Star Wars, ICS and Reservist

A week to go before reservist....

Somehow the thought of going to reservist makes me feel like an old man. For a period in my life prior to NS, I have always catergorized Reservist as something only old men went for. I remember the days when i used to see my old man pack his stuff for his reservist days. Now, I am going for it.

Somehow, events such as these remind me that I am growing and slowly merging into the mainstream singaporean society. No longer is my world just confined to home and school. It has expanded irrevocably into other areas of society. Even ICS has brought me to places that I have never thought of going towards....

Moving to other issues, its time to rant and rave about the latest Star wars movie that I watched with my younger bro. ROTS is a ROCK SOLID show. I can find a couple of complaints here and there about the movie but clearly the movie has gone beyond my expectations. The Clone Wars and the Jedi Purges were something that I only read about in the EU books. To see the visual representation of those events was simply awesome. The lightsaber fights were awesome and the grandeur about the whole show was simply breath taking as well....

I SIMPLY LOVE IT!

Watching ROTS has given the added urge to return to the books. I realise that I actually miss reading star wars books. It has been awhile no doubt. Time to get back to em books....

FA cup final came and went. United lost despite dominating the match and almost defeating arsenal for the 4th time this season. In a way I am glad that they lost. It should give them enough of a kick in the butt to work harder next season... It had been a dismal season for United to say the least.

ICS camp kathiroli has just woken up from the dead and is up and running. Being the PD for the camp means tonnes of planning to do and as it is... things are snowballing. Then again, nothing is perfect in life and I do know that I have to roll with what I have got. It should not be a problem really. I have been in ICS long enough not to get stressed over such things.

More to come I am sure...

Lonely No More...

Song of de-day: (Yup u guessed it) Lonely No More by Rob Thomas....
Just a quick update on today’s events….

It was another Friday of soccer and gym with the guys. Holidays have officially started for me although I saw a few people mugging for exams on Bus 151. Poor Bastards! Hahaha!

Hit the gym first with pardeep and shermann before we made our way to the soccer court. We started playing an hour later as some of the blokes were late. Typical Indians…. Its ok, I have punctuality problems as well.

I guess today has surfaced some thoughts for me. I am always talking about life. I mean, that’s what blogging is all about. You talk about your life and your take on life in general. I am certain that I have talked much about life in general several times on my blog. I have shared my beliefs and values. Sometimes, its just plain ranting and raving about certain things and just moaning and whining about the rest.

I have always told people that good things are meant to be shared and the bad things released through the written word, these days it’s the electronic word. I write about the bad on my blog and I share the good with my pals. A simple exercise of routine in life.

I always believed that things happen for a reason. One need not know or understand the reason, they just have to accept that it exists. I have espoused this to many around me. Its one of the beliefs I use to explain the happenings around me. Yet, being the practical jackass that I am, I cannot follow what I preach sometimes. I need to know the reasons sometimes. Well, most of the time actually.

This leads to an enormous amount of thinking on my part. If a person can find about 3 angles to a situation, I can name 7. That is how much I think about stuff sometimes. Call me crazy, paranoid or just plain silly. That’s just me.

Somehow, the gray areas have gotten their parameters extended today. I realize I have come to accept that the bad happens for the good. In another perspective, the bad had to take place so that good can take place. It’s like lex luthor telling superman that the reason that superman is good is because lex luthor counter balances him by being bad. So does the bad become good and the good becomes a consequence?

A very interesting and disturbing concept to digest for some most definitely. Somehow, this concept has offered me peace and salvation during the past turbulent month. I have come to realize and accept that we cannot plainly condemn the bad just because it’s bad and not to relish in the good just because it’s good. Blame it on the historian in me but I have developed this habit of analyzing and making sense of the connection between past events and current happenings.

Like all things in life, we cannot wholly believe in one concept. We are humans afterall and hope is our greatest strength and weakness. We hope each day, everyday, for something. Be it material or intangible. And we wait for it, sometimes patiently or we act rashly during other times.

Another thing that I pondered about today was this whimsical thing called love. Yeah I know I have talked about love on countless occasions but this time the burden was lesser to bear. In a sense that it does not really matter whether one is single or not. It’s about believing that we get what we deserve.

I have always tried to answer the question of whether I will find that true love. Then it evolved into me accepting the fact that I could be a bachelor for the rest of my life. We can be content with what we have in life. Think of it like a jigsaw puzzle. We have most of the pieces to be content with. Yet, for a single guy, that one missing piece glares at u. It’s like the more pieces u have, the more the empty ones will make themselves felt. Its true in the sense that having numerous missing pieces means that you have more to worry about but less on each piece. Having one missing piece alone can be more damaging to a certain extent.

I guess that is why, at one point in my life, I cannot really be happy although I know I should be happy. Practically there is much to be content with but emotionally, I am lacking a vital piece of my life. I am past that stage now and I look back at that time with a smile on my face. The significance of that period still stays within me as a legacy, yet I have grown stronger to accept that we have to live with the missing pieces because they are missing for a reason which we must develop our own understanding towards.

It is a bad that has to take place. To think of it from another angle, we all know that as humans, we are not perfect. One has to give way for something else to come into our lives. Now, I know what I am missing in my life and what I do have in my life. The question is that if I do get what I am missing in my life, what will be sacrificed for it, since sometimes we don’t have a choice in what happens to us? Will I be able to accept the sacrifice or will the cost be too great in comparison to the benefits of the acquisition of the “missing” piece?

The bottomline is that reasons are vital to us in explaining life. We cannot just sit back and accept the reasoning that reasons exist and we have to accept them despite not understanding them. The formation of our beliefs and values stems from our understanding of the reasons in life. And they constantly undergo change and modification as we grow through life. To know and realize something new everyday and forming our own opinions about it is simply what makes life wonderful. To me at least.

In a way, I am denouncing - partially - that we need not understand the reasons and to only accept their existence. However, we have to form our own understanding of the reasons in our life and believe in them. We should not look at the bad in our lives as something plain and evil. Think of the consequences of the bad things that happen in our lives and learn the lessons that it brings. We should realize that most of the lessons we learn in life comes from the bad. If not, we will never learn our lessons.

Lastly, I am not espousing my ideals as a model for others to follow. I will not dare presume that what happened in my life prescribes to the events of another. I can only offer what experiences I have had and it’s up to you to apply appropriately to your life, if it does apply in the first place. In the end, we live our own lives.

May-Hem

Well the month of May is finally here...

A few updates on my Life on this fateful day....

I just completed 2 papers so far. SSA1201 and a HY2241. Both papers were quite ok. Give me a couple more days to revise and i reckon I will still do the papers like how i did.... In other words no regrets. I got couple of HY papers on tuesday and a stupid gen bio paper b4 the my first year in NUS comes to a close. It only seemed like yesterday that I just rolled into NUS after spending 2 and a half long years in NS.

I don't really wanna go through a review of this semester. All I can say it was one helluva ride on and off the academic course. I cannot really ascertain how to look at it. Its truly been a rollercoaster. I am just glad the excitement has finally died down and things are back to normal. Academically, it was a vast leap from last sem's mishaps. Although this sem was not up to scratch, it was definitely better than the last.

Come May 30, will be my first reservist outing. Just got word that we will hit the ground running with 2 outfield exercises, an IPPT test and a route march. Quite heavy for a 5 day outing. Then again, I've been through worse back during my active days. It will be back to exercising and a day to Beach Road to get some essential items for my Fieldpack right after exams. No kick lah! Hahahaha!

I also did the online booking for tickets for Star Wars episode 3. It will be at GV Bishan at 3.50pm on May19. The first of many Star Wars episode 3 Movie viewings at the theatre. It is a ritual for me to watch trilogies with my brother. Then again, its been awhile since I had some Tee-time with my bro.

A few shoutouts before I end.

To Pardeep: Thanks for being my study buddy these few days at law Library. Not to mention those FlyBys at yih. Hahaha! Just let me know if u need a certain individual beaten up. I will make sure I.... CHECK HIM.... *slams right fist into open left palm* All de best for ur paper this coming wednesday. Props!

To Shermann: Eh bastard. Thanks for the good times and the bad this sem. I am just glad that stuff has come back to the normal frequency. I do miss our seth-ryan times in NUS and i guess it will be even more tuffer now that u got the extra person in your life. And yes I am talking about Bulb! LOL! okok Just kidding! Wanna wish ya all the best in ur papers ahead. Go get em Tiger!

To the rest of my pals who do check in on my blog now and then, Hope all is fine and take care of urselves. Have fun and Godbless...See you folks soon...

May the Force be with y'all....