My Last Message

Finally, the result had come out.... The end.... she end it... everything will just become memories... We had been together go through for so many things, how I love you so much, I cant lose you... I just want you to be happy... You can say I am stupid, I am annoying, I am irritating, I am old people thinking or I am frustrating you...

Chung Sock Yee,

   I might be no longer will get to contact you like we normally do everyday... I am those bad boys... so you might don't want to contact me too. Okay... since we are no longer will contact each other, we wont be stepping into each other life anymore... I am here to be full honesty.

  Yesterday, yes correct, actually in the morning, I got text ah hou, Ah Hou ask me dont be sad, he said in your heart got 2 people, its not my problem, he said I am so nice... too nice... he said he is in Australia got so many pretty girls and say why I want to worry, ask me to forget you.... he only think about pretty girls only... while I just think that I am unable to forget you... :( There is one genetic disease in me... For some time already... doctor said... according to my report... was in 2008... I'm still look fine... but in anytime years later, I need to be prepared... for the day my body will slowly weak and for sure, I will left the world...

  These are the things I did not tell you Chung Sock Yee, I don't tell you all about these is because I don't want you to feel down... don't want to start a bad topic to say people ask me to leave you.... don't want to make you sad... Chung Sock Yee we are so happy yesterday :) so why would I want to start this topic and spoil our happy day? that is why I delete Ah Hou message... I so love you... everyday I want to find you, I want to keep on text you, disturb you, all my time I spend on you already. Think properly... and you so close to me, you know me... Inside me is only you...

  We are only friends now, my last message to you, I want you to understand, I am already don't have girl friend and I don't want to lose a very close friend, I don't have much close friends... I'm having those burdens, I don't have elder brother or sister... thinking to share my difficulties with best friends... you are so close to me, even you are not girl friend anymore but we had been together, as a very close friends, we talk about our hearts, we know each other attitude...

  As the end, Chung Sock Yee, There is some times in our life we feel so difficult, so hard, we feel like want to express and talk to somebody, a close best friend. You could just call me... I will move forward to my life, I want to earn more money and take care my family since I am the eldest son here... Hey, my very love, Thank you for creating such a happy memories... Scroll back to the posts in my blog, all those sweet, happy, bitter and sad moments. Thanks for being one part of my life during these moments, especially the Taiwan Trip!!

P.S Actually I want to go again with you... dont want to leave you...

By Mick Mee.

The 8 days Husband & Wife

17/7/2012 – 24/7/2012 The First Honeymoon trip – Taiwan

Im back!! But I hate to come back…. The 8 days there was awesome and amazing! I never been so faithful before, being at somewhere which is just two of us, wake up together, wash our face & brush our teeth in front of the mirror laughing at each other haha~, make up & hair styling together, pick each other clothes to wear, go out walking hand by hand sticking together, kissing & hugging, sweating & sticky haha~, having fun going around the world with happy moments & sad moments too… but with all these we had been through makes our relationship stronger! When we are tired and hungry, we search for our food, I search for her way out and back, she search for our clothes to wear ^^

Back to bedroom, we clean up ourselves, get the food we bought together, we lay on our warm bed sharing our food and watch funny TV shows just like those old sweet couples always do~ That moment we hug each other so tight before and after we sleep, I look her in the eyes… I can see we are so happy, so unbelievable faithful-it’s like we are in heaven; where there is no worries, no bad stuffs, playing melodies flows in the air happily flying side by side like angels… (if I mention all the lovely moments, can’t finish typing duh haha)  even though we fights sometimes but they are all small matters because we still love each other so insanely much…

Lao po, I believe that I really love you so much… Sorry my wife, I did make you no confident already… I apologize…  When I come to think properly, during the days we married (8 days), we are just us, on our own, a new family… I feel that you really so love me, we are unable to lose each other… the way you make me happy back and the way I say sorry for you to forgive me but I really changed… I had no longer like last time keep on find things to fight with you and always suspect you why you late reply me and many other suspecting you things… I remember before we go Taiwan, I always fight with you because of all these…  but now Lao po, I forgive you and I put my trust on you, giving you space and understand how you feel. This honeymoon made us more to each other, changed us by all the best moments we had. When I free, I will think back how wonderful is our Taiwan trip~ so sweet~ all those memories are melting me… My God~

That day we fight again because of him AGAIN… I want to apologize that the words I said to hurt you… Mi-an hare… Sorry… I chin cha don’t want to leave you geh… I was too mad and I overact… I’m changing it… I’m really so sorry… But like I said, we don’t know what will happen in future, but as the story I told you, there is still a very long rough road to go my wife, our life is short, we must appreciate what we are and what we have NOW-present-today. Just we have to work hard and don’t give up on each other, appreciate each other NOW and soon the time will suddenly passed and found out that we are really married!!~ ^^ and like you said we can get one MICK ZAI & MICK LUI~ hoho!!

Let us add oil together!!! And I want for another trip!!!! I can’t wait for it~ Faster let us married honeymoon again!!! Hwaiting!!! 

PS. This is our very First and very Best trip/moment we have been together… LOVE~

Always Love

 

Hunny...

I looked at our pictures today...

I found these 2...

Always Love

Sorry...

I'm not in a good mood today...

Coz I guess I had troubled my Hunny today...
I'm sorry, I cant be the 100% Hubby...
I only hoping that the love that I'm giving is enough to make her happy & faithful... 
I miss her...so bad... :'(
always so miss her...
always so love her...

Touching

Taiwan Trip Honey Moon is coming Soon!!!~ arhhh~ I'm so fucking excited :D
Mimi Ssi, this is all I've been waiting patiently.... our honey moon wonderland!!! which just two of us~ Our World ^^

It has been some rough time in our relationship previously as you can look at my older posts....
And that day, I am so TOUCHed..... how can I cant control my raining water fall tears falling through my face that day??? When she said that, she and Dexter is impossible anymore no matter how, she choose to let go and be with me~ It just so not like me... My tears fall down like razor rain outside among the public!! omg and unbelievable so touched...

Hunny~ I wish that for what you said is true and you must do it for us~ I am so in love with you untill I could do anything and give up anything for you. You know it... Today, she honestly tell me that Dexter got find her, at least she honest to me!  Thanks Hunny :) but one thing is... she still using his name as the phone number?!! I really hope that she don't have anything could related to him anymore, she is not his gf or what so ever.... please.... cut or change it once the phone contact expired.... Use own name to register... I really wish for it...

Our Love Moments ^^

 The Cendol is REALLY taste so good, my god..... and Hunny had ate twice hahahaha

 Mimi Ssi!!!~

 Owh~ we love baby so much!! faster get one sin hehehehe

 it is so NICE!!!! she is incredible good in EGGS huh?

 I know, nice body right :) concentrating on cooking...

 Sudah Hangus.... lol wtf

Welcome Home Miss DHC Penguin!~

Our Fightssssss

Hunny....

we fight again....

coz of him also again...

I said I let you contact to him but let me know everything about u both contact immediately...

inside my heart, I never wish to both of you contact

Wifey...

I want this to be an end...

end of our fight coz everytime we fight also cause by him...

Beloved...

we are so happy~

all the non-stop never ends faithfulness we together~

I'm so happy you still my wife and come back to me everytime!

words cant explain how much I love you~

Don't be sad or afraid,

now we are couple already wifey~

lay on my shoulder when you tired and cry

I'll sing songs and give you my love

cheering you up

Just to let you know

I'm your Hubby who love you till the world ends...

Together

 

Awww~~ they are just so CUTE!!! :)

Shit... I started to love babies now,

all because infected by that very chi sin gou shao =.=''

when she sent this to me, I feel like....

wana marry and faster make a baby with her! lol wtf

But before we get one(baby), we need to promise each other

for Forever Love.

Holding each other side by side,

walking down the hard road but never loses our hands.

then....

I want a son and a daughter!!! hehe

 My wifey~ :)

My love

My alien

My Mimi ssi

 My shining star

My heart

My Everything!

One word representing us - Together ^^

Ba Ba Ba Ba BAnana~ Potatoooohhh~

I look on to search any 3D animation movies trailer show 

which is coming up next/soon and I found back to 

THIS!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

so cute!!! and funny!!!

it was once I posted on SY's FB wall

and we laugh wahahahaha
then I keep on repeat and laugh
repeat and laugh
*Funny Happy moments*

:D

My thirst

What is my thirst?

I don't thirst for water if I am a human,

I don't even thirst for blood if I am a vampire;

I'm only thirst for your love,

kisses and hugs,

all the funny, happy

and faithful moments...

They all are the reason that I'm still here...

Unknown

Who to listen to?

increasing her breathe gesture "I don't know..." so again I asked "Is it so hard to answer? Don't worry... I won't eat you hahahaha" she laughed and the smile is always so lovely... "Come, let me answer for you" I lower down my shoulder, closed my eyes and gentle-ly moving my face towards her.... a kiss!

Sarang hae I Love You - I said it with the way it is suppose to be, an action can represent a thousand words. Baby, I really so in love with you... please don't... don't leave me alone :'( 

I wanted to plant a tree inside you,

Love Tree...

SYEE to MMEE

You are silly, immature, inconvenient with Reptiles, 

always hide own feelings and always made rough decisions;

So that I could spend my life taking care of you,

be your light in the darkness and shine on you~

Lecture for Pabo

But still the same dear~ I won't give up on us~ Giving you all my love~ I'm still looking up! All these because I love you honey, not just some words saying it but my heart telling me to do it.

Love Rain OST

Drizzle drizzle, the sound of the rain

Rub dub rub dub, my trembling heart

Drizzle drizzle, rub dub rub dub

The sound on the umbrella, the sound of the rain, the sound of my heart

Love rain is falling

Special 10th

10th of March

10th of April

10th of May

3 months special day

I found out that I might met a new family member hehe in simple words, I love her and I wana share our life and cards together as a family. Its just the matter of the time, will ask her when the time comes, are you willing to show your life to me? I already given you all my secrets away :)

My Medicine

Looks like I just can't 

S_rvive

Without U!

Melaka Trip 21/05/2012

Many sweet photos :D

Random EMO lol wtf

I don't want to be alone... :'(

The 10% left in the world

Like I said, I will patiently wait for you~ All because I love you... Make me your everything, make me that you cant lose me like I always do :) 

Honey, for now I'll love you no matter how pain is it for me, I'll still make you smile either Im happy or sad... So please, don't disappoint me again... love me as much as I love you is just enough for me already :)

Looking back Fighting big boss time

I don't want our relation to be spoiled... Don't disappoint me and I don't want to lose hope on you... Stay with me honey all the time, I don't know what is Tired to by keep on giving you my love. Like I said sweetie. I can't write S_rvive without U!~

Proud of S.Y

Dont cha worry, I'll always charge you when you need me; Be strong!

Lastly and all the time, I'll always say

Hwaiting~! ^^ Trust me!

It ran away?

I found myself can't live without you... when my soul gone, call it back to you again, then I'll come back to your side honey and say 'I'm home baby~' because you are the most important in my life :) I wana hold you closer now I love you.... 

Sooooo High(Hai)!~

To the very chi sin gou shao

We are so crazy~ can't control ourselves at PAtato restaurant hahahahahaha omg think of it, I never been so happening :D 

P.S As you can see, I am only high-lighted all the posts with those words from my heart and I'm still doing all of them till now... Today...I read and seeing all our memories that I had in my world here with her... So great! ^^ 15 posts till today not included this one, haha can't imagine we been through so much man!!

Actually she lied to me again and stay at Dexter home last night... I'm in pain.... I'm so lost now... We gonna talk about this soon, expecting for it... now? remaining unknown...

Sooooo High(Hai)!~

I feel sooooooo high (hai) hahahaha wtf...

To the very chi sin gou shao,

okay, I am a sohai wtf I keep on want to make you mad and wana see you care about me and hit me like a hundreds slaps(ding dong+gu chik) haha~

I know you don't like me go CC and I keep on telling you I go just to make some fun but ending up you feel sad and disappoint... chong mal pabo~

Oi, very chi sin gou shao, I don't like go CC geh la, my hobby is badminton, you should know I am not good in computer/video games... don't laugh me okay? I am not that (noob)!!

okay, I am so high wtf Coz you still continue give me hope~ Thanks and you are very chin sin, I can sure of that hahahaha I'm glad and I too stupid to act. Now I know it and I won't do this same matter again.

We are so crazy~ can't control ourselves at PAtato restaurant hahahahahaha omg think of it, I never been so happening :D

(Actually this post was suppose have conclusion but I can't think of it now, will update it when it comes to my mind :P)

It ran away?

I don't know... why and what was I doing last night... I am totally out of myself, I'm not me. I don't like run away from love and I hate killing love...

I don't know... where my soul going and gone last night, wake up today I found back myself full of regret... bloody tears dropping  out of my heart...

I don't know... when will this happened again... I'm so scare :'( it just driving me crazy and nightmares fearing me...

I'm sorry my dear SY... I'm so wrong... I'm apologize that I am not a mr. perfect while I'm trying my best to be... when my soul ran away, I'm lost... I need you... can you give me love and bring back myself ... bring back your hubby? Scold me and control me or may be you can shake me to wake me up haha wtf

I found myself can't live without you... when my soul gone, call it back to you again, then I'll come back to your side honey and say 'I'm home baby~' because you are the most important in my life :) I wana hold you closer now I love you....

Baby, your heart and love is my home! ^^

Look, so funny that we are so sweet~
when we are giving each other love~ <3

Proud of S.Y

After my previous post, sy came~ 

she looks fed-up today... but I did cheer her up :)

We talked and we miss each other so much,

we are unable to leave each other :(

but Im proud~

proud that she feel the same as me too!

Baby, I love who you are today,

Chin Cha!!

Thanks for the improvement you've made,

Thanks for becoming mature & changing for me,

Thanks for loving me... 

Love rain falls again tonight and links our hearts together :D

PS. Dont cha worry, I'll always charge you when you need me; Be strong!

Lastly and all the time, I'll always say

Hwaiting~! ^^ Trust me!

Looking back fighting Big Boss time

Last night, the night she get her new car which I'm not agree with and trying to accept it; the night she hugging me and tell me that she want to listen to me and said she changed a lot for me- yes my dear, you did changed for me :) I feel relief and a bit more save to hear that haha; the night that made today recalling most of our memories....  Reason is last night I made her phone lost all data and sending her our pictures today, Sweet & Bitter; Laugh & Mourn; Faithfulness & False-hearted; Trust & Lies; Smile & Cry; Love is like rain - There is Happiness & Sadness.

Doubting me but I only sending her Happiness memories today, never mention the sadness.... I will giving her only all my love while those bad stuffs will be her lessons to love me and keep it on my own just like the pimples scars on my face... countless dots, pain one by one... only she will know which cleanser to clean my face, pimples remover to kill my pain, mask to protect my skin and spot correcter to clear the scars away and then I'll be an shining adorable guy with Millions of happiness. By the time then, I never gonna feel sad anymore~

Looking back at time, a lot of problems are causing from her personality, she is immature, wild and unstable. She still not happens to think wisely that what action/decision she take will cause what consequences... She likes to have too many fun around her and she never has a true direction by simply changing decisions whatever comes to her mind. I am not complaining here, just all these will cause her hard to get a great stable life, may be she still young and fresh! ( that's what I always keep in my mind) So, just stay with me no matter its how hard or difficult time baby, share with me, I am and always your many characters (Mr. Rainbow - Color up ur life) (Personal Superman - Protecting you) (Love Gardener - Giving you sweet love) (Lulu ssi - Your soul-mate life companion) (Little devil - Spoil the world just to get my alien) and many more haha Guess I might qualified to be a Marveral Superhero then lol wtf...

There is one more thing that still stings my heart when I look in past, Dexter. A guy who has the heart to penetrate me, willing to humiliate me in front of her just to get her back, taking action like sending message to break us without her consideration. I wanted to hate him but... this is not me; I'm unable to/easy to hate a person, he is trying to get what he want too but he doesn't really love her but only spoiling her, yea love her $. Forget about him.... meanwhile she still stupid that having the intention to contact with him... sad... stings! Pain :(
Should know that he is spoiling our both lives here... Don't said that he called and you should answer the call, there is always a choice, you can choose to ignore the call by letting him to lose hope contacting you my dear...Should understand that so many pain he had cause on me and the worse is on you, he never give you love okay? I can be sure of that!You can feel that I am now giving you true love right?

PS. I don't want our relation to be spoiled... Don't disappoint me and I don't want to lose hope on you... Stay with me honey all the time, I don't know what is Tired to by keep on giving you my love. Like I said sweetie. I can't write S_rvive without U!~

The 10% left in the world

Hello bloggie, guess what?! Im sitting on the double seat wooden chair in front of my sweet home holding my lappy and start blogging at this midnight(after I forget to take my jacket out from car lol wtf)... I have been talking to you my blog recently lol because I wasn't had the time to blog and now I have the reasons to do so. I have to time now and she is the reason I have been blogging. Im now expressing my feelings here and to let her know how I feel too.

The 10% out of 100%, a very minor percentage and rare... 1 out of 10 in this world like me, giving all my heart out to somebody. Most of the people in this realistic world are no longer giving all his/her heart out to somebody. I can tell now she havent become the 10% yet. But I am now.... because Im doing everything for her, I spend my life time every moment thinking of her, caring her everything around her, giving all my love to her just to make her life better, I love her more than loving myself now... If she has become the 10%, I do not need to inform her that I'm writing everything here while she will intend to open my blog and reading this right now just to know how I feel, care about me and my life here and thinking of me every moment...

Today I'm kinda disappoint actually that she hiding things from me again while she promised me she wont do it anymore last time... Till yesterday, she still not putting me as the most important in life... so sad... But tonight she actually did tell me the truth ady~ about things that I really so scare and care~ at least she made an improvement!! A surprise for doing what I always wanted her to be, honest and no hiding things/secrets, Keep it up baby!! Like I said, I will patiently wait for you~ All because I love you... Make me your everything, make me that you cant lose me like I always do :)

The ring that wrap around our fingers show that we are together, loving each other and expecting for forever love!~ Honey, for now I'll love you no matter how pain is it for me, I'll still make you smile either Im happy or sad... So please, don't  disappoint me again... love me as much as I love you is just enough for me already :) Let us be the 10% left in the world and show the world we are the proud one to love!

 A Thousand Years

The another unforgettable night

When this song plays

When I kneel down and say

Love me my dear~

For a thousand years

Random EMO lol wtf

Just a random post

Random thoughts,

randomly thinking of rubbish,

 having random mood now...

I am so free now because

I finished my job for today lol wtf.

Sometimes, I think a lot...

Sometimes, I just don't care...

I rather think a lot because I don't want to stop

Don't want to pause and stare

Coz the time never gonna stop/pause

The world is not gonna end yet!

that's why I think a lot...

Sorry if someone out there found me annoying

This is what I am and I need somebody

Somebody who can stay beside me

calm me down, rest my mind

and let me know that I shouldn't stress up my mind too much

so that I can relax a bit and show me that I'm not alone...

I don't want to be alone... :'(

Melaka Trip 21/05/2012