Utopia, My Happy Place

What A LIFE!!

The 3 years that I was with California Fitness was madness. I worked 6, sometimes 7 days a week. My life starts at 6 in the morning, good days at 730am and ends after 10pm.. It was Absolute Madness (they should name a vodka after that). Now that I'm free from that life-less lifestyle, I can finally sit back and savour life. I've been slacking since April and school only starts in late july/ Aug for me.. WOOHOOOO to that!!

I'm now able to rest on weekends, workout whenever I want, take ridiculously long walks with peanut, slack at my pool with my itouch & SATC in it, have overdue coffee and dinner meet ups with friends and just be able to have tonnes of me time. In the words of Samantha Jones, 'It's fabulous darling!'

I'm not able to sleep in because my body has grown acustomed to getting up early. I automatically get up at 7 of 6 plus sometimes.. I try to go back to sleep but soon I will hear peanut barking or scratching at my door..But I'm loving every minute of this.

I've even started drinking. Something I NEVER did when I was a trainer. I don't drink crap btw. I'm still working out ok!! DOn't wanna get too fat since I'm slacking so so much.. I can imagine the amount of calories I used to burn working at the gym. I was on my feet most of the time, running up and down the 3 storeys, carrying weights for my clients blah blah blah. Now I just sit around and slack slack slack!!!

SO if you have time and wanna take long walks with peanut & me (hello yimin! talking to you!) or just gossip aimlessly over coffee.. who you gonna call?? *points at myself*

Anyway to something really irrelevant...My back is itching LIKE MAD. I'm going to die from it and I bloody can't scratch. My tattoo is scabbing (is that what you call it?) and it's so freaking itchy!!!!! I wanna DIE. See? I just wanna scratch the whole bloody thing!! SHIT.







Dream a little dream...

I had the queerest dream.. *winks to xiaowei & debbie*.. of course I'm not gonna broadcast it here..

Imagine being in the world's greatest candy store but not being able to taste a single shit.. because somewhere along your life you lost your sense of taste. Shit isn't it? It's far worst than being born without a sense of taste.. Well, I woke up with that feeling the after morning of my 'candy' dream.. *wink AGAIN to xiaowei & debbie*

time to head to lala land.. perhaps there'll be a sequal of my dream..

xox

posted by Melissa @ 9:41 PM (0) comments

Almost an Adult
























I haven't blogged in YEARS.. just going through some old entries which are not available anymore.. i can't believe i actually wrote those kinda things. It's funny how your thoughts and perceptions changes with age and life experiences.

I feel old. I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm afraid of growing old. hahahaha.. So much has changed since I last blogged. I have just left M.A.C. then for California Fitness. Almost 3 years already. WOW.

I'm really thankful for everything that's happened in my life. For all my friends, my family and my baby who's stood by me for the last 6 years.

God is so real. He is my provider and He never forsake me when I needed Him most. Will be back soon. I need to warm my thoughts up.

posted by Melissa @ 7:01 PM (2) comments

OMG. it's been a million years since i blogged. how to operate this thing?... argh.

lame. ok dinner time. chao.

posted by Melissa @ 7:14 PM (0) comments

i have so much to write about but i can't find the time.. i swear any sec now i may just doze off right in front of the computer. i'm tired, sleepy and look like a complete wreck.

i work for more than 12 hours everyday.. sometimes even up to 16 hours a day.. i think my body is going to break down soon.. haha.. i can't wait to graduate as a personal trainer.. when will my course be over?? ARGH.. i wanna take the test, pass it and get promoted!! YIKES

happy belated 22nd birthday lena.. i know you can hear me..

goodnight. be back to update more when i get the time....zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

posted by Melissa @ 10:53 PM (0) comments

i have never felt more ugly and fat. the sight of my reflection just irks the living hell out of me.

it disturbs me, the way i feel about myself. all these feelings of ugliness and being fat just makes me feel useless and undesirable.

i just don't want to be seen. sometimes i wish i could choose to be invisible.

why is it so hard to be perfect? if only i were perfect..

posted by Melissa @ 12:03 AM (7) comments