..::Nothing like us::..

Lately I've been thinkin',
Thinkin' bout what we had,
I know it was hard,
It was all that we knew, yeah

Have you been drinkin'
To take all the pain away?
I wish that I could give you what you deserve...

'Cause nothing can ever,
Ever replace you.
Nothing can make me feel like you do, yeah.
You know there's no one
I can relate to.
And know we won't find a love that's so true...

There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together through the storm.
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together, oh

I gave you everything, baby,
Everything I had to give.
Girl, why would you push me away, yeah?
Lost in confusion,
Like an illusion,
You know I'm used to making your day...

But that is the past now,
We didn't last now,
I guess that this is meant to be, yeah...
Tell me, was it worth it?
We were so perfect.
But, baby, I just want you to see...

There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together through the storm.
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together, oh

There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together through the storm.
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together, oh...

I hope that I will never get the chance to dedicate this song to you

Yes, you

My best friend

Disclaimer: I don't really listen to JB. Thanks to JK who did the cover for this song

..::B,S&T::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Ni 2nd note yang sangat bermakna dari Fiqa

Nak tau 1st note yang mana happy digging

range masa aku post note tu most probably 2 or 3 years ago

haha

I'm very grateful to have bunch of people who still believe in me

alhamduLILLAH :)

Izinkan aku nyanyi BS&T seround

My blood, sweat and tears

My last dance

Take it away

My blood, sweat and tears

My cold breath

Take it away

My blood, sweat and tears

Even my blood, sweat and tears

Even my body, heart and soul

I know that it’s all yours

This is a spell that’ll punish me

Peaches and cream

Sweeter than sweet

Chocolate cheeks

And chocolate wings

But your wings are wings of the devil

In front of your sweet is bitter bitter

Ok tak larat nak nyanyi sampai habeh

Tapi saja aku nak mark this date

Untuk tatapan muhasabah akan datang

So that nanti kalau ada rezeki aku ada kuasa, 

aku tak salah guna kuasa aku

Setia dengan kebenaran always please

Jangan dok buat malu kaum sangat dok play as victim

so sudden just because you want to escape

Jangan dok simply cari scapegoat sebab nak tutup kesalahan sendiri

Attitude tu, jaga

As hamba Allah

As orang yang diberi kuasa

As perempuan

Kalau down, ingat Allah is always there to raise us up

Kalau betul kita teraniaya pun, 

just brace ourselves and keep on striving

And jangan sesekali lupa diri

Bila diri tu hamba, buat cara hamba

Ingat tu Mimie

Sabaq sikit ja even aku pun taktau how sikit is sikit

Sebab RASULULLAH SAW cakap mati tu dekat

So insyaAllah tak lama la nak sabaq tu pun

#bloodsweatandtearsjourney

..::Behind The Scene::..

When people said to me

"You are too kind."

I said

"No. I'm just a weak human being."

:)

..:: Underrated ::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

After struggling with few women in my life these days, 

I ended up being underrated for some reasons, again.

And I'm in the middle of struggling to heal myself.

So I would like to distract myself to see another side of me,

which already immune with other underrated acts.

1. Eating disorder

When people look at me and say 

"Kedingnya. Tak makan ka?"

"Betoi ka dah makan banyak ni?"

"Bila makan banyak tu, muntah balik ka?"

Believe me, I already had nothing to say.

I love to eat. A lot.

I can stay hungry for 24/7 sometimes.

But people seem not to believe it even if I say it out loud,

just because I have this skinny and lanky figure.

So yeah, I don't even care people's opinion regarding my feature.

2. Marriage

Since some of my friends are in their 3rd pregnancy,

most of them are already got married 

or at least getting married 

so some of a very concerned population speculate things such as

"Tula duk fokus belajaq ja, tak pikiaq bab nak kawin."

"Orang perempuan tak macam orang laki. Jangan memilih sangat.."

"Lambat lagi ka nak kenduri? Jangan tunggu saja, kena berusaha."

(and the list goes on)

Even if before this I kinda disturbed with their conclusions

as in I just stay still and didn't put any effort for getting married

or as if I didn't have any intention to get married as another ladies have,

but AlhamduLillah, it's getting better recently.

Allah has guide me, through all those hurdles (with those women).

There are always some people gonna bring you down for whatever reasons.

They cheat on you, backbite you or even backstab you.

They can do or say whatever they want by the will of Allah.

But the thing is, Allah knows the truth.

And whenever I bump into this over-concerned society,

 I ended up saying to myself

"It's my life. Not theirs. I really put on effort and pray for the best. I learn to be patient for everything that's written by Allah for me. If they themselves being so impatient for the sake of me myself, that's their problem. Not mine."

I know I can't control people's heart and their action.

 But I can control mine.

And still indeed, I'm a weak creature.

May Allah guide us, no matter what.

..:: 1 L of tears ::..

I know it's a norm for children to hate of seeing the 

tears of their beloved parents

So do I

But sometimes it's kinda tiring

to keep it to myself

I'm deeply sorry mak, abah

I'll try harder to be stronger

insyaAllah

..::Let me know::..

 On top of this ending tune

I am standing here alone
Now tell me
That it’s over, let me know

Suddenly, rain wells up in my eyes
You well up, I see you even when I breathe
Love blooms like cherry blossoms but burns and becomes ashes
Hey girl I know, the conclusion you made by yourself
I’m still here, on repeat on top of the disappeared tune
I’m turning by myself on top of this music that has ended

On top of this ending tune
I am standing here alone
Now tell me
That it’s over, let me know

Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Although I already know everything is over
Although you’re over me

Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Tell me something

I just wanna know
I just wanna know
My lingering feelings are trying to withstand the end
So please tell me something, girl let me know

The promises we made disappeared with the time we spent together
The dominos have fallen with our breakup
Like Juliet and Romeo
Did I like you too much?
The heat between me and you won’t cool down
Now I look back at the film with you
Too early to do anything by thinking of you
You took away my stars at night, my sun at day
Only leaving me with the darkness of a single cold cloud
If there are hellos, then there’s bound to be goodbyes? Never ever
I don’t care about that, I don’t want to stick to that
I’ll turn away, hypnotizing myself

On top of this ending tune
I am standing here alone
Now tell me
That it’s over, let me know

Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Although I already know everything is over
Although you’re over me

Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Tell me something

I just wanna know
I just wanna know
My lingering feelings are trying to withstand the end
So please tell me something, girl let me know

Maybe we’re all just a bunch of fools
Everyone lives with a love that has come to an end
It’s not that I still have feelings for you
I know we can’t work out
But why does it feel like I’m having indigestion?
As if my insides will explode, cries come up my throat, making me throw up
In my imagination, I fight with you, make up with you and understand you
Your hand gestures, your eyes, they are faded but not gone
Why won’t it go away?
Why won’t it go away?
Why won’t it go away?
Why won’t it go away?

Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Although I already know everything is over
Although you’re over me

Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Girl let me know
Tell me something

I just wanna know
I just wanna know
My lingering feelings are trying to withstand the end
So please tell me something, girl let me know

Good bye to all girls in Penang yang hadir 
untuk bagi aku another pengalaman hidup
Esok kita sambung berjuang lain insyaAllah


May Allah bless

..::Rezeki::..

Assalamualaikum & hye

Tadi ada orang tanya 

"Dah submit hardbound thesis?"

Aku senyum dan jawab belum, still ada dekat examiners

So tak boleh konvo tahun ni

Orang tu cakap

"Alaa sayangnya.."

I know right

Tapi AlhamduLillah aku dah boleh terima even tak fully

Aku dah usaha setakat yang mampu dengan izin Allah

So aku kena serahkan kepada Allah

Because He is the best planner

Because He knows the best

Kira okay la since tak mampu korbankan daging lembu kerbau

Tahun ni aku korbankan konvo

Haha

Bila kita bertawakal kepada Allah dalam urusan apa pun,

Allah akan bagi apa yang kita perlu

Ingat tu Mimie


Shed the tears
Wear the smile
Say BismILLAH..
Keep on living