me and job

wow. it s been a veryyy long time this blog has been ignored.
there s a lot of things that i ve been through.
ups and downs definitely, well that s life right.

talking about job, alhamdulillah i love my job and i enjoy working with all my heart.
i enjoy meeting the different kinds of students in different programmes, in different classes and in different places too. they always make my day, through their actions and whatnot. thanks a lot to Papa because he forced me to go to UDM seven years ago. otherwise i ll not be here now. Alhamdulillah for that. many syukur to Allah.

however, being a lecturer is not an easy job like what people always see. there s a lot more to deal with, to do with etc. when you are a lecturer then you know how difficult it is to prepare the test items, how diificult it is to grab big students attention in class; just to teach grammar again which they have been learning that for at least eleven years at school, still they cant afford to master it, how to deal with support staffs and colleagues; the senior lecturers and the same-batch lecturers etc. phewww many many many more of complications in this field. and oh, please dont forget, the burden is bigger when you are an English lecturer or a language lecturer. you have to know how to organize your words properly before you throw them out. and the most important thing is you cant afford to make a single mistake!! in class or outside of the class. people will see, we do not know. ohh dont forget, in this education line u cant run from studying all the time, doing research, read journals and all those kind of things. a lecturer must be knowledgeable too. you cant guess what questions these smart kids will ask in class but u have to answer them all spontaneuosly with the right feedback.

oh dear, after almost two months i ve been in this field, then i start to think whether i am in the right track or not. well, i hope i am and will always be. experienced working in the private company during the intership was a disaster. that s not the company nor the people in there but it s me who do not like that kind of working environment. 9 am-5 pm everyday doing work at your work station like nobody cares. and i cant help myself to counting hours every day to get home and very much looking forward for the weekend.

well, this is life. ups and downs. happy and sad. it s just that you have to be positive all the time because i once tried this to myself. stop complaining things and look at the good sides of it. you ll be happier than you ll think. oh, life is about a learning process too. the process will never stop until you die.

that s all for now. Allah knows when ll be the next write up.. pardon me for that.. not that busy but not that motivated to write anything.

assalamualaikum all. happy fasting. :)

i'm a strong girl.. :)

i have to be strong to face this..

you have to be strong too..

we have to be strong..

there's always a reason for anything..

just put a smile and go on..

patience

patience is virtue

patience is faith

patience is success

patience is victory

patience is priceless

patience is everything

be patient is a key to success in everything you do in life..

working life~

salam and hi to all..

been a long time right?

always like that maaa..hee

well, as the title above, it is not that i am in my new phase of my life..

its just im doing my internship for three months in one of the technology companies in PJ...

but, 

honestly i dont like working..

before this, 

i;ve been dreaming to work in the office, in a company like what in the drama shows..

now, i realize, our life is not as easy as in the drama, 

and not as interesting and sweet just like the drama..

counting weeks, hours and days to say goodbye to this company..

nothing bad about the company..

everything is fine and awesome..

got my own desk, got a notebook, the staffs are friendly and kind, the bosses are good etc..

its just me who dont like in here..

to be honest, 

i prefer going to classes, doing assignments and studying for the exams compared to going to work..

weird huh? well, it is me..

i found this kind of life is a boring one..

wake up early in the morning, going to work, come back at maghrib and sleep and wake up again..

whatever it is, i hope i'm doing well in here..

well, its all about grades yeah.. still student..remember? huu

currently struggling on FYP too..

pray that everything goes smooth and fine as planned.. 

and really hope i can present well at the end of the semester..

 pray for me too, please?

 so scared to go through every day..

till then.. 

bye~

believe in HIM

if we cannot get what we want,

 please make us want what we get,
ya Allah..

we believe in  YOU..

what YOU have planned for us are the best things which we dont know what's the best for us..

there must be something in every single things happened..

thank you ALLAH for guiding us to the right path..

insyaAllah everything will be great in years ahead..amin..

p/s: be grateful in everything you do.. insyaAllah, there's the best way for you..for us..

missing her~

nothing much to be updated..

all i can say are: 

i miss her.. so much..

i miss all of us.. very much..

i miss being together.. always..

i miss talking and sharing things with you..

i miss to have valuable memories with you..

yes, deep inside my heart.. 

i always miss you.. 

and will always be..

for every seconds and moments..

maybe i was wrong..

maybe i was too harsh..

maybe i was not matured..

maybe i was arrogant..

maybe i was stupid..

maybe i was selfish..

maybe i was bad..

maybe everything because of me..

please forgive me..

knowing you was a pleasure..

learned so many things from you..

you will never be erased in my heart..

p/s: i know we'll never be like before.. but, just want you to know. i love you and i miss you. so much. sorry for evertything. and good luck for your future..

 

inner conflict

hello everyone..

its been a while since i didnt post something in here..

so many things to do..

so many things to think of..

so many things happened..

nothing much to say.. 

just peeping into this blog..

well, this year we gonna have the family day: Ibrahim & Sons Family Day which i cant remember the seventh, eighth or ninth..)

it sounds good, as we can meet each other, playing games and enjoying ourselves with all of those fantastic activities plus, the never-fail-to-be-happy during the dinner with the fabulous theme chosen. 

however, 

this year, im not so looking into this family day because i already know the most famous question to be asked to me is about: "when am i going to finish my study", yes, this is so true!

i hate being asked that question because everyone the same age as mine were all successfully graduated..

maybe people out there dont know and dont feel me but i really feel like i am too slow in learning when people keep on asking the same question over and over again, and still, i am not yet graduating..

well, people who graduate late basically is because of they have repeat papers or they are really problematic students.. or, they must be medical students..

but, im not.. i only took english and why cant i graduate early??!! hurmmm

i got many wedding invitations day by day..

 it is not that i really want to get married..

my point is that they graduated early, get the good job therefore they can settle down easily..

even one of my bestfriends is now expecting to have her first child..

 but me?

i dont even finish my bachelor degree.. :'(

 up to now, up to this point, i still be upset and frustrated to myself upon thinking and reminiscing about my spm result..i know, it was 6 years back but still, i cant help it out of my mind..not even a second..

it was so frustrated and regretful not to score during my spm.. i was being left by most of them in Malaysia, doing my diploma in a place which i myself dont know the existance of that instituition (UDM, previously, so called KUSZA) while others start to do their foundation for the degree programme and A-level to go abroad..

but i do believe ALLAH has chosen the best path for me to go..

i just need to follow the correct and right way of going to the end of my life..

 after all,  

i am so grateful with what HE had given to me and i am so blessed with what i had now..

i am writing here not to complaint of anything, i am just pouring what i have in my heart and mind..

i cant wait to graduate as an English for Professional Communication student from UiTM and inshaAllah will further my masters degree soon..

p/s: let us pray for the best as we dont know whats the best for us. inshaAllah everything will be smooth as planned..

eid 2011

salam merdeka raya to all muslims in the world..

alhamdulillah i've been celebrating raya for 23 years with my beloved family..

like all,

raya is celebrated with love and happy as we gathered in the family, meet relatives and friends and oh, relatives-to-be maybe? ;)

nothing much to say..

enjoy the photos below..

*with mummy, and abe*

*abe again with papa*

*awesome cousins*

*yeeppii*

*with anur: model-like pose*

*with abe aka teddy bear*

*with adeq*

*eating when no guests are around*

*guests are eating, mimi is snapping*

*second day in the car*

*raya at hutan rimba?*

*third day: normal pose when nobody wants to snap for me*

*the only picture that i can snap with rizq! i mean the proper one*

*see, he's here!*

*mami n mek look like siblings*

*fourth day: at nabilah's wedding, but no bride and bridegroom*

*again, only us*

*fifth day: waiting for besty to pick up and go for raya, oh rizq is helping to clean up the house!*

okay..

that's it for raya 2011..

i wish i can upload all.. hee ;D

i seek for forgiveness from the bottom of my heart to all of you..

may this syawal brings more lights or 'nur' in our life.. :)

p/s: Rizq was not celebrating first day raya in KB.. :(