[---~*My Perfect Love*~---]

Friday, August 26, 2005

{*listening to pan wei bo*}

finally able to take some of time to blog about things happened to me recently. unable to sleep well lately. rushing for my programming project( even though it is completed, the problems will arise when i run it). finished my report but i still left with MI report to do. thankfully, the deadline is on next thurs. exams are coming and having CMB test on the same time with the MI report. lotsa of things to do with such a short time. thinking of taking the summer school to exempt 1 module so that next semester i will not be so stress with the number of modules. i rather study instead of wasting time at home rotting. i hope that i am able to have time to go out though. haha. hmmmmm. i hope that i can have lotsa of time to do my own things. my CMB teacher keep telling us the main purpose for human is like having sex. diao. i dun think so. haha. i think it is like not necessary to do so as life is full of everything besides that. it gives you the feelings that you never feel before and friends who you will want to know and understand.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 3:16 PM

Sunday, August 21, 2005

{*thinking of someone who is no longer there*}

finished my projects and left with the report to do. going to study later for my upcoming maths test. waiting for my bro to wake up for dinner as he is snoring away on his nice bed. i just woke up too. pretty tired lately. finally get some rest after so long as pretty busy with my projects especially programming project (a real killer). 3 more weeks to examination. i think i better start studying. haha as i am aiming to get good grades. haha. going to start working when holidaes start. have to earn some money to buy presents for the guys. haha.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 6:05 PM

Friday, August 19, 2005

{*2 more weeks*}

i still left 2 more projects. haiz. both of them are like half done. haha. have to write reports for both projects. going to finish my projects and forget abt unable to hand in work by the deadlines. stress. lacking of slp lately. haiz. may be i should slp early todae onwards. haha.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 12:22 AM

Monday, August 15, 2005

{*this is monday*}

have been doing programming for the last 2 months. so totally sick of it. now, i am going to finish it asap. after my semester ends, i am able to delete pp2 website as i no longer have to touch programming. haha. free from chor pee's evil claws finally. haha. feelings are just temporarily satisfaction for people. i just too used to the life that i had for the past 4 yrs. a life that i am so used to everything we had done. those sweet memories are able to keep me smiling everytime i told someone about it. may be those are the memories that i am always chasing for. if you are my prince, you will come to me no matter how long the time that i have to wait for you as eventually you will be mine as time comes by. i have to wait silently in a pit of darkness that no one is able to find me. only you are able to pull me out from darkness and let me know that my life is able to be filled with colours that i have not seen before. i am still waiting for him. it is never too late to realise something that it is so important to you. as long you are able to realise what means so important than never realise it at all. i am still looking for someone who is able to share the slice of tiramisu with me until we grow old, able to look at me and tell me that i am always pretty when i am in my mid sixties, telling me that i am the most wonderful person happen in his life. may be this type of person onli exists in my fantasy. no use of keep thinking of the past when i can no longer going back to them. saying it is a lot easier than doing it.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 2:37 PM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

{**}

this is a song that realie describe how i felt sometimes no matter wat situation i am .
programming project is driving me up to the wall. i think i better go and borrow the programming book from queenstown library and may be going to ask my uncle to help me as if i am not wrong, he has studied c ++ programming before. everything in the past is already gone. they are just history about part of my life. when it ends, there will be a drastic change in him like the way he treat me and tok to me. gers may be foolishly hoping for something to remain the same in their lives. hoping that miracle will able to happen no matter where they are. why life is so unfair to me? the person who i like did not know that i like him and i feel that we are so impossible together. the person who i dun like willing to go such long miles for me and doing everything that he thinks it is best for me. things that he has done is like no man is able to do such things for me but it will not change the way i felt for him. the way i felt for him is like a friend who is always trying to be there for me. ppl may sae i have a heart of stone or wat as i am not at least touched by the things he done. i dun noe wat am i going to do with my heart. may be i should write songs abt the way i felt at that moment instead of keep asking why and wat i should i do.

http://www.lyricsbox.com/ronan-keating-lyrics-the-long-goodbye-2lh3f1p.html

*Kissed My Love* @ | 1:12 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

{*one more dae*}

this will be my 99 posts. i did not know that i blog so much. thinking of the things that i wrote so far. about to finished the pp2 project still need to do quite a number of changes then i can rest my case on pp2. dun listen to wat ppl sae. haha. no matter how many ppl told you that you are not meant for this person, before accepting wat they sae, think first. as it may not be the same to you. to you, you may think that he/she is a world to you. a world brings wonderful things to you and no pain. i am so into poems lately. dun noe why. i love poems that tell me what life is. thinking that i may be going to melbourne to study if i did not make it into the uni. moving to a foreign place to escape from the past that i trying to forget. i will miss a lot of ppl but i will do wat's best for me in life now. finishing my work and studied pretty hard for the tests. i got back my aem paper last nite. i got 83. i was surprised as i did not expected that i able to do so well. it shows hard work realie pays off. going to meet chor pee on thurs to ask him to give me his comments on my project. haiz. i still have 1.5 yrs more to go in completing my poly life. it is like so fast. haha. then graduation nite comes. haha. can't wait for everyone to reached 21 as we are getting older. haha.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 2:53 PM

Sunday, August 07, 2005

{**}

these are ppl who change my life at this instant. haha. i feel happy sia

*Kissed My Love* @ | 1:24 AM

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*Kissed My Love* @ | 1:13 AM

Thursday, August 04, 2005

{*another dae of school*}

i got back my CMB test todae. i just able to get A. a borderline case. haiz. hoping for a mark that is like slightly more than 80. haha as usually test is easier than the examinations. got three A and a C. it realie looks like my PSLE results. thinking of my past. it is like so many things happened in my life. however, i only remember a few of them may be becos of my brains onli remember selective few moments in my life. i am 18 yet i feel so old. haha. charlie and the chocolate factory is out todae. i am so going to watch it no matter wat. tmr going to wear a long skirt. hmmmm. imagine that i will see a lot of unexpected expressions on each of my coursemates' faces. haha.

i believe that no matter how strong you are or try to be, you will still be emotional for a moment as no one is made of metal. i think that the heart is always the one who let people to feel the emotions that they never felt before so they are scared in a way to show it due to uncertainty of the things happened to them in a short period of time. i just finished like 1/8 of my project. haha. finally able to know how to ask the user to input the data in. haha. still trying to find a way for the displaying of the informations. lot of projects are here. i am so dead. i felt so emotional lately as i did not know who to speak to and friends that once like each other unable to be friends again as we are unable to cross back over to the friendship.

sometimes, i really wonder how a person will know that there is someone who likes you??? is it when your heart skips a beat everytime he/she walk pass you? is it becos you hoping to see the person everydae and awaiting for his/her presence? is it when you look at his/her eyes and you are able to see your future with him/her? there is so many questions not yet to be answered. who is able to answer these questions of mine? will that person ever come across my life or i had just miss him out for a very long yet i did not realise his presence? will he ever come back to me and i will not miss him out once again? i believe that love is something that is so simple that two complicating people making it too complicated that they think love is something to be avoided at this point of time. love is so difficult to find so for those who found people who love you for who you are , please treasure them as you will regret when he/ her is gone if you did not cherish them as they should deserved to be treated.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 12:18 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

{**}

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I’d still feel for you
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all I need, my love
My Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You’ve opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly
I’ve dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn’t love you more
I will give you my heartUntil the end of time
You’re all I need, my love
My Valentine

(piano solo)

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You’re all I need, my love
My Valentine

*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:55 PM

{*thinking of the past that haunts me*}

i onli left with 2 weeks more to complete my IS project, 3 weeks more to demostrate my MI mini project and 4 more weeks to hand in my PP2 project. so many deadlines within so little time. going to be stress to death soon. until now, i dun realie noe how to do my pp2 project so dead meat. there are so many things to do in my life that i tend not to bother anything except work. i hope my dear friend will be alrite. haha. sometimes life is pretty unfair but you have to remember that you have friends beside you to cheer you on for a long run. they will always there for you. if friends who are avoid you when you need them or after your fresh greens (money), they are realie not worth being your friends and you should not be friend with such ppl as to them, they onli care abt themselves and money.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 4:31 PM