morning lights;

Hahaha yup this blog is officially very close to abandoned. I dunno, it's like I've nothing to write, or I'm gradually losing interest in blogging? Maybe I've got nothing to say.

So over the past two weeks that I've MIA-ed, we've done this.

Celebrated Derek's 18th birthday with surprise birthday cupcakes. 18 of them. More photos on Fb. He comes all the way from Kuching. =]

Made a new family in college too. =) They're all really awesome. I feel so lucky I have them for classmates. Other people say their classes are full of nerds :O
Clockwise from left : Emily, Rafiq, Joel, Jo Ann, Tao Jian, Fadli and me!
Derek, Dawson, Danial and Sath missing from this photo though.

Went for Orientation Party and harassed the Dominos fellas to give us the entire whole pizza. FREEE! ;p

Heh.

Got a free very-nice-to-whack balloon thingamajiggy.

Also had and have conflicts. I dunno. I don't go looking for trouble but somehow trouble comes looking for me. :/

On the very bright side, I have Nik with me in Taylor's (for now anyway). Really makes me all the more happier. =]
Toodles! Don't know when's the next time I'll be blogging. Hahahaa.

p.s. I do miss you guys. Especially Kye Li. Who has been MIA-ing for FOREVER. ;( Hope we can meet up soon?

how can two people be so close at heart, but still somehow so far?
how can someone claim to love another dearly, but at the same time not love that other person?
how can people be led to believe something, only to find out or hear something later that sways their belief?

despite you always being here, i feel alone.

sorry friend, but you lost my trust a long time ago.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Heh. I know I've MIA-ed for a whole week already. Well, here's a post!

So I started college on Wednesday and I think I'm doing good so far. I know and can remember everyone's name at this point and have gotten great friends! We laugh almost 24/7 (okay, and I DO laugh 24/7 according to Joel =s) and we talk about almost anything. Eheh. Think I'm super lucky to be in G5!

Anyway, the real reason why I blogged is because I beh tahan and MUST comment on Adam's new music video. Whaddaya Want From Me! Hahahaaa the music video basically shows Adam frustrated at what everyone wants from him but at the same time, it could also be showing him frustrated at his lover (though I thought they broke up?). It's really brilliant larh! Hahahaha and you know how well he can portray his emotions and all. Sooooo... and yeah, the music video did get me thinking! Kudos to you, Lambert. :p At the end of the video, however, it shows Adam smiling at the camera so I guess it means that in the end, everything is okay :D AND THIS IS THE PART I WANNA SHOW YOU GUYS.

OMG. *dropsdead.wakesup.dropsdeadagain.wakesup.repeat*

How nice if Adam liked girls :( Thank you for reminding me that he's gay and crushing my hopes, Rafiq. =s

Toodles. Pavilion!

Currently heaving a throbbing headache from cleaning out my room due to the arrival of my new cupboard. It's so bad that I've offed all the lights in my room because they are so glaring. =s

I'm currently not happy. But I'm not exactly tragically depressed either. I'm somewhere in between? Things are pretty much going back to how it was before.. All the yelling, screaming and impatience. At least now I know that if all gets too much, I can simply drive away.

8 hours difference, and I'm wondering how you're doing.

Two more people left.
Suddenly thinking bout what Ee Von said makes me feel like crying all over again.

Although his DRAMATIC goodbye text was 'so much nonsense' (as he phrased it), I had to chant my mantra biggirlsdon'tcry biggirlsdon'tcry biggirlsdon'tcry biggirlsdon'tcry biggirlsdon'tcry.. But... Yeah, just once.

Last night I realised that when they come back, Josh would have gone already. This is saaaaaaaaddd. Why does the stupid weather have to be so bloody fitted with my mood right now?
Looks like this fairytale ain't gonna have a happy ending.

I finally changed the categories on my MSN list. There's no longer a 5 Alpha-ians category... And no longer a schoolmates category... Just buddies for always! and ex-schoolmates 2009.

I feel like staying in bed for the whole day now.
p.s. Just so you know, you're on my buddies for always list. Be safe.

So Ee Von has left. Already. Again. Time passes so fast it's starting to really freak me out. The next time she'll be back is all the way in June, when half of my SAM will be over. =s I know 6 months will pass in a flash, but still. It's 6 months. Got something to be proud of though. I didn't cry when she left this time. =D Though her eyes turned red and all. I was tempted to but I kept thinking biggirlsdon'tcry, biggirlsdon'tcry, biggirlsdon'tcry, biggirlsdon't cry. Followed her from the aisle above right till she got to her aerotrain station. Spamming the song by Fergie now.

Anyways, my past few days have been kinda eventful. Went to many places with Ee Von.

31.12.2009
Drove to Taylor's again and after that went to Sunway Pyramid for lunch. We were starving by then and Ee Von had been hankering for the barbecue food at some place called Barbecue Plaza in there. Basically it turned out to be something like steamboat except that we used a hot plate instead.

Melting butter on the barbecue thingamajiggy.

The raw food material.

Cookin'!

After that we walked all over the placeee?

There's a Ferris wheel inside Sunway! Hahhaa.

GAHAHA.

There's a Asian Town or something in there too. Looked like Harajuku land =s

01.01.2010
New Year's night we went to The Curve for dinner and ended up in a nyonya restaurant. Food was good. Didn't snap any photos of it though.

The night bazaar was gone. ;(

I think the eyeliner made my eyes look strange...

Walked around after dinner. I almost thought it was a skating rink down there cause it looked like one from far.

Sat down at Kluang Coffeeshop to have its famous Kluang coffee float. Strongest coffee I have ever had. Stronger than Starbucks. I shyt you not. [Tennese's line from Zombieland!]

02.01.2010
Had dim sum lunch in Royal China and went up to Genting at night for dinner. Not many photos. I mean Genting's boring even to you guys now right? Hahaha and anyway it's not like I get to see Lam Fung there every week. ;(

And this would be ze most crowded mamak I have ever been to. [btw, we suspect that man in the batik shirt is a DATUK cause he's wearing batik and the rest of his family looks rich and we heard him talking bout Anwar with his family!]

The famous banana leaf rice. Okaaayyyyy laaaaa, I thought. Hahaha.

Boring old Maggi goreng.

Found out that the stuff in Bangsar are largely overpriced. Pffttt.

04.01.2010
Went to a boutique in OUG earlier in the day cause it was 50% OFF BABY. HAHA. Got a dress, a tee and a top. Theeeenn, Mid Valley to do last minute shopping for Ee Von. Again, Ee Von called the shots and we ended up in Pasta Zanmai, which I gotta admit is pretty good.

I really forgot what this was called.. Una Tama blabla roll? HAHA. 'S got unagi [eel], roll, vege, and rice with teriyaki sauce. Nyaaamm.

My meal was spaghetti with cream sauce, Japanese mushrooms and chicken. It was okaaayy laa. Chicken was not marinated enough but the overall taste was okay. It definitely tasted healthier than Italiannies that's for sure cause the sauce in Italiannies is soooooo thick. Lol.

Ee Von's garlic rice with chicken thingy forgot what. Lol. Garlic rice was the best I'd ever tasted. Seriously. Extremely tasty.

Mirrors encourage women to be vain. XD

Something awful happened today. Don't wanna talk bout it here though.

05.01.2010 [hey? that's today!]
Couldn't sleep the whole night. =s L4D2-ed as usual with the guys till 2.20 a.m. and then got into bed and rolled and rolled and rolled and rolled and rolled while texting Zoey until I finally fell asleep at around 4? Heard Mum wake up and scold the maid. Gaahh. Guess I was having a lot in mind? Ee Von leaving, friends leaving, the awful incident, college starting soon... growing up. =s Thanks btw Zoeyyy. I know I kacaued you >.<

Why does she look sick? oooppsss. =x

Heh. Next.
[i took a ridiculous photo of Ee Von but I think she'd kill me if I put it up so I'm not gonna like a good little sister :D]

Daddy and her.

Okay, excuse my expression. I intended for it to look retarded. :D

After seeing off Ee Von to her aerotrain station. Hahahah, Daddy was like a little kid standing on the metal railing on the floor trying to overlook the airport grounds. See the support poles? Daddy said he was the one who checked the design to ensure it was safe. Wooottt :D I don't think he knows how much I love and appreciate him for everything he's done for us. Sure he's got his own flaws and stuff.. But I don't think I'd trade him for any other Dad in the entire world. =]

It wasn't actually that dark. It's just my camera. But this shot is pretty cool.

Okay, imma done! Survivin' on 2 and a half hours of sleep here. Got no idea how I do it. CSI! :D

Extracted from Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie :

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Honestly, I'm not sure myself who I mean all this for.

I'm going to be frank and honest.
I don't like the fact that people are leaving.
It's starting to get to me. =s

I'm glad you're so happy. I really am. I'm glad that you've got great friends who care so much for you. I'm glad you're living out your life the best you can. But I haven't forgotten, and I can't help but wonder. I guess I'm the only one stuck within these four walls. But what can I do? So what if I feel like crap?

I need one more New Year resolution :
4. To keep moving forward and to never look back.