#3 DaYz To xMaZ!

The week has barely started and I have already started to tire. However, I just have to agree that I have no complaints whatsoever. I have always been complaining to people that the holz have been rather dull and I wish I were back in school. Actually, there were more reasons, the main one being the lack of funds. But now, the fun is starting to kick in.... with just 2 weeks to go. So I am just going to go out there and enjoy the hols while it lasts..

Monday started off with me doing a 5km run. Its been awhile since i did a morning jog on a monday. After the jog, i kinda understood the meaning of Monday blues! After struggling through it in the heat of the nearing noon, I trudged back home to wash up. At around 1230pm, I left home to meet up puvan and udaya at Little India. It was the day of canvassing. Frankly, I hated doing canvassing. The idea of begging people for money irks me... Totally cramps my style. But it was for the TEAM, not for myself, so I came down to do the job... Had lunch at Blue Diamond Restaurant to eat some beriyani. Spent about $7.50 on my meal but it was well worth it...as I was helping the rest finish up their food as well! Hahahaha! Started canvassing around 2pm plus and we managed to rake up about $310, bringing our total canvassing amount to a cool $1000 plus... It was tiring but worth it. Ended at around 5pm and had dinner at Sakura @ FarEast! It was SIM ICS BASH @ Club V2 that night and I had actually wanted to skip it and just head home for the night. But I got dragged into it anyway cuz the ladies had no male company.... Not that I could seriously provide any muscle, I was more likely to get beaten up instead. I tagged along nonetheless and had a drink. Chatted with the gals (there were six of them, all from ICS) for awhile till Senthil K came in. Met Hair and Harish as well. I took a stroll down to the nearest 7-11 with SK to grab some beer. We had a chat over our beer and made it back by 11pm. I split the joint immediately with viknesh and kavitha and we walked down to Dhoby Gaut MRT from Lucky Plaza. I immediately hit the sack the moment I reached home (and after having a shower of course)

Tuesday started off with quite abit of housework. Had a phonecall from Sherm and for a moment I could not recognise his voice. The brother was truly sick. But he sounded better as the conversation wore on. Must have been all the laughter we had throughout the conversation I suppose. We talked about the latest happenings in our lives and updated each other on the happenings of our respective affliations as well and the coming Xmas eve. Nobody was coming down to his place so I asked him to might as well join me for soccer on friday. We could always do something after soccer with ling and whoever else is free during the evening. So yeah, that is still pending and of course whether he can recover by then. *Fingers crossed*

Went to the mall to get my bro some chicken rice before leaving at around 3pm for tuesday soccer. It was back at NUS again for soccer with the gang and it was fun as usual. Had dinner with them as well at El Alameen and I had $3 worth of Mutton Murtabak and a couple of glasses of tea. It was filling indeed after the day's exertions. Had a major talk-cock session with the guys as well and laughed till my abs hurt. LOL! Took the bus back home with Harpreet and Udaya.

I guess I will spend the next 2 days home. Frankly I cannot afford to stay out often. The coffers will dry up sooner than expected. Friday, I will be going down to the DBS audi again, but this time it will be with the dance groups for them to take a look the the stage and settings. We (ICS committee) will also probly take the opportunity to tie down our roles and dress code on the day as well. Then from there, me and udaya will make our way down to NUS for Friday soccer. After which, I hope shermann has something planned. But if its gonna be just me Sherm and Ling, then I better excuse myself and find something else to do and just stay out of the way! Maybe join Harpreet and gang for whatever Xmas Eve Special they have planned out! Don't wanna be no hindrance! HAHAHAHA!

Well, just see how things go...

Jingles and Bells!

Song of De-Day: Soul by Matchbox Twenty

Its been a week far different from the rest of them since ORD. I actually spent the whole week jogging, swimming and even a gym session on friday. As I write this, my shoulders are aching and my legs are feeling kinda sore. But its all good i guess, took a break from it all during the weekend just resting my tired legs and stuffing myself with food.

Basically the coming week is Xmas week... This friday being the eve of Xmas. Its a time of celebration and just being merry and all. However Christmas time also marks the end of the year for me. Its as much a time for reflection as it is a time for celebration. This time, its more of reflection and not much of celebration really...

Started off monday with a jog. Spent tuesday playing soccer with the gang. Had dinner with Saravanan, Senthil, Harish and Udaya at Clementi KFC. Started wednesday off by wishing Sara happy bday... went for a swim with david at serangoon swimming pool. Met up with shivani on thursday. Was supposed to go canvassing with the rest of the ICS crew but none of them were free and did not turn up. So shivani and myself had lunch at sakura, went to buy a couple of vcds, came back to tekka and bought some stuff and had tea. I split at around 4.30pm and came back home. I quickly changed into my gear and went for a 12km jog.

Friday, i met up with johnny for a jog at serangoon stadium, then went to the gym with him and the a11 fellas. Had lunch at J8 and then went to toa payoh mrt to meet my crew. Went to mediacorp to root for TEAM NUS. Hahahaha! Our dance grp made it to the finals but our drama grp din altho i felt they did well! The weekend was basically spent at home doing nothing. Had a major fight with mum over the fact that i am spending too much time outside. So i just stayed home to make her happy! No use fighting.... Too tired!

No word from Sherm. Hope he is alright! Last i heard, he was down with sickness. Hope you are doing fine champ! Get well soon if u have not already!

Ok... its off to bed for an early night!

P.S. Glory Glory Man United for the 5-2 drubbing of Palace! =)

Back to Basics...

Song of De-Day: Lose yourself by Eminem

Well, the week of hibernation and recuperation is over. Its been a week of rain, rain and more rain. Totally conducive for sleeping in....nite and day. Actually it was not totally a week of hibernation. I did squeeze in a couple of jogs and a swim session in and even had time to fall sick and recover frm it as well but the week's over and the new week has begun.

Day started slow like any other. Roamed around my place pointlessly today. Skipped the ics gathering at sid's place today to save a few bucks. Not to mention, I had to run a couple of errands for mum. It was another rainy day, almost ruined the evening jog i planned out. At around 1715hrs, i set off for my jog. Decided to jog down to Ang Mo Kio MRT and back. Took around a little less than 40 minutes for each leg. Came back to the fitness corner which was a block away from my place to do some pullups and crunches. My whole body buzzed with an ache that strangely felt good!

After a nice shower and a light dinner of home cooked mee goreng, i went online awhile to drum up some support for the upcoming Nus Ics dance competition on Jan 7th. Asked around for peeps interested in coming for the event. Will probably get replies by the end of this week. Hope i can sell my quota of 20tix but more importantly, sell it to people who will actually turn up. I dun want to just sell em to people who just wanna buy cuz they are my pals but not at all interested in coming.... Defeats the purpose if one cares to think about it... Was also thinking of asking weixuan. Shez definitely a non indian gal who wld luv to come for indian events... Gotta sms her first thing tomorrow morning....

Speaking of the dance comp, I hope the gig really works out. I have seen the dbs auditorium, and the stage is rather small. Other than that, the whole event feels good. I really pray that it works out brilliantly.... I managed to hire Chewie to be the event photographer. He came down to scope the place out and talked to puvan about the details and stuff. Puvan and me discussed of throwing in 100bux instead of the $50 we agreed earlier for his services rendered. Gotta bring it up with the rest of the committee....

Also managed to hire dear wuss as one of the judges, although my greatest fear would be something cropping up in his programme that might force him to reconsider judging the event... Well i will just have to pray hard....

Met Jonathan online just now and we decided to go for a jog tomorrow. We decided to meet up at hougang stadium at 9am... I actually wanted to do a 5km alone tomorrow but since he is coming, i might as well make it a long one... and then go for a dip in the pool.... then again, i will have to reconsider....there is the high octane soccer session with the MAKKALZ at NUS later at 4pm to take into consideration as well. Gotta save up strength for that as well...Not to mention, my bro Sherm's gig at funan.... I really felt bad not being able to attend his gig at the Paragon last friday due to circumstances I do not wish to talk about. I really want to make it up tomorrow at funan.... Although he has the same gig at funan on wednesday, I have got canvassing to do in tekka again... ARGH! i totally hate begging for money but i cannot back out on the gals... so i will just tag along and let the ladies do the talking.... I just hope the day starts off well....

12 more days to my birthday and i am already dreading it... I am sure it will be a miserable occasion. With the current situation in my family at the moment, I really hope time fast forwards to New Years Eve... And the new school sem starts soon. To make matters worse, the exam results will come out on 24/12, just a couple of days before my bday and a day b4 xmas... Talk about a depressing turn of events.... Once again, thoughts of taking a pilgrimmage to the himalayas with a saffron robe on and a bald head dwell on my mind. But I don't even have the money to fork out a flight ticket to tibet.... And here we thought being a monk required no material possessions save for an alms bowl!

Lastly, I am glad i am back into the business of running again. It really feels good to be out there pounding on the streets. I just hope i can maintain it! After the marathon, its back to the basics again. Back to the short 5kms and the not so short 10kms... base building again...followed shortly by hill trainings and intervals.... Therez the 400bux IPPT money to fight for once the window opens... Hahahaha!

Anyway, just a few shoutouts....

To Jonathan: Could not have done the marathon w/o u bro! I hope you recover soon and we will get back into action as soon as possible. I am sure the feeling is mutual when i say that after conquering the marathon, any distance aint that great after all.... So yeah, hope we can find the time to train up and participate for every nation wide run there is to the calendar! Strength and Honour!

To Vineeta: Can't we go to the beach? I know the weather is a bitch but bowling is gonna blow a hole in my pocket! Hahahaha! Anyway dear, I juz wanna say you are doing a fantastic job looking after us ingrates in ICS and hope you find that beefed up prince charming of yours soon!

To Sherm: Hey bro, sorry for not turning up on fri! My bad ai! Anywayz, looka after urself and keep playing hard playa! Hahahaha! I have got to see you dance bro! "Heard its the bomb!" *chris tucker accent in Rush Hour 2* And all the best in ur romance! Keep at it Tiger! Oh yea... one more thing... Don't watch Blade without me... LOL!

To Shivani: My dearest Laddu, please don't get me anything for my bday... I will just feel bad cuz i din get u any for urs... Sometimes I wish i was some rich kid so i can splurge on my friends.... but i cannot even splurge on myself... Last time I got something for myself was when I bought a pair of street soccer shoes after starving a month for it! So yah... hope you recovered from the illness you were suffering from last saturday. I am glad things between you and lav are working out... Not to mention your sis! Hahahaha! Stay Cool Laddu!

Chewie: Thanks bro for helping me out for the event! I owe you one... I hope i can secure a good deal for you and perhaps hire you for the rest of our events! Thanks a million! The Force be with ya!

Wuss: Hey bro, thanks for agreeing to judge for just a token of appreciation! My deepest apologies for not being able to secure you a better deal but I totally appreciate what you are doing for me! Thanks a million dawg!

Rest of the ICS crew: Hope the dance comp turns out well and we all have fun doing it! For those of u taking part in that mediacorp competition on friday (puvan and tahira), all da best guys! Do NUS ICS proud!

Ok fellas, guess i will just sneak a nap before the united game @ 0355hrs... Till tmr then!

D-Day : Marathon...

Note this day down.... Its the first time in my life that I have completed the full marathon...

I guess the injuries kept mounting after the marathon. Sprained left foot. Abrasions around the groin area. Stiff back. Slightly swollen fingers. Cramped thighs and sore calves. But i guess it was all worth it. I finished it. That is what matters.... No pain, No gain!

Now its time for some recuperation to be done this week. Hopefully, i can be back on my feet in a couple of days time.

Weary.... to say the least!

I have an uphill task ahead, training for the marathon. I kickstarted the day with a 20km jog. It did not go too well. Jonathan and I made it as far as cjc from hougang stadium and were coming back when we had to conk out at Macritchie. It was gruelling to say the least. And the fact that i have not been running consistently for a couple of months due to studies and exams did not help me much.

So we walked back feeling dead tired and seriously disoriented. We started jogging again at the BP station at Thomson and made it to the Ang Mo Kio MRT station before we threw in the towel. John had a busted knee and i had a slightly twisted left foot and a abrasion on my left groin area. WE limped back to Hougang stadium, stoned, dazed and seriously in need of rest.

We bathed at hougang sports complex and i relished the cold shower cooling my overheated body. A much welcome reprieve. At that moment, I was seriously contemplating whether to really go through with the marathon. Here we are struggling through 20km. 42km is definitely going to devestate me. However, completing the marathon without prior training has been accomplished before. Nianlong did it when we were in cjc. Jonathan and I finished the half marathon without ANY training last year and came out without a scratch. Doing it now can be abit of a problem. I do not exactly possess the dexterity and endurance I had when i was younger. I had put on considerable weight since CJC. Back then i was about 52kgs and able to endure long distances at hectic frequencies. Now I find it hard just to drag myself out of bed.
We ate Fishball noodles at the usual coffeeshop opposite XinMin Pri School. I had remarked to him that it has been 10 years since i have been eating food from that stall. The auntie still remembers my usual orders. All i had to say was the price and the number of packets or bowls. We ate our lunch in silence.... we were just phasing in and out reality and were lost in worlds of our own. But we did decide that we carry on with the marathon. Run, jog, walk, crawl or whatever, we are going to do this. And we are going to do this with the full realisation that it will cripple us for the next week or so.

Met up with Sherm at cityhall when lo and behold..... Ling was there! Long time no see Mangamma! If my senses had not been beaten to a pulp by the previous encounters of the day, I would have tripped over my feet when spotting her. And the slimy snake did not even give me any warning! Bugger!

Anyway, we went to watch THE INCREDIBLES at suntec. Folks, You guys have got to watch this show. IT ROCKS....PERIOD! I seriously hope there is a part duex coming up cuz I am so looking forward to it! We then (More like me alone) had lunch at Raffles Place foodcourt and the split at around 6pm. Just wanna say thanks to the both of them for a good time. Thanks Guys! Always a pleasure hanging out with you folks!

And lastly, I was thinking of taking a week of hibernation right after the marathon. To recover and recuperate. I will probably just hole out at my place and just sleep till the bed covers stick to my skin and refuse to come off..... Hahahahahaha!

Anyway a couple of shoutouts...

To VJ, Kailing and vineeta, Hang in there ok? Exams will be over soon! Grit your teeth, dig in and just do your best! Hope to hang out with you guys soon once the ics meetings commence!

To Shivani, my dearest laddu, congrats that ur exams are finally over! Told me u wanted to organise something and hang out after exams but nothing materialised. Guess Prem's passing did put a blip in the celebrations. Well not to worry, I will be there for ur bday..... Just to mess up your place and finish your food! Hahaha!

Yep, that's about it...No I have to apply some vaseline on the abrasion and do some stretching before hobbling off to bed! Hopefully, I will be ok to do a 5 to 10km at least tmr morning....

Peace out y'all!

Proclamation of Glee!

First up... just wanna declare that the exams are over.... Yes!

But I am not actually gripped in the throes of euphoria as I had earlier expected. Was not exactly in the mood to jump around and announce my Proclaimation of Glee for all to hear. I am just glad its over.

At the end of every year, one reflects on the year gone by and makes resolutions. At the end of every round, there is assessment of wat has gone by. Interestingly enough, it is noteworthy to realise that the past semeste had been a comedy of errors and the exams was something that I had just wanted to get over it! It was disastrous to say the least. I recall what my bro Sherm said when i asked of the possibility of getting kicked out after the first sem. He said....

"Well therez always the first time"...... LOL!

Indeed...

Its been a rainy past few months and today was no different. It started pouring in the afternoon just like it always did....So i just lazed around at home, still fuming at CABLE for not showing the united match the previous night. It turned out to be 3-0 united win and I was even more infuriated! Ended up watching Bad Boys 2 instead to cool my nerves! I think by far.... the characters in Bad Boys comes the closest in mirroring me and sherm than any other double pairing of characters on any other show!

Mike Lawrie and Marcus Burnett! We live together, We die together.... Bad Boys for Life! Hahahaha!

I kinda figured i have a week left before the marathon. I had half the mind to give it a miss since i know that a marathon is definitely not a joke! Although I have planned out a week of taring to hopefully get me prepared, i am not too confident. Somehow the first sem in nus has kinda screwed up my training preparations for the marathon. The exams just made the situation worse. However, I have always survived despite the lack of preparations on several occasions. Maybe i will ride my luck one last time.... But then again, in my book, there is never " one last time"!

A couple of bdays are coming up. Shivani is inviting us on dec 4 for her bday..... i seriously dunno wat to get her.... Must think of something quick. Then there's Gan on dec 11. Then a very famous person will be celebrating his bday around the the xmas region! Hahahaha! I can be shameless at times....

I hope ICS can organise a retreat. Been a while since i have been to sentosa. =)

The Dysfunctional Saving Grace.....

Its the eve of exams....

Lets be happy.... Lets be merry!

I guess i awoke today with one of the strangest feelings i've had since the past few weeks. The morning was a soft, wet one. The sun was lazily shining through the sheets of clouds that moved across the sky like a snail with a limp. I was feeling slighty warm.

Went ahead to take a bath, breakfast and a dosage of paracetmol with lotsa water. I can almost feel it coming. The dreaded fever. It always starts off with flu. Then the sneezing stops and the running nose starts, as persistent as a marathoner. My head starts to feel heavy and light all at the same time. Anything but normal is the order of the day.

As I pored through my Political Science notes the past few hours, I felt glad that I have almost consolidated my revision into a garble of unintelligible noises in my head adding to the conundrum of cacophony already existent in my head. Have you ever woke up with this buzz in your head? This noiseless buzz drumming in the back of your mind? You cannot decipher it as there is no physical sound to be heard. Just this ceaseless vibration going on and on like an Energizer bunny!

Yet in all the "silent noise" you can hear something. If you strain hard enough, you can almost hear it. That tribal like drumming, felt more than heard. Its as if like you are watching a tribal dance on tv except that the tube is on mute. Yet, despite not physically hearing anything, you will still hear it subliminaly as you watch the action with your eyes. Its like the eyes convey the noise to the ears.

Perhaps that is why i feel the displacement that I feel now. My senses are not co-ordinating thanks to the unnatural circumstances around me. Its almost surreal. Its like watching a bomb go off 500m away and hearing the sound a few seconds later, when all your life, when conversing with people, u see action and sound always co-ordinating with each other. It is natural yet unnatural at the same time. Its physics telling you that light travels faster than sound but you don't understand why! The lack of apparent co-ordiantion displaces in the merciless attempt to confuse me.

I guess its a good thing I am in this state. For those of you, whom have watched the movie "Saving Private Ryan", should know this condition. The one Capt. John H Miller experiences when landing on Omaha beach and his helmet falls off and everything around him goes on in slow-motion. Before he knows any better, he is in the thick of action, running inland for cover. In my context, The exams are all nicely situated in one standard week.

Tuesday to saturday.... its easy on the mind. No weekends and mondays to break the flow of the pre-conditioned time structure. Making that fateful sprint under all that gunfire and mortar from the edges of the beach to the inland fortifications. To that elusive cover, where i will draw breath before my fate is revealed to me when i face the germans head on inside those fortifications.

Before i know it, it will be over. That much I am assured. Whatever happens next.... is left to be seen.

D-Day has arrived!

The realisation of intelligence!

Finally, I can see it! The mugging is finally coming to an end.... After a week of senseless mugging and restless sleeping... The only comfort i can find is that Relief is almost around the corner....

Most I know have at least sat thru half of their exams and it's still a couple of days more before my first paper hits me. All that I have studied is lost on me. I don't even remember a single nonsense that i have crapped thru during the recent days. As i senselessly waddle thru the days before me, I await the dreaded exams like a caveman armed with a toothpick against a Tyrannosaurus Rex!

I guess the madness have finally hit, i am feeling under the weather now and then.

In a bid to relieve myself before the final push, I started thinking about the coming holidays. More soccer, more regular jogging, the upcoming ICS dance event, more good food, movies, christmas and yes of course, my coming 21st birthday! I just can't wait!

Here am I suffering from delusions of grandeur as I leap from the lion's den into the mouth of the alligator! As the mugging comes to an end, the exams will be upon me! Before I know it, I will be ruefully thinking to myself.... Its only the first sem!

*Runs headlong into the nearest wall*

Oh well, seriously, its only the first sem. I can always blame NS for my low cap score. I can always blame the notion of "trying to find my feet" for my poor cap scores. I can blame my retarded brain integrity due to excessive soldiering during my NS days for my lack of proficiency in academia! I can always blame me for making me the way I am....

The name of the blame game stares at u when u look in the mirror....

Times like these when one of my firm beliefs come into play....

Do your best, F**k the rest!

Deepavali eve!

I guess the exhaustion period lingered for awhile more since my last post....

Thurs:

It was pretty much a normal day as I went to school for PS lecture. Sat beside Puvan for my Political Science lecture (it was the first and last time we sat thru a lecture together this sem) We talked about how fast the semester came to an end and the sheer coincidental nature of us having a liking for the same gal... The Indian Goddess! Turned out my assumption of her bein a snob held some water after all....
Went on to meet shivani for tea. We actually spent 4 hours just talking crap at yih! I kinda realised that she was as nonsensical and ridiculous as a gal can get (in the positive sense of course) and we really hit off. Thanks for the great time LADDU! Hahahahaha! I accompanied her all the way to woodlands mrt (her bf joined us somewhere in admiralty i think)

Fri:

Nothing much happened except for fri soccer. And it was dismal indeed as i was stuck in a team that cld nt last a few minutes on the court. Sherm left ard 5pm and thankfully I had good company just to joke around with. The last game was worth the wait and it lasted for like 45minutes and was a 5 goals thriller. Our team (filled with my makkals) went down 0-2 in like 1o minutes but we pulled ourselves together to win it 3-2. Brilliant stuff actually! i had a good game in defense and sara played b4 me in right midfield. Preet scored 2 beautiful goals to sink the manjans! But the only sore point came when I fell as i tackled this manjan from letting him have a point blank shot at goal. Although i stopped him, i fell and scraped my left elbow again, and the healing bruise reopened and let out alot of pus.
We ended at 6.45pm and i rushed to wash up as i had a movie date with my ics peeps! The initial plan to meet shivanin at the yih bus stop was scrapped as she had gone home earlier in the day but i did run into sid and puvan and i took a cab with em to dhoby. Met shivani at starbucks and the rest at the boxoffice! The movie was great although we had too little time after the movie to sit down and "socialise"! Went back home with shivani.... but i dropped off before her at AMK.

The weekend was pretty much a slow one as i did alittle studying... Oh yes....not to mention another dismal performance by Man United! 0-0 draw with manc city! Horrible!

Monday:

It was quite a devestatingly exhausting day! Went putting posters for the ICS dance comp in the morning with sid, puvan and shivani! Met shivani , her sis, and her cousin first and had a laugh seeing her in her specs and fumbling with her contact lenses! Hey girl, you actually look good in glasses dah! I was just laughing for the fun of it yah!
Then met up with tahira, kalpana and Vj. We did canvassing in tekka though i did not like it at all. I never really liked begging pple for money though i had fun posting posters up in tekka! However we did raise like $756 on that day alone. That's almost enough to cover 2nd prize of the dance comp. We went down to peninsula plaza komalas for dinner. We met vik and kailing there and we really rocked the place with our noise! LOL!
Then at night shivani, kailing, VJ, vik and me went down to changi hospital to see lavania. The poor gal was stuck in hospital and will be forced to miss the coming exams... I felt bad for her. It was gratifying to see her smile when we came in although it was apparent she was exhausted and tired from the ordeal she went through. She gave us all a hug before we left. Hey Lav, get well soon yah! I will try to visit u one more time soon k!

Tues:

The very last soccer outing i had before exams. Met sherm in school first and we did some catching up. Have nt been seeing him for quite sometime, with him busy with school, the illers and ling's bday! I only briefly saw him on friday and he left abruptly! Well dude, wish you all the best in the coming exams and your future endeavours in business and dance. And please do condition your body for dance. Its not enough to say dance is a physical exercise and get injured unneccessarily because you have nt been using your muscles well enough to dance effectively. Do go for runs and other physical "co-curricular" activities like soccer, gym, etc... so that your body is well oiled for the physically demanding dance activities you put yourself through! All the best mate!
Met tate and had dinner with him and sherm at muchie munkies! Been awhile dude! And it was nice seeing ya! Have a safe journey and enjoy your time there..... rest assured I will TRY my best to come see you off!
Finally soccer, the turnout was dismal and the irritating part was playing (along with chandra) with some manjans against the makkals. It was raining goals at my side as the manjan defenders alongside me were downright horrible. I felt like gary neville playing right back for balestiar khalsa against AC MILAN!!! We did notch 2 goals and one came frm my cross i made from the right flank after overlapping and recieving a pass from the rite midfielder.
Exhaustion finally hit me and i had to decide agst goin to see lavania again.... Furthermore shivani was going with her bf to see her and i felt it wld be awkward. 3 really good friends and i would have stuck out like a sore thumb being the "outsider". Not to mention i was so tired that i would have asked Lav to move to one side of her bed as i occupied the other side to crash! Hahahaha! I can be a shameless bastard sometimes.... =)

Wed: Today.....well just past it actually. Spent the day going to skool for SEAsian studies lect and tutorial. Did my presentation. It was not too bad. Spent the rest of the day with the family, cleaning up, putting curtains up and of course, stuffing myself with the food mum has cooked! Soon deepavali will be over and Mugging will resume again. I think I will study in skool 10am to nite starting nex week onwards. Anyone, please feel free to join me. I will be at the Forum.

Till then (once again) Happy diwali!

Crunchies!

I guess it never really hit me until I ran into Harpreet today near the Central Library @ NUS. Well, I did not exactly run into him. More like zombied past him and he had to whistle at me to get my attention. He said " You look tired!"

LOLz!

You said it bro. Doin the essay and prepping for the SEAS presentation had taken a toll on me. The only highlight of my week was having tea with shivani and benazir. The only time i truly unwound before pitching myself into the ceaseless battles of idiosyncratic academic processes in NUS.

I met up with weixuan to pass her jellybeans. Told her I will be missing soci lect and implored her not to miss me. Haha! But actually I wanted to to tell her that its gonna be awhile before we will meet again. The sem is nearing its end. Exams are near. Tute mates are gonna go their seperate ways. Its like the matrix reloading. I actually felt alil sad but i saed her the teary speech. Its not the end of the world and i am not the kind who is nihilistic about the future. I am a realist!

The end of sem and its consequences have illustrated a point to me. The issue of emotional attachments. I was never one who had friends from primary schools. I had a few frm sec school and a few more from JC. I think about the friends I have now from sec school. Faiz is a direct answer of the distance. The others, I can feel the distance already. My ex-jc pals are all over the shop. All those promise of keeping a united front just got flushed down the drain during the army days. Once again I feel myself rolling down the path of life a loner again.

But I know i am not a loner now. I do have people around me. But the question is, being the realist that i am, is how long is this gonna last? We are all going to go our seperate ways whether we like it or not. There is no point in holding on till the very end hoping for a miracle. This is not Peter Pan. Miracles don't happen and the Fairy godmother died in Shrek2.

Oh well, i am feeling shitty as it is. But I wanna put it all behind me and just enjoy my days here despite the pressure and work. I am meeting shivani again for tea at yih later todae at 3pm. Hope more of the gang turns up. Tomorrow will be the final fri soccer b4 the exams. Rest be assured, I am gonna play like how I always play soccer. Play the game like its your last! But I gotta limit it till 7pm before i zip down to PS to watch a movie with the ICS gang. The weekend will be upon me soon and it will be study time.

Happy Deepavali all!

Its been awhile.....

Alot has happened the past week. There were the ups and downs. And moments when things were so normal, I felt abnormal! LoLz!

Lemme run thru the days....

Fri:
As usual, I played soccer with the guys although I had to turn up early (@ 2pm to be precise) to do the banner wif kavi, vik and VJ. True to my instinct, The folks turned up late and i ended up having tea with harpreet, diablo, saravanan and me bro sherm at YIH. Hahaha! We proceeded to play soccer at 4pm.
Guess the highlight of the match was Sherm and me reliving our "GESS all-blacks" days during one of the setpiece moments in the game. My bro floated a cross frm the left corner and I rose to head it in! Brilliant stuff! I could almost smell the wet grass in GESS on a beautiful morning years ago! Nostalgic!

It was back to school on Monday as I had to hand in my essays when I ran into the Indian Goddess at AS3. We climbed 4 storeys to the SEAs office and it was an earth shattering experience as i trailed behind her. But it all came crashing down when she gave me the cold shoulder when i smiled at her as we came face to face (for like 2secs) in the office. Ice cold! My heart froze over and almost broke under the pressure. It shattered instead! LOL!

How fragile can a man like me be? There are no limits I guess.... But life goes on!

Tuesday was a normal day and I came late for history lecture.... Well done Prak! Best 2 hours of ur life each week (I love history lects) and u come late!!! Lucky fer me Gekus and Yingda kept a seat warm fer me...

Wed was pretty much a normal day until Soci lecture. Then another earth shattering thing happened! We (Sherm and gekus) sat in one line for soci lect. Gekus sat on my right and reserved a seat beside him fer his friend. Someone whose guts i hate but little did i know he still can screw my life. As usual, me and sherm were waiting for PORN ST*R and her indian goddess friend to appear. They looked absolutely gorgeous when they appeared. Vival la Porn wif her flowing mane and the goddess in her gorgeously whit punjabi suit were standing at the end of our row and had made the way past 2 seats!

OH GOD THIS IS GONNA BE MY LUCKY DAY!

I almost went down on my knees to give thanks to the ALMIGHTY when i saw the bastard rush in to the seat PS and IG were going towards, and plopped himself there! And I excruciatingly saw the both of em turn around to find seats elsewhere. Time had slowed down as they were coming in and before i knew it....they were gone! FRUSTRATING!!!!

I FEEL LIKE KILLING THAT STUPID BASTARD!!!!

okok.... i need to calm myself down. The expressions that me and sherm had on our faces could have beaten the price of any van gogh paintings of the depressed!

Moving along.... thursday came along with the agony of the past day fresh on my mind.... Sherm came late to skool to join david, the "Lit Ladies" and me for a late lunch, although he din eat anything as he was fasting! Why he came late, I will not go into....Its up to him to disclose...

After Lit lecture, i ran into Shivani and ultimately Lavania. I decided to tag along with them to AS7 cuz Lav wanted to collect sum stuff frm her frend before heading to ICS lect. Been awhile since i saw lavania and the 3 of us had a wonderful crapping session. It almost took my mind off the agonising events of wednesday. ICS meeting was a blast altho it was the last one before exams. We hung out at Fong Seng fer dinner and had a blast of a time just teasing each other and cracking lameass jokes! Had a wonderful time indeed!

Friday came and went. No soccer, so i just spent time rotting at home and writing testimonials for some of my ICS people. Sat was spent painting the house and watching united lose to portsmouth! Depression has hit home again fer me. How can u lose to portsmouth when u just beat arsenal just the week before.... The logic escapes me. Just like the other events that had happened the past week. The only release or happiness I found the past week that kinda, if not fully equalizes, the shittiness i have faced is probly my contact wif the ics peeps and fri soccer (esp tt goal....thanks to my bro, Sherm!)

Shout out to Clinton....Hope you did em exams as well! You deserve good results more than anyone else! Keep it up bro! Hope we can meet up along wif the rest of the gang during the holz!

Sherm... thanks for the ASSIST and the countless more you have given me throughout my life! Life wld nt have been the same w/o you!

Lavania. dun worry too much. Life never sucks longer than it should, if tt offers u any comfort. Dun lose sleep over it yah!

The ICS crew...love u lots! Hope to see u guys soon. And I will try to get all the testimonials done as soon as possible! All da best in the coming exams!

Harpreet and gang! Love playing soccer with you guys! Friday soccer is the highlight of any ordinary week of mine if not all! Thanks bro!

Thatz all i guess..... Monday is almost upon me! And therez still the darned lit essay!

Slacker turned Professional

Yes Yes... don't balk! I am turning into a responsible team player...Its a joke... but please don't laugh!

I thought I could slack through my NUS life. I thought maybe i can escape the responsibilities of ex-co duties since being a CJC Track and Field Secretary. But everywhere I go....people think i am a responsible person. Even in Gan Eng Seng, I ended up as Scrabble Club President, thanks to Faiz....

Today, just being an ordinary committe member, i volunteered myself an IC for an HS-ICS event thinking that its just information relaying job. Just telling people what's going on and liaising with the IC from the other society. It went beyond that.... suddenly I am organising stuff and all... Thank god it did not turn out to be a major leadership oriented job. I just have to handle it from ICS side and HS is the main grp organinsing the event.... we are just here to help our sister society out!

But it will be a slightly busier week than usual. I have to go down with the gang to check out the PGP hall tomorrow. Than Friday.... got to meet the gals to help do the banner...before zipping down at 4pm to play soccer with the gang. Then Sat is the event called ALAKAR. Meeting the committee at 4.30pm, and i have to wear indian traditional clothes... LOL! The last time i wore indian clothes to school was during racial harmony day in sec4. i was even the EMCEE for the concert.... Even did a gig with the "all Blacks" . Remember tt one sherm and Faiz?? Truly good times....!!!

Also wanna take this opportunity to apologise to Chiobu Chan! don't worry dude....i will get ur reports edited by wednesday! u can say thanks once i have done them... LOL!

Well its off to watch united and hoping they won't embarass themselves again! Its Sparta Prague for pete's sake....don't screw up!

Reaffirmation

"Eye of the Tiger" - Survivor, OST Rocky series

It was another Friday. Another day of Soccer, Fun and mayhem with the gang. I came late (i am developing this awful habit of not being punctual these past few weeks) at around 4.30pm. And played till 8.30pm! Needless to say, I had a ball of a time!

But there were things I learnt on this day. Lessons that have been taught and learnt previously, but somehow lost in time and vice. Vices of laziness, lack of priorities and the lessening of willpower. When I played soccer today, I displayed tremendous tenacity, working hard for each ball and chasing every attacker that came down my side of the court with the ball. It was pure mental strength, playing game after game, and churning out the same amount of effort, working my socks off.

I then realised that I am not showing the same amount of tenacity, willpower and interest to the other aspects of my life. I am lazing through my life again, just like I did back in cjc. I regretted it and vowed to myself at that time that I won't do it again in NUS. But here I am, at it again. I always thought that I lacked the mental strength to push myself to my limits. I failed even in my track training. I never reached my true potential. I excite everyone with my potential but it dies out like a temporary dose of euphoria. That's because I lacked the strength to carry it through.

But today, that belief has been smashed. I do have it within me. I just need the interest and everything else will fall in place. I need the focus to see me through anything i have already set in motion. I must not forget the lessons the army has taught me. I have never fell out of any physical exercise, be it route march, mission or navigational exercise. I never did because I had pride that I was one of the fittest in the platoon. I was one of the smallest and I wanted to prove that I can still do it among the big and strong fellas. I also had to prove to all the manjans in my platoon that I can do it as well as them if not better. And I did it and got the nickname "Tamil Tiger"....And the fact that I am proud of what i had achieved. When you truly suffer for something, it becomes your prize, pride and joy.

Well the true test for me now lies ahead. 4 essays to hand in, in 2 weeks and 5 exams in a little more than 1 month. I need to to do it! I need to perservere and prove to myself more than anyone that I am not a spent force, with all that flash and potential but no real essence to clear the finishing line as strongly as i started. I cannot give up now and submerge into the rut that I am slowly sinking into.

I have to pick myself up and start running again.... I must.....I will.....


Quote of the day : "Courage, Merry! Courage for our Friends!" - Eowyn in the movie "Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King"

The Non-Existent Monday Blues... They start on Tuesdays these days.....

"Manic Depression" - Jimi Hendrix!

It's monday and I have stayed true to my words.....

I have finally begun on my essays writing most of my history essay up and fine tuning my Political essay outline. Well I don't think I can procrastinate any longer. The coming weekend is the last one I have before the deadlines start to impose themselves on me. So its good that I got cracking on them.

Went to the temple today, more like yesterday by a few hours. Its the 16th day after my aunt's passing and there were prayers held for her "athma" to find "shanthi". Rest in peace for those who don't understand Sanskrit. Met up with my relatives yet again. It was only 6 months agon when another one of my aunt passed away. Looks my family of relavtives is getting smaller by the day.

Earlier on in the day, I went to the library to return my books and pay up fines. I renewed one book on SEAsian history so that I can start work on my SEA essay. Went to Cards and Such to buy a bday card for Lydia whose bday was on Sunday. Haha! David already bought her present and he tasked me to get the card. Actually I came up with the idea and he asked me to get it myself. Well I don't know lah.... I am blabbering as usual in the wee hours of the morning when civilised people are asleep and dreaming dreamless dreams.

Faiz gave me his usual sermon of fidelity. God help me by helping him. Guide his path and help him to stay his course. Help him in his thoughts and..... God are you there? Oh no..... I see St. Peter shake his head and tell me God is sleeping at the moment.... Sorry Faiz, you are on your own! LoLz! Well bro, please tread softly and think twice in anything and everything you do! Take a hint and be extreme to curb ur extremities which u awfully consider to be normalities... That's all I have to say....

Back to my ratty life, there is ICS meeting later today. The gang is meeting up to discuss the coming ICS event on Saturday. I wanna take this opportunity to credit Tahira. She's doing a great job heading the committee as president. And the rest of the gals and guys (puvan, vik and udaya) as well. I hope I don't disappoint you all by being the slacker that I am. Knowing me, the only thing that worries me is that I will be the one that screws up the good work of you guys! I am the weak link in the unit! So God help me as well!

Another late night for me tomorrow and I still have my history tutorial to do. I have to do it cuz Sophie is so nice and I hate to disappoint her! Don't worry sophie, I will get the stuff done and lots to say during your class! As of now, I have no date to watch "the barrel of a gun" in the library tomorrow. Asked Jingle but shez going with her girlfriends. Gek Hau has already watched it. Hmmm..... Maybe Jeff wang might watch it with me.... Gotta message him tomorrow morning....or in 5 hours time to be precise... *sigh*

My financial resources have taken a beating yet again.... I have 80bux in my account and will be holding out till Friday. I hope I save enough to get a decent pair of street soccer shoes and contribute my 50bux worth (along with my bro's 50bux) to get the Star Wars DVD. Times like these when I feel like robbing a bank. Or just robbing someone blind! Hahahaha!

Well I have been reading up Gandhi lately and I guess its about time i stopped my swearing and cursing ways and highly-exuberant methods of communication. Its time to be cool and calm! Who am I kidding? LoLz!

To Shermann and Clinton, hey guys chill! Don't take too much notice of my previous blog entry. Its just a fact of life.... something worth pondering about but nothing to be worried about. Being aware is all one needs to be ok in life. Like what Buddha said.... "ignorance is the cause of all misery" To be happy or content, just be aware and concious of the decisions you make....

I think the advice was more for me than anyone else when I think about it..... hahaha!

Well about time I go to bed. Take care folks....see ya in 24hours..! =)

History repeats itself - The novelty of it!

"Cursed" - Robbie Williams

Sunday....

I have been touched by a moment of reflection.... Something that i have been thinking about these past few days....

The idea of History repeating itself.....

Why does history repeat itself? Is it just merely a figment of Man's perception? Perhaps its just a recurrence of Man's cycle of behaviour? Maybe someone just noticed that the same kind of bad patterns of activity keep occuring in his life from time to time?

So many questions.... just how I like it...

There are 2 ways of looking at this trend of thought.... History can be repeating itself because a wrong has to be righted or a second chance is available after a disastrously bad occurence in the past. A second chance to make things right or to resolve a previously nagging issue.

Another way is because maybe Makind can never escape from the fact that no matter how one frowns upon a certain aspect of life....it just comes back to bite them back in the ass... Confused? Take for an example that a guy loved this gal.... but she screwed his life up. This cycle repeats itself over and over again as he gets in and out of a one relationship after another. He vows himself that he should be single and try to resolve his life and be wiser... But he juz sinks back into the cycle again.... History repeats itself...

Well, I believe he has to keep trying.... and maybe the example i used was wrong....but its the only popularized one i can think of....

Its only human we keep trying in life. Its natural for us to be foolish in our ideals or cynical as we wade through the pool of negativity with fins of sarcasm and doubt clouding our vision like a pair of blurred goggles. As much as we try to warn our friend of the mistakes that they are going to be making again.... chances are we are inevitably going down the similar path running parallel to the one your friend is treading on.

Foolish human.....
Blind with your eyes wide open..
deaf with your ears hearing only sounds
mouth moving to the sounds of muted noise.
feeling nothing, oblivious to the pain,
despite the blood streaming from your wounds.
You have suffered similar fates....
yet you tread this path again....
knowing that you have no choice but
endure the life you have chosen to live....

Foolish human....
your time is up
the devil has come
he is asking for you...
walking down the streets
calling your name...

Foolish human...
don't resist the pull....
don't persist your existence...
you have existed long enough
when your bags have already been packed.

Foolish human...
HUSH....
Can you hear the hounds bay?
Can you see the darkness approaching?
Its happening all over again...
The devil steps on ur doorstep again....
Answer the door....

Foolish human....
I am.....

Well we are who we are in the end... We cannot deny what we are..... Creatures of habit and circumstances...

80s LoVe sOnGs bAd FoR HealtH!

Just Nod ya head - Will Smith! (Luv the MTV.....The dude rocks!)

Another day spent doing nothing. I printed out material to work on my history essay but time just got wasted away as i struggle to find the inspiration to get me on the roll to finish my work....

So I feel blogging abit can help me get my juices goin in the right flavour....

A day of World Cup qualifiers. Watched England beat Wales 2-0. Hats off to beckaham's fantastic second half strike... It was really a top class strike.... Wished he was still at Old Trafford... Czech beat the romanians 1-0 tho only a penalty strike by Jan koller was the only thing that seperated the 2 teams. Nevertheless I made some money out of that match. Say a cool 50bux! can feed me for the next 2 weeks at least and still have some spare to catch a movie....

Just realised, listening to too many 80's love songs can be detrimental to my mental health but i can't help downloading classics like "Mandy", "glory of love", "nothing's gonna change my love for you" and the likes.... The detrimental part comes when ur loneliness is amplified by the music. Suddenly you feel alone and unwanted..... you feel lost and start feeling sorry for yourself....

Trust me....that feeling sucks.... Times like these when some "alternative" music helps.... Robbie Williams' "karmakiller", "No regrets", "Cursed" and even "X gonna give it to ya" by DMX and 'shake ya tailfeather" from P diddy/nelly/murphy lee can get me amped and get me feeling like a million bucks just because I am single..... LolZ!

Yes Yes...I know.... Midnight Neurosis has hit downtown Prak!

*starts giggling like a girl* LOLZ!

Anyway I just read faiz's blog and it seems he has got a new girlfriend.... Rachel was it? No wonder that fella has been quiet these few days..... more like the whole of the past month! So typical of him! Anyway, I just hope he is fine and does not get into the usual trouble he is famous for getting into.... Good luck chum! Guess singlehood's a no no for him!

Not everyone is like you Prak! The pillar of singlehood! The High Protector of Male Virginity!
All hail merciful Prak!

Anyway, I have got overdue libraray books to return. Maybe pay the local library a visit to return em books and work on my history essay tomorrow. I have to sit in tomorrow as well and look after my bro as my parents will be involved in my aunt's "16th day after funeral" proceedings. It will be just my bro and me as the Kings of #10-964! Yay!

Anyway Jingle came just online and she had gotten locked out of her own room. Poor girl actually cried! Aiyo...poor thing! Girl, just bash the lock down.... Dun beg with it ok! its not gonna say yes! Show no mercy!

Ok i just taught a nice person how to be brutal.... I think I better shut up now before my midnite neurosis start making me do things I will never do even when i am mildly insane! LoLz!

ok the Croat match just started..... Hope they win.... Or else my old man will throw a tantrum for losing his bet! *crosses fingers*

Women....Love em or Hate em....

Let me state beforehand that this aint a male chauvanist cum anti-feminist attack..... its just my personal opinion...

Went to play soccer with the makkals of NUS. Or in sherm's words, The Niggas of NUS, although at least half of em are not from NUS. As usual it was a blast! BUT this is where the bummer part comes in! The Netballers came down and told us they wanted to use the court.

*sigh*

There was a group of manjans playing at the other court. Why not ask them? You think a bunch of indians are pushovers. However us blokes were nice fellas and i admit they did ask nicely and gave us a half an hour cushion and did not show any face. That still did not quell my angst. C'mon Friday soccer is like so important to me and plus I did not play last week.... I was so amped to play but I guess its just too bad....

Women.... dunno whether to love em or hate em...

Anyway it was 6.30pm and we could not play soccer anymore. So we decided to go to the cheese prata shop. But as we made our way to the dressing areato bathe, an argument broke out between diablo and prakash (the other one) when prakash teased diablo about malavika. LoLz! I guess it was just the wrong thing said to the wrong person. Because of that diablo din join us fer cheese prata.... Guess he just needed to cool down... We had a ball of a time at the shop, basically just teasing each other and we split at 8.30pm.

Another day ends.... *sad* Time flies so fast when you are having fun........

Life's good!

Haha! Some of you might think that I have finally lost my marbles this time.
Well maybe... LoLz!

Anyway, the school week started very brightly. Although I woke up late and rushed to school for sociology tute, the sight that greeted me at the front of class blew my socks off....

IT WAS THE PORN STAR!

What in the world was she doing in my sociology class. I grinned like a mad loon at Gek Hau as I approached the back of class. Sociology just lost its Walrus-induced-boredom factor. And did the temperature juz sky rocket?

True to his nature, Gekus was oblivious to the porn star's presence in the class..... Haha! Dude, u need some socialization in the art of babe detection! After pointing it out to him that porn star was around with my usual highly energized gesticulation, he got the message. I also smsed my bro Sherm about my sudden elevation in the luck department! Score 2 - 0 to Prak as Sherm"the"mann got agitated by it! Hahaha! As I always say, every dog (and rat) has its day, and it was Rizzo's turn!

Barely 5 minutes after I left class, I ran into the Indian Goddess!

THANK YOU BENJAMIN! *chris tucker accent*

I wandered around aimlessly in school and ran into Jingle in the Central Library. Asked her what she's up to and she said nothing much. Had lunch? No. Another stroke of luck! So we proceeded to have lunch at the deck and hung out and linked up with Jonathan from Lit class. We were talking about the difficulty of making friends in NUS and that its hard to socialize with classmates. Well we agreed that at least our lit group of Diana, David, Mandy, Lydia, Jingle, Jonathan(nt in our lit group actually) and me managed to click! That's good enough for the moment I guess....

At 6pm after history lecture, went to YIH for ICS meeting and had a ball of a time with my newfound indian pals. After the meeting we had dinner at the Cheese Prata Shop outside NUS. Got a lift back home thx to Vik. Thanks bro!

Wednesday started late as well as this time I woke up at 9am. Lecture was at 10am. So another mad rush to school and being 30mins late. Realised that the Indian Goddess was not in town but surprisingly I was not too bothered about it. After lect, hung out with Sherm, jeff wang and gekus, having lunch first at Biz canteen and then hanging out at the library. Then at about 3pm, me and the serpent divine (shermann) hahaha! went to the grinnning gecko to get sum brownie. Actually it was more of him getting the brownie whilst i sat and watched him whallop his and still claiming that the brownie was not as good as it should be.... LOLZ!

Anyway me bro sherm got alil soft and said that we should not be calling porn star that anymore. I was like .... ok lah....i feel bad as well... So what do we call her then? Hahaha!

Thursday was a rather mellowed day. Had one lecture. Then just hung out with Mandy, David, Lydia and Jonathan. Jingle could not make it cuz she had a doctor's appointment. hmmmm! We had a ball of time.... David and Mandy were hyper.... that left me, lydia and jonathan to hold the fort of sanity although we soon succumbed to the madness....

Tomorrow will cap off a rather good week. Friday soccer is finally here again....

What a Frustrating end to the week!

*ALERT*

Major Bitching ahead!!!

I am sitting here frustrated to the max!

After a run of wonderful winning performances, Man united had to come back one down to force a draw with middlesborough at Old Trafford!!!! 20 plus chances at goal and only one got converted!!

I mean, no disrespect to sir alex ferguson, but c'mon for pete's sake. With a rather full team available and so much talent on the pitch with the likes of ruud, ronaldo, giggs, rooney and the strongest united back line ever this season, why in the BLOODY BLOODY BLOODY HELL, do u have to throw in a left back at central midfield??????

We are not playing AC milan or Real Madrid in which you have to throw in defensive holding players to neutralise the opposition midfield!!! its boro throwing in a 5 man strong midfield! If fenerbhace taught us anything, swift attackings players are not only necessary in the wings but also in the middle of the park. If on a normal day u throw in scholes giggs ronaldo and keane in midfield, are u trying to say O'Shea is the replacement for scholes! They POLES apart in GALACTIC terms!

Fergie finally woke up his idea and threw in alan smith in the 60 odd minutes and the new SPARKY scored one! this tells us 2 things!
1. Dun throw smith into oblivion when the full team is back! The dude carried united on his back when united started on their most horrendous start to a season. once ruud and rooney came back.... fergie juz chucked him aside.... I mean..... is this how u treat one of the heroes of the new Man united!!!

2. WHY O'SHEA??? U have liam miller, kleberson, djemba djemba, alan smith and even phil neville to play central midfield role! Why in GOD'S HOLY NAME is O'SHEA still playing in midfield! Fergie have you gone off your rockers????? I seriously dun blame the players fer the poor performance ( mabbe gary neville fer squandering 2 point blank chances) If the previous matches taught u anything, u can only eke out wins by a single goal or mere draws if u play O'Shea in cntrl midfield!

Well I hope Fergie wakes up his idea and throw in a more suitable player in central midfield role.... cuz the rest of the team does not deserve a tactical lapse like that! And Arsenal will not be giving any quarters 20 days from now!

I missed Friday soccer thanks to a bust up with my mum! Once again the differences we have in regards to my brother reared its ugly head! And i had to stay home to prove to my mum that i am concerned with my brother's revision process before his final exams.... If me staying at home makes a difference to his exam results, then i will gladly stay. The means must justify the end....

But other than that, everything has been going along fine. I joined up the NUS ICS ex-co. I am still wondering why i did that! Guess i just needed to find an avenue to make my nus life feel more like one....

Haha!

Today..... A year ago!

September 11 is a day famous throughout the world. It’s a day which, more or less, marked the end of conventional warfare and overt territorial conflict. It was the day when terrorism came to age.

But I don’t want to give a speech on world issues and current affairs. As usual, I will like to touch on a personal issue. As the title of my blog entry suggests, today marked a memorable day for me as well. Today, a year ago, I can remember being in Taiwan on a cold rainy night. At a bund facing the sea. It was drizzling lightly and I was standing with the rest of my platoon at our recce jeeps, all parked in a row. We were standing, excited and filled with hope. It was the start of AtEC. Conc Mission was over and we were eagerly waiting for orders for the next mission, which was a Deliberate attack.

There was also news that a typhoon was 1000km off our position and the threat of ATEC being cancelled was high. Frankly I had hoped that ATEC would continue. We had come too far and suffered too much to go back home empty handed and restart our evaluation again. The rain drizzled on and I can remember clearly that I had my Goretex raincoat on and my S.B.O worn outside of the raincoat and my SAW shoulder slung, the muzzle pointing up. I had wrapped the muzzle with some plastic and rubber band and removed the sensor device. There was too much weight on the weapon. The l.A.D and Blank attachment were still on.

We (Harpreet, Alan, Lim Jia Wei, Logan and myself) were gathered around the jeep, which was in the middle of the column, and sang songs we had liked. Songs like, “Laura” , “Nothing’s Gonna change My Love for you” , “how deep is your Love” and many other sad love songs. It reflected the mood in us I guess. A bunch of grunts waiting for things to happen on a rainy night in a foreign land.

Today, the same lot of us were gathered in a condo near sixth avenue for Douglas’ birthday party. I had come down with Preet and met up with the other three there and reminisced that little memory that somehow will not be eroded in time to come. A time when we grew as Men together.


My week had been a rather topsy turvy one. Wednesday had been comedy of errors. Came late for History tutorial, forgot to bring my homework which I had diligently done the night before and to top things up in my first hour in school, my handphone went off, Will Smith’s “Nod ya head” serenading the whole class. The day grew more comical as the day went on and it topped it off when I miscalculated my seating position during Sociology lecture and got a seat in which I could not get a good view of the Indian babe. Bummer!

Thursday had been a day when I got pissed off for reasons I do not wish to discuss. But it ended rather well with the touch rugby session I had with Mark Koh, Narissa, Zhong Yi and David “You bastard” Liang. Even met up with Chiobu Chan in between end of school and start of rugby. Got to know another one of david’s bevy of babes and ended up sending her home as well…her name is weixuan.

Friday was a blast! 4 hours of soccer and I was not even tired. Harpreet and his MIB gang were (they still are) brilliant to say the least. It was fantastic playing soccer with em and time really flew though I feel kinda bad for abandoning Jonathan. We were supposed to meet up for dinner but I had warned him that I might be late. But soccer ended at 2100hrs and there was no time to react. Furthermore, jonny had tonnes of schoolwork to do so I guess it was best that we did not meet up. Nevertheless, Friday is definitely a day I will reserve for soccer with the guys. It’s the one thing I will not miss out on each week. Not only was the soccer brilliant but the company was fine. Jokes were being cracked as much as the passes that were made and totally friendly football.

Anyway, its back to the weekend and I had to endure another united draw. They were one goal up thanks to a Heinze debut goal. Then they went 2-1 down! Totally disgusting turn of events!! Luckily, a scrappy goal by alan smith saved the day! But it was still a performance not worth watching. I hope united seriously pull up their socks in the coming games….

Well, that’s about it for this week. I hope I can make my blog entries more of a daily affair. Till next time, a tribute to the blokes I know in camp! Ho’Ah!!!

Recovery...

Been quite a few days since i wrote an entry. And I guess i won't kid around by saying I was busy. Please for pete's sake, I have a 3 days-schoolweek. Guess I was just plain lazy. Nevertheless, it had been rather eventful these past few days and all....

Well there was my bro's bday on Aug 29. Did not have too much of a fanfare, a simple celebration.

Went down for ICS welcome tea. Ran into two of my ex classmates back in cjc. Kavitha and Kalpana. There was some guys I knew whom were there as well. Puni and Vijay. Met Viknesh there as well (actually hez the one who called me over) . Met his 3 female friends as well. Took the same bus with them back home as well. Finally found out their names. There's Vijayenthi, the tallest of them all. And there's Kailing, the only chinese member in ICS. And the short fair one whoz Vineetha (hope i got the spelling correct) Found out that they are really nice peeps and Vik told me that they will always hang out in the library after skool to study... Maybe i would join them one day after on one of my skool days.

Yesterday, more like on last friday, I came back to school to play soccer with harpreet and his MIB gang. Great stuff! Actually scored 2 though my team got thrashed. I had fallen ill with fever a week ago and was recovering when i played soccer. Thus my fitness had dropped and i was huffing and puffing the whole time. it was good to be on the road to recovery and I am glad i played soccer.

met up with evelyn for lunch at THE DECK. LoLz! Had a nice chat with her and caught up with old times. Then went down to the library to meet up with vik and vj (short for vijayenthi) Vik left early at ard 5.30pm cuz he was going out. So i stayed back for vj and we left the library at 6.30pm. She was a talkative gal though tt did not irritate me even the slightest because she potrayed herself as person with no secrets. No dark underlying past kinda gal. It was easy to communicate with her and i kinda enjoyed the bus ride back home with her.

basically spent the weekend so far resting and organizing my school notes and readings. Was planning to study tomorrow. There is a museum visit coming up and i have to hand in a report next sat. Blah!

Actually there is nothing I wanna talk about now. Nothing to debate about and ponder over. Life is good.....Period

Falcon up and running again....

Song of de-day: "Hearts on fire" - OST Rocky Series

Well sometimes I forget that the Millenium Falcon is not a pleasure yacht to Han Solo. Its neither a cruise ship nor a stat of the art craft fresh off the Kuat drive yards... Its an old run down ship modified to the extent of eccentricity and made to work wonders under insane conditions.

That is the situation of my run down com now. A P3 7oo MHz wif onboard graphics card and sound card, its a YT1300 corellian transport, totally obsolete during current times. The internet explorer was giving me problems and i could not install my printer as well. I guess it called for a radical overhaul. I wiped out everything on my com and reinstalled win xp. Installed my printer, microsoft word, ppt and excel. And other basic functions as well. Now its running smoothly with the most basic of functions. A ship battleworthy in a fight against the Empire. NUS.

Went on a download and print frenzy, zapping notes and lecture outlines in a bid to have reading materials at hand rather than reading em off online or copying them down manually on a writing pad. I guess I can also start doing the prepatory work and draft typing for my essays as well. I already decided on my questions for Political Science and SEAstudies. Cannot do much for lit since i have barely read one book. Basically there's work at hand now.

Had gone for 3 tutorial classes now. Namely Pol Sc, History and SEAstudies. Guess I can say I made a few friends in Pol Sc namely this dude called Ron and a gal called Xie Ying. Knew a few more as well but I guess it will take a few more tutorials before we actually get together outside the class for lunch or sumthin. The PS tutor called, Vicente, is a cool dude who taught us a few cool spanish terms like Nea Timeas which means do not be afraid.... History was a bore... the peeps were just too boring but there's gek hau there for backup. SEAstudies was pretty much the same cept fer a couple of indian fellas like Vicky frm mauritius, Dinesh and Arysal from CJC to keep the entertainment goin in the indian flavour.

Left.... Lit tute tomorrow and Soci next tuesday. After tomorrow, it will be long weekend again, but I guess I cannot slack through like I did last week. Gotta start reading up the readings, work on my essays and start jogging more on a regular basis.

Anyway a shoutout to Sherm my bro. Glad ur momma is alrite. Guess it proved to the world that u are definitely a son your parents can be proud of. You have passed the test in a certain way and may Allah smile upon you for your filial act. I am proud of you man! keep up the good work!

Anyway, on a more sombre note. The day came and went in regards to that indian beauty i saw in Soci lect. I only see her for 2 hours every week. How exclusive can it get??? Hahahaha! But she has blown my mind in a way only the mangamma jacques was capable of.... and i don't even know her name... I guess, its just God's way of giving you the little things in life. I know I will probly get to only see them from afar and never get to enjoy their company but its the least i could hope for in a world where you will only being able to get what you deserve. (and only God keeps the accounts)

Anyway, The Prak machine will continue to roll along like the shit mobile from the eddie murphy movie "Metro" ! LoLz!!

P.S. Oh yeah.... I was planning on starting a tabloid called THE PORCH.... inspired by Smallville's THE TORCH. Basically its a 2 page special covering my bro Sherm's everyday scandals (most of them creatively conjured up by my sick and twisted mind) on the front page and a back page containing Faiz's brutal and sordid accounts of his life.... (No creative control required, just a strong set of guts to stomach the stuff I have to report about him).... And a mini section for Tate my chum as well.... for him to exercise his creative control and diss the oil drums and other low-lifes as well..... Dude... You are the Bomb and most definitely the Insult(s) guru amongst us 4...

Peace y'all... T-Dog signing off....

Quote reflecting current mood: "I ain't gonna roll all week in this shit mobile" - Eddie Murphy, Metro.

School week done....

Well the tutorial balloting results have come in. I got most of the classes that I wanted. Not even one tutorial with Sherm, despite us sharing three lectures. I wonder why?

Anyway, history lecture was a blast. Had gek hau as backup. Hardworking and genial fella, easy to work with and dependable. Good to know he is in the same history class as me. Now I just hope some Indian hottie occupy the other tutorials.

*crosses fingers*

Tomorrow, a double lecture session. Hope to make use of the time available during the 4 hr break to catch up on some sociology. Not to mention buying the remaining books as well.
With my school week more or less settled, I will perhaps prepare runs and jogs on the free days. I still have to prepare for the marathon. Maybe gym sessions on Fridays? Who knows?

Lazy Monday.... Again....

Lazy Dayz – Robbie Williams

Been a rather slow Monday. While the rest of the world is out working and having their Monday blues, I lay lazing about at home trying to find some use for myself. After my daily dose of Macgyver, I sat on my couch not knowing what else to do.

Sherm called about the tutorial registration. But it will only start at 3pm later on in the day. So I decided to hit the bed for more snooze time. But sleep did not come again…. The dreams did not resume. Just a blank realization, that I was still awake. If I had woken earlier, I could have gone for a run. But it was too late for that. The sun was too high up, grinning at me with his all too searing rays.

So I decided to raid my fridge for that all too late breakfast. Took some cheese and milk out. Fried a couple of eggs and made egg sandwiches and ate my heart out. Hit the showers and came out and realized my specs were missing. I don’t know where I placed them. In my earlier sleep starved stupor, I was not aware that I had been walking around my house half blind.

It took me a better half of an hour to find my glasses. They were on the couch. Apparently I took them off after Macgyver. Bleargh!

Time check. It was only 1pm.

Felt like complimenting the slow day by watching a slow movie like Sabrina or listening to some Jazz. But it was bright daylight. Not the time for jazz or romantic comedies. Though I could just pull the curtains shut for the desired effect but I decided against it. I did not want unwanted feelings and emotions to arise in me and ruin my day. Wanted to maintain the “Rizzo the Rat” feel for now.

Settled for some Blackadder instead. Laughed my guts out, watching episode after episode. Time passed and my brother was back home. We bantered abit about the football and he was going about packing his stuff for tomorrow’s soccer game. Seeing him go about reminded me about my days in secondary school. The days when I would go about preparing my stuff for the soccer game the next day or packing my bags haphazardly, looking forward to the next school day.

Sigh

The memories. Sometimes you only remember the good and not the bad. But as much as I try, the bad don’t matter actually. It’s the good that counts. They bring a smile to your face. Brightens up a slow day. Calms the nerves… Makes you want to go further….

Started on the tutorial balloting stuff. Took me 5 hours to carefully plan and execute the balloting. Hopefully I get what I asked for.

Mum came home soon after. Had Prata for dinner. Talked to my mum some. Come to think of it, I spent the entire weekend with her. While my dad was working and my bro had NCC commitments. It was fun. Some quality time with momma. Went down to little India with her to do some shopping and to the temple to do some prayers. Ran into some relatives there. More family politics….LOL! It never ends…

Anyway, it’s back to school on Tuesday. Have a history lecture at 4pm. Maybe I will hit the streets for a jog in the morning. Get the system running again. Got a double appointment with johnnie, and hopefully the rest of the gang, this sat, a jog in the morning and a study session in the evening. It will be nice to find a spot where they play jazz. Maybe at compass point down at sengkang? Got to check it out this weekend.

Well that’s all folks from Downtown Hougang! Keep it tuned to the next session….!

A note to faiz's ex...

Well I only realised that dear jacq has left a comment on one of my blogs after entering my previous entry.

After reading it, naturally I felt compelled to rebutt and start a war of words. But I realise that its somewhat pointless. Well dear jacq, like u said, no point in hostility. Matter of fact, you were... correction... ARE right on many accounts. Irregardless of whether u see this or not, i guess i have a duty to oblige and reply to your comment.

Yes, you are right about faiz's neediness. Its his way of being loved. Its subjective to pass views on how to be loved. Frankly my view does coincide with yours. People despite being in a relationship, do need their own time and space. I will be irate if my gal wanted me to accompany her shopping for the upteenth time when the guys ask me out for soccer. Frankly, I do not blame you for the breakup. IF I sounded in anyway hinting that possibility, my apologies then, cuz it aint my intention. Matter of fact, I am glad you guys broke up. Very glad. If anything, the two of you are better off alone then with each other.

Faiz has his faults. And he has a problem accepting them. He's my friend and will be despite his faults. But do not be mistaken that I am his friend and totally unaware of his faults. If anything, I only know it too well. Faiz also does not like people pointing out his faults. I know it too well as well. I was at the recieving end at one point in our history together. So right now, pointing out each other's faults is not going to solve the problem. Fact is the two of you should look at how the 2 of you got together in the first place.

As the older, more mature and independant person of the relationship, I FEEL that you should have been more aware of the situation known as FAIZ. Attractions aside, I guess we are no longer teenie weenies still caught in the throes of puppy love. More than anything, we must be mature enough to use our heads despite our feelings overwhelming us.

When he had abandoned asra for you, you should have had the sense to feel that something is wrong. Asra ain't a bad girl. In fact, she was another who tolerated faiz's nonsense and gotten into trouble herself with her family. I believe you were friends with her for sometime and you should know about her. The warning bells should have rung when faiz pulled the stunt he did. But you happily initiated the relationship with him. I don't want to go into how the relationship started as well.

I don't want to go into all the faults here. Instead reflect on it yourself. My intention is just to let you know that everyone is looking at the breakup but none bothers to look at the start. The problem was not the breakup. Frankly it was long overdue. The problem lay in the start. You did not feel him out before u got into a relationship with him. You happily jumped into the bandwagon not realising the road ahead. Then it all became a matter of finger pointing and fault finding when the endorphins of love at first sight died down.

Think about it. Yeah you are not the only one at fault. Faiz is to blame as well. But I feel that you should have been mature enough to have seen the pits in the first place. And I don't blame you for stealing him away from us at all. More than ever, you have brought him back to us. For that I gotta thank you. You made him wake up his idea to a certain extent. The line had to be drawn somewhere and u did it. Kudos to u!

My conclusion is simple. You should either changed him from the start or not gotten into the relationship at all. Pointing each other's faults after the breakup is not gonna help anyone. Should have done that from the start. Do feel free to correct me if i am wrong.

The ball is in your court.

The Hype and the Pressure

Calm like a bomb - Rage Against the machine

Its barely the first week into NUS. And already I am studying like there's no tomorrow. I mean, I don't think I was even this studious during the As. And I am not the only one neck deep in the books.

I guess the hype has finally gotten to us. The 3 year brain inactivity has been a serious hindrance. And now, looking at the texts, its an uphill task and it threatens to engulf us. Sooner or later, I knew it will pose a problem. But foolishly I did not do anything to prepare for it. And now I am paying the price.

Maybe I am exaggerating alittle. Maybe this time its the pressure. I was talking to Johnathan and he shares the situation as I. Being born into middle class families, with our parents not earning more then 1.5k each, it has always been a financially subsistence level of living for folks like us. And the one thing keeping us going is the hope that one fine day we can make a future for ourselves. And in a situation like singapore, anything below a degree will be not acceptable. Anything lower than a degree and it will be like being like our parents. And all those years spent studying will be wasted.

We have gone too far to slip up. We cannot afford overseas education and being the eldest child in the family, we are also carrying the flag of the family. Groomed by the past to lead the future. Our siblings depend on us. Our parents depend on us. To deliver them. Yeah it sounds like I am some sort of a saviour. But I guess that's what makes me and jonathan such reclusive, cynical and largely practical people. We have no time for romance, no space for slacking and no capacity for deviance. Our childhood made us such.

Sometimes I think about the whole situation and as much I want to settle down in life, I can't. Somehow it's beyond me. There's too much for me to do. And I feel then when it's all over and when the dust settles, nothing will be left for me to settle down with. I have become too independant to share my life with someone. And rightfully so, that I have remained single all my life. God has been ruthlessly kind to me. He did not give me one because HE knows it won't last.

That is why I am workin my guts off these past few days. That is why I have given up on Ling. Yes... its finally over. I have neither strength nor desire to pursue her. I have finally become what I have feared the most. A cold, pragmatic realist. Although moments of my repressed self will kick out in due fashion now and then pronouncing my love for women, it will be just that. Moments. Now i just live with a singular purpose. For myself. To do well in life and to hold my pals close. Cuz when the going gets tuff, all u are left with are your family, ur buddies and most importantly urself.

No modern woman is gonna stick her neck out for a guy when he's down. Gone are the days of "pattanis". Women with character who will stick their necks out for their man. Their breed will die along with our mothers. The last of their kind. Divorce is so common, the value of the divorce papers can easily match up to recycled toilet paper. Idealism is for the weak. Why waste time and effort on someone whom u can lose anytime. Why fight for a woman? Pah... Endless bullshit that clogs our ears like wax.

I guess I am more assured than ever about being a bachelor. Its the wisest choice. The only choice. If there is a chance I could get settled down, then let the woman find me. I am sick and tired of "looking for love". What an idiosyncratic notion!

Back to the issue at hand. I guess the hype and pressure will soon be moulded into constructive energy. Once we put our minds to it we can achieve anything. And right now, its to cross the hurdle successfully.

The Revenge of the Z-Monster

Wake Up - Rage Against The Machine

I don't know what hit me yesterday when I came back home. I don't whether it was the mutton beryani I ate after the ICM lecture I crashed. I don't know whether it was the literature lecture and the 1 book every 2 weeks frequency. Or maybe it was the the whole week itself and the lack of sleep that ensued because of it. Whatever the reasons, be it one or all of them, I tottered back home, ate dinner, chatted with tate online whilst downloading and installing adobe acrobat reader, watched the highlights of the match between Manchester United and Dinamo Bucharest and crashed on my bed.

After 12 hrs, i awoke.

Now I face a predicament. My mum asked me to accompany her to lil india to get some stuff around noon. And she wants me home for the prayers that she will be conducting later in the evening. And there's the Gollie performance in the evening as well. Well whatever it is, family comes first. And I can meet the guys in the afternoon as well. In town perhaps so I can zip back home after that.

I have to say the 12hours sleep had helped me alot. Fridays off is a real payoff when i can actually have a rest day before plunging myself into the books during the weekends as I prepare for next week's tutorials and lectures. Consistency is everything. I cannot afford to slip up. I am beginning my NUS life with average-C standard. I cannot afford to play afool like I did in CJC. Study hard, play hard. Live Life to the fullest. Somehow I feel NUS might come in par with my Gan Eng Seng days as the best years of my life if not better.

I guess, this is as good as a time to make a roughly midterm resolution. Not just to study, but to enjoy myself in the process. I will not be schooling again after NUS. It might be last time that i can be sheltered and protected from the vicious world out there. So yeah, time to get my priorities right, and get down to it!

P.S. Hope my dad can pull off the deal and get the DREAM MACHJINE in 10 days time. Will solve alot of my problems. Not to mention being able to play the Knights of the Old Republic, Neverwinter Nights and Jedi Academy....OOOOHHHH I can't wait!!!


Quote reflecting current mood:
I feel I can take on the whole Empire by myself - Dack Raltar, Empire Strikes Back

The Land of the Frozen Brain

Everybody loves Somebody Sometime - Dean Martin

I am a savage. A savage in the DENSE forests of the lands of the No-brainers. The virgin-brain jungles of NS. And finally, like ENCINO MAN, I have emerged from it all into the bright lights of civilisation. Into.... NUS...

With 3 introductory lectures under my belt and having splurged 60bux on 3 books alone.... I am reeling under the onslaught of the reading material presented to me..... I guess the ladies have the advantage cuz their brains are still configured to the education pattern.... but for us guys.... it will be a uphill battle to get our gear in place.

With all the weighing down and lack of use, i feel i have to doggedly pursue CRAMPED READING methods to fashion my brain back into the "learning" mode. Basically to find the fun in learning. But to find the fun....you have gotta find some proficiency....

I guess i will be bogged down the next few days trying to warm my engine up.... its has been a painful start.... but like the old saying goes.... No Pain. No Gain! And i have got to start cracking.

Moving along, its good to meet the blokes. From CJC and frm camp. Nice to know that without being a publicity crazy attention seeking himbo, i have managed to get a few HIs here and there as I walk around the Arts campus. Nothing irks me more than being alone in some venture. To be able to feel u belong somewhere, you got to know some of the folks around you. Its great having shermann around as i venture along but i know i cannot bother him too much. Sometimes he needs time alone with his peeps... *winks*

Anyway, met this sweet looking tamil chick, the first in this vast desert of dried up indian girls. Have not talked to her yet and there's a thousand and one possibilities that she's either taken or unavailable in every other way. But then again, its just a sight for sore eyes....nothing more....

Next day....Political Science and Lit. And a 5 hrs gap in between.... God help me!

~FaiZ aNd hIz PeRiOd dRaMa LiFe~

Song of dE-dAy: Strangers In the Night - Frank Sinatra!

This entry is dedicated solely to Faiz. I know I have been talking about him in my past few entries in a rather cursory manner, but I think this time he deserves Front Page coverage. Before I begin, a little recap for the folks who do not know about our history together as friends.

I met Faiz in Gan Eng Seng Sec, when we were Secondary 3. We were in the same class. I sat behind Faiz and Shermann sat behind me. At that point, Sherm and I were already good friends. And Faiz was undoubtedly the new addition to our fearsome force of humour and banter. Life was good in Secondary school. I was closer to Faiz. Almost brothers. He would make his way down to my place in Hougang to play Shadows of the Empire and or work on the design and tech folio. And then make his way back home all the way to Clementi at 6pm on Bus 147. And the journey was known as THE JOURNEY because it took 1 and a half hours. Interchange to Interchange.

Things started to deteriorate once Secondary school ended. It somehow synonymously marked the end of the best years of my life yet. The secondary school years. He got his new crew at #starwars and the frequency of phone calls lessened. I needed a reason to call or he was too busy for anything less. Soon the phone calls stopped and the hostility grew. It irked me more when i had to go online for him to tell me stuff. No more phonecalls or sms-es to ask me out or stuff. It was bad.

We started moving away from him. Chewie, shermann and me. It was almost a new life for him. He could not stand my nagging or what not. So I moved away. Hurt and cheated. My brother had thrown me out of his life. He used to tell me what's he's going to do before he did it. But it soon became the situation when i knew of things a few months after it had happened.

Life went on. I only had shermann and chewie to tell my shit to. But no matter what, I could not come myself to hate him. Because I knew he's not innately evil. Simply misguided. Or he's just plain ignorant.

Until recently. When somehow you knew things could not get any worse, "the asra" incident took place. And he got attached to jacq. In a blink of an eye and with no capacity to react and come to any fathomable conclusion, sherm and I were left speechless once again. a phrase aptly decribes the true essence of it all. "Botak has done it Again!"

This time we waited. We had to do something. We knew something wrong was going to happen. Something will come out loose. We knew faiz only too well. So we waited. And it finally did. As sherm predicted, It was another "nette" issue in faiz's life. Our fears were confirmed, and we had to take action. If there was any good time to bring faiz back into the fold, this was it. So we intervened and he grew abit wiser.

But I guess the main news is not what I have said so far. The main news is the rollercoaster ride Sherm and me had last night when were on the phone. We were discussing about something to smile at despite the lack of babes in NUS and other nonsense. That something was faiz making a comeback and finally seeing the light. As soon as that left our mouths, I came across his blog and the appalling thing on it. He went to watch a movie with...."that thing" (prison officer aboard death star in A New Hope, when Han and Luke in stormie gear bringing Chewie in as "prisoner")
And saying that he still harboured feelings for her and was still open to going back to her despite what sherm and I have said!

OH NO! The weight on our minds came bearing down on us. We could almost see tatum smiling crookedly with the look "I told you so, you FOOLS!" Faiz has climbed back up the tree of despair. The bugger was digging his graves again. Although Sherm and I knew that we were still going through probation period, we deemed that the prospects were bright. And somehow we were horribly wrong. We had felt a huge weight off our minds. Now it was back, imposing its heavy weight on us again!

Then we read the next blog that came in. Divine help had come! In the form of Sabrina! If you are reading this Sabrina.... let me say that you are truly God-sent, sent from the heavens above to deliver Faiz to safety. You are truly a Goddess.... I would glady kiss your feet for what you have done. And I am sure I am speaking on Sherm's behalf as well.

What we have failed to instill in faiz for the past years, she has done it in mere days. She has taught him the very things that we had hoped faiz will learn and cultivate. Its almost a miracle. Hell, IT IS a bloody MIRACLE! She's beautiful and brainy to boot! Her comments on her blog and the sense that she makes is truly astounding! Definitely a person, Faiz can hope to grow and learn from. And to think she has been living at the block beside his all his life. Somehow, it seems like God finally opened the doors to Faiz's enlightenment!

Shit! Its almost like the movie Sabrina itself. The watersprout that saved the virgin from a fate far worse than death. And the water sprout's name is Sabrina. And our dear botak is the "virgin". The coincidences and occurences are just too bloody coincidental to be anything less than divine.

Once again, THANK YOU very much Sabrina! You have not only saved Faiz but you have saved us as well. To see him wallow in that rut of his was just too painful for us. Despite being in a rut ourselves, we always had a reason to smile because we knew faiz IS doing well. And you have given us that!

P.S. Botak don't not screw this one up! She's the best thing that has ever happened in your life! But I know you won't! Do us proud! Do the Rogues Proud! R9 out!


Quote reflecting current mood: "How are we doing, Kid?" - Han Solo
"Same as always....." - Luke Skywalker
"That bad huh? " - Han Solo *smirk on his face*