morning lights;

This is my wish.
This is my hope.
These are my wants.
And so somehow I cope.

This is my silence.
This is my secret.
These are my screams.
And so the marks are set.

This is my pain.
This is my sorrow.
These are my scars.
And so they'll be tomorrow.


I don't have the tears anymore.
I don't even have the words.


I'm setting you free, little bird.
Don't come flying back to me anymore.
Go, and be free. You belong in the skies, after all.

I have two pimples sprouting on my forehead. :( And no, it's not the time of the month, so hell, it must be stressss. :(

In front of the office is a place you should not camwhore.
But I did it anyway. AHHA.

Because he looks DECENT here.

Pappa Rich date with Kye Li last Fri. JY, don't be jealous!

Yaaa, I know, no one eats gula melaka.
I was just trying it! Had alcohol taste. =D

And Pn Sheela left. ;( But this photo is so nice! Makes me actually proud of the class monitor. *cough cough*

And I think this photo of me and her is so too darn adorable. HAHA. Expressions are priceless.

I'm tireeeeedd.
I have a new song. =D Ryan Carbrera's True! Yeah, it's a SUPER old song. But. I have reasons.
Hahahaha.

I'm feeling like a paradox all over again, you know.


I'm incomplete.
Missing your smile.
Sigh. :(

I can't believe you both are like this. The question is, why not? It's not like I wanted to go to have fun and fool around. I wanted to go to benefit. To learn. And of course, it'll be fun too. Tell me, which parents don't support their daughter when she wants to improve?

BOTH OF YOU. That's who.
To top it all off, you don't even trust my decisions. I'm 17-years-old. I know what's good for me, and what's not. Why don't one of you stay home and teach me then? And then oh, you say. "You're not that stupid la, Ee Laine."

Well.
That was NOT what you said when I wanted to take Econs & Commerce.

Whatever, damnyou.


On a happier note, Romeo showed. :)
Smiled and waved.

Sudden emo attack.

You are overreacting. Why are you making such a big deal bout it? I just don't want to talk about it okay, 'cause I guess what I don't know can't hurt me. And yes. I know he was wrong. But it doesn't mean I don't think that you guys are not wrong either.
Overreacting.

Sigh, don't you know by now that I love you anyways? No matter what.


No mood to study Sejarah.
I just want to creep into bed and sleep. And never wake up.
What is one supposed to do if one knows that doom is drawing nearer by the second and there's nothing he/she can do?

I'm happy I balanced my Accounts and realized my stupid careless mistakes in Add Maths before handing in my paper today.
Didn't like Chem.


What would it be like to call you as my own?
To laugh and cry by your side, like we belong together?
Looking forward to seeing you again.

You're always gonna be someone I care about.
No matter how far ahead I have gone in front of you, you will be.
No matter how far ahead of me you have gone, you will be.

I promise.

Here are some random facts.

1. Khoi Meng can be such a dear. Actually bought me a hamster for my birthday. During Subash. Salvin and Mr. Surein thought that it was for an EXPERIMENT. Lord, bless them. =s

She is the most adorable thing ever.

And we named her Kay Tee, short form would be KT. After Kee Thai. =D Muahahhaa.

2. I cried last night. Because I hate having to choose a side. And I hate that people simply assume things without even knowing what's true and then act like they understand everything from every aspect.
It's selfish.

3. I've grown to love Ji-Eun. She is so adorable.

4. I've discovered that Chi Hoe and Daniel are hot. DON'T TELL THEM.

5. I am definitely, definitely screwing Intervensi.

6. I find his smile so damn adorable. =]


7. Byeee.

What would you know bout me being with anybody?
What would you know bout being happy?
What would you know bout me being happy?

Pfftt, screw you.

We had to do a short judo demo for the Riau people. So I was explaining that in judo, we basically "campak" people. Then the Kai Vin-look alike guy suddenly pointed at Khoi Meng and told Chi Hoe, "OKAY, campak dia!"
Omg.
SO KAI VIN. Kai Vin loves pointing like that too!

Seeee!!
=D

I want a damn DSLR. :(
Stupid brat-rich kid Elaine Chioooonggg!

Riau friend. =D

The one everyone's been gushing over. WHO LOOKS LIKE KAI VIN.
And even ACTS like Kai Vin...

Squint to spot yourself.

Graduating. ;(

Queen Ee Laine.

Queen Ee Laine's laughing. =D

RICH BRAT KID.

Volley balls. =D Congrats for the progress so far, school team!

Alycat.

Yinnn.

Yinnn, and love. Hahaha.

Damn DSLR. ;(

Don't ask me bout his expression....

No idea what they were doing.

Laine-Jia-Ju.

=D

Afzyyyyy. The pro-in-Malay speaker!

Nyek. ;p

Failing Intervensi.
And most probably diagnostics too.



Which idiot would still care bout something that has long passed?



ME.

I miss you.

Forgot one more thing. =D

Kee Thai's present to me. Hahahaha! ^^

So, it comes down to this. I'm seventeen. =D
Cut cake at Grandma's house so that Ji-Eun could get some too.

She smiles for the camera now! Ain't she adoraableee? And when Mum tried to take her away from me, she shook her head in protest! Wahahah!

If you didn't know better, you'd think it was her birthday, not mine. XD

Ohanaa!

Actual birthday was on a school day. Sooo.

*pokes Kye Li's expression*

And Juliusss, the wombat was given to me. =D Semua Alpha sayang Julius kan?

Soo, thanks Julian for getting me Julius and the pocket cross. =D Really sweettt.

Jet's keychain. Cute rightttt. =D

And Dharr bestowed upon me Mr. Right. =D If you squint and look close enough, you'll see the words "Mr. Right" printed on the shirt. Hehehhee.
SO.
I don't need a man anymore. I've got Mr. Right! Short form for his name. MR. as in M-R. not Mister. Hahhaa.

Thank youss to Nurul for the adorable mug, Yong and Lyra too. =) Thought you forgot, Nurul!

Had dinner at Chili's in Mid Valleyyyy. The food was so good I didn't take photos. Hahaha. The nachos and mushroom fajitas!! Omgggg. The place makes me think of Chan and Nik though. ;(

The world's BIGGEST BABY! x)

Mel and Kye Li will be haaapppyy tomorrow. =D

Wanna say thanks to Mum. Although she can be soooo evil sometimes, at least she's nice when she's supposed to be. :)

Also wanna thank everyone who wished me. From Yin calling me at midnight to wish me and crap, to the tonsss of comments on Facebook, to my classmates, to Faisal who wouldn't stop singing the birthday song every time I passed him, to random friends in the hallways, to Aly who felt so bad for forgetting that she stuck by me the whole day, to the Riau guys, to 4 Solehin suddenly singing the birthday song for me when I entered their class to give the photography session schedule, to Sheng Hao and Justin - my two Shirtliff juniors/athletes and Imhran who sang too when I entered their class in front of teacher, to just everyone who remembered to wish me. Lol. Really made me feel special.

Because it's times like these that make you feel that life is worthwhile. :)

Mel and Kye Li will be happyyy tomorrow. =D
Btw, I'm home cause my Grade 5 practical piano exam is later. Gaahh. Wish me luck. =s


Baby, I'm sorry.
But you know this is just the way you are. It's none of our faults.
Forgive me.

Sooo it's the 12th of April and it's Easter Day! So I'm gonna take this time off to remind everyone bout Easter.

Over the years, Easter has become highly associated with two subjects.
One. Easter eggs.



And two. The Easter bunny.



Come to think of it, I actually have no idea whatsoever why and how the Easter eggs and the bunny came about....

But the fact is. The real meaning of Easter is to remind us all of how Jesus Christ died on the cross for us to forgive us for all of our sins. And the suffering He went through as he was nailed mercilessly to the gigantic wooden cross and was forced to carry the cross up the hill where he was nailed himself, whipped and tormented by the crowd. Those of you who have watched Passion of Christ would know what I mean.


So no, Easter is not the time when we obsess about Easter eggs or bunnies or silly treasure hunts looking for colourfully painted eggs.

It is the time that we sit down, close our eyes, and say a silent prayer to thank God and Jesus for everything He has done for us.

... Chua Kee Thai. =D

While you were still sleeping [wait a minute, you ARE still sleeping. -.-], I had risotto for lunch. Just like I said I would.

And this is how it looks like. And yes, that's cheese.
And btw. Risotto means Italian style cooked rice with sauce.

MUAHAHAHAAA. Sleep somemore laaaaaa. :p
Beats your Maggi and mashed potatoes any day, no? XD

Barely have any time for anything at all nowadays, let alone blog. :(
Gahh, depressive days.

So, on Monday, we were joined by the students from Riau. :) 20 of them, all in all. Ju, Nurul, Mel, Jia and I had to be the "Guest Relation Officers" or GROs as Nurul put it. Hahaha. We were really nervous and all at first, but it turned out that all of them are really friendly. =D They're staying in SBU till next Friday. Sooo. Yayh. =D Took tons of photos of them and with them but somehow all the photos of me and them ended up in their cameras instead of mine cause they kept insisting I get into the photos with them. Hahahaa. Like I said. Nice lot.

Discovery Channel mag from the library while the Riau-ians were looking around. Hehehe.

And this guy is of the nicest. Hehehe.
DOESN'T HE LOOK LIKE KAI VIN OMG THEY CAN BE CLONES. NO JOKE!

Yuki wanted this photo. Nahhh! :p

Ahhh, Abadi. =D Still not over his artistic high jumps.
HAHAHA. There you go, Ruz! Now you know who's Abadi.

Pretty right. I know. I took it. :/

I'm also officially in love with Adam Lambert of American Idol. They should practically just stop the entire season now and name him the idol already. I mean, Simon Cowell gave Adam a freakin' standing ovation okay?? And he's got darn nice grey eyes and he looks so dashing without his eyeliner and goth makeup.



But sadly, heard he's gay. :( Why laaaa, world. :(


Gahhh, I'm so tired right now. No mood to study. Feel like eating Maggiiii or something. Emotionally not so stable either.

I miss baking cupcakes. I neeeedd cupcake-baking therapy. :( Miss eating 'em tooo.