nitex world.

a mixture of disappointment and a tinge of sadness.

A night full of surprises

Had my twenty first birthday bash last night and it is a night that i will not forget, ever. Even as i recall it now, i feel a wave of emotions surge up. I am utterly and truly blessed to have such great people in my life. Parents who dote on me like a princess, a brother who makes me cry and friends who go through lengths for me. Last night was truly memorable.

It was a pretty busy night, greeting guests and all, and i barely ate anything but honestly, i forgot about the hunger. The first part of the night was quite a blur. I remember giving up on my heels because it was too inconvenient to put on and take off as i make numerous dashes in and out of the house. I remember shaking many hands and smiling. I remember posing for the camera. I remember... not much that i can remember.

What i can remember is what happened before the cake cutting ceremmony. My brother gave a short speech, in two languages, lol. And i remember tears streaming down my face. His speech went straight to my heart. (I'm tearing up again as i recall what he said). He gave me a lot of credit for who he is today. And i couldn't hold it in when i heard it straight from my little brother's mouth. He's is all grown up now and i love him for who he is. Thanks bro, for last night! You made me feel real special!

Another surprise came in the form of a video, filled with wishes and messages from friends. Once again, i teared at the heartfelt wishes. Thank you everyone and a special thanks to Lavyne, for compiling it. I know it is not an easy job! I LOVED THE VIDEO A LOT!

Was surprised by a call from YYY. Was shocked when his mom passed me her phone. Thanks dude! Even though you couldn't be here, you were still "here". Thanks =)

And to the cool guy in the States who spoke Chinese with a funny american accent, thanks for the video =) Thanks for recording it even though it felt stupid. Lol. =)

Too many people whom i wanna thank for a blast last night. My parents, my brother, CL, who came early to help out, Gwen, Lavyne, SY, for the handmade gift, college mates, high school buddies, primary school buddies and everyone else who made my night a memorable one!

I FEEL VERY LOVED!

Party!

Lol. Gwenlyn's here for five days. It's quite sweet seeing her and my brother together. Haha. And guess how the three of us bond? LOL. By cleaning the front porch and making acar together. Of course, there is the late night movies and mamak, but mostly, it's through food! Oh, and one coincidence! Her dad has the same birthday as i do!

Birthday party tonight. I think my brother and his friends are more excited than i am, And i have a weird feeling that they have something up their sleeves. Well, i know it's gonna be a great party! Thanks to my mom, dad and brother. I love you guys!

Dearest makan buddy

To a very dear friend of mine who requested for this.

I like the sky best during sunrise and sunset, second best when it is lighted up by a bright moon and lots of stars, third best when it is a nice blue with pretty cloud patterns. I enjoy looking at the sky.

I like some quiet time. It might be curling up in bed with a storybook or a drama series, or just lazing around at home with nothing to do. I like family. I like home.

I like the outdoors. But recently, I've been a very indoor-type of girl. Lol.

I believe that real friends are hard to come by. So i try to cherish everyone who comes my way, even if they may just be a passing friend.

I enjoy roller-coaster rides. I like the rush of adrenaline one get's while on the ride and the sense of anticipation while waiting in line.

I like to listen, not so much to talk.

I like to hang out with friends. It's the company that matters. Not what we do.

I sometimes like to day dream, and think about stuffs. Yea, stuffs. I think you know what i mean. Lol.

I like the beach and i've always wanted to go there with a group of close friends. Did it a few times before and it was awesome!

Last but not least, i like you! Because you are always so bubbly and cheerful and helpful and caring and thoughtful and understanding! =)

因为所以必有道理

因为有着曾经的回忆，所以觉得惋惜。
因为在意，所以觉得失落。

On another note,

有时候太机灵，也未必是一件好事。

Ok. Turning 21 in a week's time. Any special feelings? NO. Lol. But felt quite reluctant to state my age during introduction in a new lecture today. Can't believe i've reached that stage. Haha. But oh well, actual age isn't what matters. What matters is how you feel inside =)

I'm feeling good!

let bygones be bygones

First time i lost my temper in a really long while, and i regret it immensely. Honestly, i do not know what actually triggered it. It wasn't such an unsolvable problem after all. Perhaps i got off to a bad start. And the other person wasn't in a very good mood as well. And everyone around us were in a belligerent mood. Maybe all those added up to that burst-out. But still. All these are just excuses. I lost control. I should have known better.

Shall not let this happen again.

Deep breath and a clear mind.