new year, new location

So I've decided to move back to my original blog since so many people are confused by this blog's name...(no. mi4mi4 is not some obsession i have with my sister! and yes. the secret i'm talking about really is no longer.) So I'm going back to where it all began. Redirect yourselves to flutterofwings and enjoy!

Happy New Years, everyone! :)

it's a choice

So this is definitely not a new insight or anything, but something that came up this past weekend totally reminded me of how much truth this has.

I think a lot of times how you feel or what you think is a matter of what you choose to think and feel. For example, say you get an unexpected gift from someone. You could think "wow. that's really nice of them! i didn't expect this. i feel so special." Or you could think "how come mine wasn't as nicely wrapped as everyone else's? obviously, this person doesn't like me as much." Now, you can Choose to dwell on those negative thoughts and breed more negative thoughts until it infests your mind with hurt and anger. Or you can Choose to instead remind yourself of the positive side of things (how nice & expensive gift is). I know that's a lot easier said that done. Cuz once you think that negative thought, it's really hard to shake it. But which would you rather go thru life thinking? I think it's possible to choose to think positively.

You will laugh, but k-dramas really exemplify this and take it to the next level (and you thought they were just frivolous entertainment!). There's the main girl who always gets the short end of the stick but sees the silver-lining and always stays positive ("加油!" w/fist in air is her motto). And then there's the evil girl who doesn't have it easy either and feels like the world's out to get her and that she's entitled to get what she wants by whatever means necessary. And she does this until she's caught in her web of lies and the main character prevails. Of course, i don't know that the real world always works out this nicely/justly. For me, knowing that God loves me and is in control of all things is my silver-lining and the source of my hope. And since making that choice to trust in God, I find myself a lot more joyful and content. But even if you don't wanna choose God...you still have a choice. What will you choose to think today?

who could resist?

Meet Dom(inic) & Ben(jamin)...such cutie pies :)

btw, i posted another pic but posted dated it to dec 11...so you may wanna scroll down a bit

auntie shally?

Does have a bit of a ring to it, doesn't it? ;)
I've announced this to my sister. :) hee hee But she's very firm that she will not try until a year after marriage! that means it'll be at least another 1.5 years before my hope can be actualized!! waaaaah.

Yes...i know it's totally out of character for me. I'm definitely not one to coo over a baby. but tonight, we had a family dinner with my bro-in-law's family. and his sister has 2 kids...one's 2 and the other's 3 mos. They're SOOoooo adorable! i even got to hold the baby!! it was a little scary at first cuz i've never really had much interaction with babies...much less holding one (i'm the baby of the fam). but yeah. i could get used to it. it was fun. and even my sis said i need practice. and what better way than on my little niece or nephew? :D

Ready...Set...

Not quite "Go!" yet. But I just got my board back from an edge sharpening and a hot wax...and man! I can't Wait to hit the slopes! They had to take off my bindings to do the work so I had to put them back on afterwards...and that's when it hit me how much I've forgotten. I even forgot what foot stays in (which foot the leash is on) and what direction my feet go on the board. Thank goodness the REI guy put tape where the bindings were so I knew exactly how it was supposed to go! heh heh I have a feeling my first time out might be a bit bumpy. But that's all set too! My bro & i are going up to northstar & Mt Rose (their midweek deals are C-H-E-A-P)...Jan 1-3 (only have to take 1 day off! yippee). We've never been to Mt Rose and i haven't been to northstar in ~8 years so i'm really excited. wooo hooo baby! Let it rain! Let it rain! Let it rain! :)

Ahhhhhhh...

I don't know why, but I always DREAD cleaning my room and put it off for...a very long time. :) After deciding that I could put it off for no longer...I stood there looking at all the mess without the slightest clue where to begin. So I finally decided that cleaning off my floor was probably the most overdue of all. I turned on some Christmas music and away I went.

Cleaning off things on the floor inevitably meant cleaning out my closet to make room for those things on the floor. And Man! It's amazing how many things I'd forgotten I had. I've got a bunch of water balloons and silly string from a surprise party a couple years ago...and rock climbing chalk (for your hands)...and a guitar (eek...i wonder if it's still playable)...and stationary from years back...and shoe boxes full of photos that should get put into albums someday...

When i went to bed that night, I heaved a deep sigh of satisfaction. Even though the room still looks untidy, it *felt* sooooo clean. Another perk from cleaning my room was that I found my boarding clothes & equipment. So at a moment's notice, i'll be ready to go! ;)

Bible in a Year

I'm currently on a mission to read the BIAY (my abbreviation for Bible in a Year). I've gotta admit that I've never actually read through the entire Bible and recently, my lack of knowledge of many bible stories has finally made me want to do something about it. I've tried before, but I never got very far, but this time I've got a plan! I've printed out a schedule that I really like. I read a portion of the Old Testament, Psalms, Proverbs & New Testament everyday. That way I won't get bogged down in the OT & Psalms...which can be harder to read (at least for me)...especially reading all the Psalms in one big chunk! ack! So...what's the news? I'm almost at day 100! yippee! (This calls for a celebration!) And although, it's rather slow going at times (ie. Leviticus was pretty tough with all the different kinds of offerings and laws and stuff!) I'm really looking forward to getting through the books of Moses (a.k.a. the Pentateuch, the Torah or the first 5 books of the OT). I'm in Deuteronomy now (book 5). yippee! Just wanted to share this with lots of ppl so that it won't be as easy for me to give up this time. altho, so far so good! :)

too many cooks...

So recently, I had this idea. I was really excited about it and shared it with some other people who might also wanna help. They supported my idea and I was really happy. Then, we decided to open it up to give more people the opportunity to help as well. But as inevitably happens, with increased numbers has come an increase of complexities. First, it wasn't a big thing, just had to tell more people and set a date and all that. But now, I discover another group of people (the "main" group) are planning to do something similar (and going about it rather slowly!!) and I've been asked to postpone the implementation of my idea or like roll it into the "main" group's solution that will eventually (hopefully, soon) materialize. But I don't wanna wait! At the very least, I wanna just go on with the original plan and if other's want to do something similiar, they can....in their own way and their own time (ie. later). And good for them.

(yes, i know that was rather vague, i didn't wanna get into the gory details...just as long as you get gist of my frustrations)

On a totally unrelated note, i find that i'm baking a lot recently. I baked a lemon cheesecake to get rid of some extra cream cheese we had at home last week...and i just baked my 3rd pecan pie in less than a month! And i've sorta promised to bake some other goodies...where are all these baker vibes coming from? i am SOOOOoooooo not a cook/baker! i'm too lazy. ;)

shoulders lightened

Yay! I was able to sell the extra cell phone today.
It was at a slight lose, but whatever, at least now I don't have to cross my fingers for some ebay bidders that have yet to appear! Plus, I won't have to deal with shipping it and potentially flaky buyers, etc. whew!
Craigslist rocks!