[---~*My Perfect Love*~---]

Friday, July 30, 2004

{*hihi babie*}

this week pass so fast. it is feels like yesterdae was mondae. i borrowed this book from school library. i read until like half of the book. suddenly i find out that the book is like having ten pages gone so i return the book todae after knowing it. it shows that the school library is pretty lousy though. the book i borrowed it's pretty touching as it is abt this couple knowing each other in the carnival(the guy call noah and the gal call allie). they onli spend like a summer together. they were separated by the gal's parents as he is poor. they were like separated away for 14 yrs. during this period of time, noahcould not forget abt allie and he took every single word that she sae in that summer. he bought a house and decorated as wat allie wish for. when she returned, she saw the house look actually like the one that she hope for. she was engaged when she went to look for noah . after such a long period of time, allie also could not forget abt the guy. she was engaged to the lawyer who she admired. when she spend a few daes with him in New Bern, she feels that her love for noah was coming back especially when she saw her painting that she gave him 14 yrs ago hanging on the wall of the living room. the book tells mi that this love seems like so unbreakable even they are separated for 14 yrs.

seriously i dun believe in being together for several lifetimes as when a person is reborn, they won't even remember the promises that they made in their past lives. for mi, i onli hope that i am able to spend a lifetime with him that's all. a lifetime in a simple way. i dun mind being with him and helping him out in a farm. tell you guys the truth, i realie want to have a simple life when i retired. i will have a house which its surroundings are quiet and there is a lake near the house. having a few horses and dogs. i just want to see the su set and rise each dae. i dun noe why as i realie like the peacful scenes of nature. my children will vist mi with my grandchildren once a week. that's the way i want to live.

i used to let ppl plan everything for mi and i just do wat they sae. Now, i realie want to make my own decision as i dun want ppl to tell mi that you can not do this or that. it is like they controlling my life. i am born for myself to make my own life decisions and i shall take responsible on the things i do or sae. i realie dun want a person to tell mi whether the person is good or bad before i even know that person.

ever since i was a kid, my life is like all abt the crazy stuffs i do. i remember the times that i spend with my friends toking abt guys who we think are so hot. as the yrs passed by, the things we tok starts to become "not abt guys anymore". he tok lost of crap but i pretty enjoy toking crap as that's the way of life. the life that is all abt adventures and tons of things that i to prove ppl that they are wrong abt mi. i realie want to show them that this is michelle. the gal who is able to make herself proud. my love life is like such a long time to some ppl as it just outlast their relationship. they always think that we are the perfect couple. a couple who dun quarrel. seriously, we do quarrel sometimes over small things. we apologised when we noe that we did something wrong to the other person. we are perfect to you guys but for both of us, we are perfect for each other. i love my life and those ppl who have came into my life.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 8:21 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

{*OmG*}

It is like two more weeks to my holidays which is only a week but it is better than nothing at all. hehe. able to relax and sleep late haha. So far my studies is like pretty alrite as i am able to cope with it rite now. hehe. tell you guys the truth. i am NOT in JC but it DOESN'T mean that i dun noe the amount of stress that you guys (ppl in jc) are having. Do you guys realie think that poly is like so slacking? it is like the lecturers and tutors just throw you tons of informations to you and assume that you will noe everything that they are teaching abt. they assume that you are able to cope with the amt of informations that they give you. It is like so damn annoying. working this saturdae. Gwenie baby, i am so sorrie that i can not accompany you on this sat but i can celebrate your birthdae on the actual dae and give you a big surprise :P. hehe.

you have your friends and i have my friends so let's enjoy times with our friends.

i am like so confused as this guy called Nick tells mi that how much he likes mi just a few days ago. then i ask him wat is the real meaning abt love. he told mi that love is something so powerful between two ppl being together and even they are in war, they spend the days together in a peaceful way. the funny thing is that i kinda agreed with him on his meaning of love. the few moments that i feel that i am being loved is when my baby cousin run to mi, hug mi and kiss mi on the cheek, when my bro tell mi that everything is alrite during my grandparents' funeral , when edric kiss mi on my forehead and gwen tell mi that she loves mi as a friend. i am so happy that i have some people out there who will always reach out for mi no matter wat.
i think no one realie noe real meaning of love. as different ppl has different type of ways that they show their concern to their loved ones. i am happy what i have noe. i realie realie tresure every memories that i have for past 17 yrs as those memories have made a huge impact on mi. they have made the person who i am now. the real michelle in mi. i am grateful that they bring out the best of mi. i realie dun noe how i am going to tell nick that i dun like him. i just want to be friends with him as i realie tresure the friendship that we had for the past 2 yrs.

the years has passed so fast as i am like 17 yrs old now. i am like four years away from my adulthood. seriously i dun noe wat i am going to do abt my life when i reached that age. i realie dun want guys who dun realie noe mi and tell mi that i am pretty or beautiful. i just dun like it. i noe that i am not beautiful so pls dun sae i am when you dun mean it. you dun noe that you may hurt a person like this easily. i want to get married with a guy (DEFINITELY!). A guy who is always there for mi no matter where i am. a guy who able to hold my hand until the dae i die. A father who is responsible with his children's behaviour. A father who always be there for his children since they are born. that's the man who i realie want to get married with. i marry with a guy is not because he is handsome or rich. it's because that we share something in common. the common thing is that we have this pure love for each other. A love so pure that no one can take it away from us. Anyway, i think that this guy does not exist in this planet as he sounds too perfect to be true

*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:36 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

{*hehe*}

there are abt 10 ppl who are very important to mi now. Firstly, my family. then 7 of them are my friends and my boyfriend. My friends are keshia, gwen, yan yi, teck chong, wen xu, jia hui and my cousin. i want to tell them that i feel beautiful when i am with them. hehe. they make mi noe the beauty in mi. they have coloured my life. they are like rainbow to mi. they seems to be like angels who are sent from the god above. i am like still very sick as my flu is contagious. hehe. abt half of my class are having flu. everyone is getting sick. haha. i am like the one who pass it to them. haha. i feel so evil now. haha. i feel so kiasu too as i always finished my work a few daes earlier. but my maths like going to be like shit. as it is so complicating. i dun understand a single thing my maths teacher teaching. there is like two more daes that i have to go to the school for the week. have a fun time chatting with gwen todae. we spend like 3 wonderful hours todae. it is pretty fun. hehe. anyway, i always want to thank those who are always there for mi as i realie appreciate it a lot.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 8:56 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

{*hehe*}

i finally finished doing my online tutorial except DEL which stands for (Digital ELectronic). after finishing toking to yan yi, i feel that she is extremely sweet gal. i dun noe why. i like toking to her. haha. weird. hehe. may be she is my good friends' friend, that's why i think. hehe. i hope that i am able to play pool with them as it has been a long time since we wanted to play pool together. hehe. Everyone thought poly life is very slacking but i dun think so as poly life may seems slack. to the students, there tons of projects and the examinations are like four months after school reopens. i think jc life is even stress as everyone in jcs want to go to universities which is everyone's wish i think. i am not realie sure. my good friends and bf will have their audition for the sa talent time on this coming sat i think. as it is written in the registration form. hehe. i dun noe wat the form is called. i realie hope that they will enter the final as i have faith in them. hehe. i will always support them. hehe. i love all my friends especially my goodies, besties and the most is my bf. hehe. i think they have made a huge impact on my life. without them, i dun think i will be who i am now so i thank them for entering my life. so everyone, pls tell those who you love that you love them as they will not noe abt it until it is too late for them to realise that you love them a lot . you will feel regretful when that dae has come so it is not too late to tell them that you love them now

*Kissed My Love* @ | 12:07 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

{*scary dream*}

HI! i am being pretty busy with my school works as there are tons of physics to know. i pretty like the practical a lot as the things to do is pretty fun. so far i am enjoying my course and my friends are like pretty cool to hang around with. hehe. i like them all a lot as friends hehe. i had a terrible dream last night. it is the worst dream i ever had as i woke up in cold sweat. it is like ed and i are able to be together for like 10 yrs and we are planning to get married. the dae before the wedding, we were like so excited abt the marriage stuff but during the wedding, i waited like for so long and he still did not make it. i went to his house and he behaved like a total stranger. He told mi that i dun even noe you. after hearing that, i cried for months as he is realie the guy who i realie love a lot. weeks after that, he told mi that he is having a gf. i feel happy for him but deep down inside i feel like my heart has sunk very very deep. my dad woke mi up after that as i have to wake up to go to school. i am like so glad that i am dreaming as i dun want this thing to come true. as i realie love him a lot a lot. he is the guy for mi forever.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:02 PM

Saturday, July 10, 2004

{*Depression*}

i was too busy working and schooling yesterdae so i dun realie have time to write my blog. sad sad. i am pretty tired as i am like working frm 6 pm to 1.30 am last night and frm 12 pm to 8 pm. i dun mind working as when i am working, the things to do stop me frm thinking him.as it is pretty painful for not seeing him for a week. it is like onli able to hear his voice for like 2 to 3 hrs a dae. i realie want to spend my whole life with him.i want someone who is able to like spend at least a dae with mi together and let mi feel as though i am the onli one in his heart. i am listening to this song which is "look what you've done" by Jets. this song is like describing how i feel right now. i realie love him a lot but i just dun noe whether he realie want to spend the rest of his life with mi. seriously i dun a husband who is like so busy until he is unable to see me for like even a dae. if dying is a solution of making him happy, i will do it. but i dun noe whether he will do the same thing as mi if i am in his shoes. i am realie feel like i am being isolated by the world. may be i should just stay away from the world instead of being isolated.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 9:53 PM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

{*still in school *}

i am writting this in school during my break time. i have nothindg to do after my tutorial online. i got like so many answers wrong. these tutorials onli consists like 5 % for my overall examinations. it is like so little so far i onli get like 21/28 which is like 3.8 marks extra for my examination. later, still got programming lesson. dun noe wat the lesson is abt as lessons are abt typing the programs from the textbook and wat the teacher sae during lessons time i dun understand but i am glad that this is not tested in the written paper or else i will die with it. Todae is my dear dear friend wen xu a.k.a xuxuban and shaggy( starbucks ppl give him the nick)'s birthdae.my sweet sweet friend finally turn 17. hehe. so happy for him. i think this sundae is like a celebration of his sweet 17 birthdae so i think i have to buy his present on fridae or sat. try my best to get him one the latest on sundae. i also have to buy wei ye's spongebob squarepants boxers on sundae. haiz, i have so much things to buy for ppl. hehe. i am still panicking to find ppl to accompany mi to go to my deardear's talent time audition in sa. i feel weird if i go into his school as i am a devil instead of a saint. haha. ed, i am so sorrie of the things that i have done yesterdae. sorrie for saying that you may not see mi tmr. sorrie for making you feel regretful if i die tmr.i am so sorrie for all the things i have done to make you sad in this relationship.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 12:37 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

{*hehe*}

Todae is my 8th dae in school since the school term starts. The daes in school seems like passing by very quickly as while we are learning new things abt the course, i have a lot of wonderful time with my classmates even though some of them are still pretty quiet. i hope that my class can be a little bit noisy. hehe. i think i may not going to see my boyfriend for this week but it is alrite as there is still next week. i pass my barista certification. the funniest thing is that i pass making the espresso drinks and ice drinks but i failed in making a kid's beverage which is the steamed milk. so funny as my manager james sae to mi that no one can failed in the steaming milk except mi. haha. i still have to remember the features and advantage abt starbuck's products. my memory will be full soon as i am filled with knowledge in my brain. can not take it anymore. i like working. hehe. onli able to get my pay next month. so sad as i have to wait for so long then can get my first pay cheque. james told mi that i will get a big fat cheque which is being accumulated for three months. then i can go shopping like crazy haha. how ya. tmr is wen xu's birthdae. haven't got him a present. going to get him one by this sundae as it is the onli dae that i am free for the week. i am so glad that my friends have their love ones by their sides. i wish them all the best for their future. nevertheless, i wish my friends who are j1 this year all the best in the promos and my cousins and friends who are j2 all the best in their A level this year.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:40 PM

Sunday, July 04, 2004

{*sorrie*}

School has started like for a week already. the time that i can see my boyfriend is like three daes the maximum. i feel realie sad as i have to work tmr while he is having holidae. i did not noe it. if i noe it earlier, may be i have more time to spend with him. i onli able to spend time with him on sundae for this coming week. it is like so little time to see each other as the time pass so fast when we are together. i start to regret of working as i have so little time for my boyfriend, friends,family and myself. i seem like doing lots of things that i regret later. i just treat this 4 more months as a test for mi and edric. if he realie loves mi, he will wait for mi and will not mind that i spend so little time with him. i cried in front of him this afternoon and told him the reason of mi crying as i was afraid that he will find someone else when i unable to accompany him. he told mi that he will always want mi no matter wat and gave mi a kiss on my lips. i felt relieved when he sae that to mi. i feel that i can trust him with all my heart after that. i think i should tell him everything that i have hidden in my heart long ago.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 7:42 PM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

{*after school*}

FINALLY! i have time to write something. i was supposed to meet my good friends and my bestie but i was unable to meet them as i have lots of things to do. things such as SCHOOLWORK. My poly friends are so nice and sweet. they are extremely funny and make mi feel very comfortable being around with them. hehe. tmr got EG2 maths online and my bartista test. haiz. stressed! i am happy as i have so many friends that i can trust and a bf who treats mi very well. i realie am so contented with my life. A life that i wish for. my friends who i noe them since pri sch have become so pretty. i am like lookiing the same since pri sch. i realie want to have a new look. hehe. i love my honey a lot and i am happy that i am going to see my dearie soon which is like two daes later. we are able to meet every sat, sun or both of the weekends. if this relationship still goes on after i graduate, i think we are realie meant to be together. i realie love him a lot as my feelings for him is something that i can not find frm some other guys and the things that he has given mi no other guys can give mi. i am so happy that i have him by my side. he is realie the one i am looking for.

*Kissed My Love* @ | 8:31 PM