Saturday, March 27, 2004
The lady who played god...
I can't help but be overwhelmed with emotions when I heard about the suicide of the lady, who brought along her two kids. What a tragedy...
This led me to think a little further. Putting myself in her shoes...Learning that I'm down with a terminal illness. Hmmm...In a way, it really does make sense to end your life because you'll save your family a whole lot of money...assuming that after you undergo treatment, you still don't 'make it'.
But the thing that really hits me is the fact that she took her two young and innocent daughters with her. I mean, who are you to play god and decide that your kids should die along with you, so you can take a load of your grief-stricken husband? In fact, won't it make more sense for you to 'leave' behind some part of yourself for the people that you love dearly?...
*Sigh*...It's a weird feeling. Although we're all strangers, my heart really goes out to the family. Let's all keep them in our prayers...
Posted by Jo at 10:11 PM
Monday, March 15, 2004
Thank you God!
For the past few months, I've been having an eye infection. A broken blood vessel which seems to have found a permanent home in my right eye. As a result of that infection, I have been getting occasional headaches. Sometimes, these headaches would get so bad that I would need a painkiller to suppress it.
For the past few weeks, I've been going up for healing during charismatic and nothing seems to be happening. Last Friday, I wasn't sure if I wanted to go for healing. In a certain sense, I guess I was demoralized or felt that maybe God didn't want me to be healed yet. On the other hand, I so badly wanted to be cured and I know that nothing would be impossible for the Divine Healer. Hence, being the faithless person that I am, I decided to ask God for a sign. A very specific sign. I asked God to speak to me through the worship leader, (Coz I knew that Jason has the gift of discernment), and if Jason asked anyone with a headache to go up for healing, I will go.
Well, as you would have guessed by now, Jason said that there's someone who is having migraine problems and it is affecting his/her life. Taking this as a sign (how can it not be!), I stepped up and prayed for healing.
And finally, after months of praying and interceding, God has taken my headache away from me. I know I'm truly healed because when I had a beer on Sat night, I didn't get a headache! Ha...
I guess at the end of the day, what I'm trying to tell you is that God is real. Don't wait until a big trial in your life to believe that.
Posted by Jo at 11:20 AM
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Praying for directions...
In recent weeks, I've been thinking a lot about furthering my studies...But if you know my story, you'd probably think I'm contradicting myself. Well, the reason why I've decided to start working is so that I can help lighten the financial load for my family.
But it seems that no matter how happy I am at work, there's still an empty void waiting to be filled. I guess sometimes, I think I'm too young to start working. Sometimes, I wonder if I made the right choice by going to a poly instead of a JC. Hmmm...But of course, my decisions have been made. Some are good. Some may not look good now. Whatever it is, it's too late to look back. This reminds me of a quote that I heard some time ago - "Decisions can take us out of God's will, but NEVER out of His reach." Boy am I glad to know that whichever path I choose in life, He is always going to be there.
So anyway, I did some research on the different programmes available for me. In order to continue working, I needed to do a part-time degree locally. So far, the one that appeals to me is the Bachelor of Arts in Mass Comm at SIM. The problem that hindered my application was of course, the cash. The fees alone will cost me $13K. That's a considerable amount of money. (Ok, enough of beating around the bush...)
Well, I know that IMH provides scholarship for their staff. The question that I was dying to ask them was how long the bond is going to be. (Because when they pay for your education, they expect something in return. It's like you're selling yourself to them, but legally.) It turns out that if they decide to grant me a scholarship, I'm only required to 'serve' them for one year! Hmmm...When I heard this, I was really relieved because I'll get my education paid for...and the price isn't too high. Ha...
So anyway, I'm still praying about this decision...about whether or not I should apply for this scholarship. And if I do, there's going to be more obstacles to pass. (Permission has to be granted by CEO). Yeap, that's all I have to share for now. Pls continue to keep me in your prayers =)
Posted by Jo at 7:19 PM
Praying for directions...
Posted by Jo at 7:19 PM
