Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Friday, October 12, 2012
# random emotional thoughts.
despite how you always put on a smile on your face all the time,
and seem like you're taking everything fine,
but the moment you find yourself abruptly breaking down over the same thing,
you know, you havent gotten over it.
& i guess the most hurtful thing in a break up, is knowing that, that someone have already moved on ; but yet you're still standing at where you started.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Sometimes things are just so tough to fanthom dont you agree?
there could be someone with all the qualities you look for, but yet, cause of fear of changes and the future,
one can just forgo such a person, just for one own's selfish reasons.
yes, obviously im talking about myself.
I've found the one guy i thought was almost near perfect to me.
but i've also stupidly gave up on this happiness of mine,
simply for the fear of the changes expected of me which I am afraid i'll never meet.
what makes it harder is that even when I tried to move on,
he still continues to be that perfect gentleman he is to me.
my busy schedule in school definitely takes alot off me, to have it easier to live by.
but its times like this, I just stop to wonder,
what am i doing with my life, throwing away my potential happiness.
but yet at the same time, i still cant get by all the obstacles i see infront of me with this route,
call it coward or selfish..
eitherway, thats a fact that i've accepted, its just too much for me.
there could be someone with all the qualities you look for, but yet, cause of fear of changes and the future,
one can just forgo such a person, just for one own's selfish reasons.
yes, obviously im talking about myself.
I've found the one guy i thought was almost near perfect to me.
but i've also stupidly gave up on this happiness of mine,
simply for the fear of the changes expected of me which I am afraid i'll never meet.
what makes it harder is that even when I tried to move on,
he still continues to be that perfect gentleman he is to me.
my busy schedule in school definitely takes alot off me, to have it easier to live by.
but its times like this, I just stop to wonder,
what am i doing with my life, throwing away my potential happiness.
but yet at the same time, i still cant get by all the obstacles i see infront of me with this route,
call it coward or selfish..
eitherway, thats a fact that i've accepted, its just too much for me.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
"Friendship isn't about who came first and who you've known the longest. It's about who came and never left."
In my 20 years living, i've made hundreds of friends, but those that stay are nothing but just a handful to this day. It may be them that walked out on me, and perhaps, me who walked out on them, not realising, or even intentionally. I've always been someone who really appreciate my good friends around, but yet at the same time, a down fall of me is that when I start feeling that my presence no longer matter, I start to keep my distance. i love my them, but sometimes my pride and feelings get over me, that i end up losing them for good.
There have been many friends who I've been close to at different period of times, but many came and left.
Even if i never mentioned how disappointing it is to them, it doesnt mean I dont feel it.
When i think of someone and i miss that friend, i will randomly pick up my phone and give them a text, just to let them know they've been missed, even if i dont spell it out explicitly, cause I know if i were that friend that i randomly texted, i will feel touched and happy at the same time.
So if i were to randomly text you(whoever's reading this), you better be touched! hahaha! but if i dont, then YOU better text me! HAHAHAH!:P
I'm just really tired of seeing friends come and go. Although i have to say, those that stay by me right now, are an awesome & understanding bunch! :)
ps. on a side note, my life in hostel is taking for a turn. Am finally meeting really nice people around, rather than those practical bunch of acquaintances I meet in school. :P but here comes the hard part, how do you balance out studying and slacking your time away with your friends when you have a moutain of workload waiting to be cleared! life's tough~ haha!
By the way,
Here's a music to share. Really love this song right now!♥
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
I've just lost 3 of my greatest friends in my secondary school,
im definitely devastated.
but at the same time, i know its time to face reality.
these friendships, i've tried way too hard, beyond my means to maintain.
and today, is the day i've decided to put it all down and just let it go.
its time to accept that friends really do just come and go easily.
all i can do now, is to appreciate and maintain those that I still have.
im hurting so badly right now.
cos they once really meant alot to me.
they brought me much fun and joy in my school days,
to be honest they still mean alot to me right now,
but when i mentioned my unhappiness to them about our friendship,
all i get are blames that i think too much.
if thats what they think, instead of understanding me,
i dont think they are still deserving friends to have anymore.
to me, the difference between friendship and love is just the intimacy and that spark
but both should bring you support and happiness.
but when a friendship no longer brings happiness but just torture to supress oneself's feelings,
then thats the time, this friendship ends.
then again, i wont say i've played no part to lead to the end of this friendship,
but i dare say, i've tried my best and this is where i stop trying, for good.
& right now, i know very well where i stand.
-No where.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
lunch date with my bro :)
hi guys,
i just came back from carnivore buffet with my 2nd bro!^^
i just came back from carnivore buffet with my 2nd bro!^^
if you're someone who eat meats, especially lamb and beef, this is a great place to be at! :)
the food's really yummy and fresh!
but to be honest, i'll only go if there's this offer cos without the offer,
IT'S ONE EXPENSIVE PLACE TO BE AT!:p
hehe! we went to the MBS outlet to eat this :)
oh right, during the meal, i was just asking my bro if they ppl will think we're siblings eating, since some of my friends do say we look alike.
(some on the other hand say we dont actually!:P )
but i added,
"then again, they may think this couple have 'fu qi xiang' , since 'fu qi xiang' are couples that looks alil similar or very compatible" haha! #random
hehe! we went to the MBS outlet to eat this :)
oh right, during the meal, i was just asking my bro if they ppl will think we're siblings eating, since some of my friends do say we look alike.
(some on the other hand say we dont actually!:P )
but i added,
"then again, they may think this couple have 'fu qi xiang' , since 'fu qi xiang' are couples that looks alil similar or very compatible" haha! #random
after that my bro went to school while i headed home, wanted to go coffee bean to slack, blog and have some quiet time alone,
like some taitai! LOL
but nahh, i decided to come home instead, my stomach too full from lunch to fit in anymore drinks!:P
by the way, here's a song i recommend to listen to.
i find it a really nice song!^^
For The First Time - The script.
Monday, June 11, 2012
A place I wanna be at.
I don't know how to speak German.
And neither do I know where Paris is on the world map to be honest.
But one thing for sure, the Eiffel tower is a no.1 wish list for place of visit for me.
I don't know what draws me to it, but I really do love the Eiffel tower.
Hoping I'll be there with someone important, to share this experience with! :)
And neither do I know where Paris is on the world map to be honest.
But one thing for sure, the Eiffel tower is a no.1 wish list for place of visit for me.
I don't know what draws me to it, but I really do love the Eiffel tower.
Hoping I'll be there with someone important, to share this experience with! :)
Saturday, June 9, 2012
my confessions.
thinking how i used to be in my primary school (the fragments that i remember), how i used to be in lower secondary,upper secondary, jc and finally now in uni. to be honest, i see a change in me.
no, not physically.
Characteristically.
I dont know if its because of the difference in the type of people i'm faced with, or the amount of stress level, or the environment at different stages of my life, but i do see a change in my character.
I wont say I know myself very well,
but from what i knew of myself, i used to be this super fierce and tom boyish girl in my primary school.
I then became less tomboyish (by alittle) in lower secondary and i had tonnes of friends.
i was always laughing and talking loudly. (yesyes, noisy in other words) but i do remember,
I had fun, I really enjoyed my friends's company and they meant a whole lot to me.
going to school, was honestly just to meet and have fun with them.
sec 2 was the year i finally got down to really striving hard for my studies and thankfully, i did managed to score with much satisfaction.
going into the best class however has its demerits too i guess.
the level of fun and closeness with the class definitely dropped.
but i still did have a handful of really good and close friends in 4E1 though.
thank god for them, they made my life in 4e1 bearable.
but to be honest, most of them, i guess i could hardly find a common topic with.
they were at the most, hi-bye friends.
But also because i still had my greatest bunch of badminton girls with me,
i still didnt lose my noisy self.
often hung out with them, during recess breaks, after school, during trainings, just crapping, joking and what not.
yeahs. people say secondary school is the most fun and most memorable time of your life.
I guess it was for me.
when I graduated from secondary school,
i remember writing little letters to all my friends who really mattered to me.
saying i wont ever wanna lose contact with them.
i dont know how much of it they believed, but i really meant it very much and not just saying it as a routine for graduating friends.
but as expected, time always drifts people apart.
& everyone heads on to different paths of life..
(except for shixun...who was unfortunately stuck with me.LOL)
my very best friends, my badminton girls that meant the very very most to me, all went on to poly.
and poly having total opposite schooling terms from JC makes everything all the more difficult to keep in touch.
even those who went JC, we all have our new friends to keep us busy.
these friends of mine, they may not feel the same as how i feel about this,
but to be very very honest, i really miss each and every one of them all the time and really always wishing time would move back to those days.
i miss them, but yet at the same time, i dont know what to say to them.
At that same time of missing my secondary friends,
in JC, i too made some good or even really great friends.
what amazes me was to find 3 of us in my class to have the same exact birthday, my triplets.
i found a really great BFF, girlfriend and joanna who i know was always there for me when i was down.
really really great friends whom im proud to say, till now coming to 2 years after graduating, we're still keeping in tight contact.
unlike my secondary sch friends who basically started losing contact with me within 1 year which really bothered me to be honest.
but coming to JC, maybe its also the type of friends i have, i realised though i may still be loud and outspoken at times, but its definitely lesser then in secondary school.
i guess its a good and bad thing.
bad- i keep to myself alittle more, & there may be less laughters.
good - im more tamed. LOL.
In my jc, i've also many other good friends, some i've honestly mistreated.
looking back, i was too mean, i was too unappreciative to some of my friends who saw me as their really good friend, but in return i may not have reciprocated that. and i really feel very sorry for it.
im trying to make amendments now but i hope its not too late.
but there's one friend, whom i lost forever and there's no way at all i can make it up to him.
i lost one of my triplet in a car accident and i really really miss him so so much, knowing there's no way i can ever wanna keep in contact with him anymore.
to be honest, since his accident, on my(our) birthday i feel down knowing this triplet of mine never got to spend his 18th birthday.his 18th birthday present, i could only leave it on his grave..
but going through that tough times of losing this great friend,
it however brought some of my friends and i closer.
it was a time I see which friends were there to shower me with care and concern, feeling sad even though they hardly knew him, just cause they know, im having a hard time losing a friend for good.
i still remember receiving texts and even letters of encouragement and comforts.
those were true friends.
true friends that i ought to cherish.
well anyways, so throughout my jc, faced with my inability to score for my exams and the loss of my friends and whatnot unfortunate events happening, i guess i somewhat became alittle more quiet as less crazy as i used to be in secondary school?
but it wasnt too bad either i guess.
but right now in uni, where i honestly hardly have any true close friends,
i've really become dead quiet in school.
perhaps its really caused i didnt get to join the orientations,
but school for me now is really just...school.
i go to study and once lessons were done, i'm headed back to hall to get cooped up in my room to study.
also i guess its the stress of wanting to do well and not repeat my ultimate failure of my Alevel results, such that study is always at the back of my head.
its just school, homework, school, homework.
and a bunch of friends who couldnt care less about their studies or are super selfish and assholes.
so yes. thats that.
i do have 2 closer friends in my hall.
but the reality in uni, when you have different course, you can hardly find a common time to meet up.
and the worse thing is, this 2 closer friends of mine decided not to stay on in hall next semester on anymore :(
but god-willing, i'll be rooming in with my awesome girlfriend next sem and uni will be more bearable for me!:)
hopefully without sacrificing my grades.
my previous posts mentioned about my awesome results this semester.
but to be honest, i sacrificed a whole lot of my time.
i think i kinda shut myself out from most of my friends during my semester.:/
what to do. when i know i take longer time to study, i just have to work double the time.
i wont say its not worth it.
but when there's a gain, there's also a loss, thats all.
with that being said, i guess now in uni, im kinda like a total different person from my secondary school already.
i dont know if its cause of the people i deal with , or is it really just me having changed.
i wonder if im still that fun, chatty and cheerful friend i was then, to my friends now.
but whatever it is, whether i changed or not,
one thing havent changed is that i still do treasure each and every one of my true close friends.
i believe, each and every little note, letter,drawing or gift that my friends gave me, its all dearly kept by me.
like honestly, EVERY one.lol. up till now, i have like 3 boxes filled of them from all of my friends!:D
each time i take them out to read, it just warms my heart and brings that smile back on.
heh!:))
so yeah, i do wanna thank each and every of my friend that once brightened up my day :)
and especially the handful that is actually reading all these from my blog! haha.
thanks, it's really really nice to know im not forgotten and that you still bothered to make sure my blog still exists.
it really does make me happy, though i think its less then 5 of you that still comes here once awhile!hahaha!
#photos are the only thing that makes moments lasts forever.
& that explains why my blog is filled with them.
moments i wont wanna forget.
no, not physically.
Characteristically.
I dont know if its because of the difference in the type of people i'm faced with, or the amount of stress level, or the environment at different stages of my life, but i do see a change in my character.
I wont say I know myself very well,
but from what i knew of myself, i used to be this super fierce and tom boyish girl in my primary school.
I then became less tomboyish (by alittle) in lower secondary and i had tonnes of friends.
i was always laughing and talking loudly. (yesyes, noisy in other words) but i do remember,
I had fun, I really enjoyed my friends's company and they meant a whole lot to me.
going to school, was honestly just to meet and have fun with them.
sec 2 was the year i finally got down to really striving hard for my studies and thankfully, i did managed to score with much satisfaction.
going into the best class however has its demerits too i guess.
the level of fun and closeness with the class definitely dropped.
but i still did have a handful of really good and close friends in 4E1 though.
thank god for them, they made my life in 4e1 bearable.
but to be honest, most of them, i guess i could hardly find a common topic with.
they were at the most, hi-bye friends.
But also because i still had my greatest bunch of badminton girls with me,
i still didnt lose my noisy self.
often hung out with them, during recess breaks, after school, during trainings, just crapping, joking and what not.
yeahs. people say secondary school is the most fun and most memorable time of your life.
I guess it was for me.
when I graduated from secondary school,
i remember writing little letters to all my friends who really mattered to me.
saying i wont ever wanna lose contact with them.
i dont know how much of it they believed, but i really meant it very much and not just saying it as a routine for graduating friends.
but as expected, time always drifts people apart.
& everyone heads on to different paths of life..
(except for shixun...who was unfortunately stuck with me.LOL)
my very best friends, my badminton girls that meant the very very most to me, all went on to poly.
and poly having total opposite schooling terms from JC makes everything all the more difficult to keep in touch.
even those who went JC, we all have our new friends to keep us busy.
these friends of mine, they may not feel the same as how i feel about this,
but to be very very honest, i really miss each and every one of them all the time and really always wishing time would move back to those days.
i miss them, but yet at the same time, i dont know what to say to them.
At that same time of missing my secondary friends,
in JC, i too made some good or even really great friends.
what amazes me was to find 3 of us in my class to have the same exact birthday, my triplets.
i found a really great BFF, girlfriend and joanna who i know was always there for me when i was down.
really really great friends whom im proud to say, till now coming to 2 years after graduating, we're still keeping in tight contact.
unlike my secondary sch friends who basically started losing contact with me within 1 year which really bothered me to be honest.
but coming to JC, maybe its also the type of friends i have, i realised though i may still be loud and outspoken at times, but its definitely lesser then in secondary school.
i guess its a good and bad thing.
bad- i keep to myself alittle more, & there may be less laughters.
good - im more tamed. LOL.
In my jc, i've also many other good friends, some i've honestly mistreated.
looking back, i was too mean, i was too unappreciative to some of my friends who saw me as their really good friend, but in return i may not have reciprocated that. and i really feel very sorry for it.
im trying to make amendments now but i hope its not too late.
but there's one friend, whom i lost forever and there's no way at all i can make it up to him.
i lost one of my triplet in a car accident and i really really miss him so so much, knowing there's no way i can ever wanna keep in contact with him anymore.
to be honest, since his accident, on my(our) birthday i feel down knowing this triplet of mine never got to spend his 18th birthday.his 18th birthday present, i could only leave it on his grave..
but going through that tough times of losing this great friend,
it however brought some of my friends and i closer.
it was a time I see which friends were there to shower me with care and concern, feeling sad even though they hardly knew him, just cause they know, im having a hard time losing a friend for good.
i still remember receiving texts and even letters of encouragement and comforts.
those were true friends.
true friends that i ought to cherish.
well anyways, so throughout my jc, faced with my inability to score for my exams and the loss of my friends and whatnot unfortunate events happening, i guess i somewhat became alittle more quiet as less crazy as i used to be in secondary school?
but it wasnt too bad either i guess.
but right now in uni, where i honestly hardly have any true close friends,
i've really become dead quiet in school.
perhaps its really caused i didnt get to join the orientations,
but school for me now is really just...school.
i go to study and once lessons were done, i'm headed back to hall to get cooped up in my room to study.
also i guess its the stress of wanting to do well and not repeat my ultimate failure of my Alevel results, such that study is always at the back of my head.
its just school, homework, school, homework.
and a bunch of friends who couldnt care less about their studies or are super selfish and assholes.
so yes. thats that.
i do have 2 closer friends in my hall.
but the reality in uni, when you have different course, you can hardly find a common time to meet up.
and the worse thing is, this 2 closer friends of mine decided not to stay on in hall next semester on anymore :(
but god-willing, i'll be rooming in with my awesome girlfriend next sem and uni will be more bearable for me!:)
hopefully without sacrificing my grades.
my previous posts mentioned about my awesome results this semester.
but to be honest, i sacrificed a whole lot of my time.
i think i kinda shut myself out from most of my friends during my semester.:/
what to do. when i know i take longer time to study, i just have to work double the time.
i wont say its not worth it.
but when there's a gain, there's also a loss, thats all.
with that being said, i guess now in uni, im kinda like a total different person from my secondary school already.
i dont know if its cause of the people i deal with , or is it really just me having changed.
i wonder if im still that fun, chatty and cheerful friend i was then, to my friends now.
but whatever it is, whether i changed or not,
one thing havent changed is that i still do treasure each and every one of my true close friends.
i believe, each and every little note, letter,drawing or gift that my friends gave me, its all dearly kept by me.
like honestly, EVERY one.lol. up till now, i have like 3 boxes filled of them from all of my friends!:D
each time i take them out to read, it just warms my heart and brings that smile back on.
heh!:))
so yeah, i do wanna thank each and every of my friend that once brightened up my day :)
and especially the handful that is actually reading all these from my blog! haha.
thanks, it's really really nice to know im not forgotten and that you still bothered to make sure my blog still exists.
it really does make me happy, though i think its less then 5 of you that still comes here once awhile!hahaha!
#photos are the only thing that makes moments lasts forever.
& that explains why my blog is filled with them.
moments i wont wanna forget.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
new skin for my love!
my lappie was starting to have scratches and just so happen i saw groupon selling a groupon for Gmask with 10 free crystals for $18.90.
I just did a siple transparent Gmask with the 10 crystals cos i felt my laptop itself looks classy, with the pattens would strip its classy-ness. so i just kept it simple!:)
its simply but i love how it looks! yay!:)) hehe!
1 month into my holiday :)
well 1 month of my holiday have passed and all i've been doing is just watch hong kong, taiwan and korea serials!:P hehe! and also going out with my friends!
this is really THE life!:D haha!
okayy..im not that lazy...i did do a 1 day job!!HAHA!
half working and half shopping also lah!xD hehe!
was a 1 day work at isetan with BFF :)
anyways, i just watched finish this taiwan show, 下一站，幸福！
hehe, i think its a really old show already, but i just watched it and i think its nice:)
the little boy in there super cuteee!
xiao xiao bin! :)
there was another day where i went to BFF's house for some baking session!^^
hehe we tried to bake mac& cheese and also macaroons,
but we kinda failed at both ,
especially our macaroons, ultimate fail! HAHA!
but the process was still fun lah!:)
also got to see BFF's nice new house!:)
here are some photos of our baking session :)
i swear it looks less burnt in reality!:p HAHAHA!
MACAROONS:)
(that's just for show actually, its raw in the middle:P)
BFF and I ♥
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
awesome results!:D
omgosh! all i can say now is my life is fully perfect!^^
heh!
since my JC days, what's been lacking most in my life would be having gd results, and for once, i finally gotten a result that i can say is rather good!:P
well my last sem result wasnt terrible, but i wont say its gd.
but for my 2nd semester of my 1st year in uni,
i scored a GPA of 4.03!:DD
i never thought i'd be able to score a GPA higher den 4!:P
but however, my cumulative GPA now is only 3.81.
not above 4, but its still an improvement from my last sem and im gonna be glad about it!;P
to be honest, when i saw my results, i was so happy that i teared, cos i really had to build up a huge amount of courage to decide to face my results as i was afraid i'd be disappointed terribly!:X
but thank god, i wasnt!
but to be honest, i had sacrificed quite a huge amount of time to attain this results.
i sacrificed alot of time for my friends and zan.
but at least, im glad it paid off.
and thank god for zan being always so understanding :))
heh!
heh!
since my JC days, what's been lacking most in my life would be having gd results, and for once, i finally gotten a result that i can say is rather good!:P
well my last sem result wasnt terrible, but i wont say its gd.
but for my 2nd semester of my 1st year in uni,
i scored a GPA of 4.03!:DD
i never thought i'd be able to score a GPA higher den 4!:P
but however, my cumulative GPA now is only 3.81.
not above 4, but its still an improvement from my last sem and im gonna be glad about it!;P
to be honest, when i saw my results, i was so happy that i teared, cos i really had to build up a huge amount of courage to decide to face my results as i was afraid i'd be disappointed terribly!:X
but thank god, i wasnt!
but to be honest, i had sacrificed quite a huge amount of time to attain this results.
i sacrificed alot of time for my friends and zan.
but at least, im glad it paid off.
and thank god for zan being always so understanding :))
heh!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
my university life
its now already 1 month into my 2nd sem of university,
and honestly, im not enjoying it at all!:(
apart from the study being super independent,
(and i mean super, the tutors are super useless!-.-)
i guess another factor would be that up till nw,
i hardly find any genuinely close friends :(
firstly in engin, its like all guys-.-
not to mention, 80% are china people whom i can make friends with, but not close friends.
and when im like one of the very few singaporean girls in my tutorial, that makes it very little girls for me to make friends with.
not to mention when the other fews, i somewhat find them..weird.
one is like super annoying, another is super arrogant..
or mayb im just being mean, but i honestly cant find a normal and nice girl to make friends with.
oh, and apart from the fact that everyone just disperses right after lesson ends!
so basically, we're just accompanying each other during tutorials and thats it.
honestly sucks~:(
i guess another factor would be cause i missed all orientation camps (for both my hall and engin school) such that i hardly know anyone.
even people in my hall, they are always stuck together with their orientation group that its so hard to even try to join in you know?
of cos its not to the extent where i know no one at all,
friends yes i do have, but they just feel so superficial and untrue.
at least none that i feel i can make great friend with up till now.:/
oh actually i did make rather good friend with my roomie last semester, but sadly,
she withdrew from her course last year and now i got a new room mate,
an indo, meaning this room which we share, is like her "house" in singapore, where she's here everyday.
thats not the point,
the point is that, she's super SUPER dirty and messy!
she doesnt even bother to sweep her side of the floor when i can visually see that it is SUPER DIRTY AND DUSTY!
up till the extent where i couldnt stand it,
i tried to subtly hint it to her by telling her that she could borrow my broom if she needs it.
the next dat i saw her using her feet trying to sweep the stuffs on her floor to one side (which formed like a whole fur ball!:O ) and took the chance to suggest her to use my broom again, and so she did and finally swept ONCE.
and that, was the first and last time i saw up till now.-.-
also, she like talks super loudly whenever she's facetime-ing her boyfriend!
there was once when i thought she was talking to him right outside my room,
and it was super super loud, such that i could not tolerate anymore.
but when i went out to go to the pantry,
i realised that she wasnt right outside my room,
instead she was a level downstairs!:O
my gosh! it is that loud okay! i can hear her every word distinctively and yet she's downstairs?!:O
imagine that!
oh and since i cant stand her lifestyle, i obviously am not really friends with her.
anyways i seldom see her, since she leaves the hall super early every morning for internship and sleeps super early at night (which affects my study as she offs the lights so early too)
really super miss my old roomie, we both have such similar living habits, was a joy to live with her.
well anyways,
im just here to rant about how i kinda hate my uni life.
the subjects are rly tough to handle too, but i shan't get into that.
i've got lessons early tmr morning, so im going to get going to sleep already.
oh and today was the last day of cny,
my favourite festive of all times,
but now its over,sobs!:(
really hope it comes by real soon again!^^
happy cny everyone!:D
ohoh! and btw, one of the electives now that im taking is malay language,
which i think is kinda cool, knowing another language!:D
really hope i can grapse it well and in time for my examinations!:P
and honestly, im not enjoying it at all!:(
apart from the study being super independent,
(and i mean super, the tutors are super useless!-.-)
i guess another factor would be that up till nw,
i hardly find any genuinely close friends :(
firstly in engin, its like all guys-.-
not to mention, 80% are china people whom i can make friends with, but not close friends.
and when im like one of the very few singaporean girls in my tutorial, that makes it very little girls for me to make friends with.
not to mention when the other fews, i somewhat find them..weird.
one is like super annoying, another is super arrogant..
or mayb im just being mean, but i honestly cant find a normal and nice girl to make friends with.
oh, and apart from the fact that everyone just disperses right after lesson ends!
so basically, we're just accompanying each other during tutorials and thats it.
honestly sucks~:(
i guess another factor would be cause i missed all orientation camps (for both my hall and engin school) such that i hardly know anyone.
even people in my hall, they are always stuck together with their orientation group that its so hard to even try to join in you know?
of cos its not to the extent where i know no one at all,
friends yes i do have, but they just feel so superficial and untrue.
at least none that i feel i can make great friend with up till now.:/
oh actually i did make rather good friend with my roomie last semester, but sadly,
she withdrew from her course last year and now i got a new room mate,
an indo, meaning this room which we share, is like her "house" in singapore, where she's here everyday.
thats not the point,
the point is that, she's super SUPER dirty and messy!
she doesnt even bother to sweep her side of the floor when i can visually see that it is SUPER DIRTY AND DUSTY!
up till the extent where i couldnt stand it,
i tried to subtly hint it to her by telling her that she could borrow my broom if she needs it.
the next dat i saw her using her feet trying to sweep the stuffs on her floor to one side (which formed like a whole fur ball!:O ) and took the chance to suggest her to use my broom again, and so she did and finally swept ONCE.
and that, was the first and last time i saw up till now.-.-
also, she like talks super loudly whenever she's facetime-ing her boyfriend!
there was once when i thought she was talking to him right outside my room,
and it was super super loud, such that i could not tolerate anymore.
but when i went out to go to the pantry,
i realised that she wasnt right outside my room,
instead she was a level downstairs!:O
my gosh! it is that loud okay! i can hear her every word distinctively and yet she's downstairs?!:O
imagine that!
oh and since i cant stand her lifestyle, i obviously am not really friends with her.
anyways i seldom see her, since she leaves the hall super early every morning for internship and sleeps super early at night (which affects my study as she offs the lights so early too)
really super miss my old roomie, we both have such similar living habits, was a joy to live with her.
well anyways,
im just here to rant about how i kinda hate my uni life.
the subjects are rly tough to handle too, but i shan't get into that.
i've got lessons early tmr morning, so im going to get going to sleep already.
oh and today was the last day of cny,
my favourite festive of all times,
but now its over,sobs!:(
really hope it comes by real soon again!^^
happy cny everyone!:D
ohoh! and btw, one of the electives now that im taking is malay language,
which i think is kinda cool, knowing another language!:D
really hope i can grapse it well and in time for my examinations!:P
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