[---~*My Perfect Love*~---]

Monday, June 26, 2006

{*2323*}

today, both of my colleagues are on leave. i am the only one doing repair. even though i did not do much but at least i tried to clear 3 devices. i hope that may be tml will be a better day as i want to do more repairs. i shall start on my monitor tomorrow. is there any nice shows on tv tmr? i am deprive from having enuff of sleeps. went to malaysia yesterday. it was great in terms of the foods. may be i am a food lover. you can tell by my size. haha. not much thing to blog lately. i do not know why. i have a friend who sms me while he is in camp. haha. i am sure that he is so bored in camp. boredom really lingers in him. However, i find it sweet as at least he knows my existence as a friend. i have a craving for pasta again. i love pasta mania's al funghi. the mushroom with garlic cream sauce on a warm and well cooked linguinie. yummy. i can eat a lot of that yet will not get sick of it.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 9:47 PM

Monday, June 19, 2006

{*mi*}

start to listening to zhou jie lun's songs. dun know why i start to listen to his songs. May be each songs has special meaning to me. I feel that i am being more and more sensitive lately. He asked me whether i want to watch movie just my luck and if i do, i could go to suntec to watch with him and his sisters. Does he mean it or treating me as a very good friend?

He called this morning asking me whether i am stuck somewhere as i still haven't reached workplace at my usual time. does it mean he care? i dun know why. i always have a smile on my face when i am with him. a smile that i dun really have ever since edric broke up with me.

i have to start reading and understand my service manuals. haha. i want to get distinction for iap. crossing my fingers.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 11:31 PM

Saturday, June 17, 2006

{*haiz*}

it is another weekend again. it seems like such a boring cycle that keeps coming. i just deleted 20 pics accidentally. haha. i dun really care but have to let my friends know that i accidentally delete the pics. They seems like memories or people as once you lost them, you may lost them forever without knowing it. however, those pics that i deleted most of them are pics with my friends. Sorry guys that i deleted the pics. Next time we go balcony again to enjoy the ambience.

Now, i dun really care whether you are a smoker or not as liking someone means that you have to accept the strong personality and also all of the flaws. i know that i am not perfect so why i try to make someone to be perfect. accepting flaws seems to be the toughest barrier that couple will try to cross over. ThinGs may not seems wonderful but trying to like someone wholeheartedly is something that give you a sense of comfort or secure.

Had a drink with derong and my usual batch of friends. It is nice catching up with deron as we have not tok to each other face to face for more than 2 years. Seeing him again makes me feel that he has become cuter and taller. i always tot that he has the same height as me. did not know that he has smoking habit but dun really mind as he is wonderful guy who is a few times better than some guys who i know. During the days in NS, he become a more disciplined and a great gentleman, i really hope that i can have some time hang out with him. just let nature takes its course for this friendship to become best of friends.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 1:11 AM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

{*tired every night*}

So fast that i am at alexandra hospital for 3 months. i am going to miss the days working there. will my life no longer be the same after this attachment? I always fell asleep on my couch as soon as i sat on it. Nowadays, i started to finish my daily report at my workplace so do not really have to worry about any assignment to do.

Nick who like me for 5 yrs is about to go to aussie to further his gaming career. he asked Me out for a friend out gathering. should i go?

I start to realise that i start to like guys who i feel comfortable and have a lot of laughters with, respect me and give me the freedom that i want. I used to like guys solely on how they look. i felt stupid as i know looks will fades off one day.

i got approached by a modelling agency located at taka tower A. i doubt what the guy says as i do not have the model qualities. my weight is like a lot heavier than theirs and i am not pretty at all. i just think they want to con my money. haha.

i had a weird dream last night. dreamt of a lot of people including shan and bing hong. haha. i am a weird person with a weird dream.

It is the first time saying that i have puffy eyes yet i am still quite pretty. is it true from your heart or you saying it to comfort me? i have so much laughter with him. when i am quiet, he will like tried to make me laugh like doing silly stuffs. he is childish at times but i really dun mind. it just become so not me. he was like don't don't tok to Me which means tok to me. do i really start to like older guys instead of guys around my age?

Having attachment really indeed change my prospects of life. totally changed everything that i used to see the world. i am not sure whether i have changed for the good or bad. i know that i pretty like the new Me. living life to the fullest with laughter and happiness that i can't find easily. i will treasure it more than anything else.

i just found out that you will gain muscles while working in alexandra hospital. i have 2 xiao lao shu around my arm. haha. quite scary as it used to be flabby. haha. even though there are some conflicts at my workplace that i did not mention in my report as i am not suppose to do. people leave the place becos of these conflicts yet the person did not know about it.

i think i shall write until here for now since i am like so tired. haha. should i wait for him to confess to me or ask him whether he has feelings for me ? i think may be should let everything fits in real right.

i am happy that people beside has found their happiness. Wei zhong still calls me. i am not sure what he wants from me. i know he just want to be friends but i can only sms him as i dun really tok to guy friends on the phone unless they are like very close to me. i just feel that he wants more than i can give to him.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 10:55 PM