today on mc again, my stomach was very pain this whole morning..
and when i was feeling very cold cos the air-con is blasting.
im sweating due to the pain..

anyway, last week had a fun time..
last thur, met my biao jies for dinner and then they came over to pick up the scrap book.
from sandy expressions, i believe she likes the book.
and she jio fp & me go bintan..
it will be good if we can go holiday again...haha...

then fri, went kbox-ing w my colleagues.
but we kind of make the kbox seems like phuture..
haha.. we just want to lighten the atmosphere really..
then we went supper, followed by clubbing..
initially, we want to go butter factory de but i didnt know the shifted so we stupidly went to the old location only to realize they have shifted!!???!! OMG..
we walked quite a distance wor.
we had no choice but to proceed to dbl O..
i dont like the place, really...

i went back ard 3plus thinking that the next day i still want to cycle..
BUT it rained and we have to cancel our plan..
HOW SAD..
its so impossible for us to have arrange a cycling date de..
so angry..
in e end, just went out for lunch w sandy..
then in e evening, went shopping @ 313.
im waiting for e forever 21 to open!!
@ night, went clubbing w lin, ying and irene (lin's fren) MY GOD!!!???!!
i cant remember when is the last time we clubbed tgt..
we even discuss our past on our way to phuture..
and we actually danced till it closed, my god..
it has been the longest time since we do that.
i just miss having fun with the girls..
it will be great if the rest can be there too!!

Saw min's entry about looking at our past posts.
i spend hrs reading my 351posts.
i started this blog during 2005, my poly Y2.
i realize i really grow up le.
suddenly, i feel so happy.
for all my pasts.
for all the small dreams that i used to have,
i really changed so much during these 4 years.
one thing that didnt change is the love that i have for my family and friends.
REALLY..
i realize i post so many things abt my friends in the past,
how much i love them etc.
i realize i share so many dreams that i have with my family,
and getting each one fulfilled slowly.
i appreciate each and every one of your presence..
really..

this blog is so important to me.
today when i read back, then i know what kind of life do i lead in the past.

I dont have the right to even say what i want or dont want.
**** sucks
ME = NOTHING
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after a long chat with min and ying, i feel so happy.
cos being friends for more than 10years,
they are really the ones who understand me.
they know why am i doing things this way.
they know how i feel towards certain things.
most importantly, they wun ask me stupid and silly questions.

i really hate to explain myself to those who dun ustand.
especially to those who think they know.

Min, jia you!
I dont know what should i say,
but i really hope you can overcome all the obstacles infront of you!!!
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Lin, put all the past behind you!
Whats important is the future that is right infront of you now!!!
All the best to you!!!
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I really hate my current lifestyle.
And I feel so suffocated now.
Right now, all i need is some courage to make a decision to change my life.
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There is so much that I want to say.
but i dont know how should i pen down.
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I need a break badly,
how i wish my 11days can be extended up till 30days or even forever.
I need a reason to be there, as long as I want.
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I really miss all my friends...
I really miss the times when we always spent time tgt...
I really miss the times when we dont have to worry about so many things...
Can we dont grow up?
I realize I am losing at the same time when I am gaining...
But it seems that I lost much more...
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I really HATE TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!!