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*those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves*
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Saturday, August 28, 2004
hm...you know maybe she's right...maybe there are ppl who hate seeing others happy...ppl who would do anything to destroy the happiness of others just for the fun of it...what do such ppl get out of doing such things? xing zai le huo...well, at least there's one good thing abt leaving rj--we'll be seeing a lot less of that person...
happiness is a state of mind? well i'm happy being in this happy state of mind =) hope it lasts... focus on the more important things in life, for when we do meet Him, He's not gonna ask how successful you were or how much you've earned or how many As you scored for your 'A' levels...rather, He's gonna ask 'how much have you loved?' Friday, August 20, 2004
i obviously can't resist temptation *sheepish* shall make up for it by studying late into the night later...
anw quite an eventful week...*tries to recall*...was reeaaally high on monday...esp after sch thanks to that hilarious (to me, but traumatising for someone else *smirks*) incident involving a skirt, a headband and a tiny room...hehheh! then on tuesday got to meet up with my darling lindy...kristy...and the other hc sballers yuka xingni and crystal...the pro-est buffet-eaters i've ever seen...lol..good catching-up session...too bad it was kinda short...sigh...(anw dee, if you're reading this, i'm keeping it upbeat for your sake! =) give me face and cheer up ok?) wednesday...er...nothing particularly interesting happened...thursday was pon-lecture-start-to-fret day...today was get-drenched day...not that i minded all the much...the rain is vastly preferable to the scorching sun... and now it's almost saturday!! byebye prelims =( oh yeah! and the photos turned out pretty nice...as in...clarity-wise...yay! quite happy...ingenious idea of ours =) okok what am i doing here?! back to mugging.. Sunday, August 15, 2004
Ave Maria! Gratia Plena! Dominus Tecum, Benedicta tu!
Friday, August 13, 2004
don't make use of someone to make another jealous...that someone might end up hating you
we're a bunch of trigger-happy ppl, yes we are! =) spent the past 2 days taking many many pics of the 3L-ers and places around the sch with sentimental value...heh! all started with the 2 of us talking abt not having a pic together...hm the crazy things ppl do when they're stressed, probably... aghh! gotta get into the studying mode...why can't i be as motivated as i was in sec 4?? sigh..it's all abt the environment... [ don't make me hope for that which i'm not meant to have ] Sunday, August 08, 2004
hehheh...think i'm scaring a few ppl with the previous post so shall try to counter it
I'M FINE NOW, PEOPLE! thanks for the concern =) haha yeah i'm really feeling a lot better...and got people to thank: - yn ay!! you're the best man! - wilson lulu! you owe me 2 treats now...heh...and don't forget the i,robot! (haha..kidding) - silvanus! my new-found fellow jars fan =) - serene! thanks for the c&c - daoster! for making me hungry again with your talk on the choc buffet - anyone else i've forgotten? so blessed, i tell you.. =) Friday, August 06, 2004
i'm down down down...beyond "low"...so depressed i could just die...not that i'm very far off...haven't eaten in more than 26 hours and it's common knowledge that if milly's not hungry then something is severely wrong...but i'm still not hungry...almost got banged down by a car just now while walking home...was so overwhelmed by fatigue and weakness from not eating that it took my brain several seconds to realise that it wasn't safe to cross the road....by then i was already in the middle of it....won't be surprised to hear mr leong telling the sch that some member of the public wrote in to complain abt rafflesians acting as though they own the road...(yes i was in sch uniform)
i'm in pain...my arm has red marks from digging my fingernails into my skin just now...sometimes we need physical pain to distract us from the emotional pain (which has got to be a million times worse)...which is why you see ppl cutting themselves--self-mutilation, i think it's called...can totally understand feel so completely alone...i mean...i understand that they're all busy with their own lives but sometimes you just need someone to talk to and if you can't count on your best friends, who can you count on? sometimes i wonder abt this "i'll always be there for you" line...maybe it has just become so easy to say that people do not realise they're basically making an empty promise...sigh it's probably not fair to expect it of them anw so let's just forget it....anw thanks yn ay, =) for being so willing to meet up to cheer me up...really means a lot...*hugs* love you man... ever got the feeling of being so heart-wrenchingly depressed that you just feel like throwing up? guess it's just as well i didn't eat.... Thursday, August 05, 2004
i don't wanna lose you
i don't wanna use you just to have somebody by my side and i don't wanna hate you i don't wanna take you but i don't wanna be the one to cry that don't really matter to anyone, anymore but like a fool i keep losing my place i keep seeing you walk through that door there's a danger in loving somebody too much and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust there's a reason why people don't stay where they are baby sometimes love just ain't enough now i could never change you i don't wanna blame you baby you don't have to take the fall yes i may have hurt you but i did not desert you maybe i just wanna have it all it makes a sound like thunder it makes me feel like rain and like a fool who will never see the truth i keep thinking something's gonna change but there's a danger in loving somebody too much and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust there's a reason why people don't stay where they are baby sometimes love just ain't enough and there's no way home when it's late at night and you're all alone are there things that you wanted to say do you feel me beside you in your bed there beside you where i used to lay and there's a danger in loving somebody too much and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch there's a reason why people don't stay who they are baby sometimes love just ain't enough baby sometimes love just ain't enough Sunday, August 01, 2004
my dad decided not to cook today so we went out for lunch after church...was walking past a coffeeshop when i saw this:
thaksin beef noodles we are bullish about beefing you erps...
just got back from council alumni gathering (all the way in the east!)...was kinda fun despite there being only like...4 of us--ruomei ynay al and myself--from the 2k2 batch...there was the '03 batch--which amounted to almost half the total turn-up...'98-ers and '99-ers...the entire '97, 2k and 2k1 were mia...heh...oo and ms raman came too! pretty happening...kept eating and eating...think ruomei has like a million pictures of me stuffing my face...heh! the 4 of us went crazy...taking so many pictures and laughing hysterically at er...certain foods...lol! ynay and her rambutans....HAHA! great to be in their company again...majorly missing nysc...
on the train back was talking to rm abt stuff...talking abt uni...talking abt you...and the first thought that came to my mind was: this is someone i genuinely want to be with, possibly for the rest of my life...eh got kinda freaked out for a moment...was i just being impulsive? i'm exhausted...just wanna collapse on my bed and sleep my life away but i can't cuz my hair is taking forever to dry...ugh!! it's times like these when i just feel like chopping it all off... |