seriously, i hate my life now... it's without a purpose... and thus, it's ultimate boredom.. realli cant imagine what life will be like when i retire... mayb then, i'll hv enough financial power to do things i want... say, travel round the world? but will i still be healthy enough to do that? i'm so dots.. y am i thinking about life as a retiree when i hvn even start tertiary education?

well, guess i'm just too alone for my comfort... although i enjoy some quiet time, it's a tad too quiet sometimes... home alone.. come to think of it, i was also out quite a lot... but i just feel empty w/o a purpose in life... mayb cuz i'm e sorta person who's highly goal oriented bahz...

well, i'll be starting work on monday... admin job @ tuas... guess it wun be exciting but at least i can earn a little bit of money...

sorry for ps-ing tonight.. gotta cancel mj session due to unforeseen circumstances =X

why do i always wake up so early? i used to slp like a pig when i was young.. ya noe, like in primary school? then, gradually, my biological clock goes haywire.. thx to msn n enormous amt of schoolwork @ times... whatever it is, it's gd to wake up early isn't it? As e proverb goes, the early bird catches the worm... =)

anws, i changed my choice of courses for nus application ytd n todae... LOL... fickle-minded me... well, i'm like crazy... put medicine as first choice.. business as second choice with the hope of getting into the double degree program.. and so, my initial first choice became my third choice... if i'm shortlisted for interviews n essay tests, den i'm really lucky... fat hope...

anws, wrote another essay ytd... i hate writing this sorta essay... it drains all my brain power... but it's a requirement for the program and i hv no choice.. >.< let's see... so far, i've alreadi written 4 essays... everytime i finish one, i'm exhausted.. LOL.. nxt wed i only have 30mins to complete an essay! tt's too short!

i hope i can get shortlisted in the very least... though i dun expect myself to ace interviews and essay tests, it wld be quite an experience? hahaz

to sidetrack a little, i went for a job interview ytd... got e job.. it'll b roster sorta thing... and i dun even noe when i'll start working... most likely will be having bangadeshes n chinese as customers.. hahazz. a bit funni... but it's ok, i guess?

ps. i'm surprised by the little act.. it's quite heartening.. =)

been slacking... hhaz... life's sorta cool... hahaz.. literally..

anws, looking for job n applying for uni these days...

smu juz called me... shortlisted for my 1st choice!! but gotta go thru interview n essay test!!! omg... 30 min each? rah... i muz rmb to breathe... =P when was e last time i sat down n wrote an essay?? hmmxx... WEEKS AGO, writing an essay as part of scholarship application!! took a long long time.. zzz.. i wonder wad qns dey'll pose and wad i can write... pls PLS let miracle happen... wahaha.. and interview??!! haishh... i hate it... it's like being scruntinised under a microscope... horrible.. bleahzz... if it's realli gg to last 30mins, i tik i'll faint...

well, nvm... guess it's juz part n parcel of life... we nid to experience new things n gain from these experiences... when applying for jobs, interviews are oso 'unescapable'... hahaz... besides, i seem to be eloquent when it's realli necessary... english oral, chinese oral.. not tt bad yah.. LOL.. enuff of self- consolation..

anws, e interview is @ 8pm... funni, isnt it? hahaz... somebody pls remind mi to bring stationaries and original documents... =P DIE!!! my result slip n cca record are crumpled!!! who stack their bags on top of mine in Kbox the other night?!?!!! !@#$^#%^&* wld ironing help?

wadeva it is, wish mi good luck ppl =PpP

On a lighter note, i am glad to say tt i've found a way to unwind. Jogging!! hmmx.. actualli, i always knew tt's a good way to unwind.. but sometimes i'm juz too lazy. but these days, with hl ard, i shd realli sweat it out. i like e company, e stars, e gentle breeze and everything. life can be juz so simple and nice. how often do we, city dwellers, look up @ the twinkling stars? how often do we slow down and absorb our surroundings? it seems like we're always in pursuit of god-knows-what.. and we fail to realise the beauty in everything ard us.

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i'm super down... so, if i dun tok, it's not bcoz some1 irritate me dere n den... problems which i dun wish to tok abt... pls dun ask... dun try to cheer me up or anything... juz let me be

hmmxx.. well i quit my job le =PpP yesh.. tt means i onli worked for 2 days =PpP

hmmxx.. let mi talk abt e experience in dere.. it was noisy, smelly, dirty, bloody,tiring BUT FUN... but now, my arm has got scratches due to parrot's 'claws'... dey flew to me and always land on the section of my arm w/o the wristband... yah... not their fault... i shd hv brought my arm closer to my body... and jessie (a scarlot macaw; parrot) bite mi! i was supposed to bring her back to her cage... bite my thumb instead of standing on my arm... bad girl... hahaz... cant blame it though... birds also like humans... wary of strangers... bully newcomers... well, parrot's bite can be realli terrible kaes... but i was lucky enough.. it din bite veri veri hard.. else i mite nid stitches... (but still abit pain lahz) happened before!

cut fruits for parrots, seriemas, toucans (put in their food tray while watching out for dem), weigh fishes for pelicans wadeva in dere... it's all HANDS-ON... yeap... tt means touching the stinko fishes... hahaz... feeding dem to e birds can be 'dangerous'... considering their sharp 'razors'... i entered their cage and threw dem as far as possible... bit by bit... a few at a time... phew... not attacked... fed fruits to hornbills... BY HAND!!! yes... food on palm... dey eat from dere... and their beaks? as long as my arm... hahaz... senior beside lahz... she onli let me feed the less temperamental ones... yeap.. different birds have different characters.. and different birds (of same species) hv different looks... to me, dey all look e same though... =PpP

nxt time u ppl watch the birds and buddies show @ bird park... pls be appreciative... on the outside, it looks veri nice... birds fly when music starts... actualli, tt's not e case... backstage is busybusybusy... e pigeon cage is super heavy... with pigeons inside, even heavier... gotta carry and release dem at start of show... carry up n down staircase somemore... but well, i'm STRONG!

other parts... all team effort... birds dont just go on stage and fly back when it's time... do u tik dey noe dey hv to b out at 3pm n in after like say 5mins? wahaha...

gotta walk here n dere... seriously sweat alot sia... wahaha... den ur appetite increases a lot also... den u slp veri well... wahaha...

2days n such an experience... lol... nice... but it'll be realli physically tiring if i do tis everyday... ya =PpP and my parents are afraid tt i mite nid to go to e hospital for stitches... actualli i'm afraid too.. though e show birds are trained, those on display arent... and if i'm not careful, dey can disfigure me! =S those parrots at the talking bird exhibits are known to pounce at newbies... if i enter their aviaries with dem inside, tt's it! =P

rah... bad mood.. but nvm... bleahzz

went to bird park for interview ytd... lol... i watched a bird show as part of e interview!! lol

it was really near me..lol

this thought went thru my mind while i was enjoying e sea breeze ytd... came fr like nowhere... hmmx.. i was thinking, if i din do well for a lvls, i onli hv myself to blame.. certainly no point lamenting or brooding over failure if i alreadi expected it... tt failure was an effect of WASTING 2yrs of LIFE... tt failure is an effect of not cherishing e opportunity to make e best outta education... hmmx... if i din do well, wad wld i do? wld i be able to overcome all odds n emerge stronger or wld i sink into tis failure?

why does my mind wander off? funni... e sea breeze refreshes my mind... to be exact, wind always hv a 'healing' effect on me...

hmmx.. my life now much like one of an old woman.. much like a retiree... you zai xian zai... taking an evening walk when i feel like it... playing mj when dere's kaki... ei commented i'm living a tai tai life now... -.-''' which tai tai is as poor as me? which tai tai play vball in jj? whaha... i love my life, except for e fact tt e number in my bankbook nv increases... =P

rahh.. hope my skin doesnt peel... i wan copper skin color! LOL

here are some pix to share (taken eons ago.. 4/2 class outing!):

got my results alreadi!! am happy =)

went kboxing on tt day... till 3am.. lol... e nxt day, flipped thru those booklets given to us.. one whole lot of them... >.< did my researching again... yah... i'm tempted to go overseas uni... hahaz... in my dreams! played mj ytd (sun).. won some $$$... heezz.. =)

well, i applied for ntu courses le... hahaz.. =P nus portal not open yet!! =.=
shd i apply for scholarships? my chances of getting one is definitely very very slim... boos >.<

zzz... i woke up so freakingly earli todae... -.-'''' 6plus am... *bangs onto e wall* hmmzz.. todae is e release of results... ytd had problem slp-ing despite my tired legs which went thru a great ordeal wif me ytd... hahazz... took one hour b4 i drift off to dreamland... lol

oki... anw, went shopping ytd!!! it's certainly my fault to wear a 4inch wedge to town... bleahzz... almost had myself killed... but well, i still love shopping!!! hahaz... roam ard taka... i found a nice shop: pool n bear... ate at wisma... had my love: dark choc gelato.. *heart skips a beat* oops... den went to shaw tower.. no suitable movie slots for us... so we rested our feets n chatted... b4 moving to heeren!! saw tis shoe @ limited ed vault... still thinking whether i gonna buy... it's soooooooooo tempting.. e crown... e adidas... ahh!!! den we went to mu4... i simply love e clothes dere!!! i bought sth dere =) shall go heeren again soon!!! coz we nv realli walk ard... eunice rushing for time... n my feet is giving way... >.<

oh my... it's still so earli.. gonna mj onli @ 10am... sheesh... not to mention results after 2.30pm