over again

Dec 31st, 2009. The final day of the first decade of the third millennium. All these numbers and time might mean nothing or they can mean something.

1 year, 365 days. Some days creep by and yet, most days are gone even before you can fully grasp hold onto them. Days pass by dreadfully and torturing-ly slow when you have nothing to do. I'm lucky to have limited experiences of such days over the pass year. One year doesn't seem so long ago but things that happened last year feels as if it all happened long long ago. Last year this time, i was waiting anxiously for my o level results (somehow my brother doesn't seem to be anxious though), i wasn't sure what junior college i would go to. One year down the road, i have different things in my mind now but if you ask me whether i think i have grown as a person, i might not be able to give you a direct answer. In truth, i achieved some things that i wanted to achieve but i feel as if i have not stepped out of my comfort zone for some time now.

This last month back home has been good for me, i dare say. But, soon, it'll be time to go back to Singapore. This time, i'll try to make it different. No doubt, i'll be reluctant to leave home, and i'll also miss home like mad when i get there. But this time, i'll go there with zest! One year. It's all that's left. Make the most of it.

Goodbye 2009! With you behind me, so will all my bad memories and hardships of 2009 be gone as well.

Hello 2010! With you i hope to create greater achievements, joy and laughter.

Happy New Year!

best of both worlds

Read this from Adelyn's blog.

"penang is not quite the same. many people have left and some bridges have been burnt because i’ve spent so much time being busy in singapore that maintaining certain friendships were hard. i’m not sure whether this is what i really wanted. sure, i wanted to go away from home to experience something different but it didn’t mean that i wanted to be thrown to a prison-like life in singapore.

sometimes i look at my other friends, peering at what they’ve been up to lately and often i feel a tang of jealousy. they’re doing things that i would have loved to do: partying hard while studying smart. i won’t deny that i don’t enjoy partying, i do. i’m not really a party girl but i really like having fun. i mean, i’m eighteen and young."

Why does it sound so familiar?

Oh wait. Because all i need to do is change the word Penang and make a few other minor adjustments and the same passage will fit in perfectly. I'm sure i can find many people who would disagree with me on the description of Singapore being "prison-like", especially since i occupy myself with so many activities. At least so far i know 2 other malaysians studying there who feel the same way as i do, lyn and ck. Trust me, you need to experience it before you can understand what feeling it is that i am trying to say. How to put this? I feel.... suffocated. I feel.... restrained. I feel.... as if the real me is being buried alive. I feel.... as if i have to hide behind a mask.

Friends back in Malaysia. Everytime i look at them, without fail i would see what i have missed out on. I try hard to block it out but even after so long, the thought of "If i didn't have to leave then, what would be different now?" still creeps into my mind when i let my guard down. I thought i would be numb to the feelings one go through when leaving home since i've done it for god knows how many times, but no, it is a feeling that no matter how hard you try to prepare yourself for, you still wouldn't get used to.

That said, it doesn't mean i dislike my life in Singapore. I do know for sure that i love my friends for it is them who made it all bearable. Being back in Malaysia, i'm missing out on events and activities there too.

I guess the best of both worlds is something you see only on the big screens.

Or then again, maybe, i am just being a silly sentimental girl with unstable hormones.

(without) help.

I guess i shall just write into my diary for now.

I realise how dark i've became when i compare myself to my fair-skinned cousins.

hairline crack

A water bearer in India had two large pots, one hung on each end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it, while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the end of the long walk from the stream to the master's house. The cracked pot arrived only half full.

For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream:"I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you."

"Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?"

"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."

Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them.

I find this story meaningful thus the reason it is here. Sometimes, we are too caught up in making sure that we are perfect and we forget that flaws are what make each individual human. It is what makes us unique. As the saying goes, 天下没有十全十美的人,we are who we are and if flaws are what we have, we shouldn't complain but do our very best despite of them. Of course, i'm not saying that we should just accept them, but instead, we should try to improve and and change the flaw to something useful. Believe in the best in everyone, despite of their flaws.

ITC 09

Suffering from post ITC blues now=( Now that it is over, 4 days really seem too short. But, i'm glad to say that many things were achieved in this short 4 days.

I'm proud that every one of us passed sport climbing level 2. Climbing without the support of a top rope might seem intimidating at first but before long we were all lead climbing with more confidence and ease. Lead climbing was a new experience to me, and it was really fun. Through the 2 day course, we learnt how to lead climb, how to tie knots, how to prussik, make anchors and also how to do a top out climb. Though most of us were trying hard to keep awake during the theory sessions, everybody was excited and roaring to climb. At the end of 2 days, we all got our well deserved level 2 cert! Well done Oasis!

prussiking

Pioneering and survival was well done too. Though the rain did ruin our plans. We refreshed our memories on food test and building of bashas and animal traps. Pioneering was the best! I dare say that the structure we built was our best so far (albeit it following in the footsteps of the leaning tower of Pisa)!

Night walk was good! Seriously, though it was short, i felt that it was better than YLTC's night walk. The most memorable part for me was being locked in the dark girl's toilet when the gate got stuck because jing xi and jerrold pulled it to hard when trying to scare me. The walk across an unexplored part of tian tang was also pretty nerve-wrecking. I have a feeling that the juniors are going to have a real scare for YLTC next year when our whole batch can have a role to play.

First aid mob! LOL. What more can i say. We had fun role playing, first acting as mental patients and then playing the role of a first aider. I dare say i had fun playing the role of a mental patient with a dislocated shoulder, torturing kaiyun as i refused to cooperate when she tried to administer first aid to me. LOL.

Ubin land ex was enjoyable! Apaches and Cherokees were in a group so i ended up hiking with jingxi, cheryl, su huan, jia xi, kenn, jun xian and rachel! We are a crazy bunch! From KENN's fantasy (note: it's Kenn's, not my fantasy!) to the whole group imitating my malaysian accent to funny antics (aka random squawks) by jingxi to Kenn going on and on about the chinese girl shrine, we laughed and talk throughout the whole hike, keeping our spirits up even though we were suffering from the heat and the mozzie bites! i bet we are the group tat took the most pictures and rested the most! Haha. But we also managed to discover new checkpoints we can use in the future (the old ones are getting boring!)

Night at Ubin was memorable. After finishing dinner (which consisted of instant noodles, sardines and curry), we sat in a circle and started the ghost stories. During sentry, Apaches and Cherokees went for both shifts and we ended up playing murderer and the pig game with cards. We were making so much noise that Sarah peeped out from her tent to "shh" us twice!

Who knew Ubin could be so pretty during sunset!

Washing the tents was another memorable part of ITC. We did it in a way that it was more of having fun than it was a chore. Obviously, everyone got soaked even before we were halfway done. Truthfully, the undeclared water war made washing up so much more fun! Especially when everyone is screaming and laughing at the same time.

Lunch at subway as a batch was a funny affair. Daniel's "chips. chocolate chip" got everyone laughing till we had to clinch our stomachs and it all started from there. We laughed like nobody's business all the way back to school and it felt real good.
4 days of ITC- short but sweet. Lots of memories. Tonnes of laughter. Through this camp, 35th has no doubt turned into a more bonded batch. Next year will be a tough one, with open house, orientation hike, Youth Leadership Training Camp, Atlantis and Bike Hike to organize. However, i am sure that we can do this! As a batch!

Pushing limits, breaking boundaries;
One 35th!

Fire!

I almost burnt down the whole pantry today! Seriously, i have no idea why! I still don't know what i did wrong actually. I put something into the microwave, i set it for 3 minutes and i walked back to my room. 1 minute later i smell something burning and i rushed back to the pantry to see it filled with thick white smoke! Switched off the microwave immediately and left the pantry open to air it. It was still thick with smoke when i returned and i finally had the experience of suffocating in smoke =.= Guess what? The food i placed in the microwave became charcoal black! Hard as a rock! Luckily the fire alarm did not ring! But seriously, i still don' t know what i did wrong! But thank god nothing went worse or else i would have a hard time explaining!

Packing

I actually started to pack up my belongings into boxes today! Oh boy, I must be REALLY eager to go back home. Lol. It's either that or the realisation that my remaining days here are all fully booked with one commitment or another that pushed me into packing. Anyway, packed from 5pm to 11pm (with dinner in between) and i only managed to finish filling up one box with all my files and books. Filing my notes took up majority of the time spent. After so many years of practise, i still dislike packing! Especially since i have to empty my whole room and shift to a new room yet again. Maybe that's why i don't bother to bring much stuffs over, just the bare essentials.

The motivational talk today was pretty useful. Especially the part where the speaker taught us how to fool our minds into achieving greater things and how to overcome our fears by using mental power. Yea, the mind is a powerful tool indeed.

I just realise that the crutches are still in my room. I bet i'll receive a good chiding for taking so long to return them. Oh well...

I shall miss dragon boating 2morrow=( Rockclimbing would not make up for the loss but i guess it does fill up my time. So yea, i'm somewhat looking forward to rockclimbing.



~ 12 days

3 days passed by way too fast

Need i say more? The title says it all. Lol.

I've been looking forward to this weekend for quite some time and now that it's over, it feels way too short (though i believe it's better for our pockets this way.. lol..). I enjoyed this weekend tremendously! (though i realise i kinda fail at being a tour guide... on second thought, actually it's this place, not me!) Especially 2012, strolling along orchard till blisters invaded our feet, the zoo, clarke quay and jumbo seafood! Lol. It's not so much of the place or what we did, but rather the company. Thanks! For keeping your promise and for everything else. I'm really glad that i have you as a best friend. Lol. Hopefully u all enjoyed the weekend as much as i did =p

Weekend's over and it's back to reality. 2 weeks before i'll be home! I'm counting down again! Lol. Something which i have not had the chance to do in a long time. Meanwhile, things that remain to be done are still piled up, i should get moving!

~13 days

It's OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Following the completion of PW OP, my J1 year in Hwa Chong has officially come to an end. I will always look back on PW with bitter sweet memories; there were good times and there were bad times. Somehow, i hope one day in the future we would be able to look back on those bad days and laugh at our former selves. One year of planning and countless late nights passed by in a blink of an eye and our project finally concluded with OP today. Saying that i am happy would be an understatement. The moment ZC finished answering his question, i felt a huge sense of relief! I remember thinking," It's over!" Now, we shall have four PW free months before the release of results next March. No matter what happened in between, we made it through as a team. Just wanna say: Thank you WQ, ZC, Eli and Cyn!!!

It's astonishing how fast time passes! I used to lament that four years is a very long time. But somehow, i'm already reaching the end of my third year here. That's like almost three quarters done! Three years... many thing's have changed. I've changed. However, i am thankful that some things remain the same, and i hope that they always will...

refreshed!

Physical training from 2pm to 5pm, followed by basketball from 5pm to 7pm. I'm dead beat! My ankle is protesting loudly and i am trying my best to ignore it. School 2morrow will be such a bore. Feel like just pon-ning.

Many things happened in the last week. Things tat i no longer wanna blog about here.

This is It

Watched This Is It.

Definitely a must-watch! I don't profess to be a huge fan of MJ but watching his last few moments on stage, i personally salute him as a legend. Seeing him performing with his heart, seeing his passion for music and perfection, there is no doubt that MJ is the king of pop. As he jumped like a little kid on stage, i forgot that he is actually 50 years old!

decisions, decisions.

Life is supposed to be exciting and full of colours, especially since exams are over and formal lessons end tomorrow. The time period set aside for "mourning" over our results should also be long over. However, life seems to be abnormally routine. Since the completion of WR, OP has been the dominating factor in everyone's life. Yea, PW is important, i know. It's a grade on our A Level cert. It is one of the many As we are expected to achieve along our academic journey. This leads me to my newest dilema, should i take up the offer of doing a H3? And if i do, should it be Bio or Lit? For others, the choice might be simple. For me, i am taking everything into consideration. The question i should ask myself is "How much am i willing to give up? How hard am i willing to work?" I wonder if next year would be a repeat of this year, where i knowingly pile up too many responsibilities on myself again. I hope not. But then again, that is who i am.

On a brighter note, i'm looking forward to the long weekend=) cooking experiment 2, here i come! Lol!

Ramblings.

One year in Hwa Chong is almost coming to an end. With memories of orientation (oh! how i miss them) still vivid in my mind, i feel that this year is passing by extremely fast, so fast that my memories of the year seem all jumbled up. No doubt this year was a hectic year. And for the first time since coming to Singapore, i finally felt the stress that everyone was talking about. This year, i seem to have loss touch with who i really am deep inside. For the first time in a very long while, my confidence in myself wavered. I doubted myself in areas which the old me would have breezed through without a worry or a second thought. Yet, i believe that this is just a phase that will no doubt pass. To my friends who encourage me throughout(you know who you are): Thanks for sincerely believing in me even when i myself am in doubt! This year, lady luck seem to have forgotten about about me. Though i am not superstitious by nature, this year has really made me think twice about fate, about life. But, what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. Setbacks which i struggled through this year no doubt made me grew into a better individual. I know next year will be a tougher year which will zoom pass even faster. Bring it on!

take charge.

When you have to make a choice and don't make it, that is in itself a choice. - William James

=(....(=

A best friend does what chocolates can't;
they cheer you up

=)

temptations

I have a confession to make. I caved in to temptations and bought Archer's Paths of Glory.Over the past four months, there has been a dearth of opportunities to read storybooks and i am making up for it now. After four months of reading only for academic purposes, i'm willingly burying myself! In storybooks that is. Lol. I miss this luxury so so much!! Can you tell that i am happy?=) No doubt it will be short-lived, but for now, i am contented to read till i go blind (not literally of course) or till i feel like puking at the sight of storybooks.
~
On a side note, 周杰伦新专辑几时出？I need a new favourite song.

priceless

The feeling of receiveing an unexpected sms from an old friend whom you have not heard from in a very long time - priceless.

You feel a sense of joy, happy that he/she remembers you and that he/she took the trouble to keep in touch. It might be something one takes for granted, but to me, it never fails to put a smile on my face.

fear.

I'm feeling scared.
What if my best wasn't good enough?
Afraid.
I don't want to be a disappointment.
Deep breath.
You chose this.
It's your choice.
I am not supposed to not meet expectations.
Live through it with courage.
Live through it with your head held high.

Playtime is over.
I want an A for PW on my A Level result slip!

change.

My sabbaticals have been changed from windsurfing to flower arrangement!? and wakeboarding to balloon sculpting!? They are so not me! Things that i wouldn't choose in a million years! ARGHH!!!!!! Sense my disappointment! I wanna cry!!! What could have been and what is now, polar opposites of one another! Stupid leg!! 6 months of anticipation ended up in smokes because of you!

Kbox with my roommates today is something i would cherish. 3 different nationalities yet we can sing different songs and get high together. Awesome!
I wished you didn't made me believe before, so that i wouldn't mind now.
Singapore flyer tonight was nice too=) Pictures (of the very pretty night scenery) will be up when i feel like it=p

Letters from the heart

Dear brain,
I'm sure you will be glad to hear that i've finally decided to listen to you. Looks like windsurfing and wakeboarding just isn't meant for me this year. If i had it my way, i would have just went ahead. But since everyone that is important to me (my parents, my brother, my best friend and even practically every other person i can think of!) are on your side, you have the upper hand this time. I give in!

Dear right foot,
Because of you, i have to be contented with staying in a boring classroom for 2 days instead of being out in the sun and on the water, doing what i would obviously prefer. I'm disappointed in you. I believed that you would have recovered by now but you let me down. Still, i sincerely hope that you will get well soon because i really need you.

Dear stomach,
Stop craving for home-cooked food!

sibilance

I shall keep my blog post today
Short. Simple. and (not) Sweet.
Math.
One word.
"Proof quote"

Astons

Lunch with Soap was fun=) We should so totally do that more often!

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!

声声祝福请微风替我传送，

缕缕关怀托流水替我给予，

虽然忙忙碌碌无法常相聚，
但却时时刻刻把你们惦记。

中秋节快乐！

examinations.

It's that time of the year again. Studying for exams is a bore, but it is a phase most students have to go through. Recently, I've lost count of the invites I’ve turned down to study outside together. The last time being that crazy night at the airport. Lol. I want to study outside with my friends! It makes me happy and makes studying less of a chore and more enjoyable. However, with my condition now and whenever the thought of having to hobble out of the boarding school creeps into my mind, all of a sudden the prospects of studying outside isn't that tempting anymore. Sorry guys! I swear we will have a blast after promos when my leg fully recovers and i can jump around like a monkey again! I've been in a dilemma! But i guess for now, i just have to be contented with studying alone in the boarding school. 8 more days to liberation!

love is in the air

I love my dad.

I love my mom.

I love my brother.

I love my family very very much!

pulling my hair out

I feel very frustrated!!! Frustrated that my leg is still disgustingly swollen, frustrated that it is still painful, frustrated of taking forever to walk to and fro from school. I'm tired of hobbling! Tired of hopping! Why does it take that long to recover?! I was hoping that i would recover by this weekend, so that my parents wouldn't have to see me hobbling. But i guess there is no way that will happen now. I AM VERY FRUSTRATED!! REALLY REALLY FRUSTRATED!!!!

Gratitude

Have you ever been in a situation, where you had a plethora of advice given to you, by all the different people in your life? Some advice are similar in nature, while others are in contrast to each other. You feel confused as to which advice you should follow but yet you know that all this advice stem from their care and concern and you feel thankful and lucky for such people in your life. Here i am, spoilt for choices, but i am not complaining. Indeed, i am thankful.

A BIG THANK YOU to everyone who made me feel better or helped me in one way or another!

It's weird how one simple sentence can make a person feel that speechless, that touched.

Went for an x ray 2day. Results aren't out yet but somehow i feel more relieved. Back to school 2morrow. Can't believe i said no to an MC. Lol.

Just my luck AGAIN!

With much effort, i manage to coax myself into believing that the worst is already behind me. However, since 祸不单行，i did not get to believe in that for long. Yours truly just had to be allergic to the painkillers the doctor prescribed and ended up looking like a goldfish! Yeah. It's not funny. It's depressing! Another trip to the doctor's and another wasted day. I wanna avada kedavra my bad luck away!

Carpe diem! I shall start being productive now!

Oh gosh! i just realise that my blog post sound kinda depressing! Not to worry! i'm extremely fine!

First left, now right.

I found out the price i had to pay for one careless step and a twisted ankle today:( And do you know that there is an art to hopping and hobbling? I am currently a self-professed guru at it. However, i am still a novice when it comes to using crutches. The sight of crutches leaning against my wall actually makes me skeptical about my ability to become proficient in using them. Anyway, thanks B for accompanying me to the clinic!

Mid Autumn Festival (MAF) at Hwa Chong was fun! Just that i did not get to enjoy it fully! (Mostly because i had to stupidly fall down and injure myself which ended with me feeling like an invalid and couldn't join in the fun for the whole night. Sitting still was so not enjoyable! I didn't even catch a glimpse of the grand light-up!!!) Oh well, i guess that there is always next year!

And good job Oasis! My MAF wouldn't be MAF without you guys! Thanks for putting up with my clumsiness and injury.

expensive affair

Studying out is an expensive affair! But, if it allows me to concentrate better, i guess it would be worth it in the end. 3 more weeks! And after that, FUN, FUN and more FUN! Work hard, play hard! That's what i believe in!

switch to mugger mode pls

I seriously need to start mugging. Period. I know i need to do this. After deciding not to go home for the holidays, i should be making full use of my time here, s.t.u.d.y.i.n.g!!!



On another note, I WANT MY VOICE BACK!!!

What happens in Neverland stays in Neverland

Ok. I promised myself a long post. Here it comes, the memories that were supposed to be kept in Neverland.

So, after 6 months of preparations and a final month of intense "qiong"-ing, ASEAN DANCE 2009- Neverland finally ended. It was the best Asean Dance so far and i am sure we met expectations, if not, surpassed them. In one week, we went from a huge debt to making profits. We woked our asses off on that night but somehow we managed to have fun too. I remember making the bouquet of flowers when the DJ played "Poker Face" and "I know u want me". In my heart i was like "Aww.. There goes our songs! Why must the DJ play it so early!" Lol. I would never forget the moment (towards the end of Asean Dance) when the DJ played " I know you want me" again, out of our special request. I will always remember the adrenaline rush when i heard that song, how Chun Kit rushed out and Arthit practically bounced out to drag me into the dance floor. And AsComm started dancing like crazy to that song. We didn't get to fully enjoy Asean Dance because we were on duty, but we made the most of it and i bet we all had fun all the same. Every little moment count and every dance made Asean Dance all the more enjoyable. I like Asean Comm alot. Wait, i should rephrase that, i like the people in Asean Comm alot!! Although we are all different in our own ways, we are the craziest bunch of people i've ever met!

There are many things about Asean Dance itself that i would like to blog about but somehow i do not know how to put them down in words. That night was perfect. (Ok. It would be even more perfect if i wasn't sick.) There was a huge sense of accomplishment when crashers couldn't crash our event because of our 2 macho professional bouncers, and also people leaving the event all sweaty because they partied hard and totally went wild. Looking back on that night, 6 months of Sundays were actually worth it.

Asean Committee. What more can i say?! We are a bunch of crazy people. After meeting on Friday night, being together the whole of Saturday and working ourselves to the core, we still couldn't have enough of each other and stayed together throughout the wee hours of the morning. Counting money and having silent celebrations in the hotel room; having macs and lying down on the middle of the pavement outside macs to stare at the moon; playing pepsi cola at 3am outside cityhall MRT; completing crazy dares; gay dudes french kissing; dancing "thriller" in the middle of the pavement; the list goes on. Who could forget everything we did that night! Even though Asean Dance might be over, i hope that this is just the beginning of our journey! May we have many more crazy days to come! Rock on, Asean Comm!!

To Dharlynnie, Han and Joel who accompanied me to deposit the money, we totally rock man! From all the sugar rushes to attempts to extend Neverland, we were crazy enough to sit in front of the ticket booth for 2 hours, content with spamming ourselves with the "IN" chop. Lol. Though the movie "Band Slam" (we were desperate for a movie) was a total failure, it felt nice watching it together, making comments and laughing through it.

Asean Comm wouldn't be Asean Comm without all of you guys! Thanks for the wonderful memories guys! I swear i laugh my head off looking at the facebook pictures and smile like an idiot just thinking about the times we spent together!

Lol. I know my post don't do justice to the fun we really had. This one of the few times that words actually failed to describe how i felt how i really cherish those memories. Oh well, like always, such memories are best kept in my heart.

To Sue En, Yun Jing, Zoe, Amanda, Hooi Choo, Sophia and Shiau Haln: Sorry i couldn't really accompany u guys on that night! I swear i will make it up to u guys!

here comes the hols

Eating instant ramen now. With sardines. My lovely boarding school doesn't provide lunch for a sick person without an MC.

Hmm.. It doesn't look that appetising but i swear it's nice! (Of course la.. i cook 1 leh..)

Anyway, i went to see the doctor just now. Was hoping that my dad was here to drive me to the clinic instead of me having to walk and take a bus. Haha. Oh well, i did not wallow in self pity for long. Saw Charlton and Sean at the bus stop and Charlton was like: "Why you pon school?" Lol.. Kinda envy the seniors as they are already on study leave. (Oh wait, just remembered that their prelim starts today..) By the way, i went to the same clinic i went to when i sprained my ankle last year. LOL. I guess it wouldn't take a genius to figure out what happened.

"What's wrong with you?"
"Erm.. i had fever last night. And am still having a very bad cough and flu." *sniff sniff*
(listening with stethoscope) "Breath deeply. Ok. Will give u flu and cough medicine. You can go now."

LOL. I don't whether to describe him as efficient or .... The whole consultation lasted for hmm.. 3 minutes? If i did not need that mc so badly, i wouldn't even have gone to the doctor. Since i doubt that i'll be eating the medicine that he gave me.

Oh, just an interesting fact. Today is my first time not going to school on an official school day (not including competitions and other official reasons of course) since coming to Singapore.

Anyway, hall C activity was held yesterday. We organised a "microwave cooking workshop". It was useful, i dare say. We learned how to cook a few dishes using the microwave, including soup.

Ain't it mouth-watering? i like the egg with the ham. It looks so cute!!

Soup. It was pretty nice honestly.

Asean Dance 2morrow! Haha. Hope i don't scare everyone away with my coughing. LOL. Oh ya, i tried my dress from 2 years ago. Despite putting on 5kg from 2 years ago, i can still fit in nicely. Haha. i wonder where all the weight went to? Muscle mass perhaps..


Oh ya, it's the start of a one week term break today. Envy the people i saw pulling their luggage bag along the road just now. Lol. I shall make full use of my hols!!!

ticking clock

Read a few blog posts from friends back in Malaysia. It got me thinking.. And missing.. I can do this! I need to do this! It's just 3 more months max!

Laughter- the best medicine

I've not laughed so much and so hard for a very long time; For the first time in eons, i laughed whole-heartedly, and momentarily, i threw all my worries away. We laughed at every little thing. We laughed without reason. We acted like small kids. We got high on chocolates and candy floss! We tickled one another. N oh ya! We crashed the secondary Asean Dance! Thinking back i couldn't find a reason to justify our random spurts of laughter but as i am typing this, i am grinning like an idiot. LOL. JC Asean Dance is next week. We are still suffering a loss of S$7000. We have one week to go. Let's create a miracle!

Just today is enough to make JC Asean Comm a memorable experience for me.

From left to right: Arthit, Bach, Alice, Dharlynnie, Chun Kit, Brian, Joel, Aldo, Adelyn and Han.

Thanks guys! I really needed to laugh. Lol.

What i had for dinner at New York New York: (Super sinful!) Bratz wrapped with bacon and cheese. Super yummy!!

Procrastination

I love the smell and warmth of laundry fresh out from the dryers. Lol. Did many things today just for the sake of procrastinating: laundry, changed bedsheets, iron clothes, clear my desk.... I wonder why i procrastinate even though i know that i still have to do it in the end. Hmm.. Come to think of it, i am also procrastinating by typing this blog post.

Today, I finally realised how lonely school could get.

I shall psycho myself into believing that I LOVE Integration!

Ok. Shall stop procrastinating and go embrace Integration and Vectors now. Lecture test here i come!

Happy birthday dad!

Of all the men in the whole wide world,
Whose praises are sung out loud,
There is no man whom I respect more,
Or of whom I am more proud.

Throughout the years, you’ve worked so hard
To provide us a happy life;
You’ve been there to help and give advice,
And you did it all without strife.

That is why on this day each year,
I pray all your wishes come true;
Today we celebrate your life,
So Dad, Happy Birthday to you.

追。

I've always complained about feeling stressed. But, little did i know, i have not really truly experienced the feeling of being stressed.

Until now.

I wonder for how long i can sustain the lifestyle i am trying to lead now.



A level Chem Spa 2morrow. 7.5% of my A Level grade will be determined 2morrow.

I need to nail this.

Just like how i need to nail just about everything else. I no longer allow myself to have any slipups, any regrets.



Friday will be my Dad's birthday. Looking forward to seeing my parents for the weekend. It's heartwarming how my dad would always come down on purpose to celebrate his birthday with us here. It might not seem significant to others, but to me that is what family is all about. It is these small actions that i cherish so much about my family. Like usual, my parents are telling me repeatedly to take things easy and not to stress out. But i really don't want to disappoint them and also myself.

I had no intention whatsoever to blog. But somehow i ended blabbing out all these here. Does it make me feel better? I really don't know.

The awakening

It's been a long time ago since i've been this close to tears. Was bitting my lips trying desperately to blink back those tears. How did i get myself into such a situation? It's not too late, i should buck up. The old me shall be back, just you wait and see!

Even though they might not realise it, in their own way, Oasis cheered me up.

Overdue post

Long overdue pictures. Lol. The day we crashed Pris' house to surprise her for her birthday. The day we kinda got lost while trying to find her house =.=

Some nice drink which i forgot the name. I just rmb the word "rosemary" and "mint" in the name. Lol.

Dinner near Pris' house=)

At Pris' house=)