It's been two days into this week and nothing is going right. I don't get how not  knowing how to get to a place by car is my fault when I don't even know how to drive. Even if I were the one who requested if you could send me there, you could've told me that you didn't know the way or required GPS or both or that we could leave earlier so that we can find the way there as you drove. How is it my fault that you were the one who raised your voice first and you can still turn around and insist that I have a bad temper. Exhaling loudly is my way of calming myself down when I'm throughly pissed. Firstly, you were never fair. Whatever I do, it's wrong but if other people do the same, you'd swallow down your angry words and accept that you are not as competent. I mean, whatever. It's not the first time this has happened and I will not expect fair treatment from you. If you still feel that I'm worthless, fine by me. I won't ask for more. These two days are really the worst days of my life. I can't believe that I actually clean forgotten something so important to me. Thanks to you. Sometimes I think back and remember what someone has told me: No point forcing yourself to do something you don't like just for the sake of doing it. I'll just be wasting my life away. I can totally relate to that line now. Many times I've thought about looking for and settling into my own private space, one that belongs to me and only me. Perhaps one day I will fulfill this small dream and maybe lead a more peaceful life.

A day left to the curtain call of July. I hope August will be kinder, better.

Growing up sure seems like a whole lot t go through and all. Reaching th second decade of my life already. (': So many happy times, sad times, and so many times I wished I could've done things differently. Must've been all those weird dreams I had recently haha. Gonna start a new life soon. Make new friends, do fun things together. Can't wait! (: