i'm confused. and i dun really know what i'm thinking. and i dun realli know what i'm troubled over. and i dun realli know why i'm feeling this way. i'm wierd

When faced with a problem, i always choose the easier path; to avoid it. This habit of mine has an detrimental effect on me and ppl around me. Perhaps, I should kick this habit away.

But one thing good is that, I don't show my sad emotions to my family. I show a strong front; and i'm getting better at it. Another thing is, I vent my frustrations out and thus, has lower chance of sinking into depression.

ha-ha

in a foul mood.

ok. here's one simple post

today i slept the whole day.. almost.. went for dinner with jos, SZEEEE with 4Es, xiuyi, leena.. holland v essential brews.. gd to c these ppl again.. ;) jos commented tt mi n kun look alike.. omg..

yesterday.. went lunch n watch movie with my cousin n kun.. cuz my cousin says she wanna have a look at kun.. lol.. n i think she's bored.. she commented tt we look alike.. and we went "HUH?!" but today, jos mentioned it aga.. so i guess there must be some similarities which we din realise.

didnt do work for 2 full days liaoz. nxt week i'm so dead

had this new insight from creative thinking class yesterday..

in the teaching profession, do teachers merely teach or do educate? much akin to the medical profession, do doctors cure or do they heal?

when the prof commented on us not sending our "elites" into the teaching profession, i sorta agree.. and the implications are severe.. if the next generation are going to be taught by people who are not really passionate about teaching/ lack the capability to teach, what happens to our future? isnt the next generation responsible for moulding the future?

i'm certainly not against teachers/ educators. some of them did leave a footprint on my life, some gave me advices, some made me a better being.. But, there're some others who don't..

Increasingly, based on my observations ( which might be really subjective), people are getting more concerned about exams and grades.. i'm guilty of that.. and sometimes, we get so bent on getting an A+ that we forget something, something that is so fundamentally important.

that being, are we getting an A+ in the journey of life? Consider that life is an exam, how many people can claim that they score exceptionally well? High achievers might have an excellent career with damn superb remuneration. But are they excelling in other areas? eg. maintaining good relationships with family n friends, etc.

Well, a coin has 2 sides.. humans aint perfect. we always get something at the expense of another (opportunity cost, etc)

at the end of the day, i believe it all boils down to perspectives.. to sidetrack a bit, yesterday i saw how one building can look so different from different perspective.. it's really quite cool. make me appreciate the school architecture more.. next time i pass by, i'll definitely decelerate and have a good look at it.

we're living in a fast pace society. Studies have shown that Singaporeans walk super fast (like, ranked no. 1 in the region or sth?) Studies have also shown that Singaporeans spend much more time working compared to ppl all over the world. Why is this so? this is, to some extent, absurd isn't it?

well, luckily i'm having CT class for 7wks.. think it's gonna be fun.. creative thinking is nothing tt serious. it's gonna be mostly fun.. i hope.. in case you ppl think of food as only something that can be consumed, you're so Wrong! tune in for more. lol

Had another insight from BGS class this week..

One who has nothing to lose are open to options. On the contrary, one who has everything to lose fails to step out of their comfort zones.

all this discussions and participation in my seminars really made me think.. i wasn't much of a thinker for the past 19 years. hahaz.. i think, crack my brains over mathematical questions and scientific problems and didnt really bother thinking about things going in the world, how a person became successful in business, how cultures/ situations force people and the more "humane" considerations.

i guess i wandered off track again.lol.. just wanna make the assertion that many people are bound by expectations of them, many people dont want to risk it, many people want a secure life (satisfied with what they have), they dont step out of their comfort zones.

People's background and past experiences shape them. A wealthy businessman would want his son to inherit his assets and his business. the son is "obliged" to run the business. it takes lots of courage to say no.

Generally, kids nowadays are very fortunate. they're basically 温室里的小花.. carefully nourished and showered with care. thus, no one is pushing the limits. this is somewhat sad, right?

i guess it's time to give up my somewhat lassiez faire attitude and look at life from a different perspective.. it's time to plan.. to work towards what i wanna b..

though it is still a little vague with regards to what i wanna embark on in the future, i already have a slight idea.. life is full of uncertainties.. what one can do is to bring uncertainties down to a minimum so that one is more certain of things, more in control, and more secure..

life.. as i progress, as i mature (i know this sounds wierd), i find it more demanding.. i'm no longer a kid, naive and innocent, out there running about, playing hide n seek.. there's more to it.. responsibilities set in..

i wonder how i'll pass each phase of my life.. life as a student, as a 'career woman', perhaps as a wife, as a mother, as a grandmother, as a retiree.. LOL

ok, i think too much.. right now, i shall just think about how to class part in tml's lesson (kidding), GPA, student life, CIP, internships, and how to build my resume.. hahaha..

thinking of working in the finance/banking industry this summer.. so if anyone sees this post, and have contacts in the industry, plz help mi pull strings and rope me in.. i'll be extremely thankful =) cuz the exposure might be help mi decide if finance shd b my major nxt yr.. so, it's extremely impt.. ;)

hmmm.. somehow this post sounds a little bit emo? hahaz.. i shall end this with a happy note and a reminder..

CNY is round the corner!

Please bring me into finance industry to have a feel of what it's like if possible!

hehehe

alrite alrite.. i shall blog... sch started.. the term is great so far.. hope i still can manage with good GPA.. yes it's impt.. and this term, i foresee tt there'll be more mugging with midterms n finals' weightage being high thereee...

well, i had all my 5 mods in 3 days.. still surviving.. coz it's only the beginning n i've sorta gotten used to how the seminar is conducted and stuff.. i c familiar faces around too.. and tt's a great consolation; knowing there're ppl ard, 'suffering' and 'enjoying' like i do..

this term is realli very 'school' like, with homeworks for some classes.. n the readings seems to be mountaineous..lol..

n i juz realised tt i've 3 'angmoh' and 1 'singh' profs this term.. it's quite interesting actually.. they offer different insights sometimes.. and they're relatively more interesting.. or mayb it's not due to their nationality, but the sole nature of the module? that, i'm not so sure.. one of the angmoh profs seems to hv very high expectations of us though

actually, come to think of it, the 'singaporean' prof i have is also quite animated.. in contrast, the hongkonger prof is boring.. lol

okok.. enough bt profs.. hope i dun bore the hell outta u by this anything but ordinary post ;)

think i neglected this blog quite a bit.. and since i'm in the mood to blog, i shall update on the past festive season..

xmas eve.. made cheesecake, played some games, went for movie wif dear and ended up in wj's hse for overnight mj.. lost $15 bucks.. sadly

the not so chilled cheesecake:

xmas.. went ECP ard noon.. got some slp after getting home in the morning.. like, 3hrs? lol.. but still, went to cycle there.. parking lots packed, got a little tad lost.. the 2-person bike is soo funny.. needs some real coordination.. lol.. and seriously, its front seat favours guys.. or maybe, i'm just short =P cam-whore in the back seat before taking over the 'brute force' position



had a heartening meal after tt at the food center =) and home sweet home.. eh.. i gave the wrong directions and we got 'lost' again.. ok la, just have to travel a longer dist..

went vivo shop on sat.. results in me adding more stuff to my wardrobe AGAIN.. buahahaha.. expected lah.. with all the sales, who can resist? this holiday.. really bought lots of stuff.. hehehe.. gg broke! went waraku for dinner.. and of course, the food proves to be excellent! a realli good restaurant serving damn nice food.. =)

sun.. went to sentosa!! the sun was blazing hot.. but, i still like the weather..somehow, the sand irritated my skin.. and the showers is out of sight!! hahaha.. nevertheless, it's great to be playing vb on the beach =) and frisbee too! hehehe..

mon.. last day of 2007: 31 dec.. out with ltb group.. went ms clarity cafe.. the food is of top quality and priced quite reasonably.. less ex than swensens and such.. no service charge and GST too! hahahaz.. then had fun in mind cafe.. playing lots of funni games which i mostly nv play b4.. =)

after tt, went for dinner wif dear at qq noodles.. =) and then, went e2max dvd room with lots of junk food.. buahaha.. total gluttons.. watched evan almighty while being watched by people outside the room.. damn dots lah! they gave us a room with an entirely transparent glass wall.. felt like animals in the zoo at first.. but ltr decided to heck it.. hahaha..

in there, us with my new year pressie (the belated xmas gift) thanks dear!! :

and then, travelled back to boon lay.. hehezz.. countdown in the park.. unique right.. buahaha

trying to find childhood memories.. lol:


after tt, went home.. simei is far.. sorry for always letting u travel the longggg journey back home..

dudes, it's 2008! this year, let's all gear up and brace ourselves for the challenges ahead, make the most out of everything and enjoy!~ =D

firstly, happy 2008 to all!

here are my new year resolutions (hopefully, i can fulfill them all):
1) be more organized
2) save money
3) work hard when school starts
4) minus fat
5) live a fulfilling life
6) spend more quality time with family and friends

yep.. that should be all.. if i ever do things contradicting my resolutions.. friends, PLEASE remind me yah.. =)

once again, happy new year!