cars that were parked along the one-half car lane. but i was faster yep.
(tongue in cheek) let who know?
HA.
so come on, tell me.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005 @ 16:39
number one hundred and twenty
changed my layout for the fun of it.
what a cold cold day. went to school in the morning to take some mock test that was super slack. we were sitting so close to one another that we could just copy directly from your neighbour's paper without even turning your head. and the paper was to be marked using peer-marking. damn and i wasted so much time studying for it. baah.
haiz. enormous pressure now. all hope lies on the three competitions. but i can't let 9 years of effort go to waste. especially not during my batch. our batch. we have to work hard to maintain our status. 10 years of gold. we'll make it as a whole company, trust me. i would not disappoint my predecessors, my juniors, my platoonmates and myself. i'm not letting go without a fight. 10 years.
ohwells. i'm just slacking my ass off now. channel-u is in school now, filming. wanted to attend it but heck, fit three classes into around 20 chairs? i'd rather go home. and i'm not in the mood to listen to chinese over and over and over too. although i'd love to hear what those people has to say. but ohwell, here i am at home.
i wanted to post something, but it sounded so dumb -.-
so come on, tell me.
Monday, October 24, 2005 @ 16:54
number one hundred and nineteen
STUPID blogspot.com that eats posts. damn it took them hell long to publish then in the end nothing came out. zilch. ohwell.
i saw the 291 go today. just when i was about to cross the traffic light. then i suddenly had this urge to walk home. not very far, i walk home from guitar every sunday but ya, i walked home. FOR NO GOOD REASON. i was like trying to catch or follow that 291 or something. but of course that was near impossible as it wasn't friday so the road was pretty empty.
but i tried to follow the 291. but my attempt failed. by the time i reached the bus stop it was probably already two stops ahed of me. damn i'm slow.
then went home, play com, watch some star movies movie with indian actors. the whole movie was acted by indians. funny and nice. i watched 1/2 hr worth of that show.
heck la. i'll go study now. o-level chinese. BAAAH.
so come on, tell me.
Sunday, October 23, 2005 @ 13:25
number one hundred and thirty-eight
ohwell. almost all the students in the country is slacking now. almost. excluding all the primary school kids that haven't taken their exams and the sec4 that have not taken their o-levels and US. those that are CURSED to study after the eoy. for o-level chinese, of course. well, not exactly cursed, but it's not exactly a blessing too eh?
just have to study for this one more week. one more darn week that i could have spent really relaxing. because right after this one week is the onslaught of camps. and overseas trips to help kids build toilets and paint walls. fun. as well as sabah. who can forget about sabah. maybe we'll get to hunt for boars there.
but i cannot afford to not do well. because i don't want to waste my 3 years of higher chinese and my possible -2 to my l1r5. so better chiong.
hmm. lots of things happening nowadays. i'm looking forward to them all. some in particular.
so come on, tell me.
Thursday, October 20, 2005 @ 21:16
number one hundred and thirty-seven
i just had to put this up.
"the purpose of life is to end". so says agent smith in the matrix revolutions.
that got me thinking. you can't really deny the fact that this statement is true. because life ends when it ends. as in when you die. so purpose is the eventual goal one works towards to. therefore when you die, that is what eventually you become. so that is your purpose. so we can conclude that the purpose of life, is indeed to end.
purpose. you can't really say that purpose of life is whatever-thing-people-usually-say-it-is. because once you achieve your purpose, you existence will be meaningless and you would cease to exist. so i cant say that my purpose is to rule the world, because if i REALLY do rule the world, then i have achieved my purpose, and the day would be without purpose, so what's the use of my existence. think about it.
so by using this context, think about the things that you do. what is your real purpose.
one more thing. do you exist to achieve the purpose, or does the purpose exist to be achieved by you. think about it.
so come on, tell me.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005 @ 17:41
number one hundred and thirty-six
i am finally back after a very very very very long time. so i'll give you some time to take that fact in.
ok. spent the last four days three nights in school for the council bonding camp. but first, exams. wth. it's over already. to think of it it's really very fast. but the studying period is very torturous. it's as if you are going to the exams already but it's not really what it seems. time passes the slowest during that time. but still, the exams are over. we'll all take our well-deserved break now.
back to the camp. to say that i enjoyed it would not sound really like me but i thought that it was ok. seriously. maybe it's because of the fact that now i'm a senior and have to do the planning and stuff AND take a group. that's my first time taking a council group in a camp. and personally i thought that it was ok. at least they came in second. but it gives you a sense of acheivement when they win and stuff because for these four days, you are in-charge of them and their failures are yours and so are their successes. yep. so that's how i thought about it.
but of course there were moments that i wasn't too pleased. like when you're watching a movie, it's not polite/considerate/thoughtful/mindful of others to just go change the movie. even if a lot of people are bored but the movie was selected by them int he first place so it's not really nice. plus i think that if they cant understand such a simple cartoon movie like that movie, how the heck can they understand bigger stuff. the language used wasn't that hard to comprehend anyway. so i don't see the point. but thanks for switching back but not thanks. majority wins. but it feels good when the minority wins once in a while.
cleaned up the council room, slept in the canteen and got mistaken for a ghost of some sort. oh well, council camp. and i got to know some people. some good some bad, i reserve my comments to myself. but overall, it's actually not bad.
so come on, tell me.