Of acceptances and rejections

Weekend's almost gone. Just like that. And once again i've slacked it all away. I'm such a pig. Literally. Slept for god knows how many hours today. I don't even have a reason to be feeling so tired or sleepy. Perhaps it is the boredom. I don't even feel like watching a movie or reading a storybook. Something's quite wrong with me. Maybe i should just go study for mid terms. SIEN..

I tried Shisha yesterday, out of curiosity. It made me cough after every puff and gave me quite a massive headache after that. Nothing that special. But at least i can say that i've tried it before. Not really that desperate nor tempted to try it again anytime soon though.

I don't care about the physical distance.
I care about the other kind of distance.

Waiting for replies is tough. And excruciating. You check your inbox everyday in hope for a reply and feel disappointed when there is none.

And then you tell yourself that there is still time.

And i don't like rejection.

Can't wait for Friday. Assam laksa anyone?

A simple yet enjoyable evening at home =)

Guess what i just did?!

I washed the cars with my dad.

Ok. It might sound pretty uneventful or even somewhat normal but i really missed doing something as simple as washing the car with my dad. It's nice to see how he nags at me for being so slow and inefficient while he snatches the cloth and shows me how it is done. So, instead of wiping the car with soapy water, i was demoted to being the hose girl, the one who stands there and spray water towards the car at the beginning and at the end. Lol. I accidentally sprayed water at my dad a few times (yea, an accident. LOL.) And got a "Eh, spray properly la. You know how to spray anot one? After i spray you then you know ar!" as a response.

Lol. Washing the car reminds me of the CIP session in Singapore two years ago, the one with Shiau Haln, Shen Hui, Zhi Jing and the guas. The one where we got all wet and had such a fun afternoon washing cars.

Oh, i watched my mom and dad's wedding video together with them again this afternoon. I think this is only my second or third time because i have very vague recollection of the whole video. Maybe i was still very young the last time i saw it.

Anyway, i got to really enjoy it this time around. 22 years have passed by since that blessed day. But i bet that those memories are still fresh in my parents' minds. I can't help laughing at my dad, who smiled happily throughout the video. There was a scene in which he was tying his necktie for quite a while and i turned to him and said "You nervous or too happy?! Why tie one necktie tie so long one? The cameraman video-ed the whole room and everyone else already and you are still tying your necktie." Lol. My dad only smiled.

It's fun to look at my aunts and uncles 20 years back. My now grown-up cousins who were just tiny little kids 20 years back. How fast time flies, I'm already 20 years old. WOW!

Sick of being sick.

Been coughing for more than two weeks already. I'm sick and tired of being sick. What does it take to get rid of a cough? Plenty of water? Tried that, but Mr Water does not seem to be working his wonders. Plenty of sleep? How do i even fall asleep when i cough every now and then? It's like ok.. i'm almost asleep... Zzz.. Then i feel a tickle in my throat and i think Oh No! Not again! Then COUGH COUGH and there i lie wide awake again!

Freaking sick and tired of this cough.

Oh, i finally trimmed my hair. It's now short and bouncy once again!

Been feeling pretty belligerent recently. Don't ask me why. Maybe it's the cough.

I can't wait for the 25th of March. I need a break from my lifestyle right now. (Weird i'm saying this cuz i just had one last week.) I need to be with crazy people and laugh as if we don't have a care in the world.

I need to not be sick. I need this cough to be gone.

Does everything has to have a purpose?

I wonder what's the purpose of a blog? To rant, to complain, to share, to inform, to escape... ??

And A LEVELS is finally a closed chapter in my life!

My hair is at a very weird length now. Not short but not long as well.

I'm in a dilemma as to whether i should cut it short again.

I'm tempted.


So, A Levels results are already out. Too say that i'm not disappointed at all will be an outright lie. Who doesn't want to get straight As? But i guess it is a good thing that the subject that turned out to be a B was Math, and not any other of my three core subjects. Truthfully, i would be devastated if it was any of the other 3. But because it was Math, i could talk myself into accepting it. I guess i was mentally prepared for a sucky Math result ever since the paper itself because of all my carelessness. And there's always the superficial way of consoling myself saying "You were always bad at math."

But no it is not an excuse.

And still, it sucks to have that glimmer of hope finally dashed.

And guess what's the most common reaction i got to my results: "Why Math? Math is the easiest subject to get an A in!" Lol. I can only smile.

I don't really know if i am satisfied with my results. As always, there are people who did better and people who did worse. If i say that i am satisfied, why should i be when i could have done better? If i say that i am not, then i should have put in more effort in the first place.

But anyway, what done is done. I'm not sad and i should not be regretful. I can only look forward and work with what i have paved out for myself.

Thanks mom and dad for coming down with me. Thanks bro for rushing over after school just so you can be with me for the announcement of results. And thanks gwen for coming on purpose on ur own even though u didn't have to. I appreciate it a lot. I know i was the luckiest person in that hall that day for having all of you there with me=)


3 days in Singapore is too short because i got sick. AGAIN! Sorry ah jia and shiing for spoiling our perfect girl's outing. AND I DON'T CARE!!! WAIT FOR ME!!! =(


And i swear i am not missing English lessons on purpose Ms K, though u might not believe me even if u see this, which u won't. LOL.