♥Friday, June 14

alot of stuffs have been happening these few days.
first, new girl joined last week.
2nd, because the clinic is too "crowded", i have to go help out at the medical examination level downstairs.
ok, on the first point.
new girl, who was from rp, pharmaceutical. i expected her to know her drugs. at least, more than me. but it seems that thats not the case at all. she has been asking me wad drug is used for wad almost everyday. and sometimes, she'll ask the same question over and over. ok, yah. maybe i was like that too when i was new. but then... the thing that got me very pissed today was that she told me that she didnt learn abt drugs. in PHARMACEUTICAL. who is she trying to kid? so someone like me in biomedical should know abt drugs and is teaching her that? she still can argue when i ask her why she didnt learn abt drugs even though she's in pharmaceutical. u know wad she said? "pharmaceutical science mah. got the SCIENCE" she emphasized on the "SCIENCE" as if that makes any diff. until now, i still dunno how that word makes a diff. please, enlighten me if u know how it makes a diff.
then really, UR FROM FREAKING RP! u should know how to work independently. but u freaking keep asking whether need to do this, do that when its very obvious. being new doesnt mean ppl have to guide u ALL the time. i dun even remember being as dependent as u even when i just came in. yah, i struggled alot. but at least i learnt something. u depend on others too much, ur not really learning much.

2nd point, i dunno whether they think i can manage or something. but, they keep asking me to go down and help. seriously.... i just got used to something, then u ask me to do something else AGAIN. thats the 2nd time already leh. i mean, yah. its a good thing that u think i can do it. but then, its very annoying to keep changing and then i have to adapt to new environment again. but then, its also good lah. cause i get to learn new things.

then today, gladys said that i should faster learn my drugs so that she can teach me the drugs that the psychiatrist prescribes. wow. i didnt know that she has that much of a goal for me. she didnt say that to anyone else, only me. hurhur. her expectation of me very high uh.

and today, i found out that there is more to being a clinic assistant. there's so much more that isnt written in the job scope. for example "entertaining patients with complaints that are directed to the doctor"
so, today there was this lady who called up to ask which doctor did the pap smear for her, and was complaining for like 5 to 10mins abt the doctor. and saying that she dun wanna see the same doctor, blahblahblah. and the way she say it was super funny. she's like even asking me for ways on how to avoid that doctor. LOL. imagine patients like this who call the clinic all the time. i dun mind entertaining them eh. LOL.

alright. i guess thats the end of my post. alone time now!

Out Of Bounds:D
8:48 pm

♥Friday, May 31

HURHUR!
im here again.
its gonna be a post on GRADUATION.
its kinda late.
and yes, i didnt post on fb like wad others did.
i prefer my post to be seen by as little ppl as possible :D
i hate to let ppl read how to feel. i just hate to let ppl know how i feel abt almost everything. thats just me.
OKOK, TIME TO START THAT POST!

so, on the 29th may. it was GRADUATION DAY! like finally. 3 years has passed.
i still remembered ppl commenting on my results when i received it.
they were like "huh. with points like that, i dun think u can go anywhere leh" (in the end, they were the ones who did worse than me. who REALLY have no where to go)
u see, wad kind of "friends" they call themselves.
and when the days of posting results came, got a text that i got into rp; biomedical science, which was my 9th choice.
u can tell how disappointed i was at that time for getting into a course that is almost at the end. (12 choices in total if i didnt remember wrongly)
and, the courses from rp that i chose are all at the back.
and u know, how rp is labelled a "bad poly" so, my perception of rp then was very bad.

but after 3 years, i dare to say that rp has made me learn alot of things.
yes, the teaching method in rp is very different from other polys. at first, i really could not adapt to the environment. i mean, in sec sch, we were also spoon-fed with answers, notes, etc. but then when i came into rp, the moment i heard that everyday we have to do presentation and there's no lectures, i really freaked out. i was a very shy person (and probably still is), so i was really really scared to stand in front of the class and present. but as the time goes by, it somehow becomes a normal daily routine. (but then, i sometimes still get nervous)

and we have to work in teams every lesson. this has taught me that there are alot of different ppl out there with different working styles. so i will have to work differently with different ppl. and like i said, i was a VERY shy person. so at first, i was always very quiet in class, very shy, no one to talk to, etc. but then, after 3 years, im known to be very noisy to quite alot of ppl in my class and made quite a handful of awesome friends. i guess its because of the environment that we are forced to communicate with everyone, even those we dun like/not close with. and since we have to work in groups, ppl like me who like to work independently have alot of trouble. first of all, i really hated talking to ppl whom i dunno.
but after all that "training" i am comfortable with talking to just abt anyone now. heck, i can even joke with a stranger now.

and every sem, we change classes. it could be a good or bad thing really.
good being, u will not be able to see ppl u dun like. but bad being, u wont be able to see the ppl that u are close with that easily. but then again, it allows u to make more friends. by the end of 3 years, that will really benefit because u have known so much ppl, most of the time ur classmates in year 3 are those that u know. it'll make the last year a really awesome and fun year.

hmm... i guess thats all i can squeeze out of my brain right now.
so... lets move on to things that made the journey in rp memorable.

firstly, definitely the friends that i've made. especially my fyp team. they were the ones who are always joking around all the time and basically, there's very little time that we're serious. we're always slacking. but thats wad i love abt them. HAHHA! slacker team FTW! first sem of fyp, was hell of fun (because i wasnt the leader) but for the 2nd sem where i was leader, it was HELL! i knew how tough WT had it. how annoying to have ppl not doing their work and having to chase them around. and of course, some ppl who wanna argue with u no matter wad. but then, thanks again. because of that i knew how to be a leader, somehow.

secondly, there are some facis who are very encouraging. who are willing to spend all the time that they have to teach, just to ensure that u understand.

lastly, i still think the friends that i've made has made the journey in rp a very memorable one.

ok, i should stop here. i have TOTALLY no idea wad im writing. i just wanted to write something here for the sake of writing something for graduation. totally no inspiration to write at all, especially when i just ended work. MY BRAIN IS NOT WORKING AT ALL!!!
shall come back here and edit when i have the inspiration.
CIAO, my lovely peepo that still comes here ♥

Out Of Bounds:D
7:59 pm

♥Saturday, April 20

alright. so, its my 2nd week of work.
seriously, i've learnt alot alot of stuff. yeah, so much that i make mistakes everyday ><
but then again, they say if u dun make mistakes, u dun learn ;x
and yah, im making a hell of mistakes. but they're very patient with me. thank god for that.
but can really tell that sometimes they're quite pissed with me for making certain mistakes over and over again ><
but then, i REALLY REALLY learnt alot.
lots of interesting stuff.
alot of different kinds of patients.
patients of all kinds of patterns.
i guess thats work working is like. u get to see all kinds of ppl.
and within these 2 weeks, i get to talk to quite afew ppl.
some of them have been working in the healthcare for quite some time.
and some have been working in the lab. (something i would like to work as)
and its really very interesting to have them tell me abt their experiences. then sometimes they'll give me advice from time to time.
something my preceptor tells me almost everyday: "no one comes here with experience. u need to have the interest to learn. have the passion then u will pick things up. dunno, must ask. thats how u learn. must ask and ask and ask."
things like this really meant alot to me, really. especially someone with not much experience.
so far, i like my current workplace. the ppl and everything. i mean, really.. how many ppl will actually ask u wad u plan to do in the future and actually gave u genuine advice? im talk abt ppl who u've only talk to for one to two weeks. some of them, i've only talked to them for afew hrs.
and ppl who know me, i dun easily open up to ppl. but trust me, i've opened up to some of them within that short period of time.
yes, opening up to ppl meant alot to me.
and then, i've come to appreciate alot of things. like the cleaning aunties. some of the older aunties are actually very friendly and sometimes even more approachable than some of the other adults. trust me on this. then even though their pay is quite low (should be), they still go to work everyday, doing all the shitty things that even i wouldnt do. and smiling and trying to make small chats. i mean, yah i do talk to the aunties and even joke with them. but really, how many singaporeans will actually do this? sometimes, i feel the cleaning aunties are neglected. they're humans too, u know.
OK, i just realized i've gone to the more sentimental part again and cant stop blabbering.

SUMMARY: it was a good two weeks at work. nice ppl, etc.

Out Of Bounds:D
9:02 pm

♥Sunday, January 27

WOOTS! FYP IS DONEEEEEEE!!!
FINALLY!!!
yah, that woman in my team wanted to take my methodology cause she say abstract and objective has very little things to say. so, i gave her my part lorh. *where to find such a kind leader?!*
so, i think i really showed her yesterday that even though i got the "little" part as wad she thinks, i talked way more than her methodology. and wads more, she even said things that she isnt supposed to say. like, revealing the participant's information. oh seriously... but well, the assessor shouldnt be that mean to downgrade her lah. BUT, I HOPE SHE'S DOWNGRADED.
and then, i dunno why... even the presentation, she wanna argue with melvin. as if arguing with me on a daily basis is not enough for her =.=" during PRESENTATION she also wanna act like a bitch =.="
i mean... yah lah, i know that she's those kind that say wadever is on her mind. but seriously? i think she has the brain not to do that during the evaluation. but NO, i was proven downright WRONG. it just shows that she doesnt think before she says a single stuff =.="
but im really super glad i dun needa see her anymore. this shall be the last time im gonna rant abt her over here. unless im so unlucky to bump into her again, which i really hope i do not.
oh well, since fyp is over. HAPPY THOUGHTS! its time to continue reading my books.
CIAO

Out Of Bounds:D
11:50 am

♥Monday, January 21

oh yes. im here to rant AGAIN!
if u find this irritating, then just close this page, thankyouverymuch.
this is my platform to rant. i cant say this is private. but, its LESS private than some other place.
OK, THAT WOMAN HAS JUST @#%#$&%^. <-- PISSED ME OFF AGAIN
ok, u might wan to wonder why i bother so much with her when i dun like her.
ok, so... i have to bare with this WOMAN till 26th, which is fyp presentation, which is also the last time we'll meet for fyp.
so since i'll have to bare with her till then, i will need a source of outlet for my anger. so, here i am~
ok, so last week florina keep changing the fyp meeting date. from wed, to thurs, to fri.
ok. so.... at first there's meet on wed. but the day before, she changed to thurs. so i was telling them to still meet so that we can do the poster. so, we're supposed to meet at 12. wad she did was, she msged me DIRECTLY ON THE DOT at 12 saying that she's sick blahblahblah. *i knew perfectly well she wasnt sick. but i still tell her to takecare. dunno why i said that too* then on thurs, meeting was cancelled to fri. so i asked them whether they wanna meet anot. and, she msged me "meet lorh. cause im not coming tmr" ok, so we met. the first thing i noticed abt her is... she looks perfectly fine. for someone who has flu, fever, cough the day before, SHE'S PERFECTLY FINE. SHE NVR EVEN COUGHED FOR A SEC. *enough evidence to prove that she isnt sick* THEN! she told us why she's not coming tmr. AND U KNOW WADS THE REASON?! "im not coming to sch tmr cause tmr got ut. i dun wanna take ut" OHMY@%#$^!$#$$&. that just gave me more evidence to prove that she's just faking her sickness.
ok, then today. TODAY! she msged me wad time we're gonna meet on WEDNESDAY.
ah yah. u take the effort to msg me 2 days before the day we're meeting, asking wad time to meet. but u didnt make the effort to msg me 2 days before to tell me that ur "SICK". nice one man.
seriously, how irresponsible can one person get? just because no one said anything, doesnt mean u can do stuff as u please. i dunno abt the others. but i really really really cant stand that woman. one of the very very few ppl i cant stand.
alright. i should end this.
been talking abt her for afew posts consecutively already. shows how annoying she is =.="

Out Of Bounds:D
10:59 pm

♥Monday, January 14

some ppl should really know when to shutup and when to say the correct things.
i, personally, rather ppl to shutup if they have nth to say. and not just continue the conversation even if there is nth to say. silence is golden. if u talk too much, it just shows how shallow u are.
so, take for example this girl in my fyp. notice that i cant even be bothered to cover up who that person is. (there's only one girl in my fyp team excluding me)
first. she stereotypes. alot. "ALL guys are like this. ALL girls are like that." hello. i think the correct word to be used here should be "most" and not "all". no one individual is similar to another.
oh. and then just last week, she has to annoy me so many times.
first:
her: i dun like to come to sch leh.
me: i dun mind coming
her: huh. i dun like leh. i cant wait to graduate.
me: i dun mind.
then she started telling wq i "LIKE" to come to sch
so, i was like: eh! i didnt say i like. i said i didnt mind.
her: yah, i say u didnt mind mah. that means u like lorh
me: no, it isnt. doesnt mind doesnt mean like. PLEASE go check the dictionary before saying anything.
then that wq just suddenly butt in and asked me to shutup =.=" and she just laughed it off. the heck =.=" i swear i was on the edge of smashing something at her. and her voice and tone just makes the convo 100 times more annoying than just looking at the text. that woman things everything she says is correct =.=" then when i say something different, she stare at me (yah, i know ur eyes big lah. but no, it doesnt change any fact) and when she starts talking. seriously.... IT JUST MAKES EVERYTHING SO MUCH WORSE. everything to her is either right or wrong. there's no in between =.="

ok, so the 2nd scenario:
wq: wad color u all wan for the poster background?
me: BLACK!
her: eeeeee. dun wan black. PINK!
me: eww. i dun like pink.
her: i like pink leh. pink pink.
me: i dun like pink!
her: aiya. any color lah. anything but black and white.
me: anything but pink.
her: if u dun like pink, why ur logbook is pink
me: the other colors not nice mah.
her: but u say u dun like pink
me: i dun like pink doesnt mean i wont buy pink right? sometimes in life, u dun buy everything that u like.
wq: WAHHHH, so deep.
me: of course
then she laugh again, and keep quiet =.=" pfft.

and there's another scenario too. but i got too worked up and forgot wad it was.
bottomline is, me and her just cant get along together. and im not the one who isnt trying. she's the one who's talking crap almost everytime. and she's always saying how much she hates studying. if so, why study? just drop out lah =.=" the heck. instead of complaining, she can just drop out and work. like wad she wants.

oh. i remember another scenario already.
her: i cant wait to graduate. i hate studying. i wanna work
me: i dun wanna work. i hate the working life
her: i wan work leh. got money.
me: *keep quiet and roll eyes. cant help but wonder how simple her mind is*

oh well, i bet she'll say something different when she really does start working. but really, who cares. by then we wont even be talking to each other. i mean, even now, we seldom even talk. when we do, we'll argue. so whenever she says something, i'll just ignore. and she has the cheek to ask why we ignore her when she say something. seriously? =.="
last time, i was worried that she wont be able to fit in and stuff like that. but now, HECK CARE MAN. she obviously cant blend in with us. she can even make me hate her *claps* it takes alot for me to hate someone. but she does it so easily. SHE'S A PRO MAN =.="
i sometimes really wonder how her bf stands her. but, who cares. not interested in her private life. as long as she doesnt probe into mine, i'll leave her's alone.
well, and maybe she doesnt like me too, judging from how she talk to me? but maybe, she just talks like this to everyone. but maybe she doesnt talk like this to wq because she knows he'll scold her. and she knows i wont. hmmm.... i should be fiercer. then maybe i'll let her know how much i hate her at the end of fyp. cant let her know i hate her now ah. fyp evaluation not done. but nah, maybe i wont. good impression yo. even if she leaves me a bad impression, its always my style to leave a good impression for others.
oh well. after the 26th, i wont be seeing her anymore. no more fyp. NO MORE CRAP. for now, gotta pull up my crap repellent. and one with a very strong dose.

Out Of Bounds:D
11:12 am

♥Sunday, December 23

today was fun!
especially the ice skating. though it was my first time, it was not bad lah. didnt fell down at all :D
but, lots of screaming though.
it was nice catching up with wt.
seriously miss her sososo much sia.
its like, without her in the fyp team, everything is so dead.
with her around, everytime me, her and wq will talk abt FOOD! like, ALL THE TIME! and we'll do all sorts of funny crap together and we even got called the "comedy duo".
and now without her, its super boring. its like, i wanna fool around, everyone is like so dead seriously. well, sometimes wq will join in lah. then the others is like..... "uhhhhhhhhhh......" x.x gosh.
every single time i wanna make all of them high, it just makes me become low instead.
alright. back to topic. so, me and wt dunno how to ice skate. so the whole place was full of our screams ;x
but oh well, i feel that i exercised the most today as compared to the rest of the year. sad, but true. NEEDA RUN MORE!!!
alright. so in summary, today was awesome.
time to slp. going out tmr too~
HAVE AN AWESOME CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!~ :D

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11:14 pm

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