morning lights;

It may not last, but I don't know, just don't know.
If you don't know,
then you can't care
You show up,
but you're not there
But I'm waiting
and you want to
Still afraid I will desert you?
- Maroon 5 : Nothing Lasts Forever.

I take back what I said earlier bout being shattered. Cause right now I feel so numb that I'm amazing even myself. Oh. Maybe it's cause.

My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.

Been trying to cram Sejarah facts into my head all afternoon. I think I did manage to memorize the stuff I've been reading. But only more or less. Not the killer word for word type that IAN TENG WENG YEW can manage so darn easily. Daymn. Can't concentrate so much either. Dunnohhh whyyyyyy.

And oh, guess what. I texted like. 6 people? To tell them Sejarah stuff. Ian, Mel, Kye Li, Dharr, Kien Yoong, Daniel, Julian. And guess who replied to say thanks? NONE OF THEM.

Okay lah, Kye Li and Mel, you're forgiven. Cause at least Mel replied with Science info and Kye Li was sleeping. But everyone else.... Sheesh. What "grateful" friends I have. :(

Omg, I tell you ah. I read Kye Li and Julia's blogs just now. =_= FREAKING KIASU I tell you, both of them. Ohmaagodddd. They even want to kiasu about who is less nerdier. And then at the end of the post, Juls goesss :

Scratch what I said earlier. My pimple (without the 's') is going away. Yes, the one in the middle of my face. But it doesn't mean that another one isn't sprouting next to my nose.

Yes, I know I'm obsessing over my pimples! But I'm not used to them, that's whyyy!

Currently annoyed at the school too.
Damnit, I really hate my face at the moment. =s

So I have decided!
From tomorrow onwards, I will stop hoping so much and waiting on my miracle. Instead, I shall try my level's best to concentrate on the things that should be more important. [SPM for instance! >.<] If my miracle does come, then I shall be happy and cherish it. But if it doesn't, maybe I wouldn't be too upset by then?

After all. Life is short, isn't it? :)

I kept telling Yin that this photo would have actually been kinda nice if I didn't have those stupid pimples all over my face. =s

Yessss Yin, you are FAIR.

Eh people. I wonder if I should start freaking out for Penilaian now. HAHA.

I have concluded that I do things at the most of inappropriate of times.
i.e. editing and changing my blog layout by making a new one by myself with Penilaian only a matter of hours away.

I also lost my entire link list again by making this new layout. Eeesshh. So tag me if you wish to be relinked okay? I've got a bad memory. =s So while relinking everyone, I noticed something very random :
Poh Ming! I don't like your link. Sounds very LALAAAA. =p

On the bright side, I'm pretty happy and proud with the outcome. =D

Finally, my pimples are starting to go away. Hahahaa.
Lenka's The Show song is stuck in my head now. Thank you Joshua.


I wonder, is everything I do even worth it?

Why is it that I'm always invisible to you?

Today, my BM tuition teacher told the class something that I found to be really meaningful and true. He was talking bout the drama Kerusi when he said that when one is really, really in love with someone, one's soul gets really close to the soul of that loved person. So close, in fact, that one can sense the pain, suffering and joy of the person they love without the need of verbal communication. Even when they are miles away from each other.

At that moment, I froze in realisation of the reality of his words.

Last Saturday, after watching Harry Potter and finding out how sucky the movie was (seriously SUCKY, I tell you), we headed over to have dinner with the grandparents. Got to see Ji-Eun as usual. :)

AHAH, she is getting more and more adorable by the day. :)

And then Ken Xhen and I played around with the frames in my camera phone.

*ahem* XD

Negativeeee!

And ooooohhh, I like this one best. XD

Not going to school tomorrow. If all does not go well, you won't see me on Wednesday either. HAHA.

***

I may not be sure of what's going on. But I do want you to know that you are not alone. Take things a a step at a time, and maybe things won't turn out so bad in the end. Don't be so stressed, because it doesn't help to be. There is and will be a solution. And if you need someone, I'll be right here waiting for you.

Saw this in the Bible today after praying :
Psalm 27
The Lord is my light and my salvation - so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?
For He will conceal me when troubles come;
he will hide me in his sanctuary.
He will place me out of reach on a high rock.


The grey skies will clear. Do not worry. =)

I don't freaking wanna care anymore. =D

We go back a long way, I tell you. And I think it's safe to say that she's the one girl I've had every type of feeling for.

To you, whom I've heard so much about from Pei Sun, I believe I need to clear this up. I'm sorry, but there really isn't going to be anything happening okayy. Everything is neither complicated nor simple, because really, there isn't anything to begin with. Please. I ask nicely of you, to go on. You know there is so much more to life.
Thanks. Like I said, safe trip back.

Hahahaa, and this is how I look when I'm thinking about someone who makes me happy.

Kye Li was like. "Think about xxx!" *snaps photo*
This was the product. :D I know I look rouuunndd. Hahaha. But I also look happy. :)

Am I the only one who sees the irony in this photo? HAHAH. I'm not joking okay. This thing can really be seen in the Biology Lab on the fourth floor.

Chem can be so interesting. Especially when Pn Lee's your teacher. =D Isn't this coooool. This was an experiment on rusting. The iron nail was wrapped with magnesium foil and immersed in crystallised agar-agar solution with potassium hexacyanoferrate(III) and phenolphthalein.
Magnesium is more reactive than iron and acts as the anode and thus, it undergoes oxidation instead of the iron. The iron nail acts at the cathode. Water molecules dissociate here to form hydrogen and hydroxide ions. The hydroxide ions are alkaline and turns the phenolphthalein from colourless to pink. =D Nah, Kye Li. You wanted the photo kan? =)

Chemicals! *BAM*

Took the K3M quiz today. Was not easy.
My cough is annoying me!


I am currently in the state of trauma. Serious trauma.

I really went to school today for nothing.

I am falling sick.

.. that I'm stressed and lacking sleep.

I am a panda.
I am a panda with a pimple on my nose. [it doesn't look obvious here cause the lighting's too bright but I doooo have a red patch on my nose now =s]

Just saw something funny that put a smile to my face. Thanks Wei Gin!
HAHA.

Check this out. I am currently surviving on only two and a half hours of sleep from last night. Cool huh.

I am also currently very annoyed.
One. Because I could have currently been somewhere now if I had not been given wrong information because despite being tired, I would have gone if I had known.
Two. Because I feel like I'm being way too nice, it's almost sad.
Three. I am sleep deprived, and yet I can't sleep.
Four. I can't ponteng tomorrow because Ian says we're gonna practice for the Science competition. So I have to go despite being tired and sleep deprived.
Five. I have so much of work to do.
Six. I still want to sleep.

Sigh. Currently waiting for time to pass till my annoyance turns to upset-ness and for my upset-ness to turn to sadness.
You know me. I don't stay mad for long. I just get sad in the end.

I am going to try and sleep now. I currently don't care bout Chem notes or the class layout.

Today is the day I feel sorta piggish. Hahahaa.
Went for driving in the morning as usuaaal. I really don't like road test. =s Hahah, junctions make me nervous. >.<

Then right after I drove home, I had to get changed cause Dad said we were going to Genting for lunch. Sooo we went up to Genting and ate reaaaaaally expensive stuff. Like. Sharkfin soup and scallops. o.o Hahaha. Thennn we went shopping in First World and by the time we got back down to KL, it was time for dinner again. Piggishh!

Saw this on someone's bloggg. I would give him credits for it, but I don't really know him larhhh.. sooo. Anyway thanks ya! Hahaha. It's some really meaningful stuff larh. Read it. =)

To you since I now know that you really read everything I put up, I'm highlighting some of these in bold for you. :)

1. I love you not only because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
   
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
   
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
   
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
   
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
   
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
   
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
   
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
   
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
   
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
    
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
    
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
    
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

I'm sleepy. Period.

Sooo yesterday was like any other Friday. Except that...

I discovered that Daniel's watch is like. More than 15 times the price of MY watch. And my watch is 200 ringgit plus. =s But it's niceee. Apparently it's a diving watch.

I got annoyed counting and dealing with all the money collected for the photos.

Yin finally stopped ditching me and decided to go to Pappa Rich with me and Khoi Meng. And Kye Li tagged along too!

And she dropped hand sanitizer on her pinafore... Boy. It looks WRONG.

Aly came too. =D Although she was all stressed up and kinda emo.

Theennnn we went for Subash.

Wah, berjaya get this photo of Sam! =D

Stupiak Mun Ping's alien long fingers.

Dharr-ling! Turns out Sam isn't such a bad photographer after all. =3

And I woke up at 6 today to go driving at 7 in the morning and got back around 9.15 and left for Subash's Bio Seminar at 10.00 that lasted until 6. In the evening. Extremely long day.

Got to see Ji-Eun!

Darn, she is just too adorable. [IGNORE EE VON =_=]

HAHA, this photo is freaking funny cause all of our expressions look weird. Including Ji-Eun's!

Awwhh. Eh people, that's my mum! Not my sister! =s

I wanna sleeeeppp.


And I'm so tired of trying to figure you out.
I even want to be angry at you, but I just can't.

I currently feel dumb. And I mean like. Really dumb.
Why? Because it seems that I keep blundering into trouble that I cause myself.

I feel like running now. Letting go. Cause I'm tired of this game. The question is, can I?


Recently, I realised I either have no time or no mood to study. =s Koko suddenly seems overwhelming and time-consuming. It's either Ed Board, the class layout, badminton, or judo. Thank goodness badminton is coming to an end though. As for Ed Board and the class layout, I've been having to run about all over the place collecting money for photos. =s Gosh. I think I'm glad I ponteng-ed today. I needed the rest.

Wah, my lips are red. XD Hahahaha.

And, and, I watched a video today claiming that Megan Fox is CGI-ed. CGI stands for Computer Generated Image. HAHA. As in they edited her to look hotter than human. Although the video is suspected to be fake, I wouldn't be surprised if she really was CGI-ed. :p

It's gonna be Friday again.


You can never say never,
So, don't let me go, don't let me go
Don't let me go...

I currently have a huge friction burn on my left collarbone.
Thank you judo. =s

First and foremost..

Happy 17th Birthdays, Mun Ping and Sam! :)

I could post a really funny photo of Mun Ping here, but I think he'd kill me if I did, soooo I decided against it. :p Wey, Xin Yi's right. You're tall and OLD now and she's said it all in her blog, so go see it there. =D

And Sam, I think that you're seriously a very nice guy. :) So stay nice okay? Keep Dharr and Paveyy fighting for you and maybe I'll join in the fight soon too. ;p


Josh and I were talking bout life after SPM when we part ways. He's going to UK right after SPM results. ;(

How could you ever find someone as priceless as him?
Joshuaku sayang, I heart you muchssss. Promise we'll never lose contact! <333

Stayed up last night. Fell asleep before I intended to. Felt like a zombieeeee today.
Oh, before I start posting bout today.

Ehehe, sajaaaaaa post this up. =D The number 19 under-18 Merentas Desa winner! =3

And todaayyy, we finally got around to taking class photos.
But in the end, we only came up with ONE.

This photo's only a trial larh. The real one is with Chiong.

And during receesss, Kye Li BENT a canteen METAL spoon by eating chicken rice. Geezzz, and I thought I knew ganas. =s

Did a career test at the Computer Lab after recess. Here are my tob job selections. I see my ambition at place number 4! =D Discovered that I really dislike Finance and have no interest in mechanical stuff by taking this career test. Ehehe. Well, I guess I'm happy that I know and like where I'm heading... For now. :/

Suasana semasa kelas Matematik. See everyone sleeping. See if you can spot me being sesat in the photo looking up. I think I just woke up at that time. Hahah.

Stress is really starting to kick in. I'm beginning to panic from the pressure I feel. And the class layout is causing me even more stress. Gahhh. I want it over and done with!

Btw, Khong, Poh Ming and Luxur [whoever you are], I'm fine actually. The last post was just thoughts that ran through my head at the time. :) Thanks for being concerned!

Toodless!


Because it's days like these that I wish I was so much more than just me.

Have you ever known someone so important to you that, from the very moment you smiled and laughed together, you'd known that you had been changed forever? Have you ever had someone like that who then was no more?

For those of you who know what I'm talking bout, you know that we leave a part of us with those people. The part of us that made us change in the first place.

Though time passes by, there's always gonna be something whether big or little that will remind us of them. So that whenever we think we've forgotten, we prove ourselves wrong.

Like a little locket hangs
Around your little neck
So closely to your heart
So shall I be, forever.
Landon Pigg - Keep Looking Up.


So I've said bye bye to my long, long hairrr. ;(

You won't see my long plaids in the mornings anymore. Hahhaa.

Say hellooo to my new hairrr.

Okay, I know you can't see a damn thing. HAHA. This photo was taken and up here more for camwhore purposes. =D Ah well. You'll see my shorter ponytail tomorrow morning anyway.


Elaine and Afzy. <3
Senam robik practise. I never knew we had such a nice, AIR-CONDITIONED gym in our school until we had to practise there. Lesson learned from the senam robik session :
Never get involved in senam robik if you want to avoid public humiliation.

Last Friday, when we were all sticky from sweating, Erin, Kess and I had to go to Taylors for a workshop on the upcoming Science competition we're taking part in. Ian went too, but notice that I didn't mention his name earlier because the fella actually went home and showered and had his lunch before coming back to school at 12.30 pm. -.- Eesh. And poor Kess and I starved until 3.30 pm without lunch. ;(

I'm sad.

Went to watch Transformers today at Times Square. Gotta say, the effects and all were pretty darn awesome! It is a must-watch! I think I would give it an 8.5/10. And Megan Fox is HOT, I tell you. I mean, you know when the movie shows the first scene of her, it is of her on a motorbike with her back arched and her butt facing the camera. And all of us are like. O.o You should've seen Daniel. He was sitting on the edge of his chair EACH TIME there was a hot scene of her. HAHA.

I've got one thing to criticize bout the movie though. It seemed like the ending was very rushed. I mean, it took all but like what? A minute for Optimus to defeat the... Oh gosh. Wait. I shouldn't spoil it for you people out there who haven't watched it right. Hahaha, SORRYY...

Anyway.. after the movie, we went for lunch at Gasoline. I liked the place. Hahaha, I tau lah I sikit jakun. Seldom go to TS.

Daymn, I picked the wrong mode on my camera for this photo. Now it's soo dark. ;(
Hahah, Daniel A.S.!

Then the guys left for a mamak stall cause they said they were too broke to eat in Gasoline. HAHA. Tinggallah Aly, me, Afzy, Chiong and Kye Li.

Here's what I had for lunch. Cheese Baked Chicken Chop. =D

The girlsss.

The chosen-for-NS girl pair. Happpyyyy shot.

Sad shot. ;(

And the two stupiak donkeys who ESCAPED NS.

And the SESAT who wants NS. Ohmygod. =s

On the way back I saw this. HAHAHA.

My sister's friend's little brother. CUTE.

I watched Sepet again after getting home from TS just now. Just felt like it. Gosh, the movie is so darn sweettt larhh. And the guy? Although he's sepet, he's cute! :(

Forgot his name. >.<

I feel empty and hollow on the inside now.
Dreading Cross-country this Friday!


Don't pretend, just 'cause you think it'll put a smile on my face.
I'd rather you tell me a painful truth, than a beautiful lie.

Why don't you see?