Ignore this post.

Just in case. Lol.
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I'm slow.

It just finally sank in.
I miss you.

约定

After everything that happened recently, A Levels really seem like a very long time ago. My life these few days has been like a roller coaster ride, with plenty of twists and turns. It's frustrating how life always throw you obstacles when you feel that everything is finally sorting itself out. I've learnt that no matter how hard i try, there are some things that i cannot control, no matter how badly i insist or how fiercely i wish for it. Things can be planned way in advance, prayers can be said with innocent trust, but still some outcomes can't be controlled. I guess this is just life. I'll take it as it comes.

打过勾的我相信。

And then there were 5.

Lol. Everything bad that could happen to a person while playing basketball happened to me today.

I:
1. Got hit in the face by the ball.
2. Got stepped on. Twice.
3. Have two slightly "twisted" fingers which are fairly swollen.
4. have BLISTERED FEET!!!!!

But seeing as it is my last bball session here before i go home, i have no regrets, even if prom is tomorrow and i will die in my heels.

And guess what?! I'm pretty sure i've used up my quota of bad luck for this month. So yes!!! I am looking forward to lucky days ahead!

=)

Today was a fairytale.

SATs today were terrible. But no, i'm not moping about it.

Went out with Kee Jia and Shi Ing today. Kee Jia's flying off to the UK tomorrow for her Oxford interview. All the best Kee Jia!! We watched Rapunzel. Though a bit reluctant at first, i really did enjoy the movie and do not regret spending that much on the movie ticket. Laughed heartily and felt like a child again. A really nice and enjoyable movie!

Watched The Next Three Days a few days ago too with Dharlynnie, Alice and Chun Kit. Not a bad movie, there's suspense and enough action. But, HAHA, i preferred Rapunzel=)

I've not finished packing my room! And i have yet to start working on my application essays. I need more time!!!

Counting down the days till i leave this place. Truthfully, i have mixed feelings.

Post-As

Seriously, i feel all the more pushed for time now that A Levels is over. Things to do, people to meet, the list is never-ending and i know that there is not enough time. For now, i shall bury myself in books. If you are thinking story books then you are wrong. I still have SAT subject tests. Sighs. After that, i need to find a way to pack four years of my life into boxes that would all fit into a car by Sunday. As much as i always complain about this place, four years of my life have been spent here and whether or not i want to admit it, I would miss this place. Singapore has taught me so much about the realities of life.

1 more and i'm done!

A Levels is not over yet but i'm already acting as if it is. Actually, to be honest, it has been pretty relaxed after the first week. But now that lit is finally over and all that is left is Bio Paper 1, it is as if Christmas has come early. Still, i've not felt so tired in a while, compared to going out, studying for exams seem so much more less tiring. LOL.

Friday's singing session with Jiaxi, Kaiyun and Xinyi was awesome! 5 hours was not sufficient and we left the place rather reluctantly when it was 7. Went for dinner with Shiauhaln, Priscilla, Siying, Zoeleen and Vanessa at Astons after that. And YES, it was super duper tiring. But that night, lit paper felt like it happened ages ago, not just that morning.

Went to Expo with Carwyn yesterday for a flea market. And for the first time here, i actually spent money buying dresses and shirts and of course, my favourite jackets. But of course, i got a good bargain for everything so in the end, i still kept way below my budget for that day. I really liked the jacket that i bought a lot! Carwyn bought a similar one too! Just that hers was black and mine was white=) OH OH!! And i met Dharlynnie!!

Just finished throwing out all my notes this morning. Gotta start packing up soon! I hate packing! Don't really know how to start.

My parents will be here next Sunday=)

One more paper and i am done for A Levels! It's wonderful how time flies, for now. Somehow, i wish that Christmas this year comes crawling, as slowly as possible.

A spontaneous fun day out!

Today is definitely one day i will never forget.

Went out with Shiing and walked all the way from the forum to the grand cathay.

Tried on so many dresses that i lost count of them. The funniest part was finding out the prices of the dresses. LOL. Yea, i actually tried on a dress which was worth S$2k+ and only found out that it was worth S$2k+ after deciding that i did not like it. Seriously, S$2k+?!?! What the hell?!?! Anyway, found a very nice dress which i liked a lot and Shiing said looked real good on me but i didn't buy it even though it was cheaper (at S$200). Still don't think it is worth spending that amount of money on a dress though it is one that i would and could wear even after prom.

Things i would remember from today:

1. Jaw-droppingly expensive dresses.

2. Birds chirping along orchard road. (I never realised them before!!)

3. Free Gongcha and me thinking that the uncle was trying to play a trick on me.

4. Sitting on the steps before the pedestrian traffic light.

5. Feeling as if we were drunk. (on tea. lol.)

And guess what?!?!?! I bought tickets to watch Harry Potter!! =)

By the way, if you are free, try watching the American drama series called "Lie To Me". It's about applied psychology and micro expressions and i think it is interesting. I liked it a lot and kinda got addicted to it.

2 more papers and i am free!!

Warm welcome

Welcome to Singapore Carwyn LCY =) You'll be fine!!! 加油!

And yes, after one drama series and one day out, i should start studying again!

I'm halfway through A Levels!!! More than half actually, after tomorrow it would be two thirds done!!!

I got high from taping up a box just now. Haha. Yea, set up a box to place all my unwanted paper inside for the ease of carrying it to the recycling bin. You have no idea how happy i felt as i emptied my GP and Math files and filled up that box. Yea, yea. I can hear what some people might say: cheap thrill. But YES!! This is all it takes to make me happy now=) I'm a contented person.

Despite being in the midst of As, i can't stop thinking about one little thing that has been bothering me for awhile now. Should i throw away all my notes or should i lug them all back to Malaysia? What's the point of bringing them back right? I doubt i will ever look at them again. But then "what if" pops in. What if i need them again someday? What if i need to refer to something inside sometime in the future? Should i or should i not?!

Lit was weird today but i shall not dwell on it. Time to go start mugging chem. 5 more papers to go! =) I'm looking forward to the end. Oh, and another thing!! I can't wait to watch Harry Potter 7!! And i wonder why, because i was never a huge fan of the movie. Maybe because this is the first installment of the last movie, maybe that's why i'm so hyped up. Despite that, i have a feeling that i will only watch it when i am back in Malaysia. Haha. So much for being hyped up about it!

Despicable me

HOW BLIND CAN I GET???!!!!
Not seeing the words "volume of 300cm3" for paper 1 was bad enough.
Not seeing the word probability as well for paper 2?!
I despise myself for losing marks not because i cannot do the paper but because i was stupidly careless. When will i learn to be more careful?!
KILL ME!!! (I'm freaking scared that because of these stupid careless mistakes, i would lose my A for math.)

The world today

My mom received a call this afternoon saying that i was kidnapped. She said there was a girl in the background crying and shouting, "Mummy, come and save me!!!" Know what she did? She scolded the person and ended the call.

So, what i want to say is that, don't panic if you receive such a call in the future. DON'T PANIC!!! Most probably it is all a scam. This is the second time my mom has received such a call. The first time was someone calling to say that my brother was beaten up. There are many syndicates out there trying to make a quick buck by preying on our emotions (when we are worried we tend not to think clearly and would more likely fall prey to their scheming), so the least we could do to protect ourselves is to keep calm. Do not give out your name when they ask for it. Do not divulge any personal information. JUST KEEP CALM, and figure things out.

I need to learn how to stop making careless mistakes for math=(

Exceeding Expectations.

Misery loves company. The first thing everyone did after Chem paper today was to ask a question along the lines: "The paper was a killer, right?" And when everyone agreed, they would breathe a sigh of relief and hope the bell curve does its job.

JY called me after Chem paper today. And after a hello, he started laughing. LOL. It was pretty funny how words were not needed to express the shock we all received today.

Not only me, not only him, but practically every H2 student taking Chem in Singapore had a not so pleasant surprise. The paper was way way tougher than that of previous years. Even though there was a mutual agreement that the paper was tough, i do not feel better about it. I did not expect myself to feel this way after an A Level paper, tto feel as if i didn't answer all the questions confidently. Honestly, this felt worse than prelims. Sighs. And what's more, this is just the first paper.

Cambridge, i salute you. You really do know how to surprise us. I have no choice but to look forward to tomorrow's surprises. Hopefully it will be a pleasant one!

And the battle begins

I actually had a dream about A Levels! It wasn't a very pleasant one though=( Dreamt about chem and math. I guess, that shows you how i feel about those two subjects. (Haven't studied chem at all and chem is tomorrow! Am gonna finish studying it today!! Not like i have a choice though.) Sighs. It's tomorrow! But yes, it needs to come before it can be over. I will face it chin-up, whether or not i am fully prepared!

On a brighter note, i had my first skype conference call last night, with a bunch of super high people. It's amazing and ironic how you guys going off to somewhere further actually brought us closer. I guess there is some universal truth in the line: Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Too bad my internet was giving me problems though. It was fun!! We should definitely do that again!!

Towards the end.

I dread the first week of A Levels! I wish my timetable wasn't that sucky. For heaven's sake, starting with Chem paper 3 is bad enough, but GP and Bio on the same day? With math the next two days? This is just too much! But ok, i shall not complain. There are worse timetables out there. (For example ppl with the bio, chem, math, ell combi. It's like all subjects in the first week!) I can't wait for all this to end! I can't wait to go home!!! But as usual, i dread packing=( But before all that, there's still the BIG As and the SAT subject tests waiting for me!

40+/- more days is all what's left of 4 years.

Happy Deepavali!

简单与幸福

小时候，幸福是件很简单的事；
长大后，简单是件很幸福的事。

6 days and counting!

My roommate goes to sleep at 6am, which means that throughout the night, she leaves her table lamp on. And guess what?! I can't sleep with the light on!!! =( It never used to bother me before. But right now, i just can't sleep(well)! I think i need to buy that thing to block out light to my eyes. (yea, i don't know what that thing is called.) You know what i am talking about..

Wish i could sit by a bonfire and roast apples!

Happy Halloween!!!

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I wonder why people always associate Halloween with scary stuffs, like ghosts and witches. (But how is trick-or-treating in costumes scary?!) I've never experienced a Halloween celebration before. Maybe because it's not prevalent in Malaysia and Singapore. (But i've seen people dressed up for Halloween in Singapore before.)

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However, this year's Halloween is definitely "scarier" than previous years. October 31st translates to 8 more days! Ok. I am finally feeling the stress! Will i be ready?

High expectations

I finally found out the name of the breathtaking resort that i always see when i am on the evening/night flight to and fro Malaysia and Singapore.

Pretty right?! It's Golden Palmtree resorts. Off the coast of Melaka. Somewhere along Sepang.

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I have a habit of looking out the window, especially in flights. I find it calming to enjoy the view of the clouds. I like it all the more when it is evening, when the sun is setting. The sky and the clouds will be an amalgamation of colours, ranging from orange to pink to red and purple. I also like it that the clouds appear cottony and fluffy! I've managed to capture quite a few nice pictures on camera!

Lol. Anyway, i just asked my mom her budget for our trip! =) (I am taking a break from mugging to search for holiday destinations!)

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Ok. It's 8 plus now and i am feeling depressed=( It's still not good enough!!!! But well, i'm not trying anymore.

14?! Crap!!!

I get this question a lot:

"Did you dye you hair?"

For the nth time: NO!

Similar experiences, everlasting bond

88 weeks after orientation, I've officially graduated from Hwa Chong. To be honest, it didn't feel all that awesome. Maybe because the BIG A is always at the back of my mind. It's like: We've graduated. Yea, big deal. There's still the A Levels that we have yet to conquer. Still, graduation is significant in a way that the ceremony gave recognition to every single student of class 2010. Every single student got the chance to go on stage and receive the graduation bear.

The symbolism behind that little gesture from the school completed our two-year journey in Hwa Chong. I really am proud of this bear and i treasure this little furry thing a lot!!


Though i'm always complaining about Hwa Chong, i guess in the end, i will miss the people here. Not so much the place but the people. It was tough, but it was fun! And i'm glad that i had you guys along side me on this journey.


I guess many of us will find this song apt for a time like this.





Oh ya, one interesting fact: After two years in Hwa Chong, i still don't know how to sing the chinese school song. And i know the english one because i forced myself to memorize it at the beginning of last year.


And most importantly, thanks mom and dad, for taking the time to come down here for my graduation. Not everyone's parents went, and to have you guys travel all the way down here meant a lot to me. Thanks=) I love you guys!

The singapore education

I hate the Singapore education system! I hate what it does to people!

Over the four years, i've seen drastic changes in scholars studying here. The stress to perform from the ministry, the knowledge that to have your scholarship terminated would mean a huge burden on your parents, the disappointment you get each time you don't live up to your own expectations, all these changes a person. I've seen confident people reduced to one who constantly doubts oneself, and even people who just literally gave up. What i want to say is, don't give up! Who you are as a person, it's so much more than what others might perceive you to be. Yes, grades might be important but they don't define you. And just think of this as a little stumble to prevent a great fall.

Cheer up, it really pains me to hear you cry. You'll pull through this, just like i did! I believe in you.

If only i knew...

Allow me to rant for a while because i feel utterly cheated!!

Walked from the boarding school to cluny court to buy "awfully chocolate" (lol. google it if you don't know what it is!) for my parents. (I've been told that it's heavenly but i have yet to try it.) I walked for the distance of 6 bus stops!! (My ezlink card was running low on credit) But guess what?! "awfully chocolate" wasn't sold in slices but whole cakes! Crap. I feel so cheated, as if i walked so far for nothing! =( Ok, maybe it's not for nothing. It is good exercise after all! =)

Can't wait to see my parents! But too bad i cannot surprise them with cake. I was looking forward to seeing them, especially dad enjoying the molten chocolate cake. I can already imagine his expression and what he would say. Lol. Oh well, next time then! I will find a way.

Got to go! Got to go get ready for graduation and go meet my parents=)

Fever fever please go away.

Out of nostalgia, i went to my old blog and to my horror, found out that they were about to delete it. Tried downloading my whole blog but to no avail. The download was fine, i just couldn't open the file on my computer. I am so not ready to delete two years worth of memories, happy and sad alike!!! So i did the next thing i could do, i transferred my blog elsewhere. Thank goodness that was an option.

And seriously, i hate the weather! Itchy throat, runny nose and a slight temperature. What is this?! SPAM WATER!!!!! SPAM VITAMIN C!!!!!

Graduation tomorrow! If i'm looking forward to it, it's because i get to see my parents! Besides that, it just means that it's one day closer to As. And even closer to SAT subject tests. I should be doing something about that. Actually, come to think of it, i am a bit excited for graduation, because i'll be getting my very own Hwa Chong bear! =)

Mention "Rooney" and i can only sigh.

In us you believe

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together,

There is something you must always remember:

You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.

But the most important thing is, even if we're apart, i'll always be with you.

A parting quote from Ms Huo for our last GP lesson before the menacing A levels. (To see the whole quote in it's real context in Winnie the Pooh, just highlight it.) I was comforted by the trust and confidence she has in us and at that moment (while reading this quote), i felt as if there was hope for GP. Thanks Ms Huo!

Now, if only i could not neglect GP in favour of Bio and Chem.

至少还有你

I liked this song a lot four years ago. But after my mp3 died, i kinda forgot about it. Rediscovered it a while ago but couldn't remember it's name, until i heard it here. I realise that i still like it a lot=) And this version is not bad. These two little boys do have talent!

To all the people who matter:

我很庆幸，至少还有你。

One expression says it all

Manchester United

=(

Nature at its best!

Went swimming under the moonlight just now. To my dismay, i couldn't even complete one lap without feeling tired. It got better after a few tries though. The moon was pretty and to stare at it while swimming backstroke was super relaxing. I realised that i prefer to swim with my eyes close, cause i feel nervous with my eyes open. But i cannot swim in a straight line! Everytime i open my eyes again i would have strayed from the path. (I bet the lifeguard must have found me amusing.)

I have a feeling that my arms are going to ache tomorrow. Even so, it was a good thing that i went swimming today=)

Anyway, today was a very nice day. Was walking back to the boarding school from starbucks and i saw something which made me very happy! I saw the moon on my left and the sun on my right! How wonderful is that?!

The beauty of nature=)

And it's down to 25

It's Friday=(

Which translates to: The weekend's here.

Which then translates to: It's 1 week closer to A levels!!!

I can feel myself hyperventilating right now!

On a different subject altogether, i finally sat down and wrote out my personal essay. Showed it to only two people so far. My soul feels naked when i see them read through my personal essay. There's a certain weird feeling, as if it's judgement day.

My life right now:
1. A Levels
2. SAT subject test (which i am totally ignoring. crap.)
3. Uni applications

Oh, i think i might have found a job after As=) It's not like i really want to work but i figured that having something to do would be nice! And i have lots of plans for after As! Can't wait to see if i can achieve them!

That little conundrum called love.

爱情不是两个人眼睛对视，而是两个人的眼光看着同一个方向。

We all need a little help now and then

What do you do when you want to help someone but you don't know how to?

Utterly flummoxed

I think that there's something terribly wrong with me.

I left for school without my school bag today.
In other words, i forgot to bring my school bag to school.

No, i am not joking.

Was en route to school before i felt like something was wrong and to my horror discovered that i left my school bag on my chair in my room. You have no idea how stupid i felt there and then. Had to walk all the way back to the boarding school to take my school bag.

Something's terribly wrong with me.

I'm still flabbergasted and at a loss for words for my stupidity (for lack of a better word).

Blue soul

I hate it when hopes are raised only to be dashed forcefully, sending you spiralling down into the abyss.

My feelings are very volatile today.

Past tense

Going. Going. Going......








Gone.

As the red lights go off

My first F1 race live this year!

On tv i mean.

Anyway, F1 changed a lot over the past year. Don't recognise many names and many cars. Am new to the 8 engine rule. And what's up with the huge fuel tank and the new no re-fueling rule? The pit stop strategies are precisely what added so much more excitement to the whole race! I've been really out of touch with F1=( (Only a few weeks back i found out that there will be a South Korean Grand Prix this year -.-) Hope i don't get into trouble for pon-ing study time. But, it's been way to long since i watched an F1 race.

Went out for another shopping trip today and failed to buy anything yet again. Had lunch with my brother and Gwen (It's his birthday tomorrow!). Oh oh oh, i bought a 冰皮mooncake!!! It was a bit pricey for such a small mooncake but oh well, i have a craving for it. Craving satisfied =)

School again tomorrow=( GP results tomorrow. I hate the agony of the school releasing our results to us over a span of two to three weeks. Why prolong the agony of waiting. Not like there's suspense or anticipation on our part anyway. Somehow, I wish we had exams instead. Because exams translate to shorter school time.

Weekend's over. Break's over. Time to get serious once again!

He strikes again

Yes, i am awake at this hour.

No, i did not wake up early.

In fact, i did not sleep all night because Mr Insomnia decided to pay me a long visit last night. However, thank god for friends who are at the other side of the world (by the other side of the world i actually just mean UK. lol.) who kept me company. Chatted and talked to them=) Thanks to a phone and international roaming!

I'm off to Changi beach=) Don't think i'll catch sunrise though.

GOOD MORNING=) I'm in a very good mood despite not sleeping=)

The little red dot

I like how Singapore is so small that you can hear the roar of the F1 engines even though you are not at the race track. The adrenalin rush one feels just listening to the roar of the engine makes me feel as if i'm right there at the tracks. Maybe it's just me, but yea, i get excited and hyped up listening to the deafening roar of the engines. Regretted not buying tickets and going for F1 this year, especially since the timing is so right! (Just immediately after prelims!) Doubt i would get to watch it here next year either=(

Hmm.. maybe the Sepang Grand Prix next year?!

But it's in the afternoon! I prefer the night race!


Shit. Seriously regret not buying the tickets. =(


Steamboat buffet for dinner just now. It was a post-prelim cum farewell/graduation dinner for the scholars by Hwa Chong. It was pretty generous of the school to splurge on us, bringing us to a hotel for such a scrumptious meal. Walking through our two-year journey in Hwa Chong, it's really heartwarming to have friends who share the same experiences (the homesickness, complaining about the boarding school, curfew, the pressure to perform, the warning letters....)



A big thank you also to our teacher mentors, who willingly took on the role of surrogate fathers and mothers, and being there to support us, especially mentally and emotionally, whenever we face difficulties. Thank you for being caring and supportive and always believing in the best of us, and not giving up on us even when things seem bleak. And also thank you for always making us feel welcomed and taking the trouble to make sure we "fit snugly" into the Hwa Chong family!


I shall slack my weekend away before touching anything academic! Going to Pulau Ubin tomorrow to bury time capsules with OAC=) Digging up the one they buried last year when i was back home. Fingers crossed that it would not rain. I doubt it though, because it has been raining for a few consecutive days already. But oh well, rain or shine, it will not dampen our spirits!

I'm so going to City Hall tomorrow night!!!!!

I should go to bed but i know i can't fall asleep this early and no i have no mood to mug for tomorrow.

Am i the only one who doesn't want prelims to end? @@ LOL.

But yes.

End it still shall.

2morrow should be interesting=)

千里共婵娟

独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲。

Mid autumn festival always reminds me of this poem. To be more exact, this line. For the fourth year in a row, i'll be celebrating mid autumn festival away from home, without my parents and my brother.Ii actually am wondering when will be the next time we get to celebrate MAF together as a whole family again. Even with such a small family, it seems impossible in the coming years. I really miss the times where dad would set up a table and chairs on the porch (at my old house), brew up a pot of 龙井or铁观音or普尔茶, while mom would prepare 瓜子and mooncakes. Then the four of us would just sit around at the porch sipping tea, gazing at the moon, chatting and just enjoying the atmosphere and each other's company. I miss playing candles and lanterns with my brother, even the aftermath where we had to scrape of the wax while my mother supervises. I have never really thought much about those nights but now that we don't get to enjoy them anymore, i realise that i really miss our simple way of celebrating MAF.

I guess there won't be much of any mood for a MAF celebration here tonight, given the fact that there is a bio paper tomorrow. Even without the bio paper, i don't foresee anyone appreciating this festival tonight. Guess i'll make do with gazing momentarily at the moon, with a mug of chinese tea and a mooncake with my roommates.

One consolation though, wherever we may be, we're all still under the same bright moon!

Anyway, went on a (supposed) shopping spree yesterday. I realised that i'm not cut out for shopping sprees (or retail therapy or whatever you call that). Gave myself the liberty to spend the whole afternoon away but in the end, i end up spending one and a half hours in kinokuniya, buying two books. Spent another half an hour in royal sporting house and bought a basketball (it's a birthday present for someone but i am really tempted to keep it for myself!) Got bored, had lunch and went back to the boarding school to read my story book. Yea, end of supposed shopping trip without much shopping and certainly not much fun. Truthfully, i rather coop myself up in a cosy little bed and read my afternoons away!

2 more days and prelims are over. Don't feel extremely happy. Anyway, had a sudden realisation that my four years in Singapore would be coming to an end soon. I remember how four years ago i was complaining that four years was a long time and that it would take forever to pass.

Four years is going to be over soon.

In these four years, many things have changed, some for the better, some for the worse (this sounds familiar@@ i must have said it a hundred times before..) I realise that 我不像以前那么的执著了。顺其自然吧。=）

And four years passed by just like that.

On a celebratory high!

Why am i acting as if prelims are over?! @@
Enough slacking!! Time to start studying again!

Thank god i stay in the boarding school

Though i usually complain about have to stay in a boarding school, with the sucky internet connection, sucky food and stringent procedures, this is one time where i'm truthfully thankful that i am staying in a boarding school.

Woke up this morning with a jolt, noticed the brightness of the room, stared at my phone and freaked out! The time on my handphone showed 7.30am. Was stunned for a while and realised that i had a chem paper in 45 minutes time, and that morning assembly was happening in school right now. Was out of my room and heading to school by 7.38am. Thank goodness i stay in the boarding school. My first time late to school in for god knows how long and it just had to happen on an exam day. Was flustered and panicky when i reached the exam venue and had to listen to music to calm down. Anyway, while walking to school, i checked my phone and realised that the alarm was set to 6.30pm! Yea, i forgot to switch pm to am. Way to go, TCY! Another of your careless and silly mistakes.

The funniest thing about today is that two of my other roommates woke up only because i jumped out of bed and shouted "shit!". I wonder what would happen if i did not wake up. (Why did i wake up anyway? i have no inkling at all.) Maybe all three of us would have missed the exam @@

And to think of the consequences if i am NOT staying in a boarding school. Yup, thankful.

I really should get back to my acquired habit of sleeping early before exams. My sleeping habits now remind me of myself during form 3, where i would study late into the night before exams due to last minute studying. It's quite amazing how my sleeping habits can change so drastically in such a short period of time. One week i am sleeping at 11 and the next i'm sleeping at 2, 3am, sometimes even near 4am.

Shall start mugging bio applications after lunch. Hmm.. what should i eat for lunch?

MAF

Mid Autumn Festival (or more affectionately known as MAF)- a night where generations of hwa chong alumni and students gather in the inner plaza under the (moon)light. It's amazing to see couples who were once schoolmates or even classmates, bringing along their little toddlers. How cute. Lol. Young people, old people, all bonded by the same college songs. It's amazing when you think of how many generations have sang the same college songs, learnt the same mass dance. I love the invisible bond that holds all of us together.

To the juniors, good job today! You all managed to make a profit=) And good job for dragon roll call too! I heard that you guys practised for a few hours! All your seniors were impressed, us included. You guys have really come far since the first pre-camp and YLTC. Continue the great job and bring OAC to greater heights! I'm looking forward to our very own "Past versus Present"!

love

My brother just sent me a really touching and encouraging message that made me cry. I love you bro! Even though we may fight and disagree sometimes, i'm really proud to have you as my brother! Thanks for that message!

Mugging = fat

Things that i realised in my process of mugging:
1. My attention span has decreased.
2. I can't stop eating while i am studying.
3. Studying in my room is efficient only at night.
4. My sleep patterns are all screwed up.

Sighs. I seriously need to readjust my sleeping patterns before tuesday. And i need to go to the gym more often! All these munching is gonna add pounds if i don't.

For twice in three days, i almost walked onto an escalator that is moving down when i wanted to go up! Something's wrong with me. I've been doing a lot of stupid and silly things lately, unconsciously.

Mid Autumn Festival in school tomorrow=) And playing ball in the afternoon=) I welcome the exercise!

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

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My brother sent me a message saying, "You not coming..?" and immediately i felt bad for not going. Crap. All the best for Asean Dance junior comm!!

Ramblings.

I see people with their hands full, carrying their luggage, with the airport in mind. Juxtapose them against myself, hands full, but clutching on to my biology notes, with the Calvin cycle in mind. Oh, the beauty of exams!

Jokes aside. Lit is a serious business.

Joke of the day: My hand cramped during the three-hour english literature paper!! Well, it would be funny if it was really a joke. But no. It actually happened. Blame it on all the furious writing. Ironically, lit paper was a joke though. Especially the essay question with that super long Jean Rhys quote that made me go: Har?!?! What the hell?? Too bad i couldn't laugh out loud during the exam, or else i really would. LOL.

The beginning of an end.

The curtain opens. The rehearsal starts. (Regardless of whether you are ready or not.)

Merdeka!

Hi Malaysia!!

Happy 53rd Birthday!!!

It's not the end.

Last day of official lessons with 09S77 today. Well, lessons weren't really lessons for most of the day. Actually ended up taking lots of pictures. For some reason, i felt really hyper today. Laughing for no particular reason. (Shall upload photos on facebook soon, promise!)

PE was a blast! I will always remember how the girls in our class scream shrilly when they play captain's ball, the push ups we had to do whenever we lose, one-two-one-two passes with shiing and especially the fun we had laughing. Actually, there's a lot i wanna say here about the fun we had during PE lessons, especially today but i don't really know how to put them down in words. Those moments as a class are moments i will miss the most!

3 things i'll miss most about 09S77:

1. PE!!! i love it when we play ball!

2. Lunchtime! i love how our class loves to eat, no matter the time of the day or the duration of the break! Oh, and watermelon gang!!!

3. Chilling out after meals. The time when we bond! Our laughter always pierce the otherwise fairly quiet left wing.

After class party at the central plaza today was epic! Our wishes will all come through! 加油for prelims and As =) And make our teachers proud!

09S77- two years as a class but hopefully a lifetime of friendship. I'm glad i'm in 09S77, despite of the vast personalities, somehow, we gel wonderfully as a class! 17 girls, 8 guys, 1 09S77!

Played badminton in the school hall today. Reminded of Kwang Hua. Memories! =)

Dinner with OAC! The last one felt so long ago.

The sky makes me happy=)

The breathtaking sky made me enjoy my walk to school today. I took twice as long to walk to school because i couldn't stop admiring the sky. It actually made me feel very happy and relaxed, and totally made me feel as if nothing bad could happen today. The cottony white clouds remind me of fairytales and everything nice! Ah, mother nature at her best!

=(

Crap. I miss my parents already.
And i feel like crying so much now.
=(

Broken promises. Shattered pieces.

So much for words and promises.
Look where we are now?
I wish i can forget that it was ever made.
But somehow, it refuses to leave my mind.
Oh well, why do i even care?
Actually, i think i don't.

I take my promises very seriously.
I don't say the word "promise" easily, just like how i don't say the word "miss" and "love" easily.

Happy birthday dad!!!

I love my family!
(Can't believe this picture was taken 2 years ago!)

Can't wait to see you and mom tomorrow=)

Friends ♥

Was back in Malaysia last weekend. Met up with some friends. An afternoon of catching up brings back shared memories.

To bubbles: All the best in everything! I'm glad i managed to meet up with u this time round=) Jia you!

Rain rain go away

It's been raining every other day here nowadays. I used to like the rain. I still do, i think. But it's just such a nuisance, especially since my mode of transport nowadays mainly consist of walking and busing. Rain makes the school a swamp! (Ok, i exaggerate.) Fell down the stairs the other day because of the slippery floor. (How embarrassing!) Thank god for quick reflexes, i escaped with just a few bruises and an ankle which felt weird for a few minutes. Because of the rain, i forced myself to run back to boarding school so that my flu doesn't get worse. But less than 200m into the run, i stopped. I wasn't even running fast at all. Just merely jogging. That's how unfit i am now=(

It's been a while, but still, i don't like walking back to the boarding school alone after dark. The school is eerie after dark, especially since there are many weird ghost stories circulating around. I hate having to walk pass the clock tower and the Kah Kee statue. I guess i would never be comfortable walking back alone after dark. But that being said, it doesn't mean that i cannot do it.

Jay's concert last week was a blast! Initially, i didn't feel any excitement at all. (Weirdly.) But after reaching there and joining the queue to buy merchandise, i started to feel excited!

The concert was great. To me, it was definitely worth watching. He sang most of my favourite songs including 说了再见, 星晴，可爱女人，just to name a few. Lol. For some weird reason, the highlight of the night for me was when he shouted "马来西亚的朋友在哪里?" LOL. Maybe it's because he only asked about Malaysia, and because i identify myself with Malaysia. The other highlight of the day was when he made us all stand up 1/3 into the concert, and refused to sing if we do not stand. I liked it when he sang 黑色幽默with 袁咏琳and when he switched to 心事谁人知when he sang爸我回来了. For some reason, that old hokkien song made me think of my dad (maybe because he used to sing that song whenever we had karaoke sessions when i was young.) Still, the most memorable thing i took away with me that night was, "我没有那么容易到，谁叫我是周杰伦。" I don't know why, but when i saw this sentence, 感触特别多. My first concert! A memorable one no doubt!

Before the concert!

After the concert!

People choose to believe what they want to believe. Sometimes, it's not true but what can you do? I guess it's sufficient that you and the people that matters know the truth.

Inception

Just three words:

Definitely worth watching!!

You won't regret it!

Friends ♥

Ok. Didn't like the look and feel of my previous post so i shall make it a happy one now!

Had tonnes of fun over the weekend. In fact, so much fun that i'm sad that it's over. Thanks guys! You all are the best! =) To Eng Wee, Kay Xin and Mei Ching: All the best in your chapter overseas! To Heng Yee: Thanks! For the present! And for being a good friend. To Ben: We'll work hard and achieve our goals! Thank you for telling me what i needed to know. To KJ: We don't need words, but still thanks! I'm really glad u r my best friend.

So what if the world pushes u down once more? So what if that is what i got (for now!) It's good that i felt the way i felt today. It's good that at least there's still some emotions left in me. THIS IS THE TURNING POINT!

From today onwards, i shall be a happy person once more!

Fatigue

Tired. Of failing.
Tired. Of hoping.
Tired. Of waiting.

Tired. Of disappointment.

The (not so) beautiful game of football

SPAIN WON THE WORLD CUP!!! =)

In a match that is frustrating to watch. With a player on his butt every other minute and the referee dishing out yellow cards as if they were christmas cards, this is officially the best game of the whole world cup to me. (Bear in mind that i watched only three, including this. The other two being the England-USA match and the Spain-Germany quarter final.) Watching it with good friends in a cosy house makes it all the more memorable. (The Spain-Germany match in the boarding school dining hall was a scary affair, with people screaming at "handsome" players and without reason.) I like Spain's passing. But truthfully, both sides could have played better football with less fouls. Oh, Iker Casillas is damn cute! He cried when Iniesta scored the goal! And when the match ended. And he couldn't stop crying. That guy is amazing! As a player, as a goalkeeper and as a captain. (Allow me to gush for a just a while.) Lol. So, the world cup fever has passed. It's back to business as usual. No more sleepless nights.

It suddenly struck me that prelims and the A Levels are not far away and are in fact just around the corner. It frightens me how unprepared i still am. 2 years ago for O levels, i was already brimming with confidence at this stage. But now, the grades reflected are yet up to par. What's worse is that everyone besides myself seems to have confidence in me. Right then, i can do this! I will do this! Gotta start studying for A Levels now. No more excuses!

And guess what?! i cannot wait for July 25th!!

Now till the end of the year...

The junior's investiture was held yesterday. It also translates to the 35th officially stepping down yesterday. For a period of time, i was actually quite sad about stepping down, but i no longer am. Because i know that nothing would be different. Come tomorrow morning, we would still gather at the OAC bench before the morning bell, mugging, sleeping, crapping, laughing. Everything would be as per normal. Throughout our one-year-term, i'm thankful for the 21 of you for standing beside me, making my JC life all the more bearable and meaningful. I really cannot imagine college life without the 21 of you and i couldn't have asked for better batch mates! Thanks alot 35th! Now that we've stepped down officially, let's jia you and mug our asses of for A LEVELS!! STRAIGHT As!!!

To the 36th, i've said this yesterday but i'll say it again, all the best and good luck for your term. The year ahead would be tough, especially with only 13 of you, but i have full confidence in you and am looking forward to your achievements. With the leadership of your CI, i am sure that the 36th would bring OAC to greater heights!

I hate farewells. And i suck at them. I always don't know what to say, and i'll keep fairly silent and expressionless. Take care in Aussie k, guenyik?! You are the bestest ACI any CI could ask for and i don't look forward to days without you=( Jia you over there at the land of the Koalas! I miss you much already=(

Mugging at the airport after sending Guen off was fairly productive. Thanks Jingxi, Kenn, Daniel and Junxian for crapping so much that i have no time to feel sad! You guys never fail to make me laugh at the things you say.

I was a tad bit sceptical about the world recently but it's good to know that kindness still exist in it. Thanks Alex, for getting me a new SIM card! And thanks Raash for the phone! I'm really grateful for your help=)

Blocks starting tomorrow! Breathe...

Stormy days

Why does everything seems to go wrong recently?! The streak of bad luck has seriously left me feeling breathlessly resigned. Hopefully things can only get better from now onwards.

3 days to first day of blocks. Why do i feel doomed?! =(

Away to a brighter future

Camp Pandan (Yea. Weird name, i know. Blame Ulu Pandan Community Center for coming up with the name.) It was an eye-opener, an experience which i have never had. Camp Pandan is a service learning project that Shiing, Zijin, Keejia and I have undertaken. It is a camp for delinquents, meant for them to gain new experiences and hopefully learn a thing or two in the process and repent. For this project, we worked together with the police force and Ulu Pandan CC. I dare say that it was a totally new experience. I've been living in a bubble all these while, surrounding myself with people not unlike myself. While i'm aware of the existance of people with different backgrounds, people who have less than ideal records in the eyes of the law, they never seem so real before as i have never had an encounter with them. Spending three days and two nights with these kids changed my mindset about them. Initially, i was afraid that they would be rowdy, uncontrollable kids; but in reality, they are just like any other kid. Ok, they might be slightly more mischievious, slightly more energetic and loud. (Some are also plain rude and fights do break out way too often) However, i also found out that they are indeed very clever, innovative and multi-talented. (Some cansing really well, some play football really well) They are the bunch most street-wise kids i have ever met. If given the chance to hone their skills and polish their talents, i have no doubt that they will grow up as good kids with a bright future.

Thanks Shiing, Zijin and Keejia for being such great committee members, for tolerating me when i was busy with OAC stuffs and for me being absent when i was back in Malaysia.

Thanks Guenyik, Jingxi and Jerrold for coming down to help out with the campfire! They said it was the best campfire yet! LOL.

Went windurfing yesterday. Tiring, but fun! It was tough balancing at first but once you get the hang of it, it's enjoyable. With the wind blowing behind you and you gliding across the water, it feels as if you could throw all your worries behind. Anyway, abrassions sucks=(

Like the steam, we are as warm as ever.

Went to NEW's house for steamboat yesterday, along with a few friends whom i've not seen in a very long time. It was enjoyable. And to tell the truth, i was actually relieved. I was actually afraid that after three and a half years apart, we wouldn't be able to click. Thank goodness that that wasn't the case last night. It was much fun catching up, talking and listening to Chilli's jokes (which were actually quite funny la), preparing food, eating, debating and helping HY's with his speech, and basically just chilling and hanging out. Thanks guys! It's good to know that no matter how time passes, some things will never change.

Watched England vs USA last night with CY, HY and JY. Well, not literally with them but we were watching it together separately at our respective homes. NEW even watched till half time, an achievement i dare say. Lol. Really wish all of us could have watched it together. I can imagine the screams and the anticipation while we all hoped for another England goal as they failed to deliver the final touch to many chances. A disappointment, but i didn't regret staying up to watch it.

I am glad that last night happened.

Went out for dinner today. Jap=) My favourite! Recommended choya (recommended to me by guen) to my parents and we ordered one bottle to complement dinner. It was nice. Sweet. But you can still taste the liquor as you savour it in your mouth. (More of a ladies drink i would say) Had a superb dinner. Sashimi and sushi!

I love being home!

I.need.to.mug! Easier said than done, especially when i am back home.